Chapter 1

 

Imperial Palace, Constantinople, October 6, 404

 

PULCHERIA WINCED AS HER FATHER’S HAND ground her fingers together. She stepped on the hem of her night shift and stumbled. Father jerked her upright.

“Come, girl, when did you become so clumsy?” His voice was rough with wine, anger, and pain. Pulcheria had never seen him so distraught in her five short years of life. For the first time her father Arcadius, the Emperor of Eastern Rome, frightened her.

When he had awakened her moments before, her head muzzy with dreams, she knew something was wrong. Father never came to her chambers. The palace nursery, where she and her siblings Arcadia, Theodosius, and baby Marina lived, was the province of nurses and tutors. She only saw him on those rare occasions he ordered the children to accompany him on some outing. Her mother, Empress Eudoxia, inspected the nursery and questioned the servants about her children’s health and well-being when it suited her—which was not often. Now her father dragged her down the echoing marble halls toward a part of the palace to which she had never been.

They entered a sumptuous but disordered receiving room. A half-eaten meal of beef doused with fishy smelling garum sauce sat on a silver tray, the Persian carpet lay askew, and several cloaks lay carelessly on a gilt chair. The disarray only added to her chaotic feelings of fear and bewilderment. She tried to lag behind, but her father dragged her forward, nearly pulling her off her feet. Pulcheria whimpered at the pain in her hand and shoulder but refused to cry out.

Antiochus, the Chief Eunuch and head of the imperial household, sat near the door to another chamber. He rose, approached her father, and bowed low. “I’m so very sorry, Augustus, but your blessed wife is dead. She passed on to God’s good grace but moments ago.”

“More likely she passed on to the devil. She will make him a good whore.” Arcadius’ face went purple as he spat the words at the eunuch. “The child?”

Antiochus glanced at Pulcheria and lowered his voice. “He came much too early to save.”

“Better dead than another set of horns on my head,” her father muttered.

Pulcheria struggled to find meaning in the words of the adults. Her mother was dead? What child? Her father grew horns? She looked at his forehead with muddled curiosity but saw no bumps.

Father started forward, pushing at the eunuch’s chest. “Out of my way.”

Antiochus stepped back, but still blocked their path. His voice quavered. “Most Kind Augustus, is this really the place for the princess? Let us at least ready the body before she views it.”

Pulcheria tugged on her captive hand and cried, “Please, Father, let me go back.”

Father’s hand tightened on hers, but he turned and dropped to one knee to look into her face. “This is important, Pulcheria. You will be first lady of the land now. Show me how an Augusta behaves.”

Pulcheria steadied under his gaze. She wanted to make him proud. “Yes, Father, I will do as you wish.”

“That’s my girl. You’ve got a backbone, unlike your sniveling brother.”

A small flame of anger at this attack on her baby brother warmed Pulcheria’s chilled body. Theo was not quite three, and still a child. As the oldest, everyone demanded more from her, and she was proud to give it. It wasn’t fair for Father to compare Theo to her!

One look at her father’s angry face doused that flame. She had no way to fight for herself, much less her brother. Helplessness clove her tongue to the roof of her mouth. She nodded. Father’s lips curved into a smile, but he didn’t look happy; his eyes were red with tears and his breath stank of wine.

Antiochus stepped aside, sparing a pitying look for Pulcheria. Arcadius straightened and led the girl into the bedroom. Antiochus’ words came rushing back. Her mother was dead. What did it mean? What would she see? A sense of dread knotted her stomach and again slowed her steps, so that Father had to, again, tug on her arm.

As her father opened the door, she heard the soft chanting of priests and the shriller murmurs of female servants. Burning musky incense failed to mask an odor that left a coppery taste in her mouth.

Blood.

She remembered the smell and taste from scraped knees and split lips. Blood usually meant stinging pain. This room reeked of it. Pulcheria’s heart raced. She took shallow breaths through her mouth, trying to avoid the stench.

