21

The following four mornings, Nash rose before any of us and began his interrogation of Frere. We were again told to stay away from the garrison and the gaol while this took place. Even though allowed otherwise, I made no attempt to visit Frere as Nash began his assault upon him.

Each afternoon, Nash returned to his quarters, saw no-one, and spent several hours there transcribing the notes he had taken. It was in all our interests, he repeatedly insisted, that the fullest account possible be kept of these proceedings. He was accomplished in shorthand and promised us that an accurate record was being made of everything that passed between himself and Frere. We would none of us see this record, of course, but we were asked to believe in its integrity.

On the second morning of this questioning, Abbot arrived at the quarry to discover a sealed package on his desk marked confidential. He opened it to find a copy of the quarry’s working accounts over the previous eighteen months. Whole swathes of figures had been underlined and circled and dotted with question marks like trees on a map. This was accompanied by a letter from Nash insisting that from that day forward, work in the place be suspended indefinitely. He was acting on orders; no-one was accusing Abbot of mismanagement or falsification.

Abbot spent several hours reading from these accounts and comparing them with his own. The tallies differed endlessly and he was at a loss to understand how these new figures had been calculated, and by whom, and to what end. Some of the pages were signed in verification with the names of shipping agents in Impoko and Stanleyville, our line of dispatch; the Board of the defunct Railway Company had submitted its records of quarry labour used and ballast supplied; other concerns sent in their own reports. For eighteen months, it seemed, others had been at work on these contradictory tallies, and Abbot was stunned by the blow. He insisted to anyone who would listen that he had recorded accurately and honestly all the rock blasted and removed, all the wages for the labour supplied.

He waited until the evening and sought Nash out, taking Fletcher with him to confront the man.

Nash affected surprise at the furore he had caused. He listened to Abbot’s outrage and then repeated that neither he nor the directors were accusing Abbot of malpractice, merely pointing out that grave discrepancies existed between labour and cost expended and benefits achieved. What good, he said, was a week of a man’s labour, when all there was to show for that labour was a pile of rubble of no use to anyone? It was an unassailable argument where effort and achievement, cost and profitability were all part of the same miserable, deflated equation.

Fletcher said little in Abbot’s defence, merely nodding in confirmation or agreement when called upon by Abbot to do so. Nash remained calm throughout. He had been given no other choice but to suspend work at the quarry. It was part of his reason for being there. And yes, he had known from the moment of his own briefing by the Board in London that this drastic course of action was needed and would be taken.

But Abbot continued to rage like a spoilt child. He insisted on re-submitting his own accounts to the Company, and Nash told him he was at perfect liberty to do so, but that he ought to be aware of how this might affect his chances of future employment by the directors. Abbot stopped shouting at this. He was a man who had raced screaming to the edge of a cliff only to find himself with neither the voice nor the energy to take those final steps over its rim. He gathered up his ledgers and left Nash and Fletcher alone.

Fletcher told me afterwards that he had asked Nash about his own position at the Station and that he had learned all he needed to know by Nash’s first evasive answer. Nash, he said, was a man who liked to control the pace and direction of the race, and was considerably less certain of himself when issues were forced beyond that control. He told me it was something I would do well to remember.

Having spent the late afternoons writing up his reports, Nash would then feel himself at liberty to wander among us, watching and assessing us as we worked, calculating the web of connections between us, and between ourselves and Frere, and all the time insisting that these encounters were nothing more than coincidental, men socializing, men relaxing after the rigours of their day’s labour.

It was clear to us that whatever was happening between himself and Frere, the questioning was proceeding to Nash’s satisfaction.

He joined in our discussions and complaints. He shared our meals and asked us about our lives and pasts and the families we had left behind us. He showed us pictures of his own mother and father and of the fiancÈe he hoped soon to marry. By ‘soon’ he meant five years, and he hoped the woman would come out to him when he was settled here. He alone staked his belief in the woman’s devotion and patience.

This suggestion that he saw his own future in the place – Naiyasha and Tanaland were the places he mentioned – surprised us; we had imagined him returning to London when he was done with us, imagined only ourselves wandering aimlessly into the void of his absence and recommendations. He would become a gentleman farmer, he said, and a Colonial administrator. The coming years, the new century, would see a need for men like him.

Abbot surprised me by sitting late into the night with the man; I saw how quickly he had learned to tack into those same favourable passing winds, and listening to his feigned interest in everything Nash now said was as painful as listening to the secrets of any pathetic man.

