Sadie
Sad country music songs played through the speaker in the barn. I lay on the ground staring at the fairy lights that I had strung around the room. Men sang about cheating girlfriends and lying wives, and women sang about men who couldn’t be trusted and cowboy trucks. And all I could think was my life as I’ve known it had officially ended. My mom and dad were getting divorced and everything was going to change. They were going to sell the ranch because my mom had decided she was going to move to Washington State. She wanted a brand-new start.
I guess the conversation I’d had with her had led her to see that she could have more in life. While I was happy that she was going for it, that she didn’t think she was too old to start again, I was incredibly sad to think that it was because of me that she was leaving my father. Not that he deserved a second chance, not after everything he’d put her through. But still, I’d wanted to believe in the fairytale. I’d wanted to believe that they were in love as much as Amelia and Ranger Hamilton were. I wanted to believe that he knew he’d made a mistake and that he’d change, but I knew he wouldn’t.
He was selfish and narcissistic. All he cared about was himself, about his image and having his needs met, and my mom deserved more than that. She deserved to be happy. She deserved a life full of love and laughter. She deserved to do more and be more. It pained me to know that she’d thought all she could ever do was cook and clean and take care of her family, especially knowing that she wanted more. She told me that she’d dreamed of being a race car driver when she was younger. Now she was thinking about going to school and getting a nursing degree. That had also been a dream of hers, and I could see my mom as a nurse. I could see her taking care of people.
It’d been ten days now. I felt guilty about the fact that I hadn’t returned any of Wyatt’s calls. Olivia had called, Beau had called, Lucy had called, and Austin had called. Amelia and even Ranger had called and left messages, and I hadn’t returned any of them.
I knew they were my family. I knew I could count on them, but I almost felt like I didn’t deserve it. I almost felt like it would be wrong to go back to life as normal when my mom was still struggling and I was about to lose my childhood home.
I didn’t know where I was going to go or what I was going to do. I knew that the Hamiltons would make it better. I could live with them, I could be with them, I could forget any of this had ever happened but I couldn’t ask that of them. I couldn’t put that pressure on Wyatt. He had just told me that he wanted to be in a relationship with me. He had just admitted his feelings for me, and that was special and I didn’t want to rush anything. So I’d kept my distance, and I hadn’t called or texted.
And yes, I missed him like crazy, but I needed to figure things out. As much as I wanted Wyatt and needed him to tell me it was okay and to feel his warm arms around me, I knew I had to be strong.
I heard a noise outside the barn and blinked as I sat up. Carrie Underwood was singing something, but I ignored her as I moved towards the doors of the barn. I was just about to open them when they flung open and I saw Wyatt, Austin, Beau, Lucy, Olivia, Arya and Eloise, Amelia and Ranger, and Chet, Knox, Huck, and Flint, all standing there with flowers and bottles of wine and picnic baskets.
“What are you doing here?” I said, my lips trembling.
“We came to make sure you were okay.” Wyatt stepped forward and handed me a bouquet of roses. “It’s been a week and a half, Sadie, and you haven’t gotten back to us. If your mom hadn’t told us, we wouldn’t have known how you were.”
“I know, I’m sorry. I’ve just been trying to process it all.”
“I understand.” He nodded. “I know this has been a lot for you, but you’re not alone. You’re never alone, okay? I don’t know why you didn’t call or text.”
“I didn’t want to make you feel like you were responsible for my feelings, Wyatt. You’re my best friend, but you’re also my boyfriend now, and I didn’t want you to feel pressured.”
“Are you joking, Sadie Johnson? Are you joking? I would never feel that. Don’t you understand how much I love you? I love you, Sadie Johnson. I love you more than words can say, and you would never make me feel that way. I want to look after you and take care of you. I’ve just been waiting here worried that you didn’t call me because you didn’t want to be with me, that you changed your mind and you didn’t want to be in a relationship, and you didn’t know how to tell me.”
“Oh my god, Wyatt. Don’t be silly.” I blinked back tears. “I love you too, I just didn’t want you to feel that just because we …” I looked around at his family, “kissed and stuff, that you had more of a responsibility towards me than you do.”
“Sadie, don’t you realize that this is more than just a few kisses? You’re my person. You’re my woman, and as much as I’ve made fun of Austin and Beau, I completely understand the love they have for Olivia and Lucy because I have that love for you, only my love is far greater.” He looked back at his brothers, “Sorry guys.” He shrugged. “But I love you more than life itself, and I’m here for you no matter what you need, okay?”
