Mona Adams was giving a cocktail party. Mona Adams loved all cocktail parties, and particularly her own. Her voice was hoarse, since she had had to scream a good deal to be heard above her guests. It was being a very successful cocktail party.
She screamed now as she greeted a late-comer.
‘Richard! How wonderful! Back from the Sahara – or is it the Gobi?’
‘Neither. Actually it’s the Fezzan.’
‘Never heard of it. But how good to see you! What a lovely tan. Now who do you want to talk to? Pam, Pam, let me introduce Sir Richard Wilding. You know, the traveller – camels and big game and deserts – those thrilling books. He’s just come back from somewhere in – in Tibet.’
She turned and screamed once more at another arrival.
‘Lydia! I’d no idea you were back from Paris. How wonderful!’
Richard Wilding was listening to Pam, who was saying feverishly:
‘I saw you on television – only last night! How thrilling to meet you. Do tell me now –’
But Richard Wilding had no time to tell her anything.
Another acquaintance had borne down upon him.
He fetched up at last, with his fourth drink in his hand, on a sofa beside the loveliest girl he had ever seen.
Somebody had said:
‘Shirley, you must meet Richard Wilding.’
Richard had at once sat down beside her. He said:
‘How exhausting these affairs are! I’d forgotten. Won’t you slip away with me, and have a quiet drink somewhere?’
‘I’d love to,’ said Shirley. ‘This place gets more like a menagerie every minute.’
With a pleasing sense of escape, they came out into the cool evening air.
Wilding hailed a taxi.
‘It’s a little late for a drink,’ he said, glancing at his watch, ‘and we’ve had a good many drinks, anyway. I think dinner is indicated.’
He gave the address of a small, but expensive restaurant off Jermyn Street.
The meal ordered, he smiled across the table at his guest.
‘This is the nicest thing that’s happened to me since I came back from the wilds. I’d forgotten how frightful London cocktail-parties were. Why do people go to them? Why did I? Why do you?’
‘Herd instinct, I suppose,’ said Shirley lightly.
She had a sense of adventure that made her eyes bright. She looked across the table at the bronzed attractive man opposite her.
She was faintly pleased with herself at having snatched away the lion of the party.
‘I know all about you,’ she said. ‘And I’ve read your books!’
‘I don’t know anything about you – except that your Christian name is Shirley. What’s the rest of it?’
‘Glyn-Edwards.’
‘And you’re married.’ His eyes rested on her ringed finger.
‘Yes. And I live in London and work in a flower-shop.’
‘Do you like living in London, and working in a flower-shop and going to cocktail parties?’
‘Not very much.’
‘What would you like to do – or be?’
‘Let me see.’ Shirley’s eyes half closed. She spoke dreamily. ‘I’d like to live on an island – an island rather far away from anywhere. I’d like to live in a white house with green shutters and do absolutely nothing all day long. There would be fruit on the island and great curtains of flowers, all in a tangle … colour and scent … and moonlight every night … and the sea would look dark purple in the evenings …’
She sighed and opened her eyes.
‘Why does one always choose islands? I don’t suppose a real island would be nice at all.’
Richard Wilding said softly: ‘How odd that you should say what you did.’
‘Why?’
‘I could give you your island.’
‘Do you mean you own an island?’
‘A good part of one. And very much the kind of island you described. The sea is wine-dark there at night, and my villa is white with green shutters, and the flowers grow as you describe, in wild tangles of colour and scent, and nobody is ever in a hurry.’
‘How lovely. It sounds like a dream island.’
‘It’s quite real.’
‘How can you ever bear to come away?’
‘I’m restless. Some day I shall go back there and settle down and never leave it again.’
‘I think you’d be quite right.’
The waiter came with the first course and broke the spell. They began talking lightly of everyday things.
Afterwards Wilding drove Shirley home. She did not ask him to come in. He said: ‘I hope – we’ll soon meet again?’
He held her hand a fraction longer than was necessary, and she flushed as she drew it away.
That night she dreamed of an island.
‘Shirley?’
‘Yes?’
‘You know, don’t you, that I’m in love with you?’
Slowly she nodded.