Before leaving him, I asked Nash how long he thought his interrogation of Frere would last, and instead of telling me it was none of my business, as I had expected, he said casually that he would not be seeing Frere for three or four days. He saw my surprise at this, and said he needed time to reflect on what he had already been told. He would say no more.

‘Go and see him,’ he said off-handedly, turning back to Abbot, to the bottle and glasses which stood between them. ‘I assure you, he will complain of no mistreatment from me.’

Outside, I heard their shared laughter. I wondered at the speed of Abbot’s change of heart, at what reassuring glimpses of his own future he yet hoped to secure.

*   *   *

I encountered Bone standing on a high bank overlooking the swollen river. Small islands raced downriver, whole trees with their families of apes and flocks of roosting birds intact.

It was mid-morning, a time when I would have expected him to be occupied at the garrison.

He looked up at my approach, but made no effort to leave. I sensed his resentment at something before he spoke.

‘Nash?’ I said.

He spat into the water beneath him. His few teeth were darker than ever, and when he chewed or opened his mouth, his whole face took on a faintly imbecilic look.

‘“Make the most of what little time remains to you here, Sergeant Bone,”’ he said.

‘You, too,’ I said.

Without warning, he drew out his pistol and fired at a passing branch upon which sat a solitary bird. The shot missed, and the branch and bird were soon out of range.

‘Have you been present at his questioning?’ I asked him.

‘Guarding him, you mean? I offered, but he said he needed no guard. Heard most of it, though. He couldn’t keep me from sitting outside, not in the garrison. He said he might take Frere back to the compound with him, but I soon put him right on that one. Said he had authorization, but didn’t have it with him. I told him the only “authorization” I needed to see was the letter telling him to send Frere down to the coast to be hanged.’

‘What did he say to that?’ I did my best not to sound too interested, but he saw through this.

‘Wouldn’t you like to know,’ he said.

I offered him my tobacco pouch and he took a handful from it and stuffed it in his pocket.

‘You seem convinced it’s what’s going to happen,’ I said.

‘Not really. Put it another way – you’re the only one left with half an idea it won’t happen.’ He laughed at his cleverness, but whereas in the past he might have continued to play to this small advantage, he said nothing more and turned back to look out over the river. If it had been anyone other than Bone, I would have described his mood as contemplative.

‘He told me he knew I’d taken money,’ he said.

‘From me?’

‘From anybody I could get it from. He said I’d “misappropriated” supplies, whatever that means, and that I’d neglected my duties here.’

‘He’s swinging his stick at all of us,’ I said.

‘He had my bloody contract with him. “Three months, Sergeant Bone, three months.” He wanted to know what kind of real work I considered myself capable of.’ He fired his pistol again, but this time only at the passing water.

‘Will you go back to the coast? Home?’

He shrugged, unwilling even to consider all he was about to lose.

‘And in the middle of all this there’s him and Frere like a pair of bloody lords sitting together in their club.’

‘Oh?’

‘You’d think he’d come out here to pin a medal on the man instead of fit him up for a rope.’

‘They’re both educated, civilized men,’ I said coldly, hoping to suggest some sympathy for his position, some false alliance between us.

‘Aren’t we all?’ he said. ‘Not educated, but civilized. We’re all civilized.’ He turned to me for the first time. ‘You must feel a bit left out of it, you and Frere being such friends, and all.’

‘Not really.’

He laughed. ‘“Not really.” Who are you fooling? You’d pay a shilling a word to know what passed between them.’

‘Once, perhaps.’

‘No – now. Don’t worry. It won’t cost you that much.’

‘I imagine Nash must find it hard work,’ I said.

‘Nothing of the sort. Every question he asks, Frere answers. The pair of them are at it for hours on end.’

‘Questions about what?’

‘About everything, about all this, this place, about you lot, about me.’ He slapped himself on the chest.

‘And Frere answers him willingly?’

‘Tells him everything. Can’t tell him enough. What you think, reckon he’s seen a chance to save himself?’

I doubted this. That would amount to salvation – something it was beyond Nash to offer, and even further beyond Frere to accept.

‘Spent all the first morning talking about that useless hole in the ground, what happened there. Then about the wharves, about trade there, about the rubber, about them across the river.’

‘But nothing about Frere leaving us?’

‘Oh, all that came later. Where he went, why he went, what he saw, what he did.’ He stopped abruptly.

