1919
By the time Hannah came downstairs, Doss had built up the fire, brewed the coffee and left for the barn, like he did every morning. She put on Gabe’s old coat—there was nothing of his scent left in it now—and made a trip to the privy, then the chicken house. She was washing her hands in a basin of hot water when Doss came in from doing the chores.
“I guess I’ll drive the sleigh down and look in on the widow Jessup again,” he said. “This cold snap might outlast her firewood.”
“You’ll have a good, hot breakfast first,” Hannah told him. “While I’m fixing it, why don’t you get some preserves from the pantry and pack them up? Mrs. Jessup especially loves those cinnamon pears and pickled crab apples I put up for Christmas.”
Doss nodded, a grin crooking one corner of his mouth in a way that made Hannah feel sweetly flustered. “How’s Tobias today?”
“He’s sleeping in,” she said, cracking eggs into a bowl, keeping her gaze averted with some difficulty. “And don’t think for a moment you’re going to take him with you. It’s too cold and he’s worn-out from yesterday.”
She’d thought Doss was in the pantry, but all of a sudden his hands closed over her shoulders, startling her so that she stiffened.
He turned her around to face him. Looked straight into her eyes.
Her heart beat a little faster.
Was he about to kiss her?
Say something important?
She held her breath, hoping he would. Hoping he wouldn’t.
“Before he went back to Phoenix, Uncle Jeb said we ought to help ourselves to some hams from the smokehouse down at Rafe and Emmeline’s place,” he said. “A side of bacon, too. That means I’ll be gone a little longer than usual.”
Hannah merely nodded.
They stood, the two of them facing each other for a long moment.
Then Doss let go of Hannah’s shoulders, and she turned to whip the eggs and slice bread for toasting. He found a crate and filled it with provisions for the widow Jessup.
After he’d gone, Hannah carried a plate up to Tobias, who seemed content to stay in bed with one of his many picture books.
“I’m getting worried about that boy,” Tobias told Hannah solemnly. “He ought to be back by now.”
“I’m sure you’ll see him again soon,” Hannah said moderately. “Remember, you promised to let me know right away when you do.”
He nodded, looking glum.
She kissed his forehead and went out, leaving the door open so she’d hear if he called for her. What he needed most right now was rest, and good food to build his strength. When Doss got back with the bacon and hams, she’d make up a special meal.
Downstairs Hannah tidied the kitchen, washed the dishes, dried them and put them away. When that was done, she built up the fire and went to the china cabinet to open the top drawer. The album was there, where it belonged, but a little shiver went up her spine at the sight of it, just the same.
She reached past it, found the small leather-bound remembrance book Lorelei and Holt had sent her for a Christmas present. The cover was a rich shade of blue, the pages edged in shiny gold.
She hadn’t written a word in the journal, hadn’t even opened it. She hadn’t wanted to record her grief, hadn’t wanted to make it real by writing it down in dark, formal letters.
Now she had something very different in mind. She carried the remembrance book to the table, and then went to the study for a bottle of ink and a pen. The room was chilly. She rarely went there, because it always brought back memories of Gabe, sitting at the desk, reading or pondering over a ledger.
It was especially empty that day; though, strangely, it was Doss’s absence Hannah felt most keenly, not Gabe’s. She collected the items she needed and hurried out again.
Back in the kitchen she found a rag to wipe the pen clean. When she was finished she opened the ink and turned to the first page.
She bit her lower lip, dipped the pen, summoned up all her resolve and began to write.
My name is Hannah McKettrick. Today’s date is January 19, 1919…
Present Day
The first thing Sierra noticed when she got back to the house later that morning—with a load of groceries and a head spinning with possibilities now that she was rich—was that Travis wasn’t around. The second thing was that the album Eve had brought out to show her was gone.
She’d left it on the kitchen table, and it had vanished.
She paused, holding her breath. Listening. Was there someone in the house?
No, it was empty. She didn’t need to search the rooms, open closet doors, peer under beds, to know that.
Her practical side took over. She brought in the rest of the supermarket bags and put everything away. Put on a pot of coffee. Made a tuna salad sandwich and ate it.
Only when she’d rinsed the plate and put it in the dishwasher did she walk over to the china cabinet and open the top drawer, as Eve had done earlier that morning.
The album was back in its place.
Sierra frowned.
Invisible fingers played a riff on her spine, touching every vertebra.
