FORTY

It was a black-and-white episode,

our stroll along the shore road at

Tobermory. Sodium lamps did the best

they could for us in their limited spectrum

and reach, walked us out to the end of the dock,

made a short-armed gesture to the total dark.

You posed on a cache of traps. Seamlessly,

we integrated with the background.

It had been quiz night in the Mishnish Pub,

the river bordering Zambia on the tip of our tongues,

rugby, as ever, an unknown quantity, like the Latin name

for onion. We couldn’t pick Lily Cole out of a lineup

if she’d robbed us at knifepoint, and now couldn’t see

through to the limits of our sight. A constellation

of pale boats emerged floating on the air, the horizon

had closed its eyes and disappeared. In this,

our own were not deceived, it’s the mind that makes

inferences. When lying in a small room in the dark,

you often survey distances in a kind of daylight,

don’t you. You left me sleeping

and went back out to the seawall, the drifting

boats, each a new month awaiting your captaincy.

In the cell water, eye water, the water thought

floats on, rigging clanking softly in the breeze

and afterbreeze, you were anchored

by unseen lines to the harbour.