INSIDE OUR SELVES

I.

The Gay Men’s Health Crisis sign

waves proudly in the breeze.

The mailing’s in full swing.

Keith Haring posters everywhere,

men and women

talking over each other,

snacks and drinks.

Reminds me of a Yearbook meeting

except April, Dylan and I

are the only teenagers.

I wonder if any of these people

have children of their own.

I’m in charge of sticking address labels

on postcards.

I lay them out alphabetically,

pull them off delicately,

careful not to rip.

April licks the stamps.

Dylan stacks the postcards in messy piles,

shoos me away

when I start straightening them,

laughs, says don’t even think

of micromanaging me.

April smiles.

II.

James knows everyone here.

Like he’s in charge,

keeping things organized,

pouring Coke,

sneaking April extra Doritos.

Dylan talks about his cousin,

now suffering with pneumonia.

James shows us proofs

for new safe sex ads

for the buses and subways, asks

for our “youthful opinion.”

As if James is so old?

April tells me James is here

almost all the time

when he’s not teaching,

playing music,

caring for Dad.

I think about how our lives don’t just overlap

with other people’s, but how

inside each person

we are

so many selves

all at once.