She closed the drawer again.
She would look at the photographs later. Combine that with the job of cataloging the ones stored in the attic.
She brought the Christmas boxes up from the basement, carried them into the living room. Carefully and methodically removed and wrapped each ornament. Some were obviously expensive, others were the handiwork of generations of children.
By the time she’d put them all away and dismantled the silk tree, it was time to drive into town and pick Liam up at school. Backing the Blazer out of the garage, she almost ran over Travis, who had the hood up on the station wagon and was standing to one side, fiddling with one of its parts.
He leaped out of her path, grinning.
She slammed on the brakes, buzzed down the window on the passenger side. “You scared me,” she said.
Travis laughed, leaning in. “I scared you?”
“I wasn’t expecting you to be standing there.”
“I wasn’t expecting you to come shooting out of the garage at sixty-five miles an hour, either.”
Sierra smiled. “Do you always argue about everything?”
“Sure,” he said, with an affable shrug of his impressive shoulders. “Gotta stay sharp in case I ever want to practice law again. Where are you headed in such a hurry, anyway?”
“Liam’s about to get out of school for the day.”
“Right,” Travis said, stepping back.
“Do you want to come along?”
Now what made her say that? She liked Travis Reid well enough, and certainly appreciated all he’d done to help, but he also made her poignantly uncomfortable.
He must have seen her thoughts playing out in her face. “Maybe another time,” he said easily. “Eve told me you were going to take down the Christmas tree. It’s a big sucker, so I’ll lug it back to the basement if you want.”
“That would be good. The coffee’s on—help yourself.”
Travis grinned. Nodded. Stepped back from the side of the Blazer with exaggerated haste.
As she drove away, Sierra wasn’t thinking about her two-million-dollar trust fund, the vanishing teapot, the piano that played itself, teleporting photo album or even Liam.
She was thinking about the hired help.
Peering through his new telescope at the night sky, Liam felt that familiar shiver in the air. He knew, even before he turned around to look, that the boy would be there.
And he was. Lying in the bed, staring at Liam.
“What’s your name?” the boy asked.
For a moment, Liam couldn’t believe his ears. He wasn’t scared, but his throat got tight, just the same. He’d planned on telling the boy all about his first day at the new school, and a lot of other things, too, as soon as he showed up, but now the words got stuck and wouldn’t come out.
“Mine’s Tobias.”
“I’m Liam.”
“That’s an odd name.”
Liam straightened his back. “Well, ‘Tobias’ is pretty weird, too,” he countered.
Tobias tossed back the covers and got out of bed. He was wearing a funny flannel nightgown, more suited to a girl than a boy. It reached clear past his knees. “What’s that?” he asked, pointing to Liam’s telescope.
Liam patiently explained the obvious. “Wanna look? You can see all the way to Saturn with this thing.”
Tobias peered through the viewer. “It’s bouncing around. And it’s blue!”
“Yep,” Liam agreed. “How come you’re wearing a nightie?”
Tobias looked up. His eyes flashed, and his cheeks got red. “This,” he said, “is a nightshirt.”
“Whatever,” Liam said.
Tobias gave him the eyeball. “Those are mighty peculiar duds,” he announced.
“Thanks a lot,” Liam said, but he wasn’t mad. He figured “duds” must mean clothes. “Are you a ghost?”
“No,” Tobias said. “I’m a boy. What are you?”
“A boy,” Liam answered.
“What are you doing in my room?”
“This is my room. What are you doing here?”
Tobias grinned, poked a finger into Liam’s chest, as though testing to see if it would go right through. “My ma told me to let her know first thing if I saw you again,” he said.
Liam put out his own finger and found Tobias to be as solid as he was.
“Are you going to?” he asked.
“I don’t know,” Tobias said. He put his eye to the viewer again. “Is that really Saturn, or is this one of those moving-picture contraptions?”
1919
Hannah blew on the ink until it dried. Then she wiped the pen clean, sealed the ink bottle and closed the remembrance book.
Now that she’d written in it, she felt a little foolish, but what was done was done. She took the book back to the china cabinet and placed it carefully beneath the top cover of the family album.
She was just mounting the steps to go and check on Tobias when she realized he was talking to someone. She couldn’t make out the words, just the conversational tone of his voice. He spoke with an eager lilt she hadn’t heard in a long time.
She stood absolutely still, straining to listen.
