TWENTY-TWO

On the day things started falling apart, Harry was second in command in an agency that he believed was powerful enough, if it used those powers wisely, to almost wipe out poverty. His move from the Economic Advisory Board had been nearly seamless. Lyndon Baines Johnson had come to feel that Harry was one of “his” people.

Now, though, Harry Stein allowed his mind to wander to the appointment that everyone knew was just a rubber stamp away, a poorly-kept secret even by Washington standards. People were stopping by and calling, people whose names and likenesses were in national magazines and on the evening news, to congratulate him and wish him well. He would miss fighting the good fight, he told them, but it was time to move on. He implied that becoming an ambassador was a sacrifice he must, regretfully, make. He wondered if the glow he felt inside was visible to the naked eye.

He thought of his relatives back in Richmond, of all the rich Episcopal boys who had shunned him there and at Princeton. He imagined, for a moment, coming back to America, back to Virginia, in three or four years, still a young man by political standards, with credentials enough to change things that had long needed changing. He could see his life ahead of him, and he liked what he saw.

The phone call came just before noon on a pleasant September day. It was from Malcolm Summers, a man Harry had known since his earliest days in Washington. Summers was a North Carolinian with whom Harry shared a kinship based on region and age, a Duke graduate who had warmed the bench for the basketball team before going to law school after the war, then had risen to prominence in the State Department. They had lunch together perhaps once a year and sought each other out at parties. Their wives were compatible. Mac Summers’ inclusion in the informal committee that nominated the new Dutch ambassador had, Harry suspected, been a prime reason for his selection.

“Harry,” he said, “can I come by and see you about something? It won’t take long.”

He wouldn’t be more specific; Harry assumed that it concerned his impending appointment.

“How’s 9 tomorrow?” he asked, and Summers said that would be fine.

The next morning, Harry and Gloria were up at 5:15, making calls to The Netherlands, already into their new life.

They were running on adrenaline, barely able to keep up with their lives. They had gotten Nancy off for her freshman year of college and Martin for his junior year. They had just put the house on the market; the agent estimated they could double their initial investment after five boom years.

Harry, punctual despite the D.C. traffic, walked into the outer office at 8:50. He had forgotten about Mac Summers until he saw him there, a tall, thin, gray-haired man seated on the edge of one of the visitors’ chairs. It flashed through Harry’s mind that he had never known Mac to be early for a meeting.

Harry, though, greeted him with genuine enthusiasm, delighted to have such a pleasant appointment to start his day. Perhaps they could have lunch afterward if Mac was free.

“Maybe later,” Summers said. He seemed nervous; Harry had never seen Mac Summers nervous.

He invited him into his office and closed the door. They were barely seated when Summers opened his briefcase and took out two sheets of mimeographed typing paper. He put them on Harry’s desk.

Mac Summers did not stay long. By 9:30, he was back in the rising early-September heat, without even a token promise of future social get-togethers from either man.

Harry waited another half-hour, and then he left, too. He told his secretary he would not be back, that she should take the rest of the day off. She noticed that the knuckles of his right hand were bleeding.

He walked down a dark corridor, out the front of the building, across a couple of streets and then to the Mall, where he sat on a bench, looking at nothing except the humid air in front of him for the next four hours.

Once, in 1957, Harry had been mildly upbraided by Ruth for absent-mindedly putting the wrong name on his most recent letter. Instead of addressing it to Miss Mercy Crowder, he had put “Ruth Crowder,” followed by Mercy’s address. It had been delivered to Mercy’s anyhow, the postman guessing correctly.

The second time he did it was the February before Mac Summers’ visit. This time, the same postman, who had handled Saraw’s mail for a quarter of a century and knew everyone in town, delivered the letter not to Mercy Crowder’s address but to the farmhouse of Ruth Crowder Flood, noting to himself that the writer had neglected to include her married name.

Ruth was working at the grill that day. Henry came home at 2 and checked the mail. He almost put the letter with no return address, just a Washington postmark, back in the box, replacing Ruth’s name with Mercy’s, but he didn’t. He took it inside, and then he sat down at the kitchen table, opened it and read it.

He could not have felt more betrayed if he had come home and found Ruth naked in bed with another man.

A younger, less-defeated Henry Flood might have reacted to what he deduced by tearing up a couple of rooms, saving some energy for Ruth when she returned.

