Two hours later, a bell rang in the yard. The rattle of the looms slowed, then muttered into silence. This layer of sound stripped out, I was now able to hear the river below the windows of the dormitory – a soothing murmur after the clatter of the machines. The reprieve was short-lived. With the rumble of approaching thunder, voices resounded out side, echoing off the high walls – shouts, shrieks, laughter. I sat up and brushed my hair with my fingers, looking expectantly towards the door. I admit, Reader, to some feelings of trepidation as to who might come through. A few minutes later, mill girls poured into the room, chatting merrily, yawning, stretching with weariness. Some pulled off long white aprons and hung them on pegs along the wall; others splashed their faces with water set out in a basin on the washstand; friends picked off cotton fluff from each other’s hair. I waited, wondering when someone would notice me.
‘That isna yer bed.’
I felt a shove in the shoulder blades from behind. I got up and turned to face my challenger.
‘I know,’ I replied, deciding to rise above such rudeness and smile in a friendly fashion at the stout, brown-haired girl on the other side of the mattress. ‘I haven’t been given one yet.’
She wrinkled her brow, picking her way through my words. ‘Ye’re a Sassenach.’
I grimaced. ‘’Fraid so.’
‘Annie, take a keek at the new lass!’
A girl of my height with russet curls and a turned-up nose was too busy tying her laces to pay me much attention. ‘What lass be that, Martha?’
‘This red-topped Sassenach standing right here – in our room.’ Martha put her hands on her hips and glared at me.
Annie looked up. The ‘S’ word was repeated from girl to girl and I soon found myself surrounded by a crowd of inquisitive but not very friendly strangers.
‘What are ye doing here?’ Martha asked.
I crossed my arms defensively. ‘I’ve come to work.’
Martha’s eyes ran over my well-made pelisse, dress and shoes – a mixture of hand-me-downs from Lizzie and items purchased from my meagre earnings as an actress. Though hardly the first stare of fashion, the clothes marked me out as a person of some substance. The girls, by contrast, were all dressed in a uniform of white cotton blouses and light grey skirts, woollen stockings and boots. ‘Ye dinna look like ye need to work for yer bread.’
I just shrugged at that. Little did she know.
‘Win off our bed, Sassenach. We dinna want any o’ yer soothlan fleches biting us the nicht.’
‘I don’t have fleas!’ I protested, having worked out her insult from the giggles of the other girls.
‘We dinna believe the flech-lass, do we?’ Martha appealed to the other girls.
It was an infantile way of humiliating me, Reader, but very effective. I moved away from the bed, considering my options for retaliation. I had wanted to win some friends among my roommates, but Martha was smoothly isolating me by making me an object of mockery. She probably didn’t want to share her bed, seeing as how her ample frame took up so much room.
Well, two could play at that game.
‘I did not have fleas when I entered this room today. Are you telling me that I may have picked them up from your mattress?’ I searched my arms suspiciously, checking for bites. I moved towards her. ‘Wait a moment! Hold still.’ I stared at her, transfixed by something on her head.
Martha’s eyes widened. ‘What is it?’
I slapped my hand down on her crown and then pretended to pick something off. ‘There! Got it.’
‘I dinna have fleches!’ Martha exploded, pushing my hands away.
I grinned. ‘No more do I. Now you know how it feels.’
A couple of the other girls giggled at Martha’s blushing cheeks.
‘Ye’ll no last a day at our mill, Sassenach,’ jeered Martha, retreating from the battle.
‘We’ll see,’ I replied evenly, pretending not to be ruffled by her hostility.
The girls began to leave the dormitory, heading down to supper. I tagged along at the end, wondering bleakly if there was anyone who would risk befriending me. I could sorely do with an ally or two to teach me the ropes – or threads in the case of the mill. I caught up with the girl called Annie who had lingered to put on a shawl. I’d noticed her throw me a look or two which, though not warm, had not seemed unsympathetic.
‘Hello. I’m Catherine by the way.’
She gave me a reluctant nod. ‘Hello, Catherine-by-the-way.’
I smiled. ‘Just Catherine will do.’