“Ma!” he yelled suddenly.
She bolted up the stairs, along the hallway, into his room.
She found him lying comfortably in bed, wide awake, his eyes shining with an almost feverish excitement. “I saw the boy,” he said. “His name is Liam and he showed me Saturn.”
“Liam,” Hannah repeated stupidly, because anything else was quite beyond her.
“I said it was a strange name, Liam, I mean, and he said Tobias was a weird thing to be called, too.”
Hannah opened her mouth, closed it again. Twisted the hem of her apron in both hands. Her knees felt as though they’d turned to liquid, and even though she’d asked Tobias to let her know straight away if he saw the boy again, she realized she hadn’t been prepared to hear it. She wished Doss were there, even though he’d probably be a hindrance, rather than a help.
“Ma?” Tobias sounded worried, and his eyes were great in his face.
She hurried to his bed, sat down on the edge of the mattress, touched a hand to his forehead.
He squirmed away. “I’m not sick,” he protested. “I saw Saturn. It’s blue, and it really does have rings.”
Hannah withdrew her hand, and it came to rest, fluttering, at the base of her throat.
“You don’t believe me!” Tobias accused.
“I don’t know what to believe,” Hannah admitted softly. “But I know you’re not lying, Tobias.”
“I’m not seeing things, either!”
“I—It’s just so strange.”
Tobias subsided a little, falling back on to his pillows with a sigh. “He told me lots of stuff, Ma,” he said, his voice small and uncertain.
Hannah took his hand, squeezed it. Tried to appear calm. “What ‘stuff,’ Tobias?” she managed, after a few slow, deep breaths.
“That Saturn has moons, just like the earth does. Only, it’s got four, instead of just one. One of them is covered in ice, and it might even have an ocean underneath, full of critters with no eyes.”
Hannah swallowed a slight, guttural cry of pure dismay. “What else?”
“People have boxes in their houses, and they can watch all kinds of stories on them. Folks act them out, like players on a stage.”
Tears of pure panic burned in Hannah’s eyes, but she blinked them back. “You must have been dreaming, Tobias,” she said, fairly croaking the words, like a frog in a fable. “You fell asleep, and it only seemed real—”
“No,” Tobias said flatly. “I saw Liam. I talked to him. He said it was 2007, where he lives. I told him he was full of sheep dip—that it was 1919, and I’d get the calendar to prove it. Then he said if I was eight years old in 1919, I was probably dead or in a nursing home someplace by 2007.” He paused. “What’s a nursing home, Ma? And how could I be two places at once? A kid here, and an old man somewhere else?”
Dizzy, Hannah gathered her boy in both arms and held him so tightly that he struggled.
“Let me go, Ma,” he said. “You’re fair smothering me!”
With a conscious effort, Hannah broke the embrace. Let her arms fall to her sides.
“What’s happening to us?” she whispered.
“I need to use the chamber pot,” Tobias announced.
Hannah stood slowly, like a sleepwalker. She moved out of that room, closed the door behind her and got as far as the top of the back stairs before her legs gave out and she had to sit down.
She was still there when Doss came in, back from his travels to the smokehouse and the widow Jessup’s place. As though he’d sensed her presence, he came to the foot of the steps, still in his coat and hat.
“Hannah? What’s the matter? Is Tobias all right?”
“He’s…yes.”
Doss tossed his hat away, came up the steps, sat down next to Hannah and put an arm around her shoulders. She sagged against his side, even as she despised herself for the weakness. Turned her face into his cold-weather-and-leather-scented shoulder and wept with confusion and relief and a whole tangle of other emotions.
He held her until the worst of it had passed.
She sniffled and sat up straight. Even tried to smile. “How was the widow Jessup?” she asked.
Present Day
That night Sierra invited Travis to supper. Just marched right out to his trailer, knocked on the door and, the moment he opened it, blurted, “We’re having spaghetti tonight. It’s Liam’s favorite. It would mean a lot to him if you came and ate with us.”
Travis grinned. Evidently, he’d been changing clothes, because his shirt was half-unbuttoned. “If you’re trying to make up for almost running over me backing out of the garage this afternoon, it’s okay,” he teased. “I’m still pretty fast on my feet.”
Sierra was doing her level best not to admire what she could see of his chest, which was muscular. She wondered what it would be like to slide her hands inside that shirt, feel his skin against her palms and her splayed fingers.
