TODAY THEY HANGED Ellison Mounts. He was a halfwit and his people are dirt-poor and simple, but he didn’t deserve to die. I know it and some others do, too. But when they put Ma on the witness stand at his trial, they shut her up. Said she still wasn’t right in the head after what happened to her. The prosecuting attorney even called Ma a liar, and I thought Pa would shoot him on the spot. And they sentenced the half-wit Mounts to death then and there for what happened the night the Hatfields’ gang attacked our house and did the killings.
All of Eastern Kentucky came out for his hanging. There hasn’t been such a holiday in Pikeville since I can’t remember when. Women wore their best homespun. The streets were so crowded you could scarce walk. Brandy was ordered in from Catlettsburg. The moonshine was supplied by my brother Floyd, who’s more than a fair hand at the making of it, who uses copper for his stills and not tin, and who wasn’t above selling a few of his hand-whittled toys to the young people on the side.
By ten o’clock most of the men were pretty well in their cups. And there were McCoys all over the place, armed to their eyebrows, wearing leather belts crossed on their chests, loaded with shot, and with pistols strapped on their legs under their trousers, and rifles, long and mean. People were saying that old Devil Anse and the Hatfields were coming any minute to stop the hanging.
People waited for it like the Second Coming. And there was Pa, worn down and looking older than I ever recollect, giving his men orders, sending some to Chloe Creek and others to Coon Creek, to head the Hatfields off if they came.
I met my used-to-be teacher, Ambrose Cuzlin. He bought me a cup of coffee from a street seller. “Too bad about Mounts,” he said to me. He’d had Ellison in school. “How’s your ma doing, Fanny?”
“She’s middling well,” I said.
He bought me some gingerbread, too, from an old lady selling it “one fer a nickel and three fer a dime.”
“You thought any more about taking the exam for normal school?” he asked me.
I looked around me at the growing excitement of the crowd. Normal school, I thought. I might go just for the sound of it. “I’m still studying on it,” I said.
“I’ll bring over some more books. The exam is at the end of the month. There isn’t much more time, Fanny.”
“I’ll let you know before Christmas,” I promised. “Oh no! A band! They’re not going to play music, are they?”
“Sure they are. It wouldn’t be a hanging without one, would it?”
The musicians were playing “Blackeyed Susie” and the guards, all McCoys, were leading Mounts to the scaffold. Everybody got quiet. The sheriff asked Mounts if he had any last words.
“I never kilt her,” he said.
I think the sheriff knew it, too. Same as we all know that birds listen and chipmunks gossip, that there’s witchcraft in the hills around here, that you don’t ever go into a person’s yard without first giving a holler, and that Hatfields and McCoys will always hate each other.
I turned away at the hanging. I heard something crack. A woman next to us, about six months into her delicate condition, fainted. Mr. Cuzlin picked her up, took a flask out of his pocket, and poured some whiskey down her throat.
“Oh God,” she said, “I’ll never forget the sound of that man’s neck breaking.”
“You had no business coming here, the way you are.” Mr. Cuzlin scolded her like he’d do to us in the schoolroom. I expected him to tell her to go sit in a corner.
“Likely your baby will be marked now,” a woman standing nearby said.
“Nonsense,” Mr. Cuzlin said. “The mountain people and their superstitions.” Like he wasn’t mountain people, too, come from Virginia to survey the land and stayed on to teach. “Did you ever hear such nonsense, Fanny McCoy?”
“I’ve heard such and more. And you know it.”
We were friends. Sometimes I thought he was the only real friend I had anymore, though I saw him only on occasion. After the hanging he asked me was I all right, and was there anything he could do for me. I wished there were. I wished he could open Pike’s Arithmetic and tell me the universe is all made up of numbers, and everything adds up and makes sense. I said no, thanked him, and started home, disgusted with myself for coming. It was too cold, the world too shivering naked and howling fierce. And made colder by the eager looks on the faces of those who had come to see a man hanged, rather than stay home by their fires and make venison stew or nail together a wooden toy for children who would soon be out in a world that hanged a person who wasn’t guilty.
And I was worried about Ma, left on her lone as she was in the house.
FIRST THING I did was seek her out in the small mean parlor. The fire in the grate was down, so I built it up. Then I made her some sassafras tea. She was sitting there all alone working on her Friendship quilt. That would be funny if it weren’t so sad, Ma working on a Friendship quilt when nobody in my family even knows anymore what friendship is about. If they ever did.
It made me think of the quilt I had hidden upstairs under my bed, and the promise I’d made when it was first given to me. And the promise I made to myself about it. And how I had to break the first promise and keep the second. Soon. Very soon now.
Ma looked so frail sitting there. It was the pitifullest thing. She never has been right since she had her hip and arm and skull smashed that night two years ago now. It gives me the jimjams every time I see her.
“Is Mounts dead?” she asked.
“Yes.”
“I’ll pray for his soul.”
I was sure she would. Only thing I didn’t know was what side of her tree stump would the pebble named Mounts end up on? The saved side? Or the damned?
First thing she did when we moved to this house on East Main Street was find a flat stone out back where she put the pebbles of everybody she prayed for. She hobbles out there every so often to change the pebbles to different sides. I don’t want to know anymore what side I’m on. Me and Ma have fussed too much at each other in this house. I hate it here. I miss our place on Blackberry Fork. But it’s all gone, burned to the ground.
I have places to go. I don’t have to stay here. I can go stay with my brother Jim and his family. Or my brother Sam. I can go to normal school like Mr. Cuzlin wants. Onliest reason I haven’t bestirred myself yet is for Ma. Pa’s away all day running the Big Sandy ferry from Pikeville to Ferguson’s Creek. My sister Adelaide has become a granny woman, and she’s only two years older than I am, eighteen. She tends people when they get down sick and delivers babies.
Forget Trinvilla. She’s just become too downright uppity.
“Did Devil Anse come, like your pa feared?” Ma asked.
“No. He never showed, Ma.”
She sighed. “Adelaide sent a note she might be in for supper.”
“There’s enough food. I’ll go fix things.” I went to the kitchen to start supper. As usual I had to struggle with the cast-iron stove. I hate it. I miss our old wood range at home, with its warming closets on top where you could put biscuits at breakfast and they’d stay warm all day. I miss the fresh trout brother Calvin would bring in, the honey from brother Pharmer’s bees, the raccoons brother Bud and his dogs would bring home from a day’s hunting.
We belonged to a place on Blackberry Fork. And it was a staying thing. Now it’s gone. Oh, I can do some ciphering and know, bit by bit, how it was taken away. But that doesn’t put any sense on it. And today I’m toting such a misery about it that I’ve come right to my room to write in the blank book Mr. Cuzlin once gave me.
I write to improve my penmanship for normal school. I have to give Mr. Cuzlin an answer soon. That man’s been good to me. But I can’t bestir myself to go unless I rid myself of the poison inside me. My writing is kind of like Adelaide’s blood purifier that she’s always giving Ma. And besides, I don’t aim to be like our sheep, so shy that if a wild animal attacks, they just lie down and get ready to die. There’s been too much dying around these parts for my liking. I’m plumb sick of it. And I don’t even know if it’s all over yet. So I’m going to write what happened. The way it was for me, at least. The way it was all my life. Since I was a knee baby of seven.