Lily couldn’t believe she was back on an airplane before it was time to go home. And this time she wasn’t alone. The large, comforting presence of Gabe Kapaia was on one side of her; Ashton on the other. Lily glanced up at the female flight attendant until a man came down the aisle behind the woman, causing Lily to drop her eyes. The moment Lily’s gaze was in her lap, she realized that the uniformed woman’s eyes had lingered admiringly on the men who sat on either side of her. For the first time, Lily thought about what good-looking men they were.
From the time she was a child, Lily had longed for the dark complexion of the people of Kashien and knew now why the Kapaia family was so attractive to her: They looked as she had always dreamed of looking. Her hair was dark, but it wasn’t the glossy black locks that both brothers could claim. And her eyes were green! In Lily’s opinion she couldn’t look less like an islander if she were blond-haired and blue-eyed.
“What goes on in that head of yours, Lily?” Gabe’s voice came from her right.
The slim brunette looked up at him.
“I don’t know what you mean.”
“You’re sitting very still with your eyes down. What are you thinking?”
“I was thinking about blond hair and blue eyes.”
Gabe leaned forward in his seat to get a better angle on her face. His brows had shot up, and Lily could see that she had surprised him.
“You’re not actually unhappy with your looks, are you, Lily?”
“Not exactly,” Lily said rather slowly.
Gabe held her eyes for a moment, but she didn’t elaborate.
“Do you think you’ll ever tell me what that meant?”
Lily suddenly found it impossible to explain. Feeling her face heat slightly as her tongue tied, Lily was glad when Gabe sat back with just a light touch to her arm.
Never had anyone read her as well as Gabe. Lily thought it uncanny. It was almost as if he knew what she was thinking. She had lost count of the times he asked her about her thoughts at the worst possible time.
A voice came over the intercom at that point, and Lily was glad for the distraction. She did everything the head flight attendant instructed: tray table up, seatbelt in place, bag stowed under the seat in front of her, exits located. A short time later, they were in the air.
Hilo, on the Big Island of Hawaii
Lily immediately saw what Gabe had been talking about. Carson and Gloria’s home was on a palm-lined street with houses that sat on large parcels. With the rise of the lot, the ocean seemed a long way away, but Lily had been told that it could be seen from the back of the house, and the beach was an easy walk along a paved path.
The house she walked into with the rest of the family was spacious and smelled of flowers. The front door opened up into the living room, with a galley kitchen to the left. A hallway exited out of the living room, and somehow Lily knew that it must lead to bedrooms. A small family room was adjacent to the kitchen, and on the back of the house was a large covered porch.
While Lily was taking this in, she noticed Peter and Celia heading for a box of toys in the family room. She smiled at how well they knew their way around.
“Look!” Peter could be heard calling as he found new toys that his grandmother had added.
“Here, Lily,” Carson, who was suddenly beside her, offered. “Come this way, and I’ll show you your room.”
“Oh, thank you,” Lily replied, taking a moment to remember to look up. She was now quite at ease with Gabe, Evan, and Ashton, but having eye contact with other men still took a conscious effort.
Carson took Lily through the living room, both Gloria and Gabe bringing up the rear, to the large enclosed deck on the back of the house and into a small room where the walls were almost all windows. A daybed was made up, but the room was clearly for sitting and enjoying the view.
“Are the children in here with me?”
“No, we had planned that but decided to put you out here on your own. Will this be all right?” Gloria asked.
“Yes, thank you.”
“This is Carson’s runaway room,” Gloria explained as she plumped a pillow on one of the chairs. “When he can’t sleep, he comes out here and opens all the windows. Sometimes the sound of the ocean and wind can put him to sleep.”
Lily opened her mouth but closed it again as she listened to Gloria telling her where she could store her things for the duration of her visit. After they had been thanked one last time, Carson and Gloria made their way back inside the house. Gabe stood at the door to speak to Lily.
“You didn’t ask them if you would be in the way when Carson needs this room.”
“I was thinking of doing that,” Lily admitted.
“No!” Gabe exclaimed, eyes large with mock amazement.
