Largely Concerning Chater
“That man’s dangerous,” said Nadine. “Let’s be practical. Two points stick out. One, I’ve been a beast. Two, Mr. Chater knows all about it.”
“Do you think I care a damn about Mr. Chater?” replied John, through the whirl of his mind.
“Don’t you?”
“Why should I?”
Nadine smiled rather ironically, and he misinterpreted her expression.
“No, I’m the beast,” he exclaimed. “I meant I didn’t care a damn about Mr. Chater for myself—I forgot about you.”
“I wasn’t thinking of that,” she answered. “You needn’t worry about me. I’m case-hardened—”
“Don’t!”
“What?”
He looked at her almost angrily.
“I can’t bear it when you talk about yourself as though—as though you were—”
“The world’s worst woman? No, John, I’m not that. I generally play the game—however dangerous—and I generally choose players who know all about the risks. I’m being quite honest with you. Virtues and vices alike. But just sit on that impulse to idealise me. Men like you do that much too easily. The reason I said I was a beast was because I’ve taken you at a disadvantage and got you into a mess.”
“I don’t admit that!”
“No, you wouldn’t. You’re even better than your old school tie.”
“Are you idealising me?”
“Heavens, no! I could tell you something that would make you wince! But I want to get you out of the mess. If I could do it by saying good-night and walking out of the room, I’d leave you this moment.”
“That wouldn’t help,” he agreed.
“What will?” she asked. “Have you any suggestion?”
“Yes.”
“Is it a good one?”
“It’s the only one—and if you know me as well as you think you do, you’ll realise it.”
“Go on, then.”
“It’s the continuation of your honesty with me. You can’t do the David Garrick stunt, you know.”
“David Garrick?”
“He got drunk to cure Ada Ingot of her love for him.”
“I won’t get drunk,” she smiled. “But I still don’t see your solution?”
“I think it resolves itself into the answer to a simple question.”
“That sounds horribly risky!”
“Yes—perhaps. But this time I do know all about the risk, so you’ll be playing fair.”
“You’re not going to ask me what I know about you that would make you wince?”
“No. You can tell me that voluntarily, if ever you want to. May I put the question?”
“Yes.”
“Well, here goes. It’ll show you, anyhow, that I’m not idealising you.” She wondered. “When you kissed me just now, did you feel as though you were beginning another ‘affair’?”
For an instant she almost decided to cheat. But for his reference to David Garrick, she might have. That reference had weakened her defences, however, for she doubted now, as she saw his eyes watching her for every informative little sign, whether she could cheat him. For once in her life, she had the sense that she was being beaten.
“Would you like to withdraw the question?”
She gave him that chance, but he did not take it. He shook his head.
“No, I didn’t feel I was beginning an affair,” she answered. “So now where are we?”
He found, to his dismay, that he did not know. The exact significance of a kiss has baffled countless intelligences. His expression gave him away, and as she felt her power returning she was urged by an intense desire to use it kindly.
“Listen, John,” she said. “And you can call me Nadine. That doesn’t mean anything these days. I’m not a silly, impulsive woman, though a few fools sometimes imagine I am, but I do react quickly to a situation when it develops. That’s my true nature. I even remember the day when I found it out—consciously, I mean. A pretty foul beast kissed me, and spoilt his chance of a repetition by saying, ‘If you can’t be good, be careful.’ I slapped his face, but I took his advice. I asked myself whether I was ‘good.’ I refused to hedge. I found I wasn’t. But—you may or you may not understand this—I refused to desert myself—to become twisted, or dull, or insignificant—by living the life of some one else. It wouldn’t have been life to a person like me. It would have been death. So I decided to be careful, to stick to a few rules I made, and have generally kept to, and to go through with it.”
She paused suddenly. Then gave a little shrug, and continued:
“Rather funny, telling you all this after only a few hours’ acquaintance, but somehow I feel I owe it to you. And then one of my rules is to be frank—although I admit my frankness with you has been unusually rapid.…I wonder why?”
He restrained an impulse to make a suggestion. Her self-analysis fascinated him, and he did not want to interrupt it. His eyes were on the contours of her shoulder, but his attention was on the contours of her mind.
“I expect you’ve had something to do with it. You’re not very easy to lie to. Where is all this getting us to? Perhaps nowhere, after all. I kissed you, John, because I suddenly wanted to—”
“And because you knew I wanted you to,” he interrupted her then.