The girl unbent enough to introduce herself. ‘I’m Annie McGregor.’
‘Pleased to meet you, Annie. Would you mind showing me where the dining room is? I’m starving.’
‘Aye, I’ll do that.’ She beckoned me to follow her and we set off down the stairs, on the floor below, joining up with a stream of boys heading in the same direction. They were dressed in a similar plain uniform, with grey woollen breeches and jackets over their cotton shirts.
‘What do you do in the mill, Annie?’ I asked, trying to push past her reserves into the friendlier territory of conversation.
‘I’m a piecer.’
‘What does that mean?’
She gave me a funny look, astounded that anyone would not know such a basic thing, but replied anyway. ‘I twist the threads together when they break on the mule.’
I guessed she wasn’t talking donkeys. ‘And the mule is . . . ?’
‘It’s the machine that spins the thread from the cotton.’
I tried to imagine such a thing – thinking it must look like some big spinning wheel. ‘So how do you mend the strands?’
She laughed at my expression. ‘Why, ye are an unkennin lass! Ye must crawl under the mule to fix the pieces, o’ course.’ I did not like the sound of this job at all, though surely it couldn’t be worse than climbing a mast in a gale or emptying chamber pots? ‘Ye have a minute or two to do it while the machine rests, but it is best to be gleg and keep yer head down.’
Gleg – she must mean quick. I would certainly try to be that. I didn’t fancy being caught up in the machine as it set to work again – rather worse than being trampled by mules, I guessed. I stored her words of advice away for the morrow as we turned into a room set out with tables and benches. The meal was already underway, hundreds of children eating bowls of porridge and drinking from cups of milk. Almost the same meal as breakfast, Annie explained, though sometimes the cooks added bacon in the evening. At least the portions looked plentiful – my stomach was grumbling and had not been full since dawn. There was no sign of Bridgit.
‘Follow me.’ Annie tossed the words over her shoulder. She seemed in a fearful hurry about something. Shoving a bowl in my hand, she took me to the serving table. The big cauldron presided over by a flush-faced cook was almost empty.
‘New lass, Maggie,’ Annie explained, prodding me to hold out my bowl. A big spoonful of porridge landed in it.
I sniffed. ‘That smells good. Thank you.’
The cook frowned on hearing my accent, then smiled when she worked out I was paying her a compliment.
‘Well, hen, I dinna stint on the cream like some. Hail and happy: that’s how I like my weans.’
Annie led me over to a table and set her bowl down.
‘Be quick,’ she warned. ‘The dominie doesna like us to be late.’
Copying her example, I rapidly ate my supper and drank a good-sized cup of milk. Feeling pleasantly full, I was ready to sleep. The thought of starting school now was very unappealing, but Annie could hardly hide her excitement.
‘Like school, do you?’ I asked, stifling a yawn.
‘Aye. I can read near all the words in the primer now,’ she stated proudly.
I smiled, recognizing a kindred spirit; a budding scholar. ‘And do you have a favourite word?’
‘I’ve always loved languages and enjoy odd words,’ I explained. ‘For example, right now I’m rather fond of the word “higgledy-piggledy”.’
Annie repeated it slowly, savouring the sound on her tongue. ‘I can see why ye like it, Catherine. It’s all jummled up like its meaning. But I’m afeared I canna read such a long word. I ken “cotton” and “mill”, but no much else.’
‘I wager you can read far more than that, even if you don’t know it. Long words are all built up of little bits, like a quilt. I imagine you could read many of them if given the chance.’
‘Ye think so?’ She seemed very pleased by the idea.
‘I know so – or should I say – I ken so?’
Annie giggled.
The children were all leaving the dining room at a run, dumping their bowls in two big buckets by the door. My companion glanced around her and scraped her bowl clean.
‘Come away!’ beckoned Annie.
‘Don’t you ever get time to catch your breath round here?’ I grumbled feeling it far more suitable to sit quietly after a hearty meal than race to the next task.
‘Nae, Catherine,’ laughed Annie, amused by the idea. ‘The maister believes that the devil makes work for idle hands. He thinks we should spend our time bettering ourselves.’
