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When Kelly didn't show at 10:00 am I began to worry. The roads had been slick when I arrived at 9:00 am, and I knew that Kelly had less of a drive. But when I received her call at 10:30 am explaining that Geoff had usurped her time off for a nap, I became furious.
I knew that Kelly tried to keep their relationship ripple free for the girls, but after eight years of treating her like crap, he still felt it was his right to dictate her life with his passive aggressive ways.
Not wanting to upset Kelly or stress her out, I replied with a, "Ok. Keep me updated. Love you. Bye."
When I wanted to say, "Tell that narcissistic jerk-off to act like an adult and wake his ass up!"
To blow off steam, I changed into some sweats that I had in the back of my van and decided to hit the hotel's gym so that I could run off my anger towards Geoff. After an hour run, I had finally cooled off enough to go back up to the hotel room and wait for Kelly's return.
A quick shower and shave later, I was happy to see a text from Kelly.
Kelly -
On way. Love you!
But in the 30 minutes following her text, I had enough time to stew, which only brought back my original ire towards Geoff Jenkins. Pacing the room so that I could be calm and collected for Kelly's arrival I didn't even realize when she had entered the room.
Startled by the sound of her car keys being dropped onto the dresser, my jolt of excitement was cut short by the site of my Kelly with a face that said she was bracing for something.
"What's wrong?" I asked worried that something had happened on her drive over.
While twisting her hands as she stared down at the carpet Kelly blurted out, "I'm so sorry Dale! I promise there was nothing I could have done. He said that I would be an irresponsible mother if I left the girls before he was rested and I'll do whatever I can to make this up to you. I love you, Dale. Please don't be mad at me."
Taking a much-needed breath and staring at me hopefully, Kelly looked utterly ripped apart.
"Kelly, honey! Why are you apologizing to me?" I asked in my calmest voice.
"Because you're mad at me," Kelly said incredulously. "You seemed so angry when I came in the room."
Focusing on delivering my words without alarming her, I said, "There is nothing that you have done wrong. I am angry at how Geoff treated you. Kelly, you are my fiancé whom I love, and I'm trying desperately not to go into hero mode and attempt a takeover of the situation."
"So, I'm not in trouble?" she asked, looking everywhere in the room but me.
WHAT THE FUCK?
"Help me understand something. Why are you acting like I'm about to hit you?" Because that was exactly how she was acting. "Have I ever made you feel like you should fear me?"
"No, of course not! I know you love me," she said, with a little of her confidence coming back.
"Then why are you so scared right now?"
Watching her, I could tell she was trying to rationalize her reaction, but I still couldn't help feeling like there was something else that had caused this extreme of a response.
Geoff!
"Kelly, has Geoff ever hit you?" Because, if he had ever laid a hand on her, I would not be able to stop myself from punching him in the kidney.
"No! I swear he has never hit me." While Kelly flopped herself onto the bed with a sigh, we continue in silence while she stared at the ceiling.
If she didn't say something soon, I was going to lose my mind.
As if on cue she finally opened up and said, "Whenever things didn't go as expected in my marriage to Geoff, he would turn into a different person. Instead of discussing the situation, he would find a way to punish me. He'd never hit me, but.."
"But?" I asked, encouraging her to continue.
"..but, sometimes I wish he would have. It would have given me a reason to leave him sooner, instead of enduring his punishments and thinking that I deserved them."
Trying to wrap my head around what she was saying, I calmly asked, "Maybe if you can help me understand by explaining what these ‘punishments' were."
Geoff was such a fucking tool!
"The most common one was the silent treatment. For example, one day I fell asleep while nursing Mandy in bed and ended up sleeping an hour and a half. In his mind, he was the one that deserved the nap because he had worked overtime and to punish me, he pretended like I didn't exist. I kept calling his name, asking him questions and he just kept staring ahead or walking by me like I was Bruce Willis in the Sixth Sense. When I would confront him and make him talk, he would tell me that he had better things to do than to ‘hang out' with me and that I needed to ‘fucking shut up because he didn't want to hear me nagging him,'" she shared, with embarrassment.
Unable to contain my anger any longer, I picked up the hotel's complimentary pen off the desk and flung it across the room.
"Kelly, we need to establish some facts. First of all, what Geoff did to you was emotional abuse, and it is NOT how normal relationships are. Secondly, I am not Geoff, so I need you to trust me that I'm not going to abuse you emotionally. If I'm angry, don't assume it's at you and for God's sake, Kelly, please don't ever look at me like I'm going to punish you. I don't think my heart could take it."
