I
Rawley awoke cold and stiff the next morning. The warm light of flames flickered on the dark-brown earth-wall of the dug-out, and the dancing shadow of Alf as he knelt before the brazier was bent grotesquely where the head and shoulders overlapped on to the ceiling.
Rawley put on his tunic and pulled on his boots. He thrust his hands into his breeches’ pocket and with tousled hair stamped up and down the narrow space. Another tin of bully-beef and two of the hard, unappetising biscuits constituted breakfast, but the strong, hot tea was very welcome. He felt his stubbly chin and eyed his grimy hands as he warmed them on the tin of hot liquid, but there was no water to spare for washing. The source of supply was a well in the flattened village they had stumbled through the night before, and in the dug-out Alf had enough for drinking purposes only.
After breakfast, however, they set out carrying the three petrol tins possessed by Alf and an old and bleached canvas bucket of which he was very proud. Rawley followed him through the hole under the landslide into the grey daylight of a rainy autumn morning. They clambered out of the muddy, weed-grown trench and set off for the village. A cold, blustering wind drove the rain in their faces. Alf had a tattered ground-sheet tied with string about his shoulders, but Rawley could only turn up the collar of his tunic about his collarless neck.
In daylight the place was even more depressing than at night. They were descending a gentle slope into a wide depression, bisected by a narrow and half-obliterated road. The low weed-grown banks of old trenches straggled in all directions. Here and there wooden stakes or bent screw pickets grew forlornly from the barren soil, and tangles of barbed wire lay like black cobwebs on the tortured earth. To the right, in the lowest part of the depression, the narrow road petered out, and the brimming shell holes lay in such profusion as to produce the illusion of a vast net—countless circles of stagnant, scum-covered water strung together by narrow strips of barren soil. A few ragged walls and blackened tileless rafters marked the site of a village, and half way up the slope beyond, the bleached and ragged trunks of a leafless wood stood gaunt and dead, like hop-poles beneath the low, grey clouds. The only distant view showed the same desolate country undulating in a dreary tundra to the rain-swept horizon.
The two men, trudging through the mud, seemed to be the only living things in the landscape, and when a solitary bird rose ahead of them and shot away on the wind, Rawley exclaimed, “By jove, there’s a pigeon!”
Alf pulled his dripping ground-sheet closer about his shoulders. “Going back to the perishin’ Ark,” he growled.
They reached the village through which they had stumbled in the darkness of the previous night. By daylight it was but a few parallelograms of ragged, foot-high walls, though here and there a blackened rafter or a bent and rusty iron bedstead protruded from the weed-grown rubble of brick and plaster. Alf led the way to the well, and they filled the three cans with water. Then Rawley stripped to the waist and washed as well as one can in a leaky canvas bucket without soap or towels. He put on his damp shirt and sodden tunic, and they plodded back up the slope.
II
These first few days in the devastated area were active ones for Rawley. He had no desire either to meditate upon his position or to speculate about the future. The time that elapsed before sleep came to him each night in the tomb-like darkness of the dug-out was all too long for that purpose, and he realized that the hours of daylight must be fully occupied if the fruitless thought cycle of bitterness, desperation, and despair was not to daze his reason.
He threw himself feverishly into task after task. Many journeys were made to the lifeless wood on the hillside, and the splintered branches were dragged to the dug-out and stacked for firewood. The accumulated filth of months was swept from the dug-out floor, stuffed into a sack, and emptied into a shell hole. Some measure of comfort was introduced into the cheerless den. Among Alf’s gleanings from that once populous trench system were a pair of wire-cutters, some rusty nails, and an old German saw-bayonet; and with these simple tools Rawley constructed shelves on which to stow their belongings, a wire-netting bed for himself and—his greatest triumph—an easy chair with wire-netting seat and back.
But all this was not done in a day nor all at once. Many hours were spent in exploring the neighbouring and more remote trenches in search of the salvage on which they depended for their supplies.
