NOTHING OF A BLUE REMAINS

Finally, under thick cover of night,

The snow fell, without wind, and fat as plates.

Wine-rested, I rose a little before five,

Cowed by the darkness of this quiet mountain,

With lion and elk and pheasant roaming

Eight thousand feet above any ocean,

And that much closer to the gates of Heaven

Smuggled somewhere within this small lark’s mind

As it sits patiently on a bare branch

Hardly startled when I turned the porch light

On. Something in me, something struggling

Inside me, starts slowly now to feel soothed.

But it’s neither from the solitude nor

From the barest blue the black sky became

As dawn turned her silver key in the door.

It will snow here for days. The air is whiter

Than whiteness. Nothing of a blue remains

But for two plump blue jays I’d failed to see

Until the larks began on the final

Tree spotted with snowed juniper berries.

The runts scattered as the two jays

Landed, then three, then four, then six, then eight;

They had been watching the larks all along.

Waiting for them to find what’s there to be

Found amid several feet of snow. The tree

Bent but would not give way. And when the jays

Twisted their thankless trunks to pry the dangled

Dark scarlet globes from the tips of their twigs,

They fell, one after the other, like blue

Shards from a shattered stained glass. Then, the larks

Came back and continued as they had been,

Nibbling at what they wanted or needed,

Indifferent to the interruption. Or,

Were they the interruption? These are things

That only the end knows. But the end, like

All I’ve ever told you, is uncertain.