Lily’s hand came up to cover her smile, but her eyes gave her away. For the first time since she arrived, she tried to give as good as she had gotten.
“I’ve decided something.”
“What’s that?”
“I’m going to be so much trouble on this trip that you’ll be changing your mind about bringing me.”
“What will you do?”
Lily opened her mouth but nothing came out.
Gabe laughed at the bemused look on her face.
“I’ll think of something!” she told him, hands coming to her waist.
“You do that,” Gabe said very softly, his gaze warm.
A moment later Lily stood alone, Gabe’s eyes still in her mind as she wondered at the strange fluttering she felt in her chest and stomach.
“Have we been bad?” Peter asked after his father directed him inside and shut the door of their bedroom; Bailey and Celia were there too.
“No, Pete. Your mom and I just need to tell you and Celia about something. Okay?”
“Okay.”
The four lay on the bed, heads close. Evan took a moment to look into the faces of his children, so like his beautiful wife with their soft, dark eyes and black hair. It occurred to him that it wouldn’t hurt his feelings in the least to have another little person who looked just like them.
“Something special is going to happen in a few months, and we want you to know about it.”
“What is it?” Peter asked.
“What’s it?” Celia echoed.
“We’re going to have a new baby at our house. Mama’s going to have a baby.”
Taking a moment to react, Peter asked, “A boy or a girl?”
“We don’t know yet. We won’t know until the baby comes.”
“Do Grandma and Carson know?”
“No. We want to tell them, but first we wanted you to know.”
“Can I tell?” Peter asked.
Evan and Bailey exchanged a look before Evan decided.
“I think that would be all right.”
“I brought a special gift for Grandma’s birthday, Pete,” Bailey said. “It will help give the surprise away. So if you give her that, she’ll figure it out.”
“Where is it?”
“I want to.” Celia had suddenly realized she was being left out, and her brow came down. Bailey and Peter moved off the bed to get the present from the luggage, but Evan kept his daughter on the bed to talk about her attitude.
A short time later the four were ready to go out. Evan asked Peter to let Celia share in the gift, and Bailey had a fit of giggles over the way they attempted to hold it between them.
“Okay,” their father urged, “let’s find Grandma.”
“What’s this?” Carson asked in a loud voice as soon as they’d come into the living room. “Looks like an early birthday present for someone!”
Gloria nearly shot in from the kitchen. It was a family joke how much she enjoyed gifts and her own birthday in particular, and Carson’s loud tone had worked.
“An early gift?” she asked the adorable children who were holding it for her.
“Here, Grandma! Open it.”
“Okay. Can you help me?” Gloria invited when she’d sat with the present in her lap.
“Mama’s a baby,” Celia chose to announce just then.
“What’s that?” Gloria asked, not looking at her but trying to help Peter with the ribbon. A moment later she withdrew a bib, rattle, teething ring, and soft cloth baby book.
The family that was gathered watched as Bailey’s mother looked down at Celia—just realizing what she’d said—back to the baby gifts in the box, and then up to her daughter.
“Oh, Bailey,” Gloria said on a laugh as she came forward to hug her daughter. “When are you due?”
“It looks like June.”
“And how are you feeling?”
“Other than being tired, I’m fine.” Bailey lowered her voice and added, “I’m looking forward to having the kids stay with you.”
“Well, then we agree on that. You can ask Carson if it’s all I’ve talked about for weeks.”
Mother and daughter hugged again, and Bailey thought, not for the first time, how wonderful a grandmother her mother had turned out to be.
Lily had stowed her things quite a while before, but she still lingered in the room assigned to her. In some ways, the resort’s view of the ocean was better, but this was different, and thus fascinating. Lily watched a mother with two small children and then a couple who held hands and walked with heads close. She could see several runners, some running shoeless in the surf. Lily had brought her running shoes and shorts, but she didn’t know if it would be appropriate to head out or not.
Now that’s just what Gabe is talking about, Lily, she thought to herself. You are so afraid of doing the wrong thing that you do nothing. You’re the only one who knows what you’re interested in, so the least you can do is ask someone’s opinion on the subject.