But the Henry Flood of 1966 had seen better days. He knew, by then, that Ruth held the high cards, knew what his life might be without her. He was also a man whose sons were old enough to humiliate him if they had to. And then there was Naomi. He did not want to upset Naomi, now a grown woman, stronger now than she once was.

He was a man who knew his best damage from then on would be done not by rage but by stealth.

He copied the letter by hand and put it away for the day he was almost sure would come, determined to learn all he could about the man whose name was on the letterhead, Harry Stein, the man who signed the letter to his wife “Love (as always), Harry.” He seemed to be some kind of Washington big shot, and he was almost certainly the long-sought, long-loathed Randall Phelps (who Henry had not imagined, in his wildest paranoia, was still communicating with Ruth). Then he taped up the original envelope, with the letter inside. The next time he went out, he stopped and placed it in Mercy’s mailbox.

Henry was amazed to find that Harry Stein was important enough to be listed among the Johnson administration’s movers and shakers in the book he found at the public library. For days, he considered his revenge, pondered how he could do the most damage.

Finally, Henry Flood wrote his congressman. U.S. Representative James Nicholson was, Henry knew, an old-school ultra-conservative Southern Democrat who might be able and willing to use the kind of information he was offering. He might be able to bring a certain high-flying Harry Stein down a notch or two. Maybe put Ruth in her place, too.

“Did you know,” the letter began, “that a high-ranking member of the Johnson administration had a bastard child in 1943 by a woman in Saraw, North Carolina? That he continues to send support to this child and her mother while he raises another family in Washington, D.C.?” Henry gave Ruth’s name, and Naomi’s, and Harry Stein’s, along with enough educated guesses to give the congressman’s office a head start.

Nicholson’s staffers checked out what came to them in that envelope with no return address. They were able to track down a World War II veteran named Lawrence Olkewicz in Greensburg, Pa., who remembered a wartime romance almost a quarter-century earlier. They found a birth certificate in Newport, along with a rather suspicious-looking marriage certificate for Ruth Crowder and Randall Phelps, the latter for whom no records existed anywhere else.

They were able, with the help of an accommodating FBI agent, to determine that a certain amount of money had, for many years, found its way south from Richmond and then Washington to Saraw.

James Nicholson, confronted with this wealth of circumstantial information, did not act immediately. He did not necessarily want to scuttle the career of a small-town mayor whom he had met once and actually liked, a woman who was, after all, part of his home state’s Democratic machinery.

“But this fella in Washington?” he said at the meeting where all the evidence was presented. “He’s maybe not worth it now, but they tell me he’s on the rise. Let’s wait a little bit. We got all the bullets. We don’t have to shoot his liberal ass until he’s worth killing.”

And so the congressman waited. In late August, he heard about the almost inevitable appointment of Harry Stein as ambassador to The Netherlands, and he considered the man’s age and credentials and potential for future damage to a party already torn apart by Communist sympathizers and draft-dodgers. A few days later, he called Malcolm Summers, who had interned for him when he was in law school.

“Mac,” he’d told him, “I want you to read this. You’re his friend. You can advise him as to what to do. I don’t want to make a big to-do about this, don’t even want to bring Missus Flood into it if I don’t have to, you know what I mean?”

Summers read the report, swallowed hard, thanked Nicholson and left. That afternoon, he made an appointment to see his old friend Harry Stein.

Harry knew about scandals but, despite Ruth, he had never considered himself a target. He had been faithful to Gloria in the recent past; he didn’t drink or use drugs, although marijuana was already becoming a regular element at some of the Capitol Hill parties he attended. He did not believe he was associating with Communists.

He didn’t expect Ruth to be his downfall, and he found it ironic that what he considered to be this one faithful thing he had persisted in doing month after month, year after year, would undo him.

Harry knew that he could expect to read everything about Ruth and Naomi in the newspapers if he persisted. He knew he could count on his embarrassment staining all those he loved.

He realized, sitting in his office after Summers left, his hand still bleeding from where he had slammed it into the side of his mahogany desk, just exactly how much he loved the life he was leading, the life that was possible for him. Outside, later, he tried to convince himself that he would not be ruining the lives of people he loved, that he owed it to himself and Gloria to not decline the ambassadorship.

By the time he went home, he had convinced himself of exactly what he owed both Ruth and Gloria.

“Time to go,” he said to himself as he rose slowly from the bench, scattering pigeons. “Time to be a big boy, Harry.”