After what seemed like an eternity of silence, Kelly finally lifted herself off the bed and walked towards me. When she reached me, her voice was small but sufficient. "You're right, and it won't happen again."
Unable to go a second longer without touching her, I wrapped her in a bone-crushing embrace and gave her time to weep. At some point, I was able to maneuver her to the bed where she fell asleep in my arms.
Around 3:00 pm, she finally began to stir, still in my arms.
Realizing that she'd been asleep for over two hours, Kelly jumped out of bed as if a spider has just crawled up her leg. "Oh, Dale! I'm so sorry. I can't believe I fell asleep in the middle of the day like that. Why didn't you wake me?"
"Well, once I figured out you were asleep, I didn't have the heart to wake you. Besides, I was able to catch up on some reading while holding the woman that I love. No biggie."
"Ugh! Why don't you hate me, Dale?"
"Because it's tough to find something to hate about you, Kelly. Since you're awake now, I wouldn't mind spending the next four hours getting reacquainted. After all, it has been an entire week since we've been carnal," I said while waggling my eyebrows dramatically.
Since the Halloween festival, Kelly and I had continued our Saturday night sleepovers. These weekly stays had gotten exponentially better since Mandy finally allowed Kelly to put her in the spare room for the night.
Giggling at my silliness, Kelly strutted back over to the bed and straddled me in an exaggerated attempt to mimic a lap dancer, which only caused us to both to collapse onto the bed in a fit of laughter.
"I'm so glad we can be silly together."
" Weren't you ever silly with Maggie?" she surprised me by asking. Usually, she wouldn't bring up Maggie unless we were discussing the kids.
Was I ever silly with Maggie? "You know, looking back, I don't think so. She was always very serious and tended to be pretentious. If I thought something was funny, she would find a way to put it down so that I felt weird finding humor in it. When I initially met Maggie at speed dating, it was because I was a bit socially awkward and hadn't been on a second date in two years. I think I was so grateful that she paid me attention that I let her "fix" me. But, after 15 years I see that by letting her mold me into the husband she wanted it didn't fix anything, it just made me feel numb."
"How were you ever socially awkward? When I see you, you exude self-confidence," she admitted while caressing the hair at the base of my neck.
"For some reason, I've never felt awkward or paltry at work. Now with women and new acquaintances, I have always been awkward. It's why my best friend Kevin had to set me up with a one-night stand to rebuild some of my confidence."
"Well, I hope you don't feel awkward around me. To me you are the sexist and sweetest man I have ever known," she said while peppering me with kisses.
"Kelly, when you finally find the person that was perfectly designed just for you, there is no room for doubt," I said, before plunging my tongue into her mouth. "You are the most beautiful woman in the world to me, and I can't wait to wake up with you every morning."
With that said, we began undressing each other slowly and methodically; worshiping each other's bodies with our touches. Once we were lying side-by-side and completely naked, I slowly started to stroke Kelly's stomach lower and lower until my hand reached the apex of her thighs. Gently nudging her thighs apart, I placed two of my fingers inside of her and began stroking her clit with my thumb.
As I felt her first orgasm building, I removed my hand and pressed my hardened edifice into her softness urging her to wrap her left leg around my hip so that I could ease into her. Besides feeling her body beneath mine, making love to Kelly while lying on our sides was my favorite position. We usually had to shift towards the end, but for the period leading up to our orgasm, we would always lock eyes and move together intensely enjoying our bodies' reaction to each other.
Seated deep inside Kelly's channel, I began to thrust slowly and methodically into her, pausing at each rooting so that for that small piece of time our bodies were completely connected. Mimicking my chosen rhythm, Kelly began to press her pelvis into mine with every joining until I could feel her orgasm building. It was almost my undoing, but I wanted this to last and continued to press myself into her as deeply as possible until I felt her fall entirely apart around me.
Sated and relaxed from her orgasm, Kelly began caressing my backside, kneading my cheeks with every continued thrust. After a few moments, I finally allowed myself to lose control. I rolled her onto her back, and the need to completely consume my woman's senses created an animalistic cadence until Kelly's body once again began meeting me thrust for thrust.
Then, right on cue, Kelly shattered, screaming as her second orgasm clutched my penis deep inside of her until my own orgasm blinded me and left me entirely spent.