“I still can’t believe you’ve got a sister and no one told you!” Sarah exclaims, as she picks up a book to read to me in bed. “I knew nothing, Jemma. Your mom and dad never even mentioned her.”
I definitely believe her—if Mom and Dad had told Sarah about Jodi, she would have let something slip. She’d never keep something like that from me.
“Me and my sister, Kate,” says Sarah, “we don’t always get along, but I can’t imagine growing up and not knowing her. I bet you can’t wait for a letter from Jodi!”
Sarah keeps mentioning Jodi over the next couple of days. It’s as if she’s as excited as I am. I wish I could tell her how nervous it makes me. What if Jodi doesn’t write?
At least it means Sarah’s not talking about Dan so much. I can almost start to pretend he doesn’t exist. In fact, today Sarah isn’t talking at all—she’s concentrating as she battles to get my rebellious arms into the sleeves of a sweater. My muscle spasms are worse than usual because I haven’t been sleeping well. Thinking about my sister has kept me awake. “Tonight’s the night,” she whispers. I wonder what she means. She’s not seeing Dan again, is she? She’s seeing so much of him that I’m sometimes scared she’s going to run off with him! But of course, she’d never do that.
“I’m breaking up with Richard,” she says. “It has to be done. I’m not being fair to him.” She runs a brush quickly but gently through my tangled hair. “I can’t keep putting it off. I know he’ll be heartbroken, though—he’s such a softy.”
At last Sarah is doing the right thing. It’s no good going out with someone just because you feel sorry for them. Now she just needs to dump Dan too! I wish she had more sense when it comes to men. She’s had a few boyfriends since she’s been here, and they’ve all been hopeless. Like Jason, who was always borrowing money from her and never paying it back, and a guy named Mario who was only interested in football and a total bore. Next was wimpy Richard. And then Dan came along.
* * *
Sarah’s in her room getting ready to go out when the doorbell rings. She’s meeting Richard downtown, so I know it’s not him. I’m in the living room, but the door’s open and for once I’m at an angle where I can see into the hall. Dad opens the front door. I hear Dan’s voice greeting him.
What’s he doing here? Sarah is definitely not expecting him.
Dad invites Dan in. I hear the front door shut, then watch them as they talk about the weather. When Dan sees Sarah all dressed up, what’s he going to think? He’ll get suspicious for sure. I strain to listen, but now Olivia has started one of her tantrums. She’s lying on the floor somewhere behind me, kicking and screaming like a two-year-old except twice as loud.
I hear Dad call upstairs, “Sarah! Dan’s here!”
He’s assumed Sarah is going out with Dan tonight! At least he’s warned her. It would be awful if she came down and just found Dan in the hall. I have no idea what she’s going to do.
Thankfully, Dan doesn’t come into the living room. I think Olivia’s screaming is keeping him at a distance. Mom comes to see what’s up with her, saying a quick hello to Dan as she passes. She turns my wheelchair around, which is annoying because I’d rather watch what’s happening in the hall than look at Olivia, who is lying on the floor at the far end of the room, pointing and screaming. Now I can see what’s upset her. One of her ballet shoes is trapped on the candelabra light fixture, near the ceiling. Finn must have thrown it up there. He’s got good aim.
Mom calms Olivia and says Dad will get it down. Finn is nowhere to be seen. Mom turns me to face the TV and switches it on. Then she pulls Olivia up gently, hugging her, and holds her hand to lead her out. I hear them going upstairs.
I’m conscious that Dan is still in the hall. Sarah calls to say she’ll be down in a few minutes. Then I hear Dan sigh. He walks into the room and goes straight to the TV and picks up the remote, flicking through channels. He’s acting as if I’m not even here. I wish I could say, “Hey! I was watching that!” even though I wasn’t really.
He settles on the news. I don’t want the news. On the screen I can see a casket being carried into a church. A reporter is speaking. It’s only when I hear him say the name Ryan Blake that I start paying attention.
Ryan—from down the street. It was his funeral today. I want to know what the police have found out. Mom and Dad think Ryan might have been into drugs. “Police are still seeking witnesses,” the reporter continues, “and his parents are pleading for anyone who knows anything to come forward.” Dan suddenly turns toward me.
“You don’t know anything, do you, Jem?” he sniggers.
I can’t stand it when he calls me “Jem,” as if he’s part of the family or something.
“Here’s a secret for you,” he continues, “and I know you won’t tell anyone.” He winks. There’s a pause. He presses his face close to mine, so close I can feel his hot breath on my cheeks. “They’re never gonna catch me!” he whispers, squinting his eyes and then nodding at the screen. He stands back, smiling, as if he’s gloating. “There’s something for you to chew on, freak!”
Sarah’s feet patter on the stairs.
Dan quickly changes the channel to a game show. Catch him? What did he mean? It’s an attempt to irritate me—it must be…
“Hiya, babe,” he says.
“What are you doing here?” Sarah asks. I see her flapping her arms a little, like Finn does. I can tell she’s panicking, but she’s also gazing longingly into Dan’s eyes. She won’t cancel on Richard to go out with Dan, will she? She needs to break up with both of them. I wish she could hear what I’m telling her in my head.
“You left a glove in my car,” he tells her. “I just found it today. I was passing by, so I thought I’d drop it off. Don’t want you getting chilly fingers!”
“Oh, thanks! I was wondering where it was,” she replies. “But I’ve got to get going. I’m headed out with Emma and Rihanna. We’re going to the movies.”
“Out again?” he says.
“Yes, I switched my next night off. It’s Emma’s birthday,” Sarah says quickly. Sarah seems to have her excuse ready—but I guess this is what she’s told Mom. “We’re having a girls’ night out. Becks is coming too. We’re seeing that movie you said was for lovestruck teenage girls.”
“No way!”
“Yeah, really.” Sarah laughs for a little too long. “And I’ve gotta go or I’ll be late.”
“No worries, I’ll give you a lift,” says Dan.
“No, Dan. I’m fine,” Sarah assures him.
“It’s no prob,” says Dan.
“Oh… All right,” she replies.
An uneasy feeling grips my chest. I don’t want her to go with him. What he said to me… He had to be joking. Dan’s horrible, but he wouldn’t actually kill someone. Would he? And why did he turn up here this evening? It doesn’t feel right. Maybe she’s done something to make him suspicious. Was he trying to catch her at it?
Sarah says goodbye to me and touches my hand gently. Her hand is hot. She knows this is a mess, and she briefly meets my eyes with a look that says she knows I know this too. She turns to the door.
“Bye, Jemma,” Dan says, winking again. I see his sneering face in my head when he called me freak and remember what else he said. I don’t trust him one little bit.
They go, and I hear the front door bang shut.
Dad comes in and stares up at the ballet shoe on the light fixture, muttering, “You’ve got to be joking,” under his breath.