Tristan: Hey.
Dorian: holy shit
hi
I’m really trying my best to seem calm right now but for the record I’m completely freaking out
Tristan: Noted.
So Dorian . . .
There’s this guy at school.
And I was friends with him.
Good friends.
And I think I messed things up. And I could use some advice.
Dorian: . . .
??
ok I’ll bite
tell me about this friend
Tristan: He’s really important to me. More important than I can express in words. He means so much to me . . .
But recently I found out he was keeping a big secret from me. And, well, I got mad at him. And we haven’t spoken since.
Dorian: ok
this friend of yours
did he mean to hurt you by keeping this secret?
Tristan: I don’t think he did . . . not anymore. But I thought so at the time.
Dorian: you know tris
people keep secrets for lots of reasons
sometimes they hide the truth because they’re worried that it might hurt someone they care about
did you ever ask him why he kept it a secret?
Tristan: No, but I should have.
My friend Rose, she said that he was probably hiding the truth from me because he wanted me to learn it on my own terms, at my own pace.
Dorian: rose seems pretty wise
Tristan: She can be.
Dorian: so now that you know that your friend never intended to hurt you . . .
where are things going to go from there?
Tristan: I don’t know yet. I figured I could talk to him. I haven’t spoken to him in a while.
Not since it happened.
Dorian: how long ago was that?
Tristan: More than a week.
Dorian: that’s a long time to go without talking to someone you care about
Tristan: I know.
And I feel awful about it.
I really want to tell him I’m sorry, but I don’t know how.
Dorian: well you can always practise on me
Tristan: Okay . . .
I’m sorry that I got so angry at you. I now know that your intentions weren’t bad. I wish I could have seen it at the time.
I’m also sorry that I yelled at you in public. Definitely not one of my finer moments.
And mostly, I’m sorry for leaving you hanging, not knowing whether we could go back to the way things were between us. Not knowing if we were even together anymore.
As friends. Of course.
Dorian: of course
Tristan: And I’m sorry that I didn’t come to my senses earlier.
Dorian: you know what?
Tristan: What?
Dorian: I think if you said that to your friend he’d forgive you
Tristan: You really think so?
Dorian: I do
I mean . . .
if I were in his position I’d forgive you
Tristan: Thanks, Dor.
Dorian: hey tris
Tristan: Yeah?
Dorian: I’ve also been struggling with some stuff at school
can I talk it out with you?
Tristan: Of course.
Dorian: so there’s this guy
he’s . . .
well he’s everything to me
and recently I made him upset by doing something stupid
and I apologized to him
a lot
more than I’ve ever apologized before
but he didn’t forgive me
instead he ignored me
for a while
and it really hurt
I was sad for a long time
it wasn’t the first time he’s ignored me like that
and it took a lot out of me
Tristan: Have you spoken to him about this yet?
Dorian: not yet
he’s going through his own stuff right now and I feel awful bringing it up
but part of me feels like I need to tell him
otherwise we’ll never be able to move on
Tristan: Yeah, I get that.
Dorian: and I honestly can’t imagine my life without him
I really can’t
and I’d take him back in a heartbeat if he’d have me
but . . .
but there’s a part of my mind that wonders what if it happens again?
I honestly don’t know if I could handle that
Tristan: I think you should tell him.
I have a feeling that this friend of yours doesn’t know just how much he’s hurt you.
If you tell him the truth about how you’re feeling, I think it might help him realize just how hard you’re taking it.
I have a question, Dor . . .
Dorian: ya?
Tristan: If he apologized, would you forgive him?
Dorian: without a doubt
but I don’t need an apology
I know he didn’t mean it
and I know he’s sorry
I just . . . I want to make sure that nothing like that happens again
Tristan: Trust me, if you explain that to him, I’d be willing to bet that he’d promise never to ignore you again. He’d promise to never leave you hanging and to talk things out, even if it’s hard for him.
Dorian: if he made a promise like that it would help so much
that would mean the world to me
Tristan: I think you two might even end up being stronger for it. Because once you communicate properly with someone, dealing with problems gets a little easier.
Dorian: I agree
I wish I could give you a big hug right now
Tristan: I mean, this virtual hug is nice.
But . . .
Didn’t you say the other day that we live close to each other?
Dorian: I did.
Tristan: Would you want to meet up at some point? You could give me that hug for real.
And we could finally see each other for the first time.
Dorian: ya
that would be nice
I’d like that
you know
tomorrow’s a school day
want to maybe grab some coffee after?
we can just talk
Tristan: I’d like that, Dorian.
Dorian: perfect
I’ll see you after school
Tristan: So . . .
Not to spoil the mood or anything, but I’m kind of a few episodes behind on Basker.
Dorian: it’s still early
wanna watch one of those basker episodes now?
Tristan: There is literally nothing that I would rather do right now.
Dorian: excellent
lemme just grab a torrent
Tristan: Yeah, I need to download it too.
Dorian: I’ve missed this tris
Tristan: Yeah, me too.
Dorian: oh
um . . .
apparently daisy says hi
and she says she’s happy she doesn’t have to beat you up
Tristan: Tell her to stuff it.
Dorian: yeah no thanks
I’m not telling aj’s girlfriend to stuff it
lol
oh that was fast
my episode is done downloading
Tristan: Mine just finished, too. Ready?
Dorian: play
Tristan: That was a good episode. It’s nice that the boys got to meet each other after so long.
Dorian: ya
Tristan: Okay, I’ve gotta get up early tomorrow. I should head to bed.
Dorian: same
goodnight tris
Tristan: Goodnight, Dorian.
I love you.
Dorian: I love you too