DESPITE IT BEING A Saturday and her day off, Betty Haluka was nursing a cup of tea in the kitchen when Moodrow arrived home in the early morning. Her night had been full of unsettling dreams, dreams of terrifying danger, of hate and revenge. Dreams alternating with periods of wakefulness in which she tried to put all the events of the last few months together: Stanley Moodrow’s appearance in her life; the dark fire that had sought out Sylvia Kaufman; the overwhelming crash of exploding weapons; the cries of fear and pain stabbing at the empty silence—waking or sleeping, events chased through her mind like tumbleweed blowing through a Western movie. The inability to escape terrified her.
She’d spent most of her life working in what she liked to call “the justice industry,” but her work had been with the criminals and not the victims and now she was a victim herself. By her own characterization, her career had involved nothing more than doing the dirty work necessary to keep the country going, to keep the Constitution strong. There are very few places in the world where “rights” have any meaning larger than the power flowing naturally from the barrel of a gun; or where individuals have more “rights” than a single ant in an ant heap. Yet, in Betty’s mind, individual rights were the abstractions that defined Western civilization, and the reality of a lawyer for every criminal (even a lawyer overburdened with work) was just as important to the existence of her country as the cops and District Attorneys who protected the victims.
But now she was an undeniable victim. Her sympathy for defendants had disappeared like footprints in a blizzard, and she was left with an enormous void. No matter how hard she tried, the void kept filling with anger; it seemed that anger was the only emotion that could fill that particular emptiness. The anger made her afraid, as did the loss of the assumptions which made up the foundation of her intellectual life.
If he’d been home, Moodrow could have told her how natural, how common, these emotions were. The drama of revenge, no matter how unlikely, always played itself out after a violent crime. In the days and weeks following an attack, the victim reworked the scene until the terror that accompanied helplessness and violence was finally smoothed by time. Of course, Betty would eventually return to something approximating her usual equilibrium; she was a strong woman with a well-established system of values. But for the present, she was compelled to imagine the most basic of human motivations: revenge.
When Moodrow finally did arrive, at six thirty, Betty was seated at the kitchen table imagining a confrontation with Al Rosenkrantz, in which Rosenkrantz, already half-dead (having had his arms and legs shot off with a pistol the size of a cannon) was begging for mercy. As Moodrow came through the door, she reluctantly abandoned her daydream and looked up expectantly.
“Any luck?” she asked.
“Nothin’.” Moodrow poured himself a cup of coffee and sat down at the table. “But me and Jim’ll get him. And we’ll get the prick who sent him.”
“How long is that supposed to take?” Betty asked, her voice tentative.
“I can’t say,” Moodrow admitted. “Could easy be the cops’ll get to him before we do.”
Betty shifted in her seat; she was wearing a blue terry robe over a short cotton nightgown and her eyes were red with insomnia. “What are you going to do when you catch him?”
“Babbit? I’m gonna ask him a few questions and then I’m gonna hand him over to the cops. It turns out the print they took off the vial had enough points to go into evidence. Juries love fingerprints.”
“What if he pleads?” she persisted.
“You’re a plea bargainer—what do you think? How’s the DA gonna handle a killer arsonist?”
“Probably take second degree murder. Drop the arson counts.”
“And what’s the penalty for second degree murder?”
“Twenty-five to life.”
“That means he’s gotta do twenty years minimum and he’ll probably do thirty. Babbit is thirty-two years old, so by the time he comes out, he’ll be sixty-two. With that kind of time hanging over his head, I don’t feel a strong need to get personally involved in his punishment. Not that I wouldn’t prefer seein’ the skell fry in the electric chair until his skin crackled, but whatta ya gonna do, right?”
Betty stared up at him. “I want to do it myself,” she announced. “I keep dreaming about finding him and the man who sent him and every time I have the dream, it’s me who administers the punishment.”
“Judge, jury, and executioner?” Moodrow smiled. “I was there myself, once. When it was a question of personal revenge. That’s what came back to me a few days ago. Kill the fuckers. Kill ’em! All I could think of was how bad I fucked it up. How I put my head in the sand and saw what I wanted to see when the worst rookie asshole would of known what was going on. I was saying to myself, “What if I would of done this? What if I would of done that? Then they might all be alive. Inez and Sylvia and the kid they had in the van.” He stopped for a second and sipped at his coffee. “But I must be gettin’ old or somethin’, because I’m lost in it now—lost in the hunt—or maybe talking to you made it better. Now my revenge is catching the mutts. Catching them and turning them over to the lawyers and the courtrooms. That’s all the revenge I’m allowed and that’s what I’m gonna settle for.” He giggled softly. “Unless, of course, there’s some kinda reason why the perp can’t be prosecuted. Like, for instance, if there’s no direct evidence of an undeniably guilty fucking perp’s undeniable fucking guilt. That would present another problem altogether.”