Olive oil lamps shone steady, illuminating the brilliantly painted scenes on the walls. Pulcheria noticed fleetingly that most of the images were of naked people entwined in awkward positions. Servants and priests bowed their heads as they passed. Her gaze fixed on the wide bed dominating the room. Her mother’s court ladies screened the bed from her sight, but she couldn’t miss the blood-soaked rags piled in a bronze bowl. At the sight of her father, the women parted, darting horrified glances at Pulcheria.

More gently this time, Arcadius pulled her to the foot of the bed and stood behind her, his hands on her shoulders. “Here are the wages of sin, Pulcheria. Blood and death.”

Pulcheria held her breath as she gazed upon the still body. Her mother’s face looked angelic, eyes closed and face pale. People always praised her mother’s beauty. The height and comeliness Eudoxia inherited from her father’s Frankish ancestors had captured the heart of the teenage Emperor Arcadius nine years before. Those same people lamented that Pulcheria seemed the only one of their four children with the stamp of her dour-faced father.

Except for the sweat-soaked blond hair tangled about her face, Eudoxia looked asleep. A peaceful look, unlike the impatience her mother’s face usually bore with her children. The last time Eudoxia visited the nursery, she spent most of her time complaining about ink spots on Pulcheria’s robes and the disordered state of her hair. Mother would not be happy, knowing others now saw her own hair in such disarray.

Pulcheria’s gaze strayed lower. She gasped at the fine linen sheets sodden with red gore. The stench caused her stomach to heave. An acid taste flooded her mouth. She took a deep breath.

“F-Father, must I stay longer?”

Arcadius squeezed her shoulder. “No, my good girl, you have seen enough.”

A midwife approached Arcadius with a still bundle, no bigger than one of Pulcheria’s dolls “What should I do with the babe, Augustus?”

“Give it to the dogs!” Arcadius snarled.

The woman gasped and backed away quickly. Pulcheria shrank from her father’s renewed anger, but his left hand held her shoulder fast. Antiochus approached the woman and whispered in her ear.

“Antiochus!” Arcadius pointed at the eunuch. “You will see that my daughter does not grow up to be like her twice-damned mother. Teach her the Gospels, train her to be a good Christian woman, modest and obedient.”

“As you will, Augustus.”

Her father’s hand began to tremble on her shoulder. In a choked voice, he cried, “All of you out.” Servants, priests, and court ladies filed out a back door, silent, but with frightened looks at the Emperor standing over the body of his wife.

Antiochus came forward to take Pulcheria’s hand. “Shall I take the princess back to the nursery?”

“Yes. Go.”

As they exited, Pulcheria glanced over her shoulder. Her father knelt at the foot of the bed, narrow shoulders shaking with sobs as he buried his face in the bloody sheets.

“Your father is distraught, Princess. Pay no heed to his words.” The eunuch led her through the receiving room and back to the marble hall.

She shivered, suddenly aware of her bare feet on cold stone. No braziers chased the icy fall air from the corridor.

“Are you chilled, princess?” The eunuch bent to look at her face.

“Y-y-yes.” Her teeth chattered uncontrollably. From the chill? The blood? Her thoughts and feelings reeled from the sights in the bedroom. What would happen to her and her brother and sisters?

Antiochus gathered her up in his arms and held her close. Warmth radiating from his soft plump body helped dispel some of the chill. “Poor child,” he muttered. “Poor, poor child.”

Pulcheria lay quietly in his arms, listening to his heart beat steadily in his chest, as he carried her slight weight back to the nursery. The regular double-thump settled her nerves. As they grew closer, his breathing grew more labored. A question nagged at her thoughts. “Is Mother in Heaven?”

He hesitated. “I don’t know, child. Only God knows.”

“Father said not.”

“Even the powerful Emperor of Rome does not command God. The Good Lord in his mercy will judge your mother’s soul. Hush now. Think no more of it.”