It was a commonly held view, but it seemed to me that in the rush to improve our minds we were in danger of being treated more like machines in perpetual motion than humans. At least the looms rested at seven and did not start again until the next morning. I expressed this thought to Annie as we clattered down the stairs to ground level.
‘Nae, that’s where ye are wrong. The mechanics oil and mend the looms the night. The mules canna keep going all the time or they’d wear out.’
‘Exactly! You’ve made my point. Nothing and no one can work without rest.’
Annie was on the defensive now. ‘We do rest, Catherine. Half an hour for breakfast at nine and an hour for dinner at two – nae other man be as kind as Maister Dale. He saved us from the orphanage – he has given us a chance for a better life.’
She was right, of course. We were the lucky ones. An hour and a half rest during the working day was almost unheard of. My friends who were sweeps and apprentices could not hope for half that. It was just that here the number of people was so huge, the work so unrelenting, I couldn’t help but find it a little overwhelming. I doubted that I had the qualities that made someone a cog in such a finely crafted machine. It was just as well I was not planning to stay for long, or I could imagine the kind of breakdown I might cause.
The school – a big barn of a building set a little away from the mills – was bursting with pupils when we entered. About five hundred of us, I would guess. Despite the numbers, order reigned: the children were divided into groups and seated on benches or at desks to get on with their work. I could see at least fifteen teachers wandering among the scholars. On a blackboard one man was taking his class through their arithmetic. A little huddle of girls sewed in one corner under the beady eye of a mistress – definitely a lesson I wished to avoid. Two women were helping little ones form letters in a sand tray.
‘I’ll take ye to Dominie Blair,’ Annie said.
She marched me across the room to the man at the board teaching the advanced class from the look of the mathematical equations he was scribbling.
She bobbed a curtsey. ‘Dominie, I have a new lass for ye.’
The schoolmaster was a tall, thin man with black hair and a pale face. Something about him reminded me a little of a raven – probably just his sharp look of intelligence as he cocked his head towards me, tapping his lip with a long, chalky finger. ‘Thank ye, lass. Go to yer class. Lads, figure the sums on yer slates while I speak to the new student.’
He put the chalk down and rubbed his hands together, surveying me from top to toe.
‘Mr Dale mentioned ye, lass. From London, I believe?’
‘Yes, sir.’
‘Have ye been to school before?’
How, Reader, could I explain that I had once attended one of the most exclusive public schools for a month?
‘For a few weeks about two years ago,’ I admitted.
‘Ye have a long way to make up then. I’ll start ye in the first form. The teacher will help ye remember yer alphabet.’
I almost choked: he was going to put me among the babies!
‘I’m sorry, sir, I haven’t made myself clear. I have had quite a broad – if rather odd – education from a number of excellent teachers.’ By which I meant prompts, ballerinas, actors, musicians – not your usual pedagogues. ‘I can read and write.’
He frowned, doubting my claims. ‘Nae need to be afeared, lass, of admitting yer unkenning.’
‘I’m not afraid, sir. I really am some way beyond learning my letters.’
With a slow smile, he passed me the chalk. ‘Well, so be it. I wouldna like to shame ye in front of the class. Write “The cat sat on the mat” on the board.’
How apt. I blushed, thinking that he must think me a complete fool. The dominie misunderstood my embarrassment.
‘I’ll turn my back, lass. Just do yer best.’
The boys in the arithmetic class were watching our exchange with interest. I spotted Jamie Kelly sitting at the front, wearing his wire-rimmed spectacles. He had a full slate on his desk and I could tell he was laughing at me from behind his hand. I could hear the whisper, ‘Sassenach,’ rustle through the room like a breeze in leaves. Tossing the chalk thoughtfully for a moment, I decided what I should do. I wrote ‘The cat sat on the mat’ once in copperplate English, then translated into Latin, then French and finally, for good measure, in Italian. I wondered about doing it in Creek Indian but decided that might be a step too far. I put the chalk down with a wink at Jamie.
‘Well, lass, let’s see how ye have done,’ said the teacher.
