At exactly the same time, Hamlet was perched on the highest point of the castle, a tower built to look out over the plains. If the armies of Norway came marching, Hamlet’s father had wanted to be sure of a good view.
Behind him was the graveyard, the frozen river, the wastelands, and beyond them the meager village of Clennstein. But Hamlet stared at the plains. A low, heavy layer of dark clouds sat in the east, glooming the sky. He looked to the south. Down the valleys ran the conifers, straight lines pointing out of the creases and folds, pointing toward the distant bushy forest.
But if the massed armies of northern Europe had at that moment been galloping in close order straight toward the castle, the young prince would not have seen them. His mind was a chaos of emotions. The infidelities of his mother, the treachery of his uncle, the distracting beauty of Ophelia, and, over it all, the shadow of his father.
Even that shadow was split, fragmented like a humorless harlequin suit, into the towering figure of the powerful king, the severe patriarch, the occasionally kind father, and now the forbidding and ghastly ghost.
Hamlet felt there was no room for himself. He had been crowded out of his own mind. He struggled to find something solid, something beautiful. He wanted to be a continent, not an archipelago. There were the two men, father and uncle, father and stepfather, king and king, man and man.
Hamlet looked down. The tower was so high that as he looked at the ground it seemed to start moving, moving faster, accelerating. The young prince felt giddy. His stomach began to turn over. He looked away at the gullies again. He felt so small on the top of the tower, like a flea on a horse, a slight live thing on this tower of rock. He knew the wind could blow him away on a whim.
The charge his father had laid on him: the king had come back from death to rule his son, so that once again nothing existed in Hamlet’s life but the decrees of the father, one man using the boy to attack and destroy another man. It was a mammoth fighting a mammoth, using the boy as the weapon.
Hamlet trembled. For a moment he tasted the knowledge that he would not survive this. He felt his mind becoming paper, then torn-up paper, then burned paper, then ashes, and he sensed too the coming annihilation of his body.
He slipped down from the tower, through the great courtyard, out of the castle, into the fields, running in circles. Against the rich green grass and the close horizon, the lowering clouds, pregnant with storm and snow, against the white windmill and the stone tower, Hamlet was all that moved. His white hair and white shirt held the eye; a line could be drawn between him and the windmill and the dark tower, the last two heavy and immovable, the other too light, too bright: nothing to hold it to the earth. He slipped in the mud and rolled down the hill but was up again as he spun, flitting, flying. He was alive and hopeless.
In her room Ophelia sat on her bed, waiting for something to happen. The door was open. Her father had demanded that it stay open. Polonius made many demands. There were rules for everything. Be careful of boys. Don’t lend money. Don’t borrow money. Keep away from Hamlet. Dress modestly. Don’t speak out, stay in the background, don’t gossip. Don’t believe Hamlet when he flirts with you.
Polonius was so much older than the fathers of her friends. He wanted to control everything she did. She felt as closely watched as a valuable broodmare coming into season.
She wandered down the corridor. This was the oldest wing of the castle, and the tiles on the floor were chipped and worn. Once they had been bright and lively, but now they were dull, grimy even. Nothing seemed to be cleaned properly anymore. The servants were getting so slovenly.
Ophelia heard the soft voice of Reynaldo, an effete young man who had tutored Laertes at his university in Heidelberg. But it seemed Polonius was doing most of the talking. They were in her father’s drawing room. No doubt Polonius had Reynaldo balled up in the corner of the stiff leather couch, the way he liked to do when he wanted to control someone. Ophelia had huddled into that corner many times as Polonius sat inches from her, croaking urgent admonitions into her sullen ears.
She stopped for a moment, then drifted closer. The voices played together, one winding in and out of the other. Polonius’s harsh monologues contrasted with Reynaldo’s gentle tones. They were whispering like conspirators. She heard her father say, “The way to do it is to get to know his friends a little.”
“His friends?” Reynaldo asked.
“Yes, yes, of course, it’s the best way. You get to know them, then you bring his name into the conversation one day.”