But Pulcheria could think of nothing else. Her father never took an interest in the nursery. If her mother were not on earth or in Heaven to look out for them, would the servants bring them food or help them bathe? Pulcheria thought she could care for herself, Arcadia, and possibly her brother, but baby Marina needed a wet nurse. Would Nana leave? The thought of losing Nana, her nurse since she was a baby, brought on a new wave of shudders. Surely Nana would never leave me!

The eunuch grunted as he shifted her weight to one arm and opened the door to the nursery. The outer room filled with murmurs from servants as they clustered around low-burning lamps. Pulcheria spied her nurse and struggled to escape the eunuch’s arms. He set her down.

“Nana!” she cried, speeding to the comforting arms of the heavy-set woman whose plain features lit up Pulcheria’s world.

Antiochus followed her. “The Empress is dead.” He cut off the ritual wails with an upraised hand. “The Emperor is understandably distraught. He will not be pleased when his grief has passed if he finds his children neglected.”

Pulcheria noted a few raised eyebrows and pursed lips at this declaration.

“Attend them with good will. I will return in the morning to see to their affairs.”

Nana rose, Pulcheria clinging tightly to her leg. “Forgive me, Antiochus, but should not the Emperor appoint a court woman to oversee the children’s daily welfare? You are tasked with the entire household and have many duties to perform.”

“Daily care will proceed as before. The Emperor asked that I see to their religious instruction in the future.” He shrugged. “I don’t think the Emperor wants any of his wife’s women to influence the children. Perhaps I could appoint you to oversee the nursery. We will decide when this sad time is over.”

Nana offered the eunuch a slight bow. “Thank you.” She put her hand on Pulcheria’s back. “Come, dumpling, let’s get you into a nice warm bed.”

Comforted by the eunuch’s words and Nana’s presence, Pulcheria suppressed a deep yawn, nodded, and followed her nurse to bed. She struggled against sleep, her mind still awhirl with the changes to come. Her worry gave way as lethargy crept up her limbs and sleep quieted her mind.

 

*****

 

TWO DAYS LATER, Nana dressed Pulcheria in her finest purple robes, with gold thread that scratched her neck and arms. Her sister Arcadia tugged at her own robes, whining. Theodosius ran around the rooms shouting about a wagon ride.

“Quiet, all of you!” Nana chided. “Can’t you be more like your sister?” The nurse grabbed Theodosius as he careened past her and wiped a streak of dust from his face.

“Are they ready?” Antiochus stood in the door, dressed in his finest court robes—white silk tunic embroidered in purple and gold, with a short purple cloak draped over his shoulders. He cradled a gold staff of office in his left arm.

“All but the baby. Marina is too young for such a long ceremony. I’m not sure Theo can tolerate it.”

“The boy has to learn court decorum some time.” His eyes lighted on Pulcheria. “How is the princess?”

“Doing as well as might be expected.”

Pulcheria, annoyed at being talked about as if she were not present in the room, spoke up. “Antiochus, what will happen today?”

“A procession through the city to the Church of the Apostles, prayers for your mother’s soul, and a feast for the dead. I will be with you, your sister, and brother.”

“Honey cake?” Theodosius piped up.

A sad smile crossed the eunuch’s face. “I’m sure there will be honey cake, young Caesar.”

Pulcheria straightened her shoulders and took her brother’s hand. “Come, Theo, let’s go on our wagon ride.”

Antiochus’ eyes glinted with approval as he escorted the three children to the enclosed imperial wagon that her late mother once used for trips around the city. The outside glittered with gilded wood. Two black horses in silver harness pulled the carriage. Theo forgot himself, tugged on her hand, and exclaimed, “Horsies, Ria! I want to see the horsies!”

“Not today, Theo.” He stuck his middle two fingers in his mouth to suck on—a sure sign he was upset.

A guard stepped forward to lift them into the spacious interior, decorated with purple silk drapes and cushions. The middle dropped so passengers could sit with their feet in the well rather than be forced to recline.

The short trip started with wails and lamentations just outside the palace walls. The loudly mourning crowd frightened the younger children. Four-year-old Arcadia whimpered, pulled her knees up, and wrapped her arms around her little legs, rocking back and forth. Theo’s eyes grew wide and bright with tears. Pulcheria looked to Antiochus. He ignored the children’s distress.

