Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it. ~ Proverbs 4:23
Prologue
Six Years Ago
Siobhan Douglas wandered toward the wings of the auditorium at Westerville High, her focus intent. Oh, she maintained a casual air; she paused here and there to say hello to bunches of people she knew, but she was on a mission. Of late, a certain…person…left her thoroughly intrigued, and she wanted to see him.
Him was Brian Morris.
The image her mind conjured stirred a smile. Brian was a shy guy. A good guy. A guy of so-called average features who was therefore overlooked by most teens in their frenetic, claim-all-the-attention-you-can world of high school cliques and socialization. He was decent looking, but an introvert. He was a math and science nerd, not a jock. He was quiet and steady, not a boisterous or showy addition to the A crowd. Brian’s innate sense of calm didn’t deter Siobhan Douglas whatsoever. Rather, the facets of his personality both attracted and intrigued her.
Siobhan first came aware of Brian when plans came together for the Westerville High mid-winter musical, Brigadoon. Maeve Callahan, one of Siobhan’s best friends in the world, had scored the lead role of Fiona Campbell and Siobhan was a member of the dance ensemble. Brian, meanwhile, headed up the prop crew. She pictured him with a hammer and nails, speckled by paint and dusted by bits of wood debris.
Sure enough, there he was, nearly hidden by a tall wooden prop already half-painted and on its way to resembling the depths of an enchanted Scottish forest.
Following a flip of her hair—she wished she’d had time to run a brush through it after sixth period—she strode toward the left wing, shedding a lightweight rain jacket and swinging a book bag full of study aids and assignments for upcoming mid-terms. Yuck.
“Hey, Siobhan. How are you?”
Lost in the idea of facing down an intensive math exam Siobhan lost focus for a second, so the fact that Brian greeted her first gave her pulse a happy jump start.
“Hi, Brian.”
Don’t be shy. Talk to him like you do everyone else. He’s just a nice guy. A really nice guy…
She dropped her bag and knelt next to him, propping her hands on her knees. “I love the set design. It’s really coming together.”
“Thanks. We just finished painting the drop for the village.” He gestured toward the freshly decorated canvas stretched out nearby that would be lowered and lifted from the rafters as needed.
“I think that’s going to be the background for a couple of the dance scenes. I can’t wait for full-out dress rehearsals!”
“I watched you practice the other day. You’re great…you know, I mean, the ensemble is great.”
Another zap of energy swept across Siobhan’s skin. “Thank you. And I’ve heard you sing during bass warm-ups in choir. You have a good voice. You should have auditioned for the musical. Me? I can’t sing worth anything, but being in Mr. Tuttle’s mixed chorus class gives me the chance to hang out with my friends.”
Brian grinned at that. “I’ve noticed you’re really close with Maeve and Kassidy. They’ll be great in Brigadoon. And Aileen Brewer—man—she’s in a league of her own when it comes to singing.”
“True.” Siobhan’s chest swelled with happiness and pride on behalf of her best friends. “Ailee and Maeve have been accepted to NYU’s music program and theater program on full-rides. They’re awesome.” Siobhan offered a shy glance. “I still think you should give singing a try.”
“Nah. Not brave enough. Besides, I never wanted to be the star of the show. That’s not my role to play, know what I mean?”
“Absolutely.” See also, remarkable. “I feel the same way. I love to dance, but I don’t need a spotlight, I just love to move in time to the music. It sets me free somehow.”
“What about you? What will you do after graduation?” Brian’s interest reached out to envelop.
“I’m going to study ballet at the New York Dance Academy.”
“Wow.”
Dazzled by his reaction, Siobhan felt heat bloom, so to combat the reaction she lifted a brush and dipped it in green paint, adding sprigs of grass to the flat. She tilted toward him and lowered her voice. “Know what I want to do after that?”
“What?”
They were co-conspirators, bound by the sharp aroma of paint, the musty atmosphere of a well-worn wooden stage at their school, and the buzzing chatter of nearby techs. Public, yet a world unto themselves…
“I want to open my very own dance school.”
His eyes went wide. “I have no doubt you’d be fantastic. You…your friends…you’re the kind of people meant for greatness.”
Siobhan stilled her creative motions at once. “So are you.”
Emphatic and sincere, she directed her gaze to his. Brian glanced away, but soon enough his attention returned. “That’s really nice of you to say.”
“And mean.”
He shrugged, dashed dark blue against their shared canvas. “I’m happy to be in the background. You and your friends, though, you’re incredible.” The concluding statement caused her heart to race. Sure, insecurity was part of his journey, but Siobhan’s respect and admiration for him grew tenfold. She bit her lips together and opted at once to take a huge leap of faith…and heart.
“Are you going to Winter Formal?”
In answer, Brian issued a wry chuckle then looked her straight in the eyes. His expression said it all: Who, me? Are you serious?
Siobhan lifted her chin and plunged ahead. “Would you want to take me to the dance?”
She actually held her breath, hoping and praying like any other giddy high-schooler, because that’s just what she was. Other people might be blind to Brian’s gifts and compelling personality, but Siobhan had always sensed his depth of character. Going to Winter Formal on his arm would be the best.
Swirling her brush in water then tipping its bristles in a hue of royal blue, Siobhan continued to paint and divert from any kind of awkwardness. “I know the girl asking the guy thing is pretty weird, but—”
“Ah…really? I mean, sure. I’d be…like…so honored.”
Siobhan’s senses hummed until she noted the way his smile dimmed. “Umm…Siobhan, I can’t really afford a limo ride, or a fancy dinner.” His tone lowered, his Adam’s apple bobbed when he swallowed. Panic rode through his furrowed brow and struck the light from his sapphire eyes. “I suppose I could take you to a place like—”
“Doesn’t matter.” Placing a hand on his forearm, Siobhan cut him off. His build was strong and solid, his skin warm beneath her touch. “Truly. I’ll be happy wherever we go, and whatever vehicle we arrive in. I’d be proud to go with you.”
“You’re not kidding about this, are you?” His eyes sparkled with teasing mischief…and a hint of doubt.
“I most assuredly am not.” After feigning a lofty air, Siobhan giggled and shot him a playful wink.
“You. And me. And Winter Formal.”
Full of wonder, his reaction shot a thrill through Siobhan’s system. That’s when it all made sense—her attraction to Brian, the unspoken, as yet unexplored connection they seemed to share. He was simple and unassuming, and didn’t care about popularity, not if it meant he had to compromise his ideals. Living life on those terms took character. It took depth of spirit and strength of soul to buck what was popular and culturally accepted. Siobhan could relate, for she had made a vow of solidarity and moral purpose just a few months ago with her three best friends, the very ones Brian had mentioned—Aileen, Kassidy, and Maeve.
When she drew her hand from his arm, overhead stage lights shone off the surface of the sterling silver purity ring on the third finger of her right hand.
“I think it would be amazing,” she concluded. “I’ve already climbed out on a limb, and I’m hoping I haven’t made a fool of myself, but—are we official then?”
“Of course. I mean…yes…I…sure…I mean, if you’re sure…and…”
Siobhan released a joyful sound while he stammered then she wrapped him in a quick, tight hug.
Unexpectedly the moment turned serious. He pulled back to look into her eyes. “Why, Siobhan? Why me?”
He appeared so plaintive, so removed from his element and caught off guard. What a shame that so decent a person should be rattled by returned conviction, and affection.
“Because good guys should never be in the background. Because in my eyes, you’re fantastic.”