Abigail was gorgeous. The girl in high school was beautiful but the woman who I loved was stunning. There was a confidence about her that was addictive. She was the person who could keep you guessing because you just never knew what she was going to do next. She was the only woman who ever got my blood pumping and made me feel so alive.
The day I purposely bumped into her at school to get her attention was the best damn day of my life, because that day solidified the rest of my life. That day, was the day I finally met my wife.
Oh, don’t get me wrong. The girl in high school challenged me. She made me work for it and she had me wrapped around her finger. I would have walked through the pep rally fire for her and when she wanted her friend Lacie to hang out with us I agreed. Did I want to be alone with Abigail? Hell yea I did, but I wanted her to know that I cared about her and what she wanted too. Lacie was her best friend and she was a bit awkward and shy at times. She was cute, but in a little sister sort of way.
I became protective of both of them, but Abigail was the only girl for me. I took a lot of heat from the guys on the team. Believe me. The cheerleaders always tried to sway me, but nothing would stop me from being with Abigail.
We went to pep rallies together, she came to my games and waited for me afterward. The home games she would sometimes come with Lacie, but when she couldn’t I understood. I never was unfaithful to her at those games. Never. Even when the cheerleaders pulled out all the stops. Hell, they would practically undress on the bus and want to blow me on the bus with the guys and everyone around. Nope! Not for me. All I wanted was Abigail.
I mean when I said she made me work for it, I mean she made me work for it. We would sneak off together whenever we could. Most of the time Lacie was with her and I tried to fix her up with one of the guys, but she truly was awkward. But there were times when I’d get Abigail to myself and I’d definitely try everything to get in her pants, but the girl was stubborn.
She gave me a severe case of blue balls, but I didn’t care. I’d wait forever for her. She was it for me. I knew it. There was nothing that would stop us from being together.
The first time we made love, I wish I could say it was spectacular, but I was a bumbling idiot. She was a virgin, so it truly wasn’t the best, but there were improvements over the years for sure. But, that first time, well, I’ll never forget it.
Lacie had gone out with us that night. Abigail and I wanted to go to the park, so we all went there and were swinging on the swings, going down the slides. In general, we were high school seniors acting like grade school kids. Lacie had taken off to meet up with a guy I had set her up with someone from the team and they hit it off, they were having some issues recently but she was going to meet up with him, so she left us alone.
There was no one else there and I had been watching Abigail swing on the swings and she was flying high in the sky, smiling so wide, she was more beautiful than I’d ever seen her. It was there that night that solidified everything for me.
She was slowing down and I moved behind her and caught her as her swing swung back to me. I grabbed her around her waist and stopped her from swinging. I leaned in and kissed her neck up to her ear and I whispered,
“I am head over heels in love with you Abigail Pearson. Head over fuckin heels.”
She gasped my name and turned her head to capture my lips. The park was empty and when she moved off the swing to press up against me she whispered to me, “Make love to me Shawn. I want to be with you, here tonight.”
That was it. That was the moment I’ll never forget. We laid down in the grass. I kissed her like I’d never kissed her before and I felt like my body would fail me before I could get inside of her. But I did my best to make it good for her. I made her come before I even attempted to enter her and watching her fall apart for me was powerful.
I kissed her nipples and sucked them to fully erect points, while she writhed against me. I played with her clit and gently entered her with my fingers until she came around my fingers and I licked them clean. She gasped as I did that and I moaned because she was the sweetest thing I’d ever tasted.
When I rolled on the condom and let my tip rest just inside of her I smiled at her.
“Are you sure Abs? I can wait if you’re not ready. It will kill me, but I know you are it for me and we have forever to be together, so I can wait.”
“No Shawn. I want this. I’ve wanted this for a long time, but I was scared.”
“Scared? Of me?”
She shook her head.
“No. Scared of me. I love you Shawn, I’m ready.”
I wanted to ask her what that meant but I was aching to be inside of her so I let it go. I mean, I’m a guy, with my dick part way inside of a girl I’ve been wanting to be buried inside of since my sophomore year, so yea, I let that go and because I didn’t know how else to take her, I pressed inside of her gently at first and then I pulled back and barreled through her barrier, making her yell out in pain.
“I’m sorry baby. I’m sorry.”
She whimpered and I waited. I held still until I felt her start to move her hips. I kissed her eyes where the tears leaked out. One, then the other then I asked, “Are you okay baby?”
She moaned, “Yes, I’m good. Go ahead Shawn, make me yours.”
That was it. I growled and I moved inside of her trying my best to make her come again, but that wasn’t happening. I pounded in and out of her until my vision blanked out and I came while yelling her name. It was done.
See, not great but I had years to make it better. Years to make that night up to her, at least that was my plan. Sometimes plans go askew. And sometimes, we do stupid things to the ones we love. But I’m getting ahead of myself.
That night, under the stars and under the swings, I fell……..but I wished someone would have told me how to not screw up the love of the most perfect woman alive.