COUNTING TIME

WAXING CRESCENT MOON, 7 DAYS LEFT

Friends chant in the hallway:

count down the days,

the hours,

till prom,

graduation.

My clock counts time by T cells,

which seem to be holding for now:

dancing needles,

crystals around his neck,

the smell of sage hanging

in the apartment air.

I count time by platelets

and Dad is at 5,000—

only one-thirtieth the amount

of a healthy person.

Do I dare

at 5,000 platelets

with no date

pick out a dress?

Do I dare

look to the future?

rush across the sun?

gallop past the moon?