“Thank you.”
“And I also wanted to tell you that I will support you no matter what you want. If you want to go away to school to get your MBA, I will come with you, I will follow you because I know you would do the same for me, and I don’t want to be selfish. I want to be that support.”
“But Prince Waterman and the training and—”
“I’d figure it out. Even if I had to fly back and forth, you’re my first priority.” He looked back at his family. “And I’m sorry to say that, guys. I know Horseshoe Ranch is important to all of us, but I love Sadie and I will do anything to make her happy.”
“It’s okay, son.” Amelia touched his arm. “I’m proud of the man that you have become, and I’m so happy that you and Sadie finally see how much you love each other. And Sadie, you know you are always welcome in our house. I love you like a daughter. You are like a daughter to me, and you are like a sister to my sons and to Olivia, Lucy, and Arya, and you’re like an auntie to Eloise. You’re not alone. I understand that this is a very hard time for you, and your mother is going through so much, and we are here for her as well. We’re here for everyone in your family. I want you to come back to Horseshoe Ranch with us instead of listening to sad and depressing country songs about love that doesn’t last. I want you to be surrounded by love and see love. And I know you’re going to roll your eyes at this, but I have seen the love between you and Wyatt for years and years and years, and I’ve just been waiting on both of you to notice it as well.”
“I love you, Amelia.” I gave her a huge hug. “Thank you.”
“You’re welcome, dear. Will you come back with us?”
“I will,” I nodded, “I will.”
“Well, not just yet,” Wyatt said with a grin. “I have a surprise for Sadie that I would like to show her before everyone completely overwhelms her at the ranch.”
“Okay.”
“What about this picnic and all this stuff we brought?” Beau said holding up the baskets. “Did we come out here for nothing?”
“You didn’t come out here for nothing,” Olivia told him. “You came out here to show your support for Sadie.”
“We love you, Sadie,” Beau said. “Now can we eat?”
“Beau, really?”
“What? I’m hungry and there’s food right here—”
“Come on guys,” Amelia said, “Let’s leave Wyatt and Sadie to themselves and we can go and have a picnic on the ranch. Sound good?”
“Okay, sounds good.”
They all left my barn until it was just Wyatt and I standing there.
“You didn’t have to do this, you know?” I said.
“You’re lucky I didn’t come here a week and a half ago.” He laughed. “It was my mom that told me to give you your space. I wanted to be here much sooner than that.”
“You’re really kind of amazing, you know that, right?” I stroked his cheek.
“Yeah, I think I’m kind of amazing too, but not as amazing as you.”
I grinned and kissed him. “So what’s the surprise you have for me?”
“Well,” he says, “You willing to go on a short walk?”
“A short walk? Hm.” I wrinkled my nose. “Where are we going and can it wait?”
“Can it wait for what?”
“I don’t know.” I started to undo the buttons of my dress.
“What are you doing, Sadie?”
I slipped the dress off and stood there in just my bra and panties. “I think you know.” I stepped forward and undid his shirt and pulled it off. He grinned at me as I started to undo his pants and pulled them down.
“Sadie?”
“Yes, Wyatt?”
“Are you doing what I think you’re doing?”
“What do you think I’m doing?” I pulled down his briefs as he stood there gawking at me. I could feel his heart racing as I touched his arm. “Are you excited to see me, Wyatt Hamilton?” I grabbed his cock and stroked it until it was rigid in my hand.
“I’m always excited to see you,” he said in a husky voice. He undid my bra and let it fall to the ground. Then his hands went to my panties and he pulled them down. “You’re the sexiest woman I’ve ever seen in my life, Sadie Hamilton.”
“And you’re the fucking hottest naked man I’ve ever seen in my life.”
“I believe I’m the only naked man you’ve ever seen in your life.”
“That’s not true,” I said with a small smile and he glared at me.
“Who else have you seen naked?”
“I’ve seen plenty of men naked in videos online.”
“Very funny, Sadie.” He laughed as he pulled me towards him.
I felt his lips on my neck and I closed my eyes, my body almost purring under his touch. He led me to the back of the barn, and we lay down in the hay.
“It feels kind of scratchy on my back.” I laughed as he ran his fingers down my thighs.