Then she looked up into his eyes again, saw the knowing smile there and blushed. “It’s more about thanking you for taking the Christmas tree downstairs,” she fibbed.
“At your service,” he said with a slight drawl.
Was that a double entendre?
Don’t be silly, she told herself. Of course it wasn’t.
“There’s wine, too,” she blurted out, and then blushed again. At this rate, Travis would think she’d already had a few nips.
“Everything but music,” he quipped.
Afraid to say another word, she turned and hurried back toward the house, and she distinctly heard him chuckle before he closed the trailer door.
Liam was strangely quiet at supper. He usually gobbled spaghetti, but tonight he merely nibbled. He had a perfect opportunity to talk “cowboy” with Travis, or chatter on about his first day of school; instead, he asked to be excused so he could take a bath and get to bed early. At Sierra’s nod, he murmured something and fled.
“He must be sick,” Sierra fretted, about to go after him.
“Let him go,” Travis counseled. “He’s all right.”
“But—”
“He’s all right, Sierra.” He refilled her wineglass, then his own.
They finished their meal, cleared the table together, loaded the dishwasher. When Sierra would have walked away, Travis caught hold of her arm and gently stopped her. Switched on the countertop radio with his free hand.
Soft, smoky music poured into the room.
The next thing she knew, Sierra was in Travis’s arms, close against that chest she’d admired earlier at the door of his trailer, and they were slow dancing.
Why didn’t she pull away?
Maybe it was the wine.
“Relax,” he said. His breath was warm in her hair.
She giggled, more nervous than amused. What was the matter with her? She was attracted to Travis, had been from the first, and he was clearly attracted to her. They were both adults. Why not enjoy a little slow dancing in a ranch-house kitchen?
Because slow dancing led to other things, especially when it was wine powered. She took a step back and felt the counter flush against her lower back. Travis naturally came with her, since they were holding hands and he had one arm around her waist.
Simple physics.
Then he kissed her.
Physics again—this time, not so simple.
“Yikes,” she said, when their mouths parted.
He grinned. “Nobody’s ever said that after I kissed them.”
She felt the heat and substance of his body pressed against hers, right where it counted. If Liam hadn’t been just upstairs, and likely to come back down at any moment, she might have wrapped her legs around Travis’s waist and kissed him nuclear-style.
“It’s going to happen, isn’t it?” she heard herself whisper.
“Yep,” Travis answered.
“But not tonight,” Sierra said on a sigh.
“Probably not,” Travis agreed, grinding his hips a little. His erection burned into her abdomen like a firebrand.
“When, then?”
He chuckled, gave her a slow, nibbling kiss. “Tomorrow morning,” he said. “After you drop Liam off at school.”
“Isn’t that…a little…soon?”
“Not soon enough,” Travis answered. He cupped a hand around her breast, and even through the fabric of her shirt and bra, her nipple hardened against the chafing motion of his thumb. “Not nearly soon enough.”
After Travis had gone, Sierra felt like an idiot.
She looked in on Liam, who was sound asleep, and then took a cool shower. It didn’t help.
She would come to her senses by morning, she told herself, as she stood at her bedroom window, gazing down at the lights burning in Travis’s trailer.
She’d get a good night’s sleep. That was all she needed.
She slept, as it happened, like the proverbial log, but she woke up thinking about Travis. About the way she’d felt when he kissed her, when he backed her up against the counter…
She made breakfast.
Took Liam to school.
Zoomed straight back to the ranch, even though she’d intended to drive around town for a while, giving herself a chance to cool down.
Instead, she was on autopilot.
But it wasn’t as if she gave up easily. She raised every argument she could think of. It was way too soon. She didn’t know Travis well enough to sleep with him.
She would regret this in the morning.
No, long before then.
The truth was, she’d denied herself so much, for so long, that she couldn’t stand it any more.
She didn’t even bother to park the Blazer in the garage. She shut it down between the house and Travis’s trailer, up to the wheel wells in snow, jumped out, and double-timed it to his door.
Knocked.
Maybe he’s not home, she thought desperately.
Let him be here.
Let him be in China.
His truck was parked in its usual place, next to the barn.
The trailer door creaked open.
He grinned down at her. “Hot damn,” he said.
Sierra shoved her hands into her coat pockets. Wished she could dig her toes right into the ground somehow and hold out against the elemental forces that were driving her.