It was the pioneer-like atmosphere of these expeditions that appealed to Rawley. Tramping through those deserted trenches that stretched with all their ramifications mile after mile across that wilderness of grass-grown shell holes, rubble heaps, and dead, shivered trees, he could well imagine himself to be an explorer who had stumbled upon the mouldering dwellings of some dead and long-forgotten race. And down in those burrows underground where they had lived were the evidences of that race—evidences that sometimes told a story of comedy or tragedy more eloquently than any of the excavations in ancient Pompeii. For sometimes he would enter a dug-out to find it just as its former occupants, German or British, had left it; mouldy blankets on the beds, a half-burned candle stuck to the table, illustrations torn from magazines pinned to the walls and bearing dates in 1915 and 1916, half packets of mildewy cigarettes, and once a gramophone with a warped record on the turntable.
Alf, however, was interested only in the practical side of these explorations. He inspected an abandoned dug-out with the speed and thoroughness with which a tramp will go through a dustbin, often taking objects which Rawley would have considered not worth salving, but unerringly rejecting the really worthless. On the good days they would return to their dug-out with their sacks stuffed with an odd variety of lumber: a tin or two of bully beef maybe, half a dozen candle ends, a few periodicals and tattered books, a mud-encrusted puttee and a grimy sock, a chipped enamel mug and a rusty fork, and perhaps a frowzy blanket or an old gum boot. One day they found an unopened drum of paraffin and were heartened during the long and difficult journey back to the dug-out by the knowledge that it was many future hours of cheerful light that weighed so painfully on their shoulders.
On these expeditions they seldom saw a soul. Occasionally in the distance Rawley saw one of the other outcasts moving furtively across country to disappear presently into some burrow. They were like rats that appear for a few moments in search of scraps and then go to earth again. Occasionally among the rubble heaps of a flattened village the figure of an old peasant woman would be seen wandering forlornly in search of some relic that would identify a particular heap as her home. Only on the few main roads that switchbacked across that desolate country, straight and white like the wake of a ship on the ocean wastes, was there any constant movement. Sometimes on his salvage expeditions Rawley came within sight of one of these, and from the shelter of the wilderness would watch a company of infantry trudging towards the Line, or a convoy of supply lorries roll by on the distant road. Once he saw a battery of eighteen pounders on the march and crept closer. Water ran from the shining steel helmets of the men and their heads were sunk low in the upturned collars of their British warms as they jogged along slowly through the rain. No doubt they were cursing the mud, the weather, and the Line that lay ahead, but Rawley envied them with all his heart.
III
One morning, when the December sun had broken through the clouds, and the wet weeds and grass that straggled over the trench side glittered in the cheerful light, Rawley was returning to the dug-out with a petrol tin of water. He rounded a crumbling traverse, and in the old fire-bay beyond came suddenly face to face with a stranger. The man had evidently heard him coming, for he was waiting there in the middle of the old fire-bay with one hand thrust into his breeches’ pocket, and his eyes, as they met Rawley’s startled look, wore an expression of amused and contemptuous hostility.
He was a very big man, standing well over six feet, and the service rifle that was slung by a strap over one broad shoulder looked little bigger than a boy’s air-gun. He was hatless and collarless and wore a civilian tweed jacket, undone so as to display a dirty pink flannel shirt. Beneath the jacket a bulging revolver holster was attached to the leather belt which supported his khaki cord riding breeches. Mud-spattered field boots completed the equipment.
Rawley had recovered from his surprise and was about to pass on, but the big man turned slowly and put one of his feet on the crumbling fire-step, thus blocking the way. He did not speak, but he continued to regard Rawley with the same baleful and disconcerting smirk.
Rawley put down the petrol tin and broke the silence: “Well!” he said.
The other continued to regard him for a few moments longer in silence. “Well!” he repeated at last, in a deep, gruff voice. “And what the hell do you think you’re doing here?”
Rawley was feeling uncomfortable under the man’s intense and hostile gaze, but he shrugged his shoulder and answered, “Much about the same as you, I suppose.”
The other grunted and spat. “And who the hell asked you to come?”
“No one,” answered Rawley. “But I should have thought there was enough room for both of us in this God-forsaken place.”
