The Temps, all swerve and pivot, conjured schemes
that had us skipping school, made us forget
how mamas schooled us hard against the threat
of five-part harmony and sharkskin seams.
We spent our school days balanced on the beams
of moon we wished upon, the needled jet-
black 45s that spun and hadn’t yet
become the dizzy spinning of our dreams.
Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch . . . oh, you
loved our tangled hair and rusty knees.
Marvin Gaye slowed down while we gave chase
then wowed us with his skinny hips, on cue.
We hungered for the anguished screech of Please
from soulful throats. Relentless. Booming bass.
From soulful throats, relentless booming bass
softened with the turn of Smokey’s key.
His languid, liquid, luscious, aching plea
for bodies we didn’t have yet made a case
for lying to ourselves. He would embrace
our naps and raging pimples. We could see
his croon inside our clothes. His pedigree
of milky flawless skin meant we’d replace
our daddies with his fine and lanky frame.
I did you wrong, my heart went out to play
he serenaded, filling up the space
that separated Smoke from certain flame.
Couldn’t comprehend the drug of him, his sway,
silk where his throat should be. He growled such grace.
Silk where his throat should be, and growling grace,
Little Stevie made us wonder why
we even needed sight. His rhythm eye
could see us click our hips and pump in place
whenever he cut loose. Ooh, we’d unlace
our Converse All-Stars, yeah, we wondered why
we couldn’t get down without our shoes. We’d try
to dance and keep up with his funky pace
of hiss and howl and hum, and then he’d slow
to twist our hearts until he heard them crack,
ignoring lonesome leaking from the seams.
The rockin’ blind boy couldn’t help but show
us light. We wailed his every soulful track
through open windows, ’neath the door—pipe dreams.
Through open windows, ’neath the doors, pipe dreams
served up bone, bouffant, the serpentine
and bug-eyed Lady D, the boisterous queen
of overdone, her body built from beams
of awkward light. Her slithering extremes
just made us feel so small. Insanely lean,
everywhere she stepped she caused a scene.
We craved her wigs and waist and crafted schemes
that would insure our hips would soon be thin,
that we’d hear symphonies, wouldn’t hurry love,
cause Diana said Make sure it gleams
no matter what it is. Her different spin,
a voice like sugar air, no inkling of
a soul beneath the vinyl. The Supremes.
That soul beneath the vinyl, the Supremes
knew nothing of it. They were breathy sighs
and flowing hips, soul music’s booby prize.
But Mary Wells, so drained of self-esteem,
was a pudgy, barstool-ridin’ bucktoothed dream
who none of us would dare to idolize
out loud. She had our nightmares memorized
and like or like it not, she wailed our theme
while her too-blackness made us ill at ease
and we smeared Artra on to reach for white.
When Mary’s My Guy blared, we didn’t think race,
cause there was all that romance, and the keys
that Motown held. Unlocked, we’d soon ignite.
We stockpiled extra sequins, just in case.
We stockpiled extra sequins, just in case
the Marvelettes pronounced we’d benefit
from little dabs of shine. If we could get
inside their swirl, a kinda naughty place,
we knew that all the boys would have to brace
themselves against our heat, much too legit
to dress up as some other thing. We split
our blue jeans trying to match their pace.
And soon our breasts began to pop, we spoke
in bluer tones, and Berry Gordy looked
and licked his lips. Our only saving grace?
The luscious, liquid languid tone of Smoke,
the soundtrack while our A-cup bras unhooked.
Our sudden Negro hips required more space.
Our sudden Negro hips required more space,
but we pretended not to feel that spill
that changed the way we walked. And yes, we still
felt nappy, awkward, strangely out of place
while Motown crammed our eager hearts with lace
and storylines. Romance was all uphill.
No push, no prod, no bitter magic pill
could lift us to its light. And not a trace
of prizes they said we’d already won.
As mamas called on Jesus, shook their heads
and mourned our Delta names, we didn’t deem
to care. Religion—there was only one.
We took transistor preachers to our beds
and Smokey sang a lyric dripping cream.
While Smokey sang a lyric dripping cream,
Levi tried to woo us with his growl:
Can’t help myself. Admitted with a scowl,
this bit of weakness was a clever scheme
to keep us screaming, front row, under gleam
of lights, beside the speakers’ blasting vowels.
