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hat can I say about Joey? Poor Joey, that’s for one. Joey goes through it internally and externally. His self-worth is all over the place, he’s trying to find himself, and already has a child. The craziest part is that he’s only 16 and his baby mama is Aqua (a fellow main character in this saga), but we’ll get to her when the time presents itself.
Anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, and this isn’t even the tip of the iceberg. He went through so much, that he tried to fake his own death. Crazy right? Let’s dive deeper into the life of Joey.
Joey has two older identical twin brothers who were named Mike and Cody. Since they were twins, his parents focused more on Mike and Cody than they did on Joey. Joey constantly felt like an unwanted child. He kept a lot of his feelings internally. Mike was a wrestler and a boxer. Cody was a soccer and hockey player. They love to go to the gym and mess with their little brother. Joey doesn’t go to the gym because of his self-worth level, low self-confidence, and the problems he was facing. Not to mention that his brothers performed wrestling moves on him to add to the damage. His brothers thought it was funny, but not for Joey. He was hurting internally, and you can see it all on his face. He would attempt to tell his parents, but they kept saying “Suck it up” and “Be like your brothers.” How can he be more like his brothers when it was problematic for Joey to deal with his issues?
Ashley (his mom) worked as an accountant while Michael (his dad) was a coach. Joey didn’t have any bullies because they all knew he was the brother of the captain of the wrestling, soccer, and hockey teams at the school. Joey kept feeling this feeling of self-doubt and continuously compared himself to his brothers. This brought the issues of perfectionism, depression, anxiety, and other issues. Like how I said, we’re constantly manifesting and whatever we put out in the Universe we shall receive back. Say, for instance, someone used to always talk about, judge, and make fun of people who have disabilities or a person being in a wheelchair for instance. Don’t be surprised in another lifetime, that person ends up being in a wheelchair temporarily or for the rest of their life. I don’t tolerate people disrespecting others and that seems like the norm nowadays. Being disrespectful isn’t right and if you don’t see the issues of what you say, think, or act, then you’ll stay disrespectful towards people.
You were never created to live depressed, defeated, guilty, condemned, ashamed, or unworthy. Someone can’t ruin you forever and you’re not a tragedy waiting to happen.
Electromagnetic weapons are wireless manipulation of the human brain to change the induce moods from apathy to indirect aggression for example. Using electromagnetic fields, people can alter the electoral signals in the brains of humans and animals. Sometimes, you have to go through the worst to get to the best. Focus on the good in everything and remember to always breathe in stressful encounters. Be patient because you were created to be victorious because you’re already the divine. You get to be you forever.
Joey usually gets A’s and B’s in school. He showed his parents his report card and basically, they said, “How nice” and continued doing what they were already doing. This crushed Joey’s spirit and all the hard work he put in. While he was getting these good grades, Mike and Cody were telling Joey to do their homework to stay on the sports team at school. If you were failing, then you wouldn’t be able to play on the varsity team. This made Joey way busier than expected because now he was doing work that was above his grade level.
He was experiencing depression over the fact that no one cared about him, loved him, or noticed him. Thus, making Joey enter a dark state of mind. This made Joey experience suicidal thoughts and he started to contemplate staying on earth. Like I said beforehand, if you commit suicide in the physical world, you’ll have to feel all those emotions of the people who you impacted by your fatality.
I know right now with suicidal thoughts, it seems as if no one cares, loves, or is there for you. Trust me, you’ll be surprised by how much your death would impact the people around you and those you barely talk to. You know how the saying goes; people don’t truly love you until you’re gone. That’s why record labels, love when their artists end up dying because they’ll get a bigger following, bigger sales, bigger numbers, and they can keep all that money to themselves, essentially.
Joey never thought of self-harm because he was scared of hurting himself. He wanted an instant death to not feel the pain throughout his death. Committing suicide physically is different from committing suicide spiritually. In the spiritual, dying from this system or letting go of this physical reality is an instance of spiritual suicide. Committing suicide physically for a physical reason is significate.
There are physical organic beings, then you have spiritual inorganic entities, and then you have those deities that dip in between both. Those are the people to look out for because they can cause the most spiteful damage to us. They like to hide in the shadows through the thin wall between the physical and spiritual realities.
Joey was ready, prepared, and amendable of the fact of committing suicide. He knew how to do it because he watched some videos on how to fake your death or commit suicide. Joey wrote a short death note to his family even though he felt like they wouldn’t read it. He wrote that he wasn’t feeling loved or cared for in this family.