She remembered how Nana soothed them and comforted her brother and sister with physical pats, murmurs, and nonsense words.

“Thank you, Princess.” Antiochus frowned at the children sitting across from him. “I hope they are better behaved at the church.”

“Apologies, Antiochus. I’ll see to it.”

He sighed and peeked out the window from behind the curtains.

Curious about a world she had never seen, Pulcheria tried to push the heavy purple cloth aside. “What do you see?”

“No, Princess!” Antiochus shouted. He slapped the curtains back in place, but not before she caught a glimpse of sorrowful faces covered in tears and ashes.

Startled, Pulcheria shrank back onto her cushions, her momentary sense of confidence shattered.

Antiochus told her, more softly, “It is not permitted for the common people to look upon the sacred faces of the imperial family.”

She wanted to ask why, but the deep frown on the eunuch’s face deterred her. Everyone in the palace can see our faces. Aren’t we just as sacred inside the palace as outside? Arcadia began to sniffle at the eunuch’s sharp tone. Pulcheria put her arms around her sister and filed her question away for another time.

They soon arrived at the Church of the Apostles. Antiochus led them through a thick corridor of Imperial Scholae—the Emperor’s personal guards—who kept the crying, mourning people at bay. Pulcheria gasped as they entered the cool orderliness of the church. She was used to the much smaller scale of their nursery chapel. Here, the ceilings soared high above, held up by multi-colored marble columns. The walls glinted with colored frescoes of the Apostles’ lives, lit by hundreds of candles and gold chandeliers. Gold glittered on the altar, the robes of the bishop, and the people gathered in the nave.

It was beautiful! Pulcheria stared in awe, soaking in the majesty. This was truly God’s house! The sweet woody smell of incense wafted on the air from the gold censers on the altar. She pulled the soothing scent deep into her lungs—so different from the piney smell tinged with blood she remembered from her mother’s room.

“This way, children.” Antiochus broke her concentration. He escorted them up marble stairs to a screened balcony overlooking the altar. They could look out, but the people standing in the packed church couldn’t see them.

Theo ran to the carved wooden screen and pointed to a dark red stone box lying before the altar. “What’s that?” The sides were carved with several scenes. From this distance, Pulcheria couldn’t tell what story they told.

“That’s a sarcophagus,” Antiochus answered. “It holds your mother’s earthly remains.”

“What’s a sar-sar…” Arcadia struggled.

Theo asked, “What’s ’mains?”

“The sarcophagus is the red stone box. Her body is inside.”

Theo’s eyes went wide. Arcadia’s face paled. “Is it dark in there? Won’t Mama be scared?”

“No child, she isn’t scared.” Antiochus patted their heads. “Her soul is with God. Now it’s time to be quiet.”

“I’ll explain later,” Pulcheria whispered to them. “Let’s sit.” She helped Arcadia onto a low padded bench and sat down herself.

Theo still looked puzzled, but one of the first things they learned in the nursery was to be quiet when an adult asked them to. Antiochus picked him up and sat him on the bench next to Pulcheria. His short legs swung over the edge.

Pulcheria took his hand. He smiled up at her and leaned against her shoulder. Arcadia curled up with her head in Pulcheria’s lap. Their trust tugged at her heart, making her sense of helplessness all the more hurtful. Her stomach roiled and throat began to close. She couldn’t keep them safe. She wasn’t Nana! An unsettling thought nibbled at the edge of her mind: even Nana could be sent away by Antiochus…and Antiochus could be dismissed by…

Her father and several richly dressed men entered the nave from the side to take seats in another screened area to the right of the altar. Her heart beat slower and her stomach calmed. Father was Emperor. No one could send him away, and he would never let anything happen to his children, especially his son and heir. Pulcheria pulled Theo tighter, praying that their father lived a long life.