We rocked and steamed. Levi, on the prowl,
glowed black, a savior in the stage light’s beam.
But then the stage light dimmed, and there we were
in bodies primed—for what we didn’t know.
We sang off-key while skipping home alone.
Deceptions that you sing to tend to blur
and disappear in dance, why is that so?
Ask any colored girl and she will moan.
Ask any colored girl and she will moan
an answer with a downbeat and a sleek
five-part croon. She’s dazzled, and she’ll shriek
what she’s been taught. She won’t long be alone,
or crazed with wanting more. One day she’ll own
that quiet heart that Motown taught to speak,
she’ll know that being the same makes her unique.
She’ll worship at the god of microphone
until the bass line booms, until some old
Temptation leers and says I’ll take you home
and heal you in the way the music vowed.
She’s mesmerized—his moves, his tooth is gold.
She dances to the drumbeat of his poem,
remembering how. Love had lied so loud.
Remembering how love had lied so loud,
we tangled in the rhythms that we chose.
Seduced by thump and sequins, heaven knows
we tried to live our hopeful lives unbowed,
but bending led to break. We were so proud
to mirror every lyric. Radios
spit beg and mend, and sturdy stereos
told us what we were and weren’t allowed.
Our daddies sweat in factories while we
found other daddies under limelight’s glow.
Desperate, we begged them to illuminate
the glitter lives they said they’d guarantee
would save us. But instead, the crippling blow.
We whimpered while the downbeat dangled bait.
We whimpered while the downbeat dangled bait,
we leapt and swallowed all the music said
while Smokey laughed and Marvin fell and bled.
Their sinning slapped us hard and slapped us straight,
and even then, we listened for the great
announcement of the drum, for tune to spread,
a Marvelette to pick up on the thread.
But as we know by now, it’s much too late
to reconsider love, or claw our way
through all the glow they tossed to slow our roll.
What we know now we should have always known.
When Smokey winked at us and whispered They
don’t love you like I do, he snagged our soul.
We wound up doing the slow drag, all alone.
They made us do the slow drag, all alone.
They made us kiss our mirrors, deal with heat
and hips we couldn’t control. They danced deceit
and we did too, addicted to the drone
of revelation and the verses thrown
our way: Oh, love will rock your world. The sweet
sweet fairy tale we spin will certainly beat
the real thing any day. Oh, yes we own
you now. We sang you pliable and clue-
less, waiting, waiting, oh the dream you’ll hug
one day, the boy who craves you right out loud
in front of everyone. But we told you,
we know we did, we preached it with a shrug—
less than perfect love was not allowed.
Less than perfect love was not allowed.
Temptations begged as if their every sway
depended on you coming home to stay.
Diana whispered air, aloof and proud
to be the perfect girl beneath a shroud
of glitter and a fright she held at bay.
And Michael Jackson, flailing in the fray
of daddy love, succumbed to every crowd.
What would we have done if not for them,
wooing us with roses carved of sound
and hiding muck we’re born to navigate?
Little did we know that they’d condemn
us to live so tethered to the ground
while every song they sang told us to wait.
Every song they sang told us to wait
and wait we did, our gangly heartbeats stunned
and holding place. Already so outgunned,
we little girls obeyed. And now it’s late,
and CDs spinning just intimidate.
The songs all say, Just look at what you’ve done,
you’ve wished through your whole life. And one by one
your trusting sisters realize they don’t rate.
So now, at fifty-plus, I turn around
and see the glitter drifting in my wake
and mingling with the dirt. My dingy dreams
are shoved high on the shelf. They’re wrapped and bound
so I can’t see and contemplate the ache.
The Temps, all swirl and pivot, conjured schemes.
The Temps, all swirl and pivot, conjured schemes
from soulful throats, relentless booming bass,
then silk where throats should be. Much growling grace
from open window, ’neath the door, pipe dreams—
that soul beneath the vinyl. The Supremes
used to stockpile extra sequins just in case
Diana’s Negro hips required more space,
while Smokey penned a lyric dripping cream.
Ask any colored girl, and she will moan,
remembering how love had lied so loud.
I whimpered while the downbeat dangled bait
and taught myself to slow drag, all alone.
Less than perfect love was not allowed
and every song they sang told me to wait.