I Wake Again

This time to a window bright

with sunlight and some foreign

movement disturbing my sheets.

Monica. Yes. Everything comes

tumbling back in one moment

of clear consciousness. “Morning.”

Still prone on the floor, Syrah

peeks up through heavy lashes.

Oh, man. My mouth tastes like

rotten potatoes. And I need coffee.

Monica sits up beside me. Coffee?

Si, lo quiero también. And I’m starving.

Wish we had leftover tamales instead

of pigging out on them last night.

“You guys actually drink coffee?

Like, to wake up in the morning?

The only way I can choke it down is

cut with cream and enough sugar

to trigger a diabetic coma.”

I vow to attempt the Mr. Coffee anyway,

and we pad to the kitchen in our pj’s.

My pj’s, actually, as neither Monica nor

Syrah brought theirs to the impromptu

slumber party. Both fight the extra

leg length, especially Syrah, who says,

Jeez, Ariel. How tall are you, anyway?

“Five ten plus. Hopefully I’m done

growing now. As my dad always says,

it’s hard for tall girls to find dates.”

Maybe dates with boys, corrects

Monica. Personally, I kind of like

my women built like Amazons.

Shut up! exclaims Syrah. Listen,

I am a total ally. But here’s the deal.

I really don’t want to hear details.

That’s ’cause you’re dumb, says

Monica. The details are the best

part. She’s claimed the Mr. Coffee,

located the Folgers, and poured water

into the reservoir. You got filters?

It takes a couple of cupboard

explorations to find them, and

while I’m looking it occurs to me

that I wouldn’t trade my Freak

Club friends for membership

in the Popular Pack, even without

a required BJ initiation. Monica’s

queer, Syrah swears she’s not, but

she doesn’t judge or question or get

all fake about liking Monica anyway.

And neither has insisted I declare

myself gay, straight, or just confused.