‘And did you overhear all that, too?’

He considered this for a moment before shaking his head. ‘It’s where Nash left off. He’s not stupid. He wants everything else first before Frere finally tells him and then falls dumb on him.’

I saw the sense in what he suggested.

‘So you think he’s building up to asking him what he did?’

‘About the girl he killed.’

‘Is alleged to have killed.’

‘Still can’t bring yourself to even think it of him, can you? You’d believe it of me, but not him. And what if it was more than killing her he had a hand in, what then, what else wouldn’t you force yourself to face up to?’

I remained silent. He, too, said nothing for several minutes.

A steamer passed us going upriver, its stern paddle working hard against the current, churning up a spray of dirty water and making hardly any progress. Men at the prow fended off the larger pieces of floating vegetation with poles. I saw the master standing in the wheel-house, his face fixed ahead of him. It was a foolish journey to attempt so soon after the rain.

‘He’s going nowhere fast,’ Bone said, taking pleasure in the vessel’s struggle. He aimed his pistol at the man and said, ‘Bang.’

‘Do you imagine Nash is aware that you can overhear him with Frere?’ I said.

‘He knows everything else. He doesn’t strike me as a man who ever left anything to chance in his life.’

So, presumably, he knew that Bone would in turn repeat what he had heard.

‘Must worry you,’ he said.

‘What must?’

‘Knowing that when the time comes, Frere’s going to talk about what he did in exactly the same way he’s been talking about everything here.’

‘If you say so.’

‘If I say so. Face it – he’s desperate for it, aching to tell Nash everything that happened.’

‘So why should I find that worrying?’

‘Because he’s ready and willing to do it for Nash and he never would for you, his so-called friend. He’ll tell the man with the rope, but not the man who might have helped him away from it all.’

‘You overestimate my powers.’

‘I know. But don’t lie and tell me it isn’t what you once thought you’d do. You think he keeps it all separate, all away from us by telling that stuffed shirt and not the rest of us?’

‘I imagine it’s what Frere wants, what he believes, and that he has his reasons for doing it.’ It was a weightless answer.

‘Then he’s wrong. This is all going to come crashing down whatever Nash gets to hear or not hear. Frere’s going to tell him everything and then get handed over to the clever niggers and they’re going to hang him. He’ll be theirs, a present from us to them, something to let them know we think they’ll be as good at running the place as we were. We all know different, but that’s not going to be said, is it? A million of them for every one of us.’ He looked into his dirt-encrusted palm as though every part of this simple understanding lay revealed to him there. ‘Nash is just here to wrap him up and hand him over,’ he said.

The boat at the centre of the river abandoned its struggle and turned in an awkward curve towards the far shore. The current on our side bit into the bank and scoured it away. The slanting piles of our damaged jetty had been lost several days ago. Traders were beginning to complain that others among our moorings were unsafe.

‘Fletcher tell you about our attack?’ Bone said.

‘Attack?’

‘One of my men. Clayton. Shot in the bloody head. Arrow. Nigger sitting up a tree. Fired straight down at him.’ He pressed a finger down the side of his face and into his neck.

‘Where? Why?’

‘About half a mile inland. Been to see some woman or other. Never heard a thing. Just shot from above. Inch to one side and it would have been through his skull. As it is, he’s going to have a six-inch scar and mumble his words for the rest of his life. Fletcher not tell you?’

‘I haven’t seen him recently,’ I lied.

‘Happened two days ago. Perhaps he doesn’t think it’s important, not with everything else that’s going on.’

I wondered if he was going to make more of this, but he seemed unconcerned by the event.

‘Do you know why he was attacked?’

‘Who knows. Most of their crops have gone. Perhaps they’re just getting brave, perhaps that’s it.’

‘I didn’t realize anyone hereabouts was hostile towards us.’

‘One day they aren’t, next day they are.’

‘Perhaps Clayton did something to upset whoever attacked him.’

‘I wouldn’t put it past him. He’s one for the women. And he’s not choosy.’ He grinned at the suggestion.

‘Was anything done to try and apprehend the man responsible?’

‘What’s the point? He was long gone by the time Clayton got back to us with his face all cut up and the arrow still sticking in his neck. This long.’ He stretched his thumb and forefinger to indicate the dart.

‘Do you still have it?’ I asked him.

‘Clayton does. Why?’

‘Frere might be able to identify it.’

