August 24, 1554

Signore Marcellini has been summarily dismissed. The Queen is believed to be suffering another miscarriage. I now must hope that I am not in some way blamed. Lord Erskine stays by my side ready to advise me in all matters. At this time a letter has also been written to my mother to advise her to release Madame de Parois of her service in my household. She is a troublemaker. Lord Erskine, my dear guardian, tells me that I should have told him immediately of the problem of Signore Marcellini and his harassment of Mary Fleming. It is difficult for me to explain to him why I did not, but there is something so embarrassing about it. I remember when a servant girl, the chambermaid before Minette, had some trouble with a groomsman. It was difficult for me to believe because she was like a mouse and almost frightened of her own shadow. I could never believe that she would have invited someone’s attentions, as people said she had. I didn’t want Mary Fleming to be subjected to this kind of gossip and blame. It seems so unfair. I don’t think she will be, now that everyone knows the truth about Signore Marcellini. Indeed the only person who might inspire blame is myself for agitating Queen Catherine to the point of miscarrying yet again. I pray that I do not invite the wrath of the King. He was at Anet with Diane and is now coming here. I must bide my time until he gets here and pray for his understanding. In the meantime I seek counsel with my Father Confessor. I am surrounded by good people. They love me and they know that I have tried to act with a sense of compassion and integrity in the best interests of innocent people. That is all I can do, God willing.