CAITLIN ADJUSTED HER UDUB CHEERLEADER costume and tumbled out of her car, which was parked a few doors down from Nyssa’s house in South Beacon, one of the prettiest areas in town. She could already hear the bass pounding inside, and a bunch of kids were standing on the lawn, drinking out of not-very-covert red Solo cups. One of the kids was Corey Travers, who was on the boys’ varsity soccer team even though he was only a freshman. “Hey, ladies!” he called out. “Great game!”
Caitlin and Vanessa—whom Caitlin had picked up on the way—beamed. Corey was referring to their game against Franklin, which had taken place earlier that day. They’d totally dominated, and Caitlin felt great about it, especially since it had been her first game as captain.
Vanessa, who was dressed as a Viking—naturally, given that “Viking” was her nickname—elbowed Caitlin in the ribs. “He’s cute.”
“He’s jailbait!” Caitlin laughed.
“That doesn’t stop you,” Vanessa teased, her eyes glinting. Then she glanced at Jeremy, who had finally climbed out of Caitlin’s passenger front seat and was walking a few paces behind them.
Caitlin blushed and swatted her head, knocking Vanessa’s helmet off-kilter. Vanessa just laughed and sauntered into the thick of the crowd, tossing her long blond braids and waving around her plastic shield.
Caitlin stopped to let Jeremy catch up to her. He’d been silent on the ride over, and he looked sort of pinched and sour as he trudged through Nyssa’s yard. “Ignore her,” she said quickly, hoping that Jeremy didn’t take offense at the jailbait comment. “She’s really nice once you get to know her, I promise.”
“Mm-hmm,” Jeremy said.
They stepped inside, and Jeremy’s lips pressed together as he surveyed the crowd. He looked uptight and annoyed. Caitlin poked him playfully with one finger, but he just stood there, looking uncomfortable in the lumberjack costume she’d cobbled together for him out of stuff in her garage. This wasn’t his scene. If it were up to Jeremy, they’d be in his basement tonight, watching Dr. Who and making out.
“Check out that skeleton!” Caitlin crowed in an overly positive voice, pointing to a life-sized version on the porch. Then she beamed at a kid inside with a brown alien mask on. “And isn’t that a character from Star Trek: The Next Generation?”
“A bad version of him, yeah,” Jeremy said sourly.
Caitlin grabbed his hand. “Come on. Let’s get some beer.” Maybe Jeremy would cheer up once he was a little buzzed.
The living room was packed and sweaty, and most of the kids were already drunk. Several boys were doing kegstands in the corner, and a huge group was toasting with neon-green Jell-O shots. Caitlin kept a smile pasted on her face the whole time, but she could sense Jeremy’s distaste. Cam Washington, who was also on the boys’ soccer team, came up to her and slapped her hard on the back. “Congrats on the two goals today,” he slurred, his breath smelling boozy.
“Thanks,” Caitlin said in a chipper voice. She gestured to Jeremy. “You know Jeremy Friday, right?”
Cam glanced at Jeremy, his eyes at half-mast. “Uh, no. Don’t think we’ve met.”
Jeremy’s jaw hardened. He stared at Cam’s outstretched hand but didn’t shake it. Caitlin knew exactly what he was thinking: Cam had met Jeremy a zillion times. He was one of Josh’s good friends and was always at the Fridays’ house. He was implying that Jeremy wasn’t important enough to remember.
Then another voice boomed. “Caitlin!”
Caitlin looked across the room. Josh, dressed as David Beckham circa his Manchester United days, sat on a chair, his bad ankle propped up on an ottoman. By the look of his spinning eyes, Caitlin guessed that he’d had several beers already. She gave him a little wave, and he waved back. “Are you going to sign my cast?” he asked loudly, holding up a big Sharpie.
Caitlin balked. Out of the corner of her eye, she could see Jeremy’s face growing redder and redder.
“C’mon!” Josh called out. “You said you would, remember!”
Caitlin’s heart sank. Just like that, Jeremy turned on his heel and stormed away. Caitlin gave Josh a half-apologetic, half-annoyed smile, then spun after Jeremy. She wanted to kick herself. She had said she’d sign Josh’s cast when he’d texted her about it earlier today.
Caitlin followed Jeremy into the hall, which was marginally quieter, save for the girl throwing up by the back door. “So, I guess your brother’s a little drunk,” she said, trying to sound lighthearted about it.
Jeremy cut a quick glance to her. “Do you even like me?”
Caitlin flinched, surprised by his intensity. “Why would you ask such a thing?”