‘Him? What good is he to any of us now? Forget it. The next nigger Clayton sees and there’s nobody looking, he’ll be the one who fired it.’

‘That would be unadvisable,’ I said.

He turned and laughed at me in disbelief.

‘I mean it,’ I said.

‘So what?’ He looked away to watch the distant boat approach the far shore. A large number of other vessels had already gathered there. A small white cloud hung above a boat off-loading crushed talcum.

Finally, Bone rose from where he sat.

‘Anything you want me to pass on to Frere?’ he said.

I shook my head.

‘Thought not. Not much left for any of us to say to him, is there? Suppose he might as well get used to that.’

He left me, whistling loudly as he went from the open ground into the trees. He still held his pistol, and now he pointed it ahead of him as he walked.

Beneath me, the river undermined an overhang, and I watched as a length of the bank was cut away, roots and soil falling into the current, darkening it briefly, and obscuring even further the restless boundary between the earth and the water.

*   *   *

I finally went to see Frere. I waited until mid-afternoon, knowing that Nash, if he too had been to the gaol, would have finished his questioning by then.

I was surprised to see Frere outside, at the centre of the garrison yard with Bone. The two men stood close in conversation. Frere was the first to see me, over Bone’s shoulder, but he made no acknowledgement; instead, he pulled Bone closer to him and continued talking, and only as I approached to within a few feet of them did Bone finally turn to face me. He leaned closer to Frere’s ear and whispered something to him, at which Frere nodded in agreement. Frere then took out a handful of coins and tipped these into the pocket Bone held open for him. Seeing this transaction, and the hurried exchange which preceded it, there was no doubt in my mind that my arrival was welcomed by neither man.

After pocketing the money, Bone made a great play of holding out his hand to Frere and shaking Frere’s own for longer than was necessary. The energy was all Bone’s.

Following this, he held out his other, disfigured hand to me, as though I too played some unknowing part in their conspiracy, but as I raised my own hand, more in surprise than with intent, Bone laughed and took back his own. He considered me for a moment and then walked away. Several of his men, the wounded Clayton among them, sat in the garrison doorway.

‘Were you paying him for news?’ I asked Frere, giving him his answer, and avoiding any embarrassment between us when he refused to tell me more directly what he had paid for.

‘For what he tells me. I don’t work too hard to separate the “news” from the rumours and sundry tale-telling. It helps me to stand a little more steadily at the calm centre of things and imagine I still have some control over what’s happening.’

‘He’s selling it in both directions,’ I said.

‘I know. I think you underestimate our Sergeant, James.’

‘Oh?’

‘Truly. I envy him the simple, straightforward way he has of looking at things.’ He rubbed his thumb and forefinger together.

‘He considers himself first and foremost, and anyone else hardly ever,’ I said.

‘Precisely. You and I, James, we step back to take in the whole canvas; Bone, however, goes directly to the small, poorly painted figure in the bottom corner, sees himself, and disregards everything else.’

‘I don’t see how that could be thought of as enviable.’

He walked ahead of me. We resumed unheard at the centre of the space. The voices of Bone and his men came to us distorted through the heat.

‘You know, of course, that Nash has been to see me and started his work.’

‘We all—’

‘And that it is his policy to start from a distance and circle me in ever-decreasing circles, that he resists all my attempts to draw him into me more quickly.’

‘Is that what you want?’

‘Not necessarily. I merely object to having to comply to his own timetable, to make everything fit so neatly into his own plan of events.’ He smiled. ‘Almost as though his report were already written and I were merely adding my initials to each printed page.’

‘So you still see that broader picture, then?’

‘I saw it the instant I came round and saw Hammad’s men staring down at me and felt my hands and feet tied.’

‘I’m sorry,’ I said. ‘Did Bone tell you about Nash closing the quarry?’

‘I imagine Abbot will soon find some new purpose in life.’

I told him about the understanding which now seemed to exist between the two men.

Afterwards, when he had made his own assessment of what was happening at the quarry, he said, ‘Nash has a great deal more to do here than prepare me for dispatch to the coast.’

A month ago, a week even, I might have felt an impulse to deny what he said, but standing with him there, I said nothing, and this appeared to relax him, knowing that I had begun to accept the unacceptable.

‘Did Bone tell you about his man who was attacked?’ I said.

‘No. Attacked how?’

I told him what Bone had told me the previous day. He was concerned by the news, treating it as though it were not an isolated incident of revenge, but rather something he had been anticipating. He asked me if there had been any reports of other attacks. I said I hadn’t heard of any, and he told me to ask the traders and boatmen if they had encountered anything similar. I promised him I would.