He turned around and stared at the board. Picking up a long stick he tapped at the bottom row.
‘What is that, lass? I canna read it.’
‘Italian, sir.’ I wrinkled my brow. ‘I think I got it right, but my memory may be a bit rusty.’
He threw back his head and gave a hearty laugh. ‘By Harry, ye showed me! I dinna think I can teach ye a thing. Maybe ye would like to be a teacher instead?’
I instantly warmed to this man: he could have been offended; instead, he thought it a good joke. ‘I’d like that. How can I help?’
He put a hand on my shoulder, steering me over to the smallest children. ‘Ye can start here today with Mistress MacDonald and the weans. I’ll have to think how to use yer talents.’
I spent an enjoyable hour helping the first form – those of five and six – making letters in the sand tray. The two little girls I sat beside were tired, having completed a thirteen-hour shift, and could hardly concentrate on their task so I decided to make it more entertaining. Rather than forming letters, we made castles in the tray. Mistress MacDonald let me do this for a while before gently shaking her head. I then made a game up where my two little friends thought up silly words and I spelt them. We were having so much fun that I did not notice that it was almost nine. Then the bell rang, dismissing school for the night.
‘“P” for “pogwoggle”!’ declared one of my pupils, drawing a perfect P in the sand.
‘Run along now, Jeannie Moir,’ said the schoolmistress.
The familiar name sent a jolt through me – I almost dropped the tray.
‘Can the new lass teach me the morn’s night?’ Jeannie asked, looking up at me with sleepy brown eyes.
‘We’ll see,’ said Mistress MacDonald.
Jeannie ran out, hand in hand with her little friend.
‘Well, Catherine, ye are a born teacher.’ Mistress MacDonald began putting the equipment away in the store cupboard. I got up to help her. ‘Yer friend, the Irish lass, told me about ye – from London, she said.’
‘Is Bridgit staying with you then, ma’am?’ I asked.
‘Aye, lass. I’ve a cottage at the end of Long Row. She asked me to look out for ye the night.’
‘Please tell her I’m in the dormitory in Mill Four. I’ll see her tomorrow, I hope.’ I shook the sand level ready for the next lesson, wondering how I could turn the conversation to the issue that had brought me here. ‘Your pupils were very sweet, particularly Jeannie. Does she live with her family or is she one of the orphans?’
‘Why do ye ask?’
I tried to look nonchalant as I shrugged. ‘No real reason. I just hadn’t noticed her in the dormitory.’
This explanation seemed to satisfy the mistress. ‘Nae. That lass lives a few doors down from me.’
My throat felt dry as I blurted out my next question. ‘A big family?’ I couldn’t get out of my head the fact that I might have just been sitting next to my sister, our fingers touching in the sand tray. But I had suspected nothing until I heard the name – no instinctive recognition when gazing into her eyes. She didn’t even look like me, not with her long brown plaits and round face.
‘Aye, four weans. All in mill now. Jeannie has only just started working.’
‘Were her brothers and sisters here tonight?’ I asked, trying to remember if there had been any faces that had caught my attention.
Mistress MacDonald gave me an odd look. ‘Why such an interest in that family, Catherine?’
‘I . . . I don’t know.’ I bent my head to brush the spilled sand off my skirts, avoiding her eye.
She relented a little. ‘I expect they were here somewhere, but I see so many children go through the school, I forget. Good night to ye.’
Hearing the dismissal, I bobbed a curtsey and set off for the entrance. Annie had waited for me, but so had Jamie Kelly. He fell in beside Annie and me as we headed back to the dormitory.
‘Come to check on me, professor? Seeing if the Sassenach has settled in?’ I asked ironically, doubting he was here for any kindly purpose.
He gave me a hostile look, reminding me of a gang member trying to defend his territory. The professor obviously didn’t like anyone rivalling him for his place at the top of the class. ‘I saw, snippie – the dominie put ye on the sand tray. Ye canna fool him with yer fine ways.’
‘Vous êtes un âne, professeur,’ I said with a sweet smile, calling him a mule in my best French.
He frowned. ‘Just because I canna speak fancy languages, doesna mean I dinna know when ye are insulting me!’