“Mention his name, yes?”
“Very casually, mind you. ‘Oh, you probably know Laertes,’ that kind of thing.”
“Yes. Just mention that I tutored him last year. And I’m interested in how he’s doing.”
“Exactly. You could say that you’re a friend of the family, then you lead them on.”
“Lead them on?”
“You say something like, ‘He’s a bit wild, isn’t he? Smoking, drinking, that kind of thing?’”
“I see. Just a little prompt. That’s clever.”
“And then if they say, ‘Oh, yes, you should have seen Laertes the other day. Lucky his father doesn’t find out what he gets up to, and so on and so on,’ why then, you write to me. At once. Most urgently.”
In the cold corridor Ophelia trembled and drew her wrap closer around her. Her hair, a kind of transparent white, like icicles, flowed around her face, making her look even colder.
“And is it just smoking and drinking? Are they the things you’re worried about? Because you know how boys are at university. . . . Of course they get up to a bit of mischief. There’s no great harm in some of the things they . . . especially when they first arrive. They can be a bit naughty, away from home for the first time, but it doesn’t always . . .”
“Oh no. Not just smoking and drinking. No, indeed. Cheating in his exams. Drugs. Promiscuity.”
“Promiscuity?”
“Yes! Is he picking up girls, playing with them, you know the sort of thing. They’re all sex-mad at that age. I know what they’re like. Those boys, with their hormones going crazy, wanting to press their bodies into the girls, it’s all they think of. Touching them. Feeling them. And worse. They can’t control themselves. They get the girl naked, and before you know it . . . they can’t help themselves. They’re diseased with lust. Whores. Is he whoring around? I’ll stake money that he is. They’ll know him at the whorehouses; depend on it.”
“Sir, really, I’m not sure. . . . I think you’re being harsh on your son. I think his basic character is good.”
“Good character, rubbish. If you knew his mother . . . The two of them are stamped with her mark. Oh yes, I know what to look for. I’m always having to talk to Ophelia about her behavior. She’s ripening, you know. You can tell . . . the way she cavorts with the prince. He may be a prince, but that doesn’t make him immune from the sex drive. In fact I think he’s oversexed. Oh yes. I know the type . . .”
Ophelia fled. Her hair streamed behind her. She ran to the end of the corridor, then back again, then the same, then again, backward and forward, a desperate, trapped thing, panting and wild-eyed. She ran into her cell and went straight to the window, gripping the frame and staring down into the courtyard. Oh, she could fly, she could soar from the sill and be a white bird, and everyone down there would look up and wonder, drop their swords and their pots and their mops and call out to one another and to her, “Ophelia, is it you? Ophelia? Oh, see, see the beautiful Ophelia! She flies!”
She heard a voice behind her, a hoarse, light whisper. She thought she heard the word “flying.” She turned fast, ready to kick and bite if she had to.
It was Hamlet. He looked as wild and confused as she felt. He stared at her with huge eyes, as if he had expected to find someone else in the room. His mouth was open, he was gasping for breath, and his chest shook. Was he having an asthma attack? But asthma did not explain the state of his clothes. His jacket was open and his shirt half torn off. She saw his smooth brown skin and a dark nipple. His jeans were smeared with grass stains and his boots bruised with mud, black mud, almost purple in places.
“M-my lord . . .” she stammered. He snarled at her, showing his teeth. “What is it?” she said, afraid of her father. “You shouldn’t be here.”
Hamlet stood there, panting. He seemed to be calming down. He took a step closer. She did not back away. He studied her face with the greatest intentness. It was as though he wanted to memorize her appearance. He continued down her body, to her breasts. Now it was Ophelia’s turn to breathe hard. She felt a pressure there, then a warmth. She felt the pressure most strongly in her nipples, as if his hands were resting on them. She blushed and was almost relieved when his gaze moved farther down.
“My lord . . .” she murmured. She knew she should move, but she couldn’t. She wished he would say something but was scared at what he might say.