 

*****

 

THE NEXT MORNING, in the nursery playroom, Pulcheria looked up from her primer on Greek letters. She found the chaos here, among comfortable cushions, the clutter of toys, and the low gossipy chatter of the nurses and servants, distracting. She much preferred the quiet calm of the classroom or—even better—the prayerful drone of the nursery chapel.

Delighted cries from one corner attracted her attention. Baby Marina took some tottering first steps, to the loud acclaim of her wet-nurse. Arcadia sang a rhyme and played a simple hand-patting game with Nana, while Theo kicked a stuffed leather ball from one side of the room to the other. Their lives had quickly settled back into a comfortable routine, but Pulcheria felt uneasy. Her mother was dead. What other changes lurked in the future?

The pleasant noise faded to silence a few minutes later when Antiochus came through the door with a stern-faced priest in tow. Nana stood, smoothed her wrinkled stola, and approached the two men. She bowed.

“Antiochus, Father, what can I do for you?”

Antiochus indicated the priest. “Elpida, this is Father Marcus. He will be overseeing the children’s religious instruction.”

Pulcheria was momentarily confused. Elpida? She had assumed Nana was the name of the woman who raised her.

The eunuch frowned at the playroom chaos. “Father Marcus will also oversee the children’s chapel and lead the nursery staff in observing canonical hours with prayers.”

Pulcheria couldn’t see Nana’s face, but her back stiffened and shoulders straightened. “Not all the offices, surely! This is a nursery, not a monastery. The children’s health will suffer if you wake them during the night every couple of hours for prayer.”

Father Marcus smiled, softening the stern lines in his thin bearded face. “Only those offices during the day and before bed—Prime through Vespers. I had a child of my own before Christ took her to heaven and called me to the church, Nurse Elpida. I am here to ensure the health of their immortal souls, not to endanger their physical bodies. Do the children know their prayers? Can they read the Gospels?”

“Not the younger ones, Father.” Pulcheria noted the red blush spread up the back of Nana’s neck. “But Princess Pulcheria is very bright and her tutor says she is making remarkable progress with her Greek and Latin letters. She should be able to read the Gospels.”

“Then I will start with her and instruct the other children as they are able.” Father Marcus looked around the room, caught Pulcheria staring at him, and nodded.

He seemed pleasant enough, with intelligent black eyes and an olive complexion. His gray-streaked beard contrasted with his dark curly hair. Something about his erect stance and precise voice told her he led a disciplined life, but laugh lines framing his eyes hinted at a sense of humor.

“Do as you must.” Antiochus nodded to the priest. “Come see me when you’re through and I’ll show you to your quarters.”

Nana led the priest over to Pulcheria. “Princess, this is Father Marcus—”

“I heard, Nana.” Pulcheria closed her codex and stood. “This way to the classroom, Father.”

Nana snapped her gaping jaws shut and nodded. Pulcheria led the priest to an adjoining room, smaller than the playroom and much more severe. Except for an embroidery basket, no fabric, cushion, or carpet softened the austerity. Bookshelves covered one wall, containing bound volumes on history, geography, philosophy, plays and poetry. Maps of the Empire covered another. A standing work desk of light maple stood in one corner. In the middle of the room, a short chair sat at a low table containing stacks of wax-covered tablets and a stylus to incise the wax or scrape away mistakes. A couple of folded backless camp chairs leaned against a third wall. No windows offered distractions, but an ornate brass chandelier held a dozen olive oil lamps, casting a warm glow over the room.

Marcus opened a camp chair and sat. “Please stand here, Princess.” He pointed to a spot directly in front of him. When she had positioned herself, with shoulders and back straight, he asked, “What have you studied so far?”

“I’m learning to read and write Greek and Latin. Tutor has started me on sums and differences and geography. I’m also learning comportment and embroidery. Would you like to see?”

The stern set to his face softened slightly. His sharp black eyes held a hint of laughter. “Yes, Princess, I would like to see your work.”

She went to her small table and brought back her practice tablets and embroidery basket. “Tutor praised my hand. It is much better than last year.” She showed him her writing samples. It still wasn’t perfect; she frowned at some of the awkward letters. Her embroidery was more of an embarrassment. She tried and tried, but could not master Nana’s small, neat stitches.

