Chapter Thirty-One

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OUT OF THE DARK came a choice.

A single question that hovered on my fading periphery.

Live or die?

The time had come.

Fight or give in?

I hovered in absolute darkness with no answer.

I wanted her.

The girl I couldn’t see or hear or touch.

I wanted happiness with her, the world with her, forever with her.

But I couldn’t have her without having all my misdeeds and trespasses.

The fact still remained that I’d done things that couldn’t be undone.

Things that couldn’t be forgiven.

Things that would prevent me from happiness because I didn’t deserve such absolution.

Live or die?

Make the choice.

Decide.

Now.

The blackness thickened.

Something crushed my phantom chest.

And I made a choice.

I gritted my non-existent teeth as my misery selected for me.

My answer was non-verbal.

The response silent but suffocating.

Things started changing, morphing, preparing.

I waited for the end.

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