Contents

Part One

        Prologue: Spring 1990

        1. Running a Balance

        2. Sodomite

        3. Painted Lady

        4. Weak

        5. Bitch

        6. I Am Dead

        7. Freeloader

        8. Inside this Picture

        9. Sad Rubble

        10. Slut

        11. Bossy

        12. Lesbo

        13. Sucker

        14. Treats for the Ladies

        15. Ugly

        16. Women ’n’ Fuckin’ Children

        17. The Grit I Am

        18. Creep

        19. Calm Down

        20. We Become a Duo

        21. Faker

        22. Weird

        23. No One Touches Me

        24. Sore

        25. Delirious

        26. Dirty Wine

        27. Bipolar

        28. Needy

        29. Choice Bit of Calico

        30. Evil

        31. Filth

        32. Grabbing the Gusset

        33. Nobody

        34. It Was Magical

        35. Pitiful

        36. Making Declarations

        37. Messed Up

        38. What Message

        39. Guappo

        40. Too Happy

Part Two

        Prologue: Summer 1990

        41. Venus

        42. Buckle into the Wall

        43. Stronger than Ever

        44. Enchanting

        45. Divine Poetry

        46. Great Advice, Thanks

        47. Circuit Breaker

        48. E is for

        49. Ex-Boyfriend’s Dodge Challenger

        50. On Top of the World

        51. Glorious

        52. Cancellami Means Cut Me Out

        53. Martyr

        54. Lost and Found

        55. Queens

        56. Fan Mail

        57. Screech Owl

        58. Phony Baloney Angel

        59. Stronger

        60. Trust Poetry and Carpet

        61. Club Crisis

        62. Scream Famously

Acknowledgments