But even after this pep talk she sat still, not wanting to tell anyone what she was thinking. She was still sitting quietly when someone knocked on the door.
“Come in,” she called from her seat by the window.
“Hello,” Bailey said as she stuck her head around the corner. “Can CeCe and I visit?”
“Please do.”
The door was opened and Celia ran for Lily, climbing into her lap as fast as she could maneuver.
“Mama’s having babies!”
“Mama’s having a baby?”
Celia nodded so fast that it looked as though she made herself dizzy.
“So you’re going to be a big sister?”
Celia nodded this time, but it was far slower, her brow drawn in puzzlement. She finally turned to her mother.
“Lilyee says I’m big.”
Bailey only laughed and then tried to explain. She was still speaking to her daughter when she looked up to see Lily looking back out the window, her eyes huge. Bailey followed her gaze and found herself thankful that it had first happened with just her and not when the men were present.
A woman was on the beach, and she had just slipped out of her cover-up to reveal a swimsuit of minuscule proportions. A two-piece outfit, it was little more than strings in the back with tiny scraps of fabric in the front. It wasn’t unusual to see these types of suits on the beach at the resort, but of course the resort had been empty for Lily’s visit.
Bailey’s gaze now shifted to Lily, who had turned red in embarrassment.
“Haven’t you ever seen a swimsuit like that, Lily?”
“No,” she whispered. “Is she not ashamed?”
“Evidently not.”
“I’m embarrassed for her.”
“I think you might have seen something similar to that at the resort before now if we had guests.”
Lily turned to Bailey with surprised eyes.
“Your guests dress like that?”
“Yes and no. We make it very clear that ours is a family atmosphere, so rarely does anyone come to the pool like that, but some couples want to swim only on the beach, and at times the women, and even the men, can be very immodest.”
“So you’re used to it?”
“No, I’ve never grown accustomed to it, and we talk to the kids about modesty issues whenever the time seems right. But these events go with the job, I’m afraid.”
Lily nodded and glanced once more to the beach. The woman was lying down now, so her nudity wasn’t as visible. Lily prayed for her, and then for her own attitude, finding it would be very easy to forget that this woman was loved by God.
“CeCe and I actually came with a mission, Lily,” Bailey said. “We’re having a snack in the kitchen and wondered if you were hungry.”
“I am, thank you. Are you eating right now?”
“Yes. Come join us.”
The ladies made their way inside and found Gloria serving up food to Ashton and Peter.
“Here they are,” she said as the threesome approached. “Just in time for cheese and crackers. Have a seat, Lily, and tell me what you would like to drink.”
“Oh, anything is fine, Mrs. Hana.”
“Please call me Gloria. How about some juice?”
“Thank you.”
“I’ve been making plans,” Ashton told Lily when she sat across from him.
“Okay.”
“You’re on a whole new island and you need to learn some new things.”
“Oh, all right. Do you have books for me to read and study?”
Ashton’s grin was downright cheeky as he admitted, “No, my idea is for Gabe to take you around.”
Lily laughed a little. “Don’t you think Gabe might have better things to do?”
“No,” Ashton blew her comment off, his hand waving to make his point. “As long as he doesn’t have to take anyone to the zoo, he would love to show you around the area.”
Lily looked a bit skeptical, but Ashton only smiled again. And because Gloria was giving her something to eat and Peter was asking her a question, she let the matter go. However, not an hour after Evan, Gabe, and Carson arrived back, Gabe sought out Lily on the porch that led to her bedroom and invited her to go sightseeing in the morning.
“Do you really have time for that, Gabe?”
“Sure. We’ll use Mom’s car and see everything there is to see. I think you’ll love it.”
“But will you?” Lily boldly asked for the first time.
Gabe nearly did a second glance but managed to keep his pleasure inside.
“Trust me, Lily, I would not have offered if I didn’t want to. And I know all the great places to visit.”
“Have you lived here on the Big Island, Gabe?”
“No, but when I was in the midst of the cancer, I spent some of my recovery time here with Mom and Carson.”
“Will it bring back bad memories for you now?”
Gabe smiled. “It’s nice of you to ask, but it feels so good to feel good, Lily, that the memories fade a little more all the time.”
