Rosemary Dempsey juggled two overflowing brown paper grocery bags, managing to close the hatchback of her Volvo C30 with her right elbow. Spotting Lydia Levitt across the street, she quickly turned away, hoping to slip from the driveway to her front door unnoticed.
No such luck.
“Rosemary! My goodness. How can one person eat so much food? Let me help you!”
How could one person be so rude? Rosemary wondered. Rude, and yet at the same time so kind?
She smiled politely, and before she knew it, her across-the-street neighbor was at her side, grabbing one of the bags from her hands.
“Multigrain bread, huh? Oh, and organic eggs. And blueberries—all those antioxidants! Good for you. We put so much junk into our bodies. Personally, my weakness is jelly beans. Can you believe it?”
Rosemary nodded and made sure Lydia saw her polite smile. If Rosemary had to guess, she’d have said the woman was in about her midsixties, though God knows she didn’t care.
“Thank you so much for your help, Lydia. And I’d say jelly beans are a relatively harmless vice.”
She used her now-free hand to unlock the front door of her house.
“Wow, you lock your door? We don’t usually do that here.” Lydia set her bag next to Rosemary’s on the kitchen island, just inside the entryway. “Well, about the jelly beans, tell that to Don. He keeps finding little pink and green surprises in the sofa cushions. He says it’s like living with a five-year-old on Easter Sunday. Says my veins must be like Pixy Stix, filled with sugar.”
Rosemary noticed the message light blinking on her telephone on the kitchen counter. Was it the call she was waiting for?
“Well, thank you again for the help, Lydia.”
“You should come down for the book club on Tuesday nights. Or movies on Thursdays. Any activity you want, really: knitting, brunch club, yoga.”
As Lydia rambled on about the various games Rosemary could be playing with her neighbors, Rosemary thought about the long road that had led her to this conversation. Rosemary had always assumed she’d remain forever in the home where she had raised her daughter and lived with her husband for thirty-seven years. But, as she had learned so long ago, the world didn’t always work precisely as one expected. Sometimes you had to react to life’s punches.
After Susan died, Jack offered to quit his job and go back to Wisconsin. The stock in the company that he had accumulated over the years and the generous pension and retirement benefits meant that they had plenty of money to take care of them for the rest of their lives. But Rosemary had realized that they had built a life in California. She had her church and her volunteer work at the soup kitchen. She had friends who cared so much about her that they kept her freezer full of casseroles for months, first after she said good-bye to Susan, then to Jack.
And so she’d stayed in California. After Jack died she did not want to stay in their home. It was too large, too empty. She bought a town house in a gated community outside Oakland and continued her life there.
She knew that she could either live with her grief or fall into despair. Daily Mass became a routine. She increased her volunteer work to the point where she became a grief counselor.
In retrospect, she might have been better off with a condo in San Francisco. In the city she would have had her anonymity. In the city she could buy multigrain bread and organic eggs and carry her groceries and check that urgent, blinking phone message without having to fend off Lydia Levitt’s attempts to recruit her into group activities.
Her neighbor was finally wrapping up the list. “That’s what’s nice about this neighborhood,” Lydia said. “Here at Castle Crossings, we’re basically a family. Oh, I’m sorry. That was a poor choice of words.”
Rosemary had first met this woman sixteen months ago and yet it wasn’t till this moment that she finally saw herself through Lydia Levitt’s eyes. At seventy-five years old, Rosemary had already been a widow for three years and had buried her only daughter two entire decades earlier. Lydia saw her as an old woman to be pitied.
Rosemary wanted to explain to Lydia that she had made a life filled with activities and friends, but she knew the woman had a point. Her activities and friends were the same as when she had been a San Mateo wife and mother. She had been slow to allow new people into her world. It was as if she didn’t want to know anyone who didn’t also know and love Jack and Susan. She didn’t want to meet anyone who might see her, as Lydia apparently did, as a widow marked by tragedy.
“Thank you, Lydia. I really appreciate it.” This time, her gratitude was sincere. Her neighbor might not have been tactful, but she was caring and kind. Rosemary made a mental promise to reach out again to Lydia once she was less preoccupied.
• • •
Once Rosemary was alone, she eagerly retrieved her voice mail. She heard a beep, followed by a clear voice that hinted at a tone of excitement.
“Hi, Rosemary. This is Laurie Moran from Fisher Blake Studios. Thank you so much for sending back the release. As I explained, putting the show together depends also on how many of the people involved in the case we can sign up. Your daughter’s agent, unfortunately, has passed away, but we have letters out to all the names you gave us: Frank Parker, the director; her boyfriend, Keith Ratner; and Susan’s roommates, Madison and Nicole. The final call gets made by my boss. But your willingness to participate makes an enormous difference. I truly hope this happens and will get back to you as soon as I have a final answer. In the meantime, if you need me—”
Once Laurie began reciting her contact information, Rosemary saved the message. She then dialed another number from memory as she began unloading groceries. It was the number of Susan’s college roommate Nicole.
Rosemary had told Nicole that she had decided to go ahead with the program.
“Nicole, have you made a decision about the television show?”
“Not quite. Not yet.”
Rosemary rolled her eyes but kept her voice even. “The first time they made that kind of special, they ended up solving the case.”
“I’m not sure I want the attention.”
“It’s not attention about you.” Rosemary wondered if she sounded as shrill as she felt. “The focus of the show would be on Susan. On trying to solve her case. And you were close to Susan. You’ve seen how when someone brings it up on Facebook or Twitter, there are dozens of opinions, not least of which among them is that Susan was some kind of slut involved with half the men on campus. You could help to erase that image.”
“How about the others? Did you speak to them?”
“I haven’t yet,” Rosemary said honestly, “but the producers will make their choice based on the level of cooperation they get from the people involved in the case. You were Susan’s roommate for nearly two years. You know that other people won’t want to cooperate.”
She didn’t even bother speaking their names. First up was Keith Ratner, whose wandering eye Susan had forgiven so many times. Despite his own transgressions, his possessiveness of Susan and unjustified jealousy had always made him Rosemary’s top suspect. Next was Frank Parker, who had marched on with his fancy career, never giving Rosemary and Jack the common courtesy of a phone call or sympathy card for the loss of their daughter, whose only purpose in going to the Hollywood Hills was to see him. And Rosemary had never trusted Madison Meyer, Susan’s other roommate, who had been only too happy to step into the role that Susan was supposed to audition for that night.
“Knowing Madison,” Nicole was saying, “she’ll show up with hair and makeup done.”
Nicole was trying to defuse the tension with humor, but Rosemary was determined to stay on message. “You’ll be important to the producers’ decision.”
The silence on the other end of the line was heavy.
“They’ll be deciding soon,” Rosemary nudged.
“Okay. I just need to check on a couple of things.”
“Please hurry. The timing is important. You’re important.”
As Rosemary clicked off the phone, she prayed that Nicole would come through. The more people Laurie Moran could enlist, the greater the hope that one of them would inadvertently give himself or herself away. The thought of reliving the terrible circumstances of Susan’s death was daunting, but she felt as though she were hearing lovable, wonderful Jack’s voice saying, Go for it, Rosie.
Lovable, wonderful Jack.