The other raised his eyebrows and nodded his head. “Oh, you would, would you! Well, that depends.” He rested his elbow on his upraised knee. “And so you’re a deserter, Mr. Officer! I’ve heard of you.” And his eyes travelled slowly and insolently over the stained braid on the cuff of Rawley’s unbuttoned tunic, the tarnished buttons, the collarless shirt, unshaven chin and tousled hair. “And you got the wind up when the guns went bang, and ran away, eh!” he continued slowly, with curling lip.
Rawley controlled his temper with great difficulty. “It’s true I’m a deserter,” he retorted, “but not through cold feet. And what the hell has it got to do with you, anyway!”
The other withdrew his foot from the fire-step and grinned unpleasantly. “What it’s got to do with me is that I don’t want white-livered little bastards crawling round here. Do you understand that, little Mr. Officer?” And very deliberately he dealt Rawley a stinging blow across the face with his open palm.
Rawley staggered sideways with flaming cheek, and then leapt forward in fury. His left cracked home on the big man’s jaw; his right thudded into the big body. The man stepped back out of reach, slipped the rifle from his shoulder, and put up his fists. Rawley went at him again. He got one more blow in under the long arms, and then one of the huge fists shot out and knocked him off his feet on to the floor of the trench.
He struggled up again painfully. The big man stood waiting for him with an anticipatory grin on his face. Rawley went for him again, but he had no chance. The big man was not only vastly superior to him in weight, height and reach, but was also more than his match in skill. Rawley feinted and dodged and hit desperately, but the big man blocked all his punches, and, waiting for a favourable moment, very deliberately and scientifically dealt Rawley a blow on the jaw that rattled every tooth in his head and stretched him almost senseless on the floor of the trench.
He lay motionless for a few moments. Then slowly and painfully, by digging his fingers into the wall of the trench, rose shakily to his feet. He was covered in mud from head to foot and the blood from a cut lip furrowed the grime on his chin. He tottered a pace towards his opponent who stood watching him with arms akimbo, but his shaking legs gave way and he collapsed.
The big man sat down leisurely on the fire-step. He gripped the back of Rawley’s tunic with one huge hand, and yanked him on to the fire-step beside him. Then he took a cigarette case from his pocket, stuck a cigarette in the corner of his mouth, and pushed the case under Rawley’s nose. Rawley, sick and giddy, leaning back against the trench wall, shook his head; but the big fellow shoved the case against his chest and growled menacingly, “Go on, take one.”
Rawley raised a shaking hand and fumbled at the case, whereupon the fellow plucked out a cigarette, unceremoniously jerked up Rawley’s chin with his hand, and poked the cigarette between his lips. Then he struck a match and lighted both cigarettes.
“Um. You’ve got more guts than I thought,” he said presently, in a voice that was almost friendly. “What did you desert for if it wasn’t cold feet?”
Rawley did not reply.
“Come on now,” growled the other, in his old menacing tone. “And the truth, mind, or I’ll knock your flaming head off.”
Rawley turned his aching head slowly and looked at the weather-beaten face thrust close to his own. “I don’t see what the hell it’s got to do with you,” he said. “But if you must know, I quarrelled with a senior officer and hit him.”
The other blew a cloud of smoke from his nose and looked at Rawley sideways. “What did you hit him for?” he demanded, after a pause during which he seemed to have been considering whether he could believe this.
“He was one of those swine who always wangle out of unhealthy jobs,” answered Rawley. “And when during a little shelling he wanted to stop a fellow’s leave so that he himself could go back out of it, I saw red.”
“Saw red!” echoed the big man contemptuously. “Why didn’t you shoot him? That sort’s best dead.”
“He is,” said Rawley. “That’s why I’m here. He went over backwards and broke his neck.”
The other chuckled. “Well, that’s not so bad after all,” he conceded. He stood up and slung the rifle over one shoulder. “Well, Mr. Neckbreaker, understand that I’m boss here, and you’ll have to hit damned hard to break my neck. Get in my way and—phut!” He made a significant movement with his fingers. “Jump to it when I give the word, and you can take your pickings with the rest.” And with that he turned and sauntered off round the traverse.