Before he left the city, he paid a quick visit to the head of the antipoverty program and told him most of the story, how an ongoing affair, involving a child, would make his departure for Europe highly unlikely.

His boss, a cool, tall, stately man whose Harvard credentials had carried more weight under Kennedy than Johnson, and who counted on Harry to do most of the actual day-to-day decision-making, listened patiently, quietly. Harry wondered if he already knew.

“Take a few days off,” he said, putting an arm around his shoulder, a gesture so uncharacteristically affectionate that it, along with the day’s earlier revelations, almost moved Harry to tears.

Gloria was in the garage. Harry almost lost his nerve when he saw how energized she was, as happy as he’d ever known her to be. She had gone to an ABC store nearby and gotten as many empty liquor boxes as she could cram into her station wagon, in anticipation of packing. She was stacking them neatly in the rear of the garage.

She was surprised to see Harry, always faithful to his work and never home this early. He led her inside, through the house and out to the back porch, which almost touched the unbroken woods where the red of the sumac was already promising cooler weather.

And there, he told her what he thought he never would have to tell her. He knew what was at risk. He knew that he would have been better off telling her years before, when his secret transgression would not have also been the death of their shared dream.

He could have come up with some barely plausible lie, but Harry Stein was tired. He knew the ambassadorship, the bauble he had come to look upon as proof of his worth, was gone.

Watching Gloria’s face register the pain for which he was responsible, Harry wondered if he even cared any more about his present position, so glittering a short while ago, now a dingy job in a dingy office far from the glamour he thought soon would be his and Gloria’s.

If Gloria had been confronted with the reality of Ruth and Naomi many years before, without the consequences that now leaked from it, she might have forgiven Harry, although not without some terrible price, he was sure.

Even if he had lost the ambassadorship because of some dalliance with a co-worker or secretary, their marriage might have been saved. Affairs can be—had been—forgiven. New leaves had been turned over, also for a price.

But what she could not forgive, when he told her about it, was the secret life he had led, almost completely on paper and in the minds of two people. That betrayal, the knowledge of the clandestine letters and the longing they implied, was what finally made Gloria leave for good.

“You should have told me,” she said after Harry had explained why they would not be packing for Europe after all.

“I just did tell you,” Harry said, knowing what she meant.

“No. You should have told me a long time ago, right at the start.”

Harry had to concede that she probably was right.

“What is her name?” Gloria asked.

“I told you. Ruth.”

“Ruth what?”

Harry sat silently, looking through a window at a Dali print he had long detested. He never answered her.

“I think you ought to leave,” Gloria said, stubbing out her cigarette and not looking at him. “You are such a bastard, Harry.”

Right you are, he thought. Right you are.

Maybe, if their children hadn’t been in college, safe from the unfriendly fire of home, grown enough—they each hoped separately—to weather this, Harry and Gloria both would have tried harder. Now, though, neither of them could work up all the energy they knew from experience it took to heal wounds. And there had never been anything this large before. This was a major artery.

Harry never slept another night in the house on Balsa Drive.

He would spent nine more months in Washington. By then, the divorce was almost final. Gloria stayed after he went home, still in the thrall of Potomac Fever, unwilling to return to Richmond. With the career diplomat who eventually became her second husband, she would live in Paris and Brussels for a time. Harry supposed that she was enjoying at least a measure of what he had once cost her.

After the settlement, Harry invested some of his still-impressive nest egg in the house at Safe Harbor. He would, for the next eight years, split his time between Long Island and Richmond, where he resumed making money more or less full time for the still-appreciative firm of Martin & Rives.

By the time he quit his job with the agency he once thought could change the world, he had become almost as disillusioned with Washington as he was with life in general. The two wars, on poverty and the North Vietnamese, were going badly. He feared, in the midst of riots and chaos, that the American people would prove less generous and idealistic than he had hoped and give up on the first, and he had long since come to loathe the second.

Their Capitol Hill friends and some acquaintances were vaguely aware of the circumstances of Harry Stein’s demise. After he left Washington, neither he nor they found the time to keep in touch.

When Harry Stein thinks back on his years in Washington, it is with nostalgia and regret, for all the bright, shining days, and all the ones that should have followed.

He wondered, and Ruth wondered, what had happened, how the cover of their long, secret life had been breached. They, and especially Ruth, suspected Henry.

He never let on, though, and Ruth did not then fully realize, would not for most of another decade, all Henry Flood was capable of concealing.