CARNIE

Not good enough, not teeth enough, for Riverview,

he rolls into town under the shoulders of night with

his sleazed and pimpled caravan. Taught to screech

inwardly at his filth, we nevertheless find ourselves

drawn to his gray devastation of grin, the sneaky way

stories map themselves onto the backs of his hands.

Girls, giddy in the throes of repulsion, can’t help

visioning him as a blazing and wordless fuck, skin

sandy, grating, the mud of his open mouth sliding all

over us. His snake-lidded eyes know how we resent

balance. In line, steamed and bewildered, we consider

his bitter knowledge of levers and gears, listen to

muttered instructions on all the best ways not to die.

And admit it now, little girl. With spit and the heel

of a hand, you seek to be wildly industrious. You

want to clean off a place on his body, find a patch

of landscape the sun has not quite killed, and you

want to wallow in the dirt denied you by Mama,

screaming into the blue of freefall, riding the natural

stink off that boy. And you got your head thrown back.