“Is it too scratchy?” He looked concerned. “I mean, if it’s—”
“No,” I shook my head, “It’s perfect. I’m a cowgirl this is how my first time should go.”
“In the hay?” He laughed.
“Yeah, in the hay. Is there any better way for a cowgirl to lose her virginity?”
“I don’t know,” he said. “But I do know one thing.”
“What’s that?”
“You’re my favorite cowgirl, Sadie Johnson. My absolute favorite.”
“I would like to think that’s true.” I laughed as I felt his finger slipping in between my legs and rubbing me. He slipped a finger inside of me and I moaned as my back arched and he slipped in another finger.
“Are you sure that this is how—”
“Stop asking me.” I kissed him hard. “I know what I want.”
He moved over on top of me and I felt him positioning himself between my legs. I stared up at him and he looked down at me with love in his eyes. I felt his fingers on my neck caressing my lips.
“I love you, Sadie Johnson.” He said as he pressed his lips against mine. “I will always love you.”
I felt him guiding the tip of his cock to my pussy and I held my breath waiting to feel him inside of me. I’d always heard that it would hurt the first time and so I braced myself.
“Relax.” He said as he squeezed my hands and kissed me on the lips again. “I’ll be gentle, I promise.”
“Okay,” I said with a soft nod.
He guided himself inside of me slowly at first. My legs felt weak and I wasn’t sure if I was going to explode the moment as I felt him pushing deep inside of me. He moaned as his cock filled me up, and I moaned too as I squeezed my legs together.
“Did it hurt?” he asked softly.
“No.” I shook my head and laughed. “Must’ve been too many horse-riding lessons.” I grinned, and he laughed too as he moved slowly back and forth. “You can go a little bit faster,” I urged him. In response, he thrust into me deeper and harder.
I scratched his back and gasped as he pumped inside of me. It was the most delicious and wicked thing I’ve ever felt and done in my life and I absolutely loved it.
“I love you, Wyatt. I love you,” I murmured as he fucked me hard and soft at both the same time. “I never imagined it would feel like this!” I cried out as he slammed inside of me and kissed me softly.
“Oh fuck, Sadie. Oh fuck, I’m not going to last long,” he groaned. I felt his body shudder as he came inside of me and pulled out. He collapsed next to me and kissed my cheek. “I’m sorry, I guess I’ve just been waiting for this for so long.”
“What are you sorry about?” I laughed. “That was absolutely amazing.”
“But I wanted to make sure you came first.”
“Wyatt, did you not know that I came when you did? You didn’t realize?”
He played with my nipples. “No, but if you give me ten minutes I’ll make sure to realize the second time.” We both laughed at that.
“You know what, Wyatt? You are absolutely adorable. You’re my best friend, and you’re the best boyfriend that I ever could’ve asked for.”
“Well, you know what, Sadie Johnson? You’re my best friend and the best girlfriend I ever could’ve asked for, and I love you more than words can say.” He leaned over and kissed me on the lips. “I love you so much that I think I might be going a little bit crazy.”
“Crazy how?”
“Well, you’re the only thing I can think about.”
“You’re the only thing I can think about as well,” I replied.
“You know one day we’re going to get married, right?”
“I know.” I grinned at him. “And have lots of kids.”
“What do you mean by lots?”
“I don’t know, five, seven, nine?”
“Whew, so many kids! I need to make sure that I really train up these horses.”
“It’ll be fun. And we both know Prince Waterman’s going to do great.”
“I think so. So, do you know where you want to do your MBA program?” He asked me softly. “And you know I was serious, right? I wasn’t just saying that. Wherever you want to go I’ll go, too.”
“I just want to be with you,” I told him. “And, you know, I was looking at there are MBA programs that I can do online so we don’t necessarily have to move away. I love it here in Montana. I just want the skills to be able to make this non-profit a success.”
“Well, you have my support no matter what you want to do.” He kissed me again. I felt his fingers sliding between my legs and he rubbed my clit. “And by the way …”
“Yes, Wyatt?”
“I’m ready for special number two if you are.”
“Oh, I’m always ready,” I said with a slight giggle. “Hit me with your best shot, Wyatt Hamilton.”
“Oh, trust me, my dear, I will.” He kissed me and rolled over on top of me again.
I stared up at him my heart racing with love for this man. I couldn’t believe I’d been so lucky as to fall in love with my best friend.