THROUGH GASPS

Linger in the doorway,

listen:

Mom’s goodbye.

She holds their flower costume

like a child and her blankie.

Talks about their Bermuda vacation,

white sands, turquoise water,

how they held each other on that beach

for hours. How tall he was, strong.

She says:

I will do my best to take care of these girls—

our girls—

the way you did, Dale.

Then, she says—

through gasps—

she will think of him

and try harder.

Dad’s raspy breath

uneven now.

I walk back through the hall,

sign my name with my finger

on the cold, white wall.