“Very nice work, especially for a child of your age.” He took a small codex of scripture from a pocket tied to his belt. “Do you read the Sacred Word, child?”

There was that word again: sacred. She shook her head. “No, Father, but I read some poetry.” Pride echoed in her voice. Four-year-old Arcadia was just starting on letters, and Tutor didn’t even try to get three-year-old Theo to sit for lessons. “I have a question for you.”

“Yes?” He leaned back, looking at her sharply.

“You describe the Gospels as ‘the Sacred Word.’ Yesterday, Antiochus said it was wrong for the common people to see my and my sisters’ ‘sacred faces.’ What does ‘sacred’ mean? The common people can see and hear the Gospels. Why can’t they see and hear us?”

“That, Child, is a very grown-up question. Sacred means holy—of God. The Gospels are the Word of God. Your father, the Emperor of Rome, was chosen and anointed by God to be His viceroy on earth, to rule in the way of Caesars. Thus, emperors and their families are accounted sacred. That’s why you live in seclusion and common people are not allowed to see your faces.”

“But Nana and the servants see our faces. They are common people.” She frowned.

“Good thinking, Princess!” His face split into a large smile. “You’ve put your finger on the complexity of the matter. Nowhere in the Gospels does it say an Emperor and his family may not be seen. That is a rule—like many—made up by men for their own purposes. Your father’s mother, Aelia Flacilla Augusta, used to go out among the people and care for the sick and the poor with her own hands. She obeyed a rule from the Gospels, ‘Care for the least of these.’ It is good to know what rules are made by God and what are rules made by man. You should never break God’s rules.”

“But I can break man’s?” Pulcheria was confused. “I can go out among the people without covering my face?”

“Sometimes. If all men obeyed God’s rules, there would be no need for additional ones, but that is not the world we live in.” Father Marcus sighed. “I can see you are going to be an apt pupil. We will work through these questions and many more in our studies. Be patient, Princess. As you grow older, more will be revealed.”

Annoyed at the constant admonition by adults to “wait until you’re older,” Pulcheria was inclined to demand an answer now, but her native caution took over. “Yes, Father. I look forward to learning the answers with you.”

His smile disappeared; the stern look of a teacher returned. “Do you know any stories from the Gospels?”

“I know about Christ’s birth and His re-re—resurrection?” She looked down in embarrassment over the stumbled word.

“That’s good, but there are older parts to the Bible, many stories that have lessons for us.” Marcus flipped through pages until he found the passage he wanted. “Do you know the story of Queen Jezebel?”

Pulcheria shook her head.

The priest closed the book and leaned forward. “King Ahab and Queen Jezebel of Israel were bad leaders and wicked people. They worshiped false gods, made war on their neighbors, and did murder. You might hear some say your mother was a modern Jezebel. She did do some wicked things, but nothing like the Jewish Queen. It’s my job to make sure you stay true to the Christian path, that your soul pleases God, and you get to sit at His right hand after the Second Coming.”

“Do you think Mother is in heaven?” That question haunted her. Despite her mother’s indifference, Pulcheria did not want to imagine her in torment.

“I don’t know, Princess.” Marcus thought a moment, hand tugging at his graying beard. “Your mother’s sins were those of pride and of the flesh. If she truly repented her sins, God forgave her. If she didn’t repent…” He shrugged expressive shoulders.

He handed the codex to Pulcheria. She turned the chunky volume over in her hands. Its fine leather was worn with much use. What did her mother do that was so wicked? Would she find the answers in this book? Father Marcus counselled patience. She hoped, with time, all her questions would be answered. For now, she would do her best to learn his lessons.

“Your Father commands that you receive instruction in the scriptures, so you do not stray from the path of righteousness. Today we will begin with the creation and Eve’s fall from grace. Stand straight and declaim in a strong voice.”

She straightened her shoulders, opened the holy book to the first page, and read, “In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth…”