You might have an attachment to people who are closest to you that makes you feel a certain way towards them. That’s why you should practice detaching and disconnecting because once you’re attached there’s no coming back. Nothing wrong with showing love and care for people but having an attachment to something or someone is a craving effect. You need them, you desire them, and you cannot go through life without them. This can be toxic in the end and could hinder your spiritual growth. Everything on the outside is a reflection of the inside. It’s your mirror reflection. If you’re wanting anything on the outside, it’s going in reverse. Once you flip the script, you’ll begin to manifest an acclimated way. The difference between wanting something and having something is doing something. If you start now, you’ll begin seeing results one day earlier than if you start tomorrow. If you’re using the power of letting go and detachment, then you’ll be able to let these things come into your life easier than ever.
Detachment is experiencing our feelings without allowing them to control us. We step back and look at things objectively. We let go and accept what we cannot change. We detach from others’ choices, knowing that their spiritual work isn’t ours to do. We choose how we’ll act rather than just reacting.
Detachment is a deep breath of serene and forbearance in response to unexpected anger. We can listen without losing ourselves. With detachment, we see our mistakes honestly, make amends, and start afresh. Detachment allows us to be in the world, but not of the world. It frees us to lead our lives with grace. Detach from emotions and those physical traits that have been taught to us. We didn’t come down here from the spiritual realm with all these emotions and other expressions. They taught us to focus on human emotions and physical characteristics instead of being detached from all those physical traits. No person, place, or thing has any power over you. Letting go means realizing that some people are a part of your history, but not a part of your destiny. Never apologize for being you.
Challenge:
Refuse to entertain negativity. Life’s too big, and time’s too short to get caught up in the empty drama. Healthy detachment has become the release of the subjective thoughts, emotions, or energy that’s holding you back. This can be in the form of people, places, and things that have kept you trapped in dis-ease. It means that you can step back and observe what’s happening to, in, and around you without being involved in it or creating additional drama. In doing so, you allow the feelings, thoughts, and energy to dissipate. You’re then free to act with compassion, love, and acceptance.
Exercise:
Say this affirmation: “I allow myself to peacefully detach from anyone who has hurt or harmed me.” Allow yourself to do what’s best for you, even if it upsets other people. You get what you get, so don’t be upset. Don’t dwell on the seven deadly but show virtue to overcome them.
Although, this is true, look at it from Joey’s point of view. He never felt that feeling of love from anyone. Joey didn’t have many friends and the only time people talked to him was to find out more about his brothers.
Joey liked to draw and was super creative. He was interested in cartoons, anime, and animation. It’s never too late to connect with your inner child.
Joey expressed his issues with depression and anxiety of trying to please everyone without gaining anything back in return. Joey didn’t want to hang himself because that looked painful. He was thinking of getting run over by a car, but he didn’t want anyone to find his body. So, he made the executive decision in drowning.
Joey didn’t know how to swim, and he knew he wanted an instant death experience. So, instead of just choking on some water, he determined to get chains around his neck and an anchor to bring him right to the bottom of the ocean.
His parents were out at Cody’s soccer game in the afternoon and then at Mike’s wrestling match during the evening. Of course, Mike was there to support his brother and the same for Cody. His parents were always there to support their favorite sons and their accomplishments.
Wonder why some kids have a hard time connecting with their parents if they miss all the highlights of their life. Kids only have their 1st birthday, their first dance residual, the first-time walking, etc. All these moments are memories that children keep and whoever was there in that moment they’ll have a deeper connection with them. Hence why most fathers don’t have a deep connection with their children because some fathers were never there. The same goes for the women who decide to put their children up for adoption and then try to come back decades later. The child has a better connection with their adopted family, and they showed more care and love compared to their immediate family members. Also, the parents who opted in committing abortion never experience that baby or the accomplishments that’ll achieve. What if that child was a key element for society to help people along the way? This won’t be the case due to abortion. It’s killing off the baby instead of embracing it. If people love having unprotected sex, get pregnant, and then say they’re not ready for a baby; why have unprotected sex in the first place? So many people say they don’t like condoms or other solutions, but then when they get pregnant, they’re not ready for the baby to come. It’s no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. People would rather fight for abortion rights but won’t fight for their human rights.
There are things one must unlearn to create the life one truly desires. Unlearn societal standards of beauty and diet culture. Unlearn seeking external validation over self-assurance. Unlearn to distract from hard feelings instead of processing them. Stay focused because not every distraction is a worthy detour. Unlearn to make yourself smaller to fit into social situations. Unlearn pretending like you’re fine instead of asking for support. Unlearn to ignore your boundaries to please other people. Unlearn to believe your self-worth depends on your productivity. Unlearn to sacrifice your voice and beliefs to avoid conflict. Unlearn not to celebrate your accomplishments because “others have better ones.”
Acknowledge your self-worth because your confidence is soaring. Never assume that loud is strong and quiet is weak. Observe the energies around you because the quieter you are, the less information they have against you. Your voice and heart matter too. Don’t let the loudness of another person’s opinion silence the fierceness of your spirit. The one thing that you have that nobody else has is you. Your voice, your mind, your story, your vision, etc. So, write, draw, build, play, dance, and live only as you can. Use your voice for kindness, your ears for compassion, your hands for charity, your mind for truth, and your heart for love.
