Chapter 50

By the time they arrived on the Rec, Patrick was there anyway, helping some other men to hoist the Guy Fawkes onto an old wooden chair on top of the bonfire. Brushing his hands together he came towards them grinning. ‘Looks good eh? Good size bonfire this year.’ Jean noticed he barely acknowledged Mary. When he came to stand next to her she moved to the other side of the family group.

‘Smashing, Dad.’ Jacqueline leaned against him. Jean blinked hard. She knew her daughter loved it when they were all together like this. But she felt distanced from all the cheerful babble and laughter. Last year Patrick had bought a huge box of fireworks and set them off in the back garden. She’d made treacle toffee, using up a whole week’s worth of sugar ration, Linda had stayed over and the girls had a wonderful time. An unwelcome thought came into her mind. Patrick had woken her up in the middle of that night and made love to her.

She glanced up and saw him watching her with a strange expression. She felt her face grow hot and looked away, wishing she’d stayed in at Moss Terrace.

‘There isn’t one star out tonight,’ Ellen said, shivering. ‘I don’t like nights like this.’

Jean looked past the growing crowd around them at the shells of the bombed-out terraced house on Sam Booth Street, still to be demolished, and then upwards. There were no stars, but here and there were faint blurs of orange and grey smoke rising into the blackness. ‘There’re a few other fires already lit,’ she said.

Mary pulled the collar of Ellen’s coat around the back of her neck. ‘You warm enough.’

‘I’m fine.’

Ted leaned towards Ellen. ‘The fire will soon warm you up.’

There was a murmur through the crowd. A huddle of men were striking matches and holding them to twisted-up newspaper. Jacqueline grabbed Linda’s hand. ‘Let’s watch.’

They moved forward.

‘Be careful,’ Ellen said, ‘no closer.’

Without acknowledging either of them, Patrick leaned past Mary and Ellen. ‘Ted, how’s the new van running?’

‘Fine.’

Ted kept his eyes on the three men moving around the fire with the burning makeshift torches, touching the pieces of cardboard at the edges.

‘What’s she do to the gallon?’

‘She?’ Jean muttered.

‘Don’t know properly yet, haven’t really had a good run in her,’ Ted said.

Jean saw him get hold of Ellen’s hand between both of his. She felt a stab of envy.

Patrick looked past Ted at Jean. She pretended she hadn’t noticed but out of the corner of her eye she watched him sidle round the back of Mary to stand next to her. Aware that he was edging closer, Jean threw him a sideways glare. When the cuff of his overcoat brushed the back of her fingers, she stuffed both hands into her pockets and gazed intently at the bonfire.

‘Really getting going now,’ Patrick whispered.

‘What?’ She didn’t look at him.

‘The fire. It’s taken hold. Flames will be leaping sky-high in a minute.’ He pushed his thumb into her coat pocket alongside her hand and stroked her palm. He didn’t take his eyes off the Guy Fawkes, now obscured by the swirling smoke. ‘It’s going to be a good night.’

Jean didn’t move. Her reaction to the sensation of his warm skin on hers threw her. She didn’t trust herself – any more than she trusted him. She didn’t want him, she told herself, while a small voice at the back of her mind reminded her she didn’t want to lose him either.

The touch-paper smouldered, filling the milk bottle with smoke. Then, with a loud whoosh the rocket flew into the sky, splitting the darkness with a trail of golden sparks. The two Roman Candles that followed fired a series of red, green and blue flares into the air, colouring the faces of the crowd watching and there was a exhalation of delight when the Catherine Wheel began to spin, shooting out stars of white light from the post on a slab of old concrete near the entrance of the site. Above the laughter and the chatter there were cries of disappointment when the last firework died out.

‘We’ll have a break now.’ Ronald Turnbull from Atkinson Terrace had appointed himself in charge of the celebrations.

‘He’s enjoying himself.’ Ted grinned, his arm protectively around Ellen.

‘Mind,’ said Jean, ‘his wife looks none too pleased.’ She nodded towards a woman standing on her own by one of the ruined walls, all that was left of one of the bombed houses on the cleared ground.

‘Face like a lemon,’ Patrick joked. He’d taken Jean’s hand out of her pocket a while ago and was now openly holding it.

Mary raised her eyebrows at Jean.

Jean shrugged, pulled her hand away from Patrick and crossed her arms.

‘Should we ask Mrs Turnbull over?’ Mary said.