As if he hadn’t insulted me first!
‘Rattlepate!’ I crossed my arms, tapping my foot in an angry tattoo.
‘Gowk!’
‘Numbskull!’
‘Useless soothlander!’
But before I could set him right, Annie leapt to my defence. ‘I have ye ken, Jamie Kelly, that Catherine was told by the dominie that she should be a teacher. He said that he canna teach her anything; she kens it all!’
‘Not all,’ I muttered, blushing.
‘Is that right?’ Jamie gave me a glare. ‘I suppose she might ken enough – for a lass.’
‘But she speaks Italian! Even the dominie canna do that!’ Annie exclaimed.
Jamie tossed his head contemptuously. ‘What use is Italian round here?’
‘Well . . .’ Annie seemed lost for an answer so ended up giving a feeble shrug.
I rolled my eyes. Thanks, defender. There seemed little point flogging this particular dead horse.
We had reached the door to the dormitory building. Annie bade Jamie goodnight and went ahead. As I made to go past, he caught my arm and held me back.
‘Listen, Sassenach, ye dinna fit in here,’ he announced, as if his word was final. ‘Ye should get yerself back sooth.’
Infuriated by this unearned hostility, my temper snapped. ‘What is your problem, Jamie Kelly? Why does it matter to you if I speak Italian, French or . . . or Greek?’
His eyes widened at this latest claim, looking somewhat like an owl whose last tail feather had just been plucked.
‘For the record, I don’t – speak Greek, I mean.’ I scrubbed my hand through my hair, feeling very weary all of a sudden. ‘Look, professor, I’m here to work and you’ve done nothing but try and make me feel unwelcome since you set eyes on me.’ I had a sudden, unbidden memory of the angry O’Riley brothers, resorting to violence in response to the cold reception they had received in London. I now knew how they felt. ‘If you don’t like me, just leave me alone. I won’t bother you, I can promise you that now.’ I shook my arm free. ‘Buonanotte!’
The goodwife was waiting in the dormitory for me to come in. On my tardy entrance, she tutted and shook her head.
‘I expect my lasses to be back on time – nae dawdling.’
Feeling tired, longing for my bed, I had no appetite for a battle with another Scot. ‘I apologize, ma’am. I stayed to help the school-mistress clear away.’
She gave a nod, letting the matter drop. ‘I have yer cloots here; ye’ll want to keep yer others for Sunday.’ She gestured to my London clothes. ‘Too fine for the mill.’
‘Thank you.’ I took the bundle of cotton and wool from her.
‘Now to yer bed. There’s room here wi’ Martha.’
I stifled a groan. My stout enemy – she of the flea insults – was in sole possession of the bed I had dared rest on earlier. A great round mound of blankets, she was lying in the centre, pretending to be asleep. The image came to mind that Martha was like some rampant form of weed who had gained control of this particular cot by crowding out all other forms of life.
‘Hurry up, hen. I want to douse the light.’ The goodwife gave me a little push towards the bed.
Placing my new clothes on top of my boots, I quickly stripped down to my shift and climbed in. Martha made no concession to my presence so I found myself clinging to the edge with the blanket flapping halfway down my back. I was sorely tempted to pinch her to make her move over but instead opted for the path of least resistance. Burrowing to the other end of the blanket, I lay down, top to her tail. The goodwife blew out the last candle and left.
‘I dinna want yer smelly feet in my face,’ growled Martha, giving me a kick.
Little did she know it but she’d picked the wrong person to bully. I’d stood up to Westminster schoolboys, sailors and slave-owners; one mill girl would not bother me.
‘If you do that again, I’ll punch you,’ I growled.
She snorted and moved her foot back in preparation for another strike. I caught it in my fist and squeezed her ankle.
‘My best friend in London is a boxing champion and he’s shown me a trick or too. Do you want to find out how we English lasses fight?’
That gave her pause. ‘I’m no scared o’ ye.’ But her voice was thin and her foot moved further back.
‘Good. And I’m not scared of you. Understood?’
Silence.
‘Well, then. Sleep tight.’