Jeremy looked away. “It just seems like you’d rather have my brother back. Like maybe you’re having second thoughts.”
Caitlin sighed. Jeremy wasn’t stupid. On the one hand, she loved that about him—that he was so tuned in, so aware of her feelings. But on the other hand, it made it hard on both of them.
“No,” she said. “I don’t want Josh back.”
“When were you talking to him?”
She shrugged. “He texted me about his cast earlier. I agreed to sign it because I was trying to be nice.”
He scoffed. “Like he’s ever been nice to you.”
“That’s not fair,” Caitlin said. She took a deep breath. “Jeremy, you and I are going to have to deal with your brother going forward. I’m not going to be flat-out mean to him. You can’t get mad at me just for talking to him. We all share history. You have to try to meet me in the middle here—compromise a little. Which you haven’t seemed very willing to do lately.”
Jeremy’s eyebrows furrowed together. “What do you mean by that?”
“I mean . . .” Caitlin’s heart pounded. She so didn’t want to do this. But something had been bubbling inside her—everything had felt so off. She just had to say it.
“I mean I’m proud that I play soccer,” she blurted. “Yes, I’m still not sure it will be my life forever, but I enjoy it now, and it’s important to me. And you just . . . well, you seem pissed that I’m into it, honestly.”
Jeremy’s lips parted. “I was pissed because you broke our date—”
“Which I understand,” she cut him off. “But you made me feel so guilty. How was I supposed to know you were taking me to One Direction? It’s not like you told me beforehand.”
“Because it was supposed to be a surprise!”
Caitlin lowered her eyes. “I’m really sorry about that. But, I mean, I couldn’t just bail on my team. Initiation is once a year. It’s important that the captains are there.”
Jeremy shifted stiffly. Caitlin wondered if he was resisting rolling his eyes.
She sighed and kept going. “And these people here, some of them are my friends. I like going to parties, Jeremy. If you gave them a chance, maybe you’d like them, too.”
Jeremy made a face. “Doubt it.”
“Then maybe we’re too different,” Caitlin said quietly. She hated that she was saying it—she didn’t want to give Jeremy up. But she didn’t want him to be miserable with her, either, and he certainly looked that way right now.
Jeremy’s eyes widened. A hurt look crossed his face. But before he could say anything, Ava and Mac raced up, anxious looks on their faces.
“Have you seen Julie?” Ava said tightly.
Caitlin shook her head. Just hearing Julie’s name made her uneasy. She hadn’t been able to shake the feeling that something was seriously off with Julie last night. But she hadn’t told the others about it, hoping that Julie had just been in a mood.
“We need to find her—fast,” Ava said.
“Why?” Caitlin asked, her worry growing.
Ava and Mac looked at Jeremy. He backed up, his expression even more irritated than before. “I’ll see you later,” he snapped, heading for the door.
Caitlin caught his arm. “You’re leaving?”
“There’s nothing for me here,” he said, and turned to cut through the crowd.
“Jeremy!” Caitlin bellowed. “How are you getting home?” He’d come with her, after all.
But he didn’t turn back, ducking around a mummy and disappearing out the front door. Caitlin’s shoulders slumped. Had she lost him forever? Just like that? She wanted to go after him, but judging by the panicked expressions on her friends’ faces, something was seriously wrong.
Ava pressed something into Caitlin’s hands. “I found this at my house.”
Caitlin looked down. It was a dangling earring. “Okay . . .”
“It’s Julie’s. My dad found it in his bedroom.” Ava’s lips trembled. “The same bedroom with the balcony Leslie was pushed off of.”
“And I saw Julie in her car,” Mac broke in, “driving really slowly past Claire’s house on Wednesday night. She doesn’t live anywhere near Claire.”
Caitlin’s jaw dropped. “I went to see her yesterday,” she admitted. “And, um, I saw something on her porch. It was—it was fertilizer. Well, it’s used for fertilizer, but it’s potassium cyanide.”
Mac gasped and covered her hand with her mouth. “And you’re just telling us now?”
“Anyone could have fertilizer like that,” Caitlin protested, guilt flooding her. “And just because you saw Julie driving by Claire’s doesn’t mean anything. She could have been in that neighborhood for an entirely different reason.”
“But what about the earring?” Ava insisted.
Caitlin racked her brain. She wanted desperately to find some small detail, any tidbit of information, that would clear Julie. But she couldn’t think. There was just too much evidence pointing in the same direction.
“Why would Julie do this to us?” she breathed.
But Ava and Mac weren’t listening. They were both looking across the room, their gazes fixed on the same person.
Julie had come to the party after all.