As they went off to bed together, to make love and, then, to sleep, Betty had a sudden flash of illumination. “The worst part,” she thought, “is that the anger will go away. The anger will retreat and harden into something permanent and ugly. Something far removed from the original terror.”
It was early afternoon before Moodrow stirred in response to someone pounding at his door. For a moment, he was tempted to push his head into the pillow and wait for the noise to go away. But as he was expecting “the big break” to make its appearance at any time, he felt morally obliged not to hide until it went away. “The big break” cracking its fist into his front door turned out to be a thoroughly annoyed Pat Sheehan. Dressed in black jeans, a gray T-shirt, and an olive fatigue jacket, he looked every inch the street junkie.
“What the fuck is the matter with you?” Sheehan stared at the enormous man standing in his underwear.
“I was sleeping,” Moodrow explained.
“It’s one o’clock in the afternoon.”
Moodrow yawned himself awake, then took a closer look at Pat Sheehan. He was looking for any sign that Sheehan, who’d been on the streets for several days, was back to using drugs. Sheehan, without being asked, shrugged off his jacket, revealing bare arms free of fresh needle marks.
“I take it you didn’t come here to pass the time of day,” Moodrow said casually.
“I found Babbit,” Sheehan announced. His eyes were swollen and tired.
“Where?”
“He lives up in the northern end of Manhattan. Inwood.”
“Let’s go make some coffee. I gotta get myself awake.”
Moodrow, trailing Pat Sheehan in his wake, trudged through the living room to find Betty already waiting in the kitchen.
“What happened?” she asked, nodding to Pat Sheehan.
“I found Babbit,” Sheehan announced.
“How’d you do it?”
“Easy. I always kept in touch with a few of the cons I did my bit with, so I just went and paid a visit. After a few drinks, me and the boys started talkin’ about the good old days. Nat’rally, that turns to somethin’ like, ‘Hey, you remember that crazy fuckin’ torch who burned up Rufus Johnson?’ Then some dude goes, ‘Yeah. Yeah. I see him around once in a while. He’s a pro, now. Hangs out at a topless joint called the Sizzle Club. On Broadway around 104th Street.’ So I run up there and wait a couple of nights till he shows, then follow him back to his apartment. I tell ya the truth, the whole thing didn’t amount to no big deal. It just took a long time.”
“Did he recognize you?” Moodrow asked.
“He saw me, but I don’t think he knows who I am. He got out less than a year after I arrived and I wasn’t one of the famous cons. In fact, I made it my goal to keep away from maniacs like Babbit as much as possible, so it ain’t too surprisin’ that he don’t know me.”
Betty poured out three cups of coffee and they waited in silence until Moodrow, fully dressed, came back inside, drained his cup, then turned to Pat Sheehan.
“I think I need a favor, Pat,” he said.
“Ain’t we even yet?”
“We’re even,” Moodrow admitted, “but I still got a problem. My ex-partner, Jim Tilley, can’t make it. He’s up in Albany trying to execute a fugitive warrant.”
“I thought he was on vacation for the next few days,” Betty said.
“In the department, you’re only on vacation until they say you’re not. The captain didn’t have anyone else, so he called up Jim and that was that. Rose says he won’t be back until tomorrow. And that’s if the skell’s lawyer doesn’t contest the warrant.”
“So whatta ya want from me?” Sheehan asked.
“I want ya to pretend to be a cop while I interrogate Babbit. He’ll sit for it better if he thinks you’re a cop.”
“Why don’t you be the cop?”
“Well, see, after he rats out the guy who ordered the fire, I wanna hand him over to the real cops, but I don’t want him sayin’ I impersonated an officer.”
Sheehan sat straight up in his chair. “What about me? I’d do ten years if they caught me with a badge.”
“You’re gonna be long gone before the cops get there. Let’s face it, Pat, I could most likely do it by myself, but havin’ you there helps in a lot of ways. Babbit’s no punk. He’s done hard time and I don’t know what kinda problems I’m gonna run into. With another pair of hands, at least I win the psychological battle.”
Moodrow, taking Sheehan’s silence for agreement, turned to Betty. “I guess I gotta offer you the chance to come along,” he said, “but I’m warning you that I may have to do things you don’t wanna see. And I’m also telling you it’ll get better if you wait it out. Then you can go back to Legal Aid and your regular life. On the other hand, if you go with us, you’re gonna have to pretend not to see things you’ve spent your whole life fighting.”
Betty touched Moodrow’s lips with her finger. For a moment, they were the only two people in the room. “I can’t go,” she said. “I love you too much to take a chance. It’s better if I keep on seeing the best side of you. But I still want you to get them. Get Babbit and get the one who sent the brothers. I don’t think I’ll ever feel right until they’re…” She fumbled for a word to describe how she felt, then realized that all serious possibilities were extremely violent. “Until they’re gone,” she finally said.