i was glad you called
although i had not been thinking about you
at all.
hadn’t given it a second
thought
neither carried nor brought
no face to mind
or at least, not yours, when i tried
again and again to come
do you know how many men would paykilldie
for me to suck their cock? fuck.
this is how i am: more
horace than catullus: just plain mean
and manly
and meant.