‘Oh no, please,’ Ellen said. ‘She works as the receptionist at the doctor’s, thinks she’s above everyone.’ She glanced around. ‘Where are the girls? I don’t want Linda wandering off. There’re a lot more strangers round here these days.’

‘There they are.’ Jean pointed to the two girls who were prising the used Catherine Wheel from the wooden stump. ‘They’re fine. Our Jacqueline knows how to look after herself. And she’ll keep an eye on Linda.’

But still she saw that Ellen nudged Ted, tipping her head towards her daughter. He hitched William further up onto his shoulder. ‘Linda, come away,’ he called above the babble of noise. ‘You’ll get burned.’

‘Oh for goodness sake.’ Jean pulled a face. ‘Stop mithering.’

She exchanged glances with Mary, who frowned at her and shook her head. ‘Leave Ellen alone,’ she whispered. ‘It’s taken me and Ted ages to persuade her to come out.’

Jean sucked in her breath, irritated, and turned away. To her mind Ellen was making the most of all the fuss, so much so that Mary barely had any time for her best friend these days.

Patrick’s arm found its way around her waist. This time she didn’t move away.

Linda ran towards the group, her face rosy in the light of the bonfire, the green balaclava pushed back from her forehead. ‘I’m hot,’ she said.

‘Yes, well, keep that on, and your scarf,’ Ellen said, ‘it’s bitter tonight.’

‘Linda, come on,’ Jacqueline shouted. ‘Guy Fawkes is going to fall.’

‘Watch where you stand, stay where we can see you.’ Ellen held on to Linda’s coat. ‘There’s sparks flying and there’ll be more in a minute.’

When Linda managed to pull herself free from her mother’s grasp she ran towards her cousin, shoving the balaclava off her head. They wrapped their arms around each other and, peeking surreptitiously at the adults, moved around the back of the bonfire out of sight, where they went closer to watch the stuffed figure, slumped in an old school chair, sink into the flames to loud applause.

‘His hat will be last,’ Linda confidently predicted.

‘How do you know?’ Jacqueline squinted up through the heat. The Guy’s head was an old pillow case. Someone had drawn a face on it and a big smile. Jacqueline couldn’t see herself looking that happy if she’d been shoved on a fire. The hat was black and squashy and had fallen over one of the pretend eyes.

‘Because it’s an old one of Granny Booth’s and I heard Mummy tell Auntie Mary that Granny’s hat was made of stone.’ She rested her head against Jacqueline’s and together they stared into the fire.

‘Well, she was wrong,’ Jacqueline said, as the hat was engulfed in a blaze. ‘See? Its trousers and jacket are still there and the hat’s gone.’ She gave Linda a playful push. ‘Come on, let’s buy a potato.’ Clutching their pennies, they raced to where a large, sweating, red-faced woman was standing behind a table. She wore a checked turban that was knotted at the front and had slipped low on her forehead. Nearby a man was knocking potatoes out of the red embers of the fire where it had already died down. He had a very long iron poker and held his hand in front of his face, but Jacqueline could see that he’d still managed to singe the front of his hair. They waited at the end of the queue watching the woman carefully wrap newspaper around each of the blackened potatoes piled up in an old tin bucket.

‘Yummy!’ Jacqueline said.

By the time they returned to where the adults stood, Jacqueline’s face was smeared with black soot and newspaper print. ‘Timmy Powell let a Rip-Rap off behind Mr Turnbull and he jumped a mile and then chased Timmy off the Rec.’ She laughed. ‘You should have seen it, Mum.’

‘You were wrong, Mummy,’ Linda said, ‘the hat got burned first.’

‘What do you mean, love?’ Mary looked from Linda to Ellen.

‘The Guy Fawkes,’ Linda said, impatiently hopping from one foot to the other, her wellingtons making small squeaking sounds. ‘It had one of Grandma Booth’s hats on and Mummy told you it was a stone one.’ She stood still, crossed her arms, her face stubborn. ‘I heard her: “a hat of stone”.’

Mary’s face cleared. She smiled. ‘I think she means a heart of stone,’ she said in a low voice to Ellen and Jean.

Patrick let out a laugh and hugged Jean who exchanged smiles with him; it felt good to share the amusement.

Ellen put her fingers to her mouth. She looked apologetically at Ted. ‘I’m sorry, love.’

‘Oh, give over.’ He grinned. ‘I think you’re spot on. Never one for sentiment, my mother. As we both know,’ he added in answer to her expression of faked astonishment.