IV
The degrading discomforts of the life worried Rawley. He had borne discomforts with the battery patiently and cheerfully, for they were part of the necessary business of getting on with the war; but filth and squalor were hard to bear when the sense of mortification for the common good was lacking. In the gun-pits some degree of personal cleanliness was always attainable. In times of stress one might have to wait two or three days for a shave; and even if one became lousy, always sooner or later came the luxury of a hot bath and clean underclothes. But living here, in an abandoned dug-out of the devastated area, he had to go unshaven. He had no razor. He had no soap, except when he was lucky enough to find a hard, gritty morsel in one of the old trenches. He had only the clothes he stood up in, and they were filthy. One night he heated a can of water on their fire and washed his undergarment as well as he could without soap. He stood wrapt in a blanket during the task, and when he put on his clothes on the following morning they seemed little cleaner for all his efforts.
The matter did not worry Alf; but Rawley found it insupportable. What he needed was a change of undergarments. It was impossible to go frequently through that ordeal of going naked, but for a blanket, while one washed the garments and waited for them to dry.
He found a way out of the difficulty one evening at dusk when he found himself in the neighbourhood of a shattered village. This village lay on the outskirts of the devastated area, and though badly battered was more than a mere heap of brick and rubble. Tiles were gone from the roofs; walls stood ragged against the sky, and many of them were but tumbled piles of bricks, but the shell of many of the cottages remained.
The whole front wall of one cottage had been removed by shell or bomb as neatly as though sliced by a knife, and the interior gaped open to the street like a doll’s house with the front removed. Bricks and smashed furniture littered the floors and faded paper hung in strips from the walls. A staircase with a shattered banister-rail led upstairs to a room where overturned bedroom furniture hung precariously on a sagging floor and threatened an avalanche into the street. Odds and ends of garments were mixed up with the litter, and against the back wall of that upper room was a chest with half-open drawers spilling clothes.
It was these that Rawley coveted. One or two of the less damaged cottages on the outskirts of the village were occupied by an A.S.C. unit, and two Nissen huts stood in a weed-grown field nearby. Otherwise the village and the surrounding country were deserted.
Rawley lay down to wait for darkness.
Lights appeared in the occupied cottages and in the Nissen huts. The strident screech of a gramophone was wafted fitfully on the breeze. Outside one of the huts a man was singing, and the silhouette of his head and shoulders came and went against the light square window. Then he opened the door, releasing for a moment a flood of light and a strident burst of gramophone, and closed it behind him.
Rawley entered the tiny village from the other end and flitted along the road to the cottage. He picked his way cautiously over the bricks and fallen furniture on the ground floor. He groped his way step by step up the cranky staircase, praying that it would not collapse beneath him. Fortunately that chest of drawers was against the wall where the sagging bedroom floor would be at its strongest. He sidled along with his back to the wall and reached the chest.
The top drawer was half open. He put in his hand and pulled a bundle of damp clothing on to the top of the chest. He held up the garments one by one in front of him so that their outlines showed against the night sky, framed in the shattered cottage front. They were all women’s clothes. He tried to get at the next drawer, but the top drawer was warped with the damp and would neither close nor come out. The next drawer itself was slightly open, but would not move further. He was afraid to pull hard lest he should send the whole chest toppling down the sloping floor into the road. He tried the bottom drawer. It did not move. He pulled again harder, and to his joy the front came out in his hand. He pulled out the pile of garments inside, and tested them against the night sky. They were men’s garments.
He took trousers, shirts, pants, vests and socks and rolled them into a bundle under his arm; but before he could move away the lights of a car or lorry flooded the road below him, and he crouched motionless and helpless beside the chest till the dark shape of a lorry rumbled past and the road was dark again. Then he sidled back along the wall to the little landing. As he groped his way round to the head of the staircase his head became enveloped in something hanging on the wall. It was a damp-smelling jacket. He took it and went cautiously down the cranky stairs and out across the road to the open country.