FROM DULL TO LIGHT

We all go to him.

His eyes move from dull

to light

when I tell him

we made something

all of us—together—

for him.

I press play.

What do you love about Dad? I ask.

Mom answers:

His generosity. His belief in second chances.

And April:

The way he used to tuck me in.

Made me feel safe.

Me:

How he hums while he cooks.

And James:

His laugh. So deep and contagious.

Mom:

His creative spirit.

April:

How he’ll talk to anyone on the street.

Me:

How he always knows his opinion.

James:

He lectures and people listen.

Mom:

His creations.

April:

How excited he gets about what he loves.

Me:

How he’s always been there for me.

What will you miss most about Dad?

April:

I will miss his hugs.

Mom:

I will miss his smile.

James:

I will miss his eyes.

Me:

I will miss his voice.

I shut off the tape.

All of us crying,

Dad telling us

not to worry,

all four of us

at once.