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May had come inside to use the bathroom but found herself delaying her return to the deck. She needed some quiet time to herself. And she needed to put distance between her and Nate. He wasn’t actually flirting with her, she now realized. He was just being himself—his cool, confident, gorgeous self—and she hated the effect it was having on her. When Nate first returned to the house after Decker’s departure, Kelsey immediately walked him through everything that had transpired in his absence. May had taken the opportunity to pull Lauren aside to unpack Kelsey’s meltdown.

“You didn’t see how bad it was when Luke was killed. She said those same words—that her life was over.” Lauren’s eyes darted to the deck. “That everyone thought she was behind it. I was seriously worried she’d harm herself. She still doesn’t know, but I called Nate and her father to make sure they were keeping an eye on her. The last thing she needs is the two of us judging her emotions. She needs our support.”

May nodded, hoping the surprise didn’t register on her face. She couldn’t do anything now about not being there for Kelsey when her husband died, but May had supported Kelsey today. She supported her by running outside the second she realized David Smith was dead and ending the police interview. But that hadn’t stopped her from feeling terribly sad that a man’s life had ended. A man they had met before so many years ago. A man who used to be the boy who had refused to leave the lake until his girlfriend was found. The boy who had wept openly at Marnie’s funeral.

He was gone now, and Kelsey’s immediate reaction was to think about total strangers who might judge her for leaving some stupid petty note over a stolen parking spot. A man was dead, and Kelsey was making it all about Kelsey. How could Lauren not see that?

May wasn’t ready to go back outside yet. She poured herself a glass of water, giving herself a few more minutes to be alone with her thoughts.