I had with me several nine-month-old newspapers I had acquired from an indigo trader earlier that morning, and I gave them to him. Like the rest of us, he had long since learned to live out of step with the world, but he thanked me for them as though they contained that morning’s news and it was all good.

It had not been my purpose for visiting him, but I had a sudden desire to ask him if he wanted me to let Caroline know what was happening to him. I would not relate the matter in all its speculative detail, of course, but I might at least suggest something of his situation to her. My last letter to her, written ten days after his disappearance, would still be a month away from her, and I gained some reassurance from seeing how this dislocation worked in reverse. He would be hanged and buried and his grave overgrown and she might still be writing to me to ask me about our specimen-collecting adventures together. I felt a sudden chill at the awful task which lay ahead of me.

I was diverted from all this by Frere remarking aloud on something he read. I half-listened to him and half-answered his questions as he went on talking to me. After several minutes of this, he stopped, folded the papers and pushed them under his arm. I walked with him further from the watching men.

‘In three days’ time, Nash intends to quiz me on my disappearance – my desertion and dereliction of duty – and my crime.’ He raised his hand to prevent me from speaking. ‘Until then I must live in this limbo. I am prepared to accommodate him and adhere to his plan. It is how he works. I understand that. And in understanding that, I consider myself to have some small advantage over him. It is not what another man might consider to be an advantage – I am still condemned – and it may be a very short-lived advantage – he will learn all he needs to know in a single hour of quizzing me – but, nevertheless, it is how I choose to see it: an advantage. Put crudely, I know something he does not; I know something it is his duty to learn, and that one question and its answer define his whole being. I know he has interests elsewhere, and that he involves himself in those wherever possible, now here and soon elsewhere, but at the very centre of him lies what I must tell him and what he must learn. Do you understand what I’m telling you, James?’

I nodded.

‘And you do not need to tell me how fragile and possibly worthless that power is, how illusory and deceptive it may yet prove to be. It will not save me; it will not redeem me; it will not remove me from Nash’s blessed plan. But while I possess it, it is all I possess. Do you understand that, too?’

I told him I did.

He had raised his voice to tell me all this, and a fleck of blood had appeared at the side of his mouth. He touched this gently with his fingertip, studied it briefly and then wiped his lips with his palm. Whatever illness afflicted his gums and tongue, remained. I remarked on it, but he said he was still treating it, though with little effect.

He had told me what he wanted to tell me and I felt a great relief at having heard him after so long being refused and denied by him. After all that time, I felt as I had felt being in his company during our first months together.

Then, as though he had earlier read my dark thoughts, he said, ‘Do you hear from Caroline at all?’

‘Nothing. Nothing since all this…’

‘I suppose that is to be expected.’

‘Nor have I written anything concerning any of this to her,’ I said, knowing that this was his true question.

‘I’m grateful,’ he said. ‘I spend most of my time when Nash is absent composing long letters of my own. I hoped you might take charge of them and ensure—’

‘Of course,’ I said.

Then he took a deep breath and said, ‘I think of her often.’ But no more, as though those five words were to convey to me a whole day’s conversation filled with remembering and longing – a thousand words, a hundred thousand, where the same few, simple things were to be said over and over again in their variant forms, just as they were said over and over again in all good conversations made endless by excitement and savoured by each participant.

‘I know you do,’ I told him, and I too could say no more.

We remained silent after that, walking absently towards the garrison wall. It was as we reached this that we heard shouting behind us and saw Bone gesticulating in our direction from the shade of the buildings.

‘I’ve strayed too far,’ Frere said. He embraced me and thanked me again for the newspapers. ‘Please, let me return alone. Tell Cornelius to avail himself of anything of mine that Nash has not already taken as evidence.’

It was beyond me to tell him that Cornelius would have cared little for the offer, that for most of the time he now kept himself apart from us as the nightfall of his own future descended around him.

‘He sends his best wishes,’ I said.

‘Tell him his medicines are working.’

I saw how each of these small gestures and remarks was a gesture or remark of detachment. More blood had appeared at the corner of his mouth, but this time he made no attempt to remove it.

I left him by the gate in the garrison wall and he returned to the gaol. I watched to see if Bone might once again approach him, but Frere entered the building alone and was lost to me the instant he stepped from the light into its impenetrable shade.