She would have found it hard to describe the last three weeks. They had had a queer, unreal quality about them. She had walked through them in a kind of permanent abstraction.
She knew that she had been very tired – and that she was still tired, but that out of her tiredness had come a delicious hazy feeling of not being really anywhere in particular.
And in that state of haziness, her values had shifted and changed.
It was as though Henry and everything that pertained to Henry had become dim and rather far away. Whereas Richard Wilding stood boldly in the foreground – a romantic figure rather larger than life.
She looked at him now with grave considering eyes.
He said:
‘Do you care for me at all?’
‘I don’t know.’
What did she feel? She knew that every day this man came to occupy more and more of her thoughts. She knew that his proximity excited her. She recognized that what she was doing was dangerous, that she might be swept away on a sudden tide of passion. And she knew that, definitely, she didn’t want to give up seeing him …
Richard said:
‘You’re very loyal, Shirley. You’ve never said anything to me about your husband.’
‘Why should I?’
‘But I’ve heard a good deal.’
Shirley said:
‘People will say anything.’
‘He’s unfaithful to you and not, I think, very kind.’
‘No, Henry’s not a kind man.’
‘He doesn’t give you what you ought to have – love, care, tenderness.’
‘Henry loves me – in his fashion.’
‘Perhaps. But you want something more than that.’
‘I used not to.’
‘But you do now. You want – your island, Shirley.’
‘Oh! the island. That was just a day-dream.’
‘It’s a dream that could come true.’
‘Perhaps. I don’t think so.’
‘It could come true.’
A small chilly breeze came across the river to the terrace on which they were sitting.
Shirley got up, pulling her coat tightly around her.
‘We mustn’t talk like this any more,’ she said. ‘What we’re doing is foolish, Richard, foolish and dangerous.’
‘Perhaps. But you don’t care for your husband, Shirley, you care for me.’
‘I’m Henry’s wife.’
‘You care for me.’
She said again:
‘I’m Henry’s wife.’
She repeated it like an article of faith.
When she got home, Henry was lying stretched out on the sofa. He was wearing white flannels.
‘I think I’ve strained a muscle.’ He made a faint grimace of pain.
‘What have you been doing?’
‘Playing tennis at Roehampton.’
‘You and Stephen? I thought you were going to play golf.’
‘We changed our minds. Stephen brought Mary along, and Jessica Sandys made a fourth.’
‘Jessica? Is that the dark girl we met at the Archers’ the other night?’
‘Er – yes – she is.’
‘Is she your latest?’
‘Shirley! I told you, I promised you …’
‘I know, Henry, but what are promises? She is your latest – I can see it in your eye.’
Henry said sulkily:
‘Of course, if you’re going to imagine things …’
‘If I’m going to imagine things,’ Shirley murmured, ‘I’d rather imagine an island.’
‘Why an island?’
Henry sat up on the sofa and said: ‘I really do feel stiff.’
‘You’d better have a rest tomorrow. A quiet Sunday for a change.’
‘Yes, that might be nice.’
But the following morning Henry declared that the stiffness was passing off.
‘As a matter of fact,’ he said, ‘we agreed to have a return.’
‘You and Stephen and Mary – and Jessica?’
‘Yes.’
‘Or just you and Jessica?’
‘Oh, all of us,’ he said easily.
‘What a liar you are, Henry.’
But she did not say it angrily. There was even a slight smile in her eyes. She was remembering the young man she had met at the tennis-party four years ago, and how what had attracted her to him had been his detachment. He was still just as detached.
The shy embarrassed young man who had come to call the following day, and who had sat doggedly talking to Laura until she herself returned, was the same young man who was now determinedly in pursuit of Jessica.
‘Henry,’ she thought, ‘has really not changed at all.’
‘He doesn’t want to hurt me,’ she thought, ‘but he’s just like that. He always has to do just what he wants to do.’
She noticed that Henry was limping a little, and she said impulsively:
‘I really don’t think you ought to go and play tennis – you must have strained yourself yesterday. Can’t you leave it until next week-end?’
But Henry wanted to go, and went.
He came back about six o’clock and dropped down on his bed looking so ill that Shirley was alarmed. Notwithstanding Henry’s protests, she went and rang up the doctor.