“Yes. But—this is what I want to say—and what I want you to believe. That moment wasn’t as important as it seemed to you, and as it may go on seeming to you for a little while. You see, you take life very seriously—don’t you?” He nodded. “And everything’s important to you, particularly in your present mood. That’s why I feel so mean, and want to get this in its right proportion.…No good! I’m making a horrible hash of it! I wish, for your sake, that you didn’t have to stay here over the week-end.”
She stared at his foot, annoyed with herself for making a hash of it.
“Well, I’m glad I’m staying,” John answered abruptly, “if it’s not going to make any difficulty for you. I mean—that fellow Chater—”
“Oh, he can’t hurt me!”
“If he does, I’ll murder him!”
“Please don’t! I’d hate to appear as a witness at the trial!” Her voice grew lighter. “After all, John, I don’t think a kiss between two unattached people at a week-end party is going to excite a blackmailer!”
“Blackmailer?” repeated John with a frown.
“The word slipped out,” she responded.
“But you seemed to mean it.”
“Well, he does rather strike me as that type, though legally one isn’t supposed to say so without proof.”
“Perhaps you’ve got the proof?”
“No.”
“You know more than you’ve told me, though?”
Nadine hesitated as a small incident flashed into her mind. She had tried to dismiss it, but somehow it had stuck.
“Nothing much,” she said, “only if you have any dark secrets, John, I wouldn’t leave them about when Mr. Chater’s around.”
“Please tell me,” he urged. “I’ve a hunch about that chap—and also a special cause for curiosity. If he is going to be a nuisance, I’d like to know all that’s going about him.”
She looked at him curiously, then laughed.
“If I satisfy your curiosity, will you tell me the cause of it?” she bargained. “Fifty-fifty.”
“Right,” he laughed back. She was trying to steer their moods away from the personal equation, and he responded to her lead. “You first.”
“Well—it happened before dinner, just after I’d seen you moved into here,” she said. “When I left you I walked into a little comedy. Or tragedy. Miss Wilding—you’ve met her, haven’t you?”
John nodded. “She came in here a little while ago, shortly before you did,” he answered. “Then she went off with Lord Aveling—I think to read a play to him or something.”
“Did she?” Nadine looked thoughtful for a moment, then proceeded: “She was coming down the stairs. I’d dressed, but she hadn’t. Thomas—that’s one of the butlers, the only one I don’t like—he nearly knocked my champagne glass over at dinner—Thomas darted out of a shadow, and gave her an envelope. Then, while Miss Wilding was looking at the envelope, Mr. Chater came running from somewhere—very quietly, like a cat—and bumped into her. She dropped the envelope, and he picked it up and returned it to her, full of apologies. I noticed that he looked at the writing on the envelope before he gave it back.”
“It doesn’t sound too good,” remarked John, “but there needn’t have been anything in it.”
“Possibly there wasn’t,” answered Nadine. “But Miss Wilding looked very red when she turned and went upstairs again, and Mr. Chater would have turned and followed her if I hadn’t asked him for a light.”
“I see. Did he give you the light?”
“Most unwillingly.”
“And then?”
“He said, ‘Chilly evening, isn’t it?’ and went upstairs after Miss Wilding.…This sounds horribly like gossip, doesn’t it? I don’t usually poke my nose into other people’s affairs. But—well, you asked for it.”
“Thank you for telling me.”
“Oh, no, I want my payment!”
John looked a little ashamed of himself.
“Well, I’m only telling you this because you’re asking for it,” he said. “If there’s nothing in your information, there’s less than nothing in mine. Are you superstitious?”
“I’m wearing green.”
“Then it won’t worry you to know that there are thirteen guests sleeping here to-night.”
“No, are there?” she exclaimed, and the tone of her voice rather belied her implication of immunity. “Have you counted?”
“Mr. Taverley did it for me.”
“I—I hope you’re not superstitious?” she asked, after a little pause.
“No more than you are,” he smiled. “But even if I were, I’d be safe according to Mr. Taverley’s theory. He said that, if any bad luck came, it would come to the thirteenth guest to arrive through the front door.”
“Who was the thirteenth?”
“Our friend Mr. Chater. And I’ll tell you something, Nadine. There—I’ve said it. If our friend Mr. Chater plays any of his alleged tricks on you, he’ll have the worst luck he’s ever had in his life. You can remember that!”
She looked at him seriously, then rose from the pouffe on which she had been sitting.
“Be very careful, John,” she said, holding out her hand. “I should never forgive myself if anything bad happened to you. I think it’s time to say good-night.”
He took her hand and pressed it.
“Good-night,” he replied. “I’m under no delusions about anything. But I mean what I said. Like hell.”