“May I ask you something?”
“Sure.”
“Do you ever fear it will come back? I mean, I’m dreading just the long plane ride back to Kashien. I can’t imagine wondering what it would be like to dread the return of cancer.”
“I do have moments when I think that way, but I’ve learned that God doesn’t do things without reason. The cancer won’t come back unless that’s what’s best for me.”
“It’s a huge trust issue, isn’t it?”
“Yes, and I must be honest and tell you that it’s harder to trust in some areas than others, but the possibility of the cancer returning is usually a settled issue for me.”
“What isn’t so settled for you?” Lily asked, but immediately shook her head. “I’m sorry. That was intrusive of me. Please don’t feel you must answer.”
“No, I don’t mind at all. It’s probably good for me to talk about it.”
Lily nodded and waited for Gabe to define what he meant by it.
“I was only 22 when the cancer was diagnosed. We were all in shock—mostly me—and so when the doctors told me I needed to prepare ahead of time if I ever wanted to have children of my own, I didn’t do anything. I guess I had accepted the fact that I probably wouldn’t live through the ordeal, so I missed my chance.”
“And that’s what plagues you at times?”
“Yes.”
“So you don’t believe in adoption?” Lily asked, hardly believing she had voiced that thought.
“I think adoption is wonderful, but I’m not certain with my medical history that I would ever qualify.”
Lily nodded. “I’ve read about how hard adoption can be in America.”
“It’s not hard in Kashien?”
“To adopt a baby? No. In fact, if I don’t marry, I hope to adopt at least two children. I think it’s best if children have a father and a mother, but I would still like to try.”
“Is it easier for folks who live in Kashien?”
Lily looked at him and saw that he was listening very closely.
“Not necessarily. As you can guess, boys are more treasured, so more questions might be asked, but many babies leave the country every year.”
Gabe had many other things he wanted to know, but Evan and Peter joined them on the porch before he could continue.
“Am I interrupting?” Peter asked, and Lily could see that Evan had schooled him before they came out.
“We were talking, Peter, but that’s fine,” Gabe said. “What did you need?”
“I want to know if Lily can go to the beach with me for a little while before supper.”
“Yes, I can,” Lily said right away. “Shall we go now?”
He nodded and looked so sweet that Lily didn’t think she could deny him anything.
“I was going to ask you, Peter,” Lily said as she stood, “when is your grandma’s birthday party?”
“Friday night. Niko will be here.”
“Who is Niko?”
“His real name is Nikolo, but we call him Niko.”
“How do you know him?” Lily tried again.
Still on the porch, Evan and Gabe missed the rest of Peter’s answer as he and Lily walked toward the path that led to the beach.
“Did we come out at the worst possible time?” Evan asked, eyes on his brother-in-law.
“No, it’s all right. We’re headed off tomorrow, so if I want to pick the conversation up again, I’ll have a chance then.”
“How are things going?”
Gabe sighed. “Well, all lights are green. I just don’t know how to put my foot on the gas.”
“Meaning?”
“Meaning Jeff couldn’t be more happy, and all of you are ecstatic, but Lily doesn’t have a clue.”
“What will you do?”
“I won’t be sneaky; I can tell you that. If Lily and I can’t dialogue over the way I’m feeling, then there’s no hope.”
“I can see how you would want that, Gabe, but you might need to give her time once you bring the subject up.”
“That’s true,” Gabe agreed, his eyes still on Lily and Peter’s progress. “I know she’s comfortable with me, and that’s at least a start.”
“That’s how things began with Bales and me.”
“Where is Bailey? I haven’t seen her for hours.”
“Sleeping. She was in a bit of panic about not wanting to forget any of the kids’ things and wore herself out before we left.”
“Her condition doesn’t help, either. I remember at the end with Celia she slept all the time.”
“Yeah. It’s pretty typical to be worn out at the beginning and end.”
Talk about naps made both men drowsy. Evan slouched down in his seat, and Gabe watched Lily in the distance until he couldn’t keep his lids open. Not surprisingly, he dozed off with her on his mind.