Jacqueline spit on her hands and rubbed them together.

‘Jacqueline,’ Jean protested.

‘Cleaning them.’

‘Looks as if you’re having a good time.’ Patrick studied her with a grin.

‘Smashing! I’ve just had a tater.’

‘I can see that. Didn’t you want one, Linda?’

‘It was messy. I didn’t want it on my hands.’ She looked towards Ellen for approval.

Ellen smiled. ‘Good girl.’

‘Anyway, Jacqueline said it was raw in the middle.’

‘Didn’t matter,’ Jacqueline said, wiping her mouth across her coat sleeve, ‘it was good.’

‘Here, I have something for you.’ Patrick took a white packet from his overcoat pocket. He tore the top open and took out a thin metal rod. ‘Sparklers. That okay with you, love?’ he asked Jean.

‘As long as they’re careful,’ Jean said, surprised but pleased he’d asked in front of everyone.

The two girls laughed, excited. ‘Let’s light them now.’

‘Put your gloves on,’ Ellen said. ‘Hold it well away from you.’

Patrick moved behind both girls and held their arms straight. ‘Right.’ He nodded at Ted.

Ted struck a match and held it to the grey end of Jacqueline’s sparkler.

‘It’s not working.’

‘Give it a chance,’ Jean said, ‘your dad wouldn’t buy duff ones.’

Patrick frowned, glanced up at her as if unsure whether she was being sarcastic, but she smiled at him and he visibly relaxed and grinned back.

Suddenly there was a shower of tiny sparks lighting up the darkness around them.

‘Light yours from mine,’ Jacqueline urged Linda, ‘light yours from mine.’

Patrick helped Linda to hold the sticks together.

‘Now we’ll write our names,’ Jacqueline laughed.

Holding hands they waved the burning metal rods, spelling out their names in golden lines against the blackness.

As the last flashes fizzled out, Ellen shivered. ‘I think I’d like to go home now.’

‘Me too,’ Jean said. The front of her body was hot but, despite the thick woollen trousers, the back of her legs were frozen. Besides she was conscious that Mary and Ellen had been watching her and Patrick all night and she was sick of it. They’d had their say about him, it was up to her what she did now. For Jacqueline’s sake, she told herself, feeling a thrill of anticipation when his hand brushed hers again.

‘Okay,’ Ted said. ‘Are you ready?’ he said to Linda.

‘Aw, no,’ Linda protested, ‘there’ll be more fireworks in a minute.’ Her bottom lip jutted out and she swung around so her back was to them.

‘Don’t be awkward, love.’ Ted put his hand on her shoulder. ‘Your Mum’s cold and we can’t leave you here.’

‘I’m going anyway,’ Jean said. ‘Jacqueline?’

‘I’ll come with you? See you back safely?’ Patrick said. ‘Here give me those.’

Jacqueline went with him to drop the burned-out sparklers in the bin nearby. When they came back he said, ‘Jacqueline wants to stay on for a bit as well.’

‘Please Mum?’ Jacqueline put her arm across Linda’s shoulder. ‘And Dad says I can sleep at Linda’s tonight?’

‘You asked,’ Patrick said hastily when his daughter looked from him to Jean. ‘You know I said only if your mum says yes.’

‘Well…’ Jean dithered, the warmth of Patrick’s fingers stroking the back of her neck completely unsettling her.

She shot a swift look at Mary to see if she’d noticed, but it was obvious she hadn’t when Mary said, ‘I’ll stay with them. They’ll be fine.’

‘Can Jacqueline sleep at our house, Mummy?’ Linda looked anxiously at Ellen. ‘It’s been ages.’

‘If that’s all right with Auntie Mary? She’s in the room next to yours. I don’t want you keeping her awake all night with your giggling.’

Mary smiled at the girls. ‘Or your snoring.’

They laughed.

‘If you’re sure?’ Jean said.

‘I am. You get back.’ Mary glared at Patrick. ‘To your mother’s.’

The fireworks in the distance were like coloured stars, flickering, sharp bursts of colour that rose and died in the sky. Far away dogs howled against the bangs and crashes. The faint light glowed intermittently on Peter’s face. He’d counted four bonfires along the coastline. It seemed as though almost every village had their own.

He pulled his jacket tighter around him and folded his arms, tucking his hands under his armpits.

He’d never felt so alone.