Travis stepped back. “Come in,” he said.
So much for the toehold. She was inside in a single bound.
He leaned around her to pull the door shut.
“This is crazy,” she said.
He began unbuttoning her coat. Slipped it back off her shoulders. Bent his head to taste her earlobe and brush the length of her neck with his lips.
She groaned.
“Talk some sense into me,” she pleaded. “Say this is stupid and we shouldn’t do it.”
He laughed. “You’re kidding, right?”
“It’s wrong.”
“Think of it as therapy.”
She trembled as he tossed her coat aside. “For whom? You or me?”
He opened her blouse, undid the catch at the front of her bra, caught her breasts in his hands when they sprang free.
“Oh, I think we’ll both benefit,” he said.
Sierra groaned again. He sat her down on the side of his bed, crouched to pull off her snow boots, peel off her socks. Then he stood her up again, and undressed her, garment by garment. Blouse…bra…jeans…and, finally, her lacy underpants.
He suckled at her breasts, somehow managing to shed his own clothes in the process; Sierra was too dazed, and too aroused, to consider the mechanics of it.
He laid her down on the bed, gently. Eased two pillows under her bottom. Knelt between her legs.
“Oh, God,” she whimpered. “You’re not going to—?”
Travis kissed his way from her mouth to her neck.
“I sure am,” he mumbled, before pausing to enjoy one of her breasts, then the other.
He kept moving downward, stroking the tender flesh on the insides of her thighs. He plumped up the pillows, raising her higher.
Sierra moaned.
He parted the nest of moist curls at the junction of her thighs. Breathed on her. Touched her lightly with the tip of his tongue.
She arched her back and gave a low, throaty cry of need.
“I thought so,” Travis said, almost idly.
“You—thought—what?” Sierra demanded.
“That you needed this as much as I do.” He took her full into his mouth.
She welcomed him with a sob and an upward thrust of her hips.
He slid his hands under her buttocks and lifted her higher still.
She was about to explode, and she fought it. It wasn’t as though she had orgasms every day. She wanted this experience to last.
He drove her straight over the edge.
She convulsed with the power of her release—once—twice—three times.
It was over.
But it wasn’t.
Before she had time to lament, he was taking her to a new level.
She came again, voluptuously, piercingly, her legs over his shoulders now. And before she could begin the breathless descent, he grasped the undersides of her knees and parted them, tongued her until she climaxed yet again. Only, this time she couldn’t make a sound. She could only buckle in helpless waves of pleasure.
And still it wasn’t over.
He waited until she’d opened her eyes. Until her breathing had evened out. After all of the frenzy, he waited until she nodded.
He entered her in a long, slow, deep stroke, supporting himself with his hands pressing into the narrow mattress on either side of her shoulders, gazing intently down into her face. Taking in every response.
She began the climb again. Rasped his name. Clutched at his shoulders.
He didn’t increase his pace.
She pumped, growing more and more frantic as the delicious friction increased, degree by degree, toward certain meltdown.
The wave crashed over her like a tsunami, and when she stopped flailing and shouting in surrender—and only then—she saw him close his eyes. His neck corded, like a stallion’s, as he threw back his head and let himself go.
His powerful body flexed, and flexed again, every muscle taut, and Sierra almost wept as she watched his control give way.
Afterward he lowered himself to lie beside her, wrapping her close in his arms. Kissed her temple, where the hair was moist with perspiration. Stroked her breasts and her belly.
She listened as his breathing slowed.
“You’re not going to fall asleep, are you?” she asked.
He laughed. “No,” he said. He rolled on to his back, pulling her with him, so that she lay sprawled on top of him. Caressed her back, her shoulders, her buttocks.
She nestled in. Buried her face in his neck. Popped her head up again, suddenly alarmed. “Did you use…?”
“Yes,” he said.
She snuggled up again. “That was…great,” she confessed, and giggled.
He shifted beneath her. She felt some fumbling.
“We can’t possibly do that again,” she said.
“Wanna bet?” He eased her upright, set her knees on either side of his hips.
Felt him move inside her, sleek and hard.
A violent tremor went through her, left her shuddering.
He cupped her breasts in his hands, drew her forward far enough to suck her breasts. All the while, he was raising and lowering her along his length. She took him deeper.
And then deeper still.
And then the universe dissolved into shimmering particles and rained down on them both like atoms of fire.