10
NON-FICTION LOSES THE ball out-of-bounds, and I sprint to the sideline to put it back in play. Stove walks it over to me slow. He’s squeezing the ball between his hands, like he could pop the air right out of it. Then he leans over to me so nobody else can hear.
“You’re watching Fat Anthony more than your own coach,” says Stove, handing me the rock. “What’s up with that, Mackey?”
My brain goes blank, looking at him.
I watch Stove slice the air with his hand as he starts to count. I’ve got five seconds to get the ball inbounds. There’s a kid wide open in front of me, waiting.
“Three,” says Stove, slicing the night air again.
Only I can’t let go. I lost my best friend and my second pops.
“Four,” Stove says louder.
I see the panic on the kid’s face and finally pass him the ball.
Then Stove stares me down all the way up the court.
He knows I’m down with Fat Anthony, and playing against the points. Stove’s seen my game a million times and can probably tell every time I held back tonight. He must think I’m the worst little shit that ever lived. And he might have it figured out about J.R., too.
I take the ball and spin right, then left. I freeze the guy in front of me with a shoulder fake, leaving him flat-footed. A second defender rushes over to help out. That leaves a green jersey open in the corner, but I wouldn’t pass the ball off now for anything. I drive to daylight through an open seam in the defense and lay the ball in the basket.
We’re back up by five points, 50 to 45. And I shoot Stove a look, like he’s wrong about everything.
Our next time up court, I let somebody else handle the rock. I run the baseline from side to side, making cuts and trying to get free. I lose my defender and take the pass. Then I put up a shot that bounces high off the front of the rim. My eyes are on the ball, and I go flying in for the rebound. I want to show Stove how hungry I am to win. But this kid named Bones throws his body in front of mine, blocking me off from the ball.
Bones is just six feet tall, and maybe a hundred and seventy-five pounds when his jersey’s soaked with sweat. But most of that is pure heart. He takes every good angle there is and sticks himself in front of anybody looking for a rebound. And once Bones gets square in front of you, it’s like trying to get past a living, breathing wall.
Anytime I chose up sides at the park, I’d pick Bones for my squad, right after J.R. That way I wouldn’t have to play against him.
“I hate when he drops his bony ass on me. It means too much to him. It’s like he’s tryin’ to stop you from rob-bin’ his house,” J.R. complained one time after a pickup game. “But that’s all Bones has got. He can’t dribble. He can’t shoot. He’s not even a real player.”
“The hell he ain’t!” said J.R.’s pops. “Maybe Bones hasn’t got half the raw talent of you or Mackey. But he’s got what counts beating in his chest. Juega con fuego—he plays with that fire in his soul. The day you can get past what he throws down, you’ll be something to deal with. And you can lift all the weights you want. You only get strong like Bones from the inside out.”
Non-Fiction rebounds the rock. I’m tangled up with Bones, but I won’t quit. I bang up against him with all my strength. I keep trying to get past, till Bones backs off to follow the ball the other way.
Stove’s running a few steps up ahead, chasing the play. He balled with J.R. and me lots, till we were maybe fourteen. When Stove was on our squad he was all right, playing hard to win. But when he was going up against us, Stove would do whatever it took to stop us cold.
I remember when Stove got the transfer he was praying for and started delivering mail to our neighborhood. All summer, he’d move double-time through the morning. Everybody we knew got their mail by noon. Then Stove would ditch his cart and postman’s shirt at Acorn’s barbershop. He’d take a long lunch at the park and play pickup games in a white tee and those long gray pants with the black stripe down the side. He’d ball all the way up till four thirty, when he had to be back at the post office. And he was almost at the park as much as J.R. and me.
“It’s like your pops is one of us,” I told J.R. back then.
“Not to me,” answered J.R. “Even when we’re playing ball, he’s still my pops.”
Once, while he was still on post-office time, Stove sprained his ankle bad on the court. But he knocked out a plan on the spot. Real fast, he sent me to Acorn’s for his shirt and cart. I ran full speed both ways. On the way back, I was hoping the cops wouldn’t stop me, thinking I mugged a mailman. Then J.R. helped his pops limp back to his route, while I pushed the cart along next to them. When we got to the right corner, Stove called in from a pay phone for somebody to come get him. That way he could explain it better to his boss, like he’d got hurt on the job.
Now Stove’s got himself a second wind. He’s running as fast and strong as I’ve ever seen him. He’s moving around the court like nothing could spot him from finding out the truth.
Junkyard Dog goes sky high over Bones for a rebound. Then he spins around and hits me with a pass. Up ahead, one of our kids is streaking alone to the basket. The ball’s barely in my hands, and without thinking, I gun the pass to him. The kid catches the ball in stride and lays it in.
“Greenbacks by seven. That’s the biggest lead of the game,” announces Acorn.
I can hear Greene whooping it up, and part of me wishes I could dig myself a hole right here on the court. I’d jump in without thinking twice. Then I’d keep on digging straight down, till I came out in China.
Non-Fiction gets the ball inside and misses an easy layup. The rock just rolls around the rim and won’t fall home, like there was an invisible lid on the basket. The guy who missed the shot’s running back along the sideline, and Fat Anthony tries to kick him in the ass as he runs past.
I catch the ball with Kodak on me and back him down under the basket. Then I slam both shoulders into him hard. Kodak goes down like a shot, even before I really hit him. I turn and score, waiting to hear a whistle. But Stove doesn’t call me for the offensive foul, and neither does Hamilton.
The crowd lets out a long “Oooooooooh!”
The hoop counts, and we go up by nine points.
Kodak’s flat on his back, cursing.
Fat Anthony calls time-out so he can rip into Hamilton.
“He told you not to make those calls anymore. Ain’t that right, Hambone?” screams Anthony, pointing at Stove. “You couldn’t be that blind on your own! Nobody could!”
I walk back to our bench through all the noise and hear footsteps flying up from behind. Then I see his shadow come through mine on the floor, and I flinch.
It’s Greene.
He wraps both arms tight around my stomach, and everything inside me freezes solid. Then Greene lifts me off the ground, and for a second, I forget how to breathe. My feet are reaching for the court, but it’s not there. My head’s raised back, and all I can see is the dark sky. It’s like I lost my whole world. I’m stuck inside Greene’s arms, and there’s no place left for me anywhere.
Greene drops me back down. My heels hit hard, and I feel a knot in my stomach where his hands shoved into me.
Everybody’s running up to slap my back, but I won’t take my eyes off of him.
“I love how you drilled that faker,” says Greene. “Posers aren’t entitled to shit in this world. I hope he never gets up off the fuckin’ ground.”
Stove
It’s just a damn game, and I’m not going to make that call. Anthony can howl all he wants about it. I’ve got to push people to the limit if I’m going to find out who killed my son.
I don’t care how many shots Mackey makes. I know he’s in Anthony’s pocket. I’ve seen Mackey have big games before. It didn’t matter if it was in front of two hundred people in a high-school gym, or just a couple of kids playing pickup in the park. Mackey couldn’t keep the light from pouring out of his eyes. He’d try hard to fight back a smile. But the muscles in his cheeks would always win out.
That’s not Mackey out there. That’s not even Hold the Mustard. It’s some kid I hardly know trying to get out from under a mountain of shit.
I know how bad Mackey’s hurting over J.R. He was there. He saw J.R. get stabbed to death. And after that, I don’t know how Mackey could open his eyes again. He wants to push it as far away as he can. But I can’t live with that. And until I find out for sure, I’m not gonna let Mackey out of my sight.