Joey almost thought of faking his own death and leaving to go to another country or out of state. The problem with that would be that he didn’t have a car, wasn’t old enough, and couldn’t receive his passport yet. So, Joey went to the safe where his parents’ held money and other valuables. He then proceeded to take some money out of the safe so he could buy the chains, anchor, a bag, and call a taxi. He walked over to the store closest to him to buy the items. No one questioned it because they thought his parent was in the store with him or was outside. He then progressed to call a taxi to go to the highway and jump inside the ocean. He asked one customer to use their phone to call his mommy. The fellow customer felt sad for him, not seeing through Joey’s acting skills because he knew how to act as well. Instead of calling Ashley, he called the taxi company by finding the number in the yellow book before he left. He waited outside for the taxi, and it was already getting dark. He didn’t want to commit suicide outside when it was bright out because people would see him and try to rescue him.
The taxi finally pulled up to his location and Joey told the taxi driver that his parents got stuck on the highway and he needed to be with them. The taxi driver didn’t ask questions because he was trying to get some money. Once the taxi driver let him off (before entering the highway), he sped off to get another ride. Joey walked to the highway and he loved seeing the clear deep ocean beneath the highway bridge. He put the chains around his neck and connected the anchor to the bottom of the chain. The anchor was heavy, but he could pick it up. Joey knew by taking physics in high school, that the force and pull of the anchor will make him throttle on the chains faster and while the water enters his mouth, he’ll start drowning at the bottom of the ocean. Once he was impending to jump off the bridge, he got a notification from his current girlfriend Aqua saying “I need to tell you something.” Before Joey could respond by saying, “What” she called Joey saying she was pregnant.
Joey was shocked and couldn’t commit suicide after this. Joey was out in the rain hearing this news while calling for a cab. He eventually did make it home safely after calling the taxi company to bring him home. Now for Aqua and Joey’s relationship.
While no one was paying attention to Joey, one person sneaked her way into Joey’s heart. It was a girl named Aqua. Now Joey was 16 and Aqua was 18. They met because of all the homework he had to do for his brothers. He was in their class a few times to give them their homework before or after class. He noticed this cute girl and he was scared to approach her. Then his brothers would always throw parties while their parents were away, and he would see Aqua again. Aqua noticed Joey and went up to him while he was doing one of his drawings. They loved to draw together and talk about anime. When Joey was a child, he gained vivacious toward his favorite animated character.
Now with Joey not caring early on in his life, he became a professional raw dogger. Yes, he would have sex with women without a condom and not have any babies with them. It was the talk around town as Joey started to do it more because he was drunk and not himself. He let those dark entities enter his body and that’s why they call alcohol spirits. Aqua wanted to experience that raw dogging experience from Joey as the other women talked about. This time it was different because they developed similar hobbies first before really stepping into that physical connection. Yes, the physical attraction was there for Joey, but he didn’t know if Aqua felt the same way. For the other women, it was strictly physical and that’s why he was professionally raw dogging them. This was Joey’s escape from his problems to get drunk, find a cute female, and raw dog them. Aqua was the only one that truly showed that they cared for Joey and that led Joey to not be guarded and break those barriers of his heart to her. They both were opening up to one another and becoming more vulnerable throughout the process. Joey did imagine raw dogging her and cutting ties right after, but this felt different.
Fast-forward to the night they had sex. His whole family was out celebrating their championship victory against the opposing team. They didn’t invite Joey to the dinner because he didn’t play for that team and to his family, it didn’t make sense for him to come. They told him that they can only bring two guests, but in actuality, the whole outside family went as well. This made Joey feel infuriated and he started drinking. He needed someone to distract him from the true pain he was feeling. He called Aqua and she came over with her car. Joey expressed his feelings for Aqua and it felt like the perfect time to have sex with one another. So, Joey raw dogged Aqua that night and went about his business afterward. Aqua and Joey continued to talk from time to time, but not as frequently as before.
Remember having sex with someone who’s still experiencing trauma that they haven’t healed from yet, is a problem when it comes to having sex. Their problems become your problems, their issues become your issues, and all the people they used to have sex with, those demons latch onto you. Joey thought he was in a good spot with Aqua, but Aqua started ghosting him from time to time and wasn’t showing any real effort or consistency in their relationship. Yes, Joey asked her to be his girlfriend the night they had sex and she said: “Si Papi” in her Spanish accent. When women speak in another language, that just makes them even sexier. It seemed like the energy was off because of her distance, so he proceeded to try and commit suicide. Once he got that text and phone call, everything changed.
Joey wasn’t a professional raw dogger anymore and became an amateur raw dogger. Joey didn’t care because he wanted to be a part of the baby’s life. He would do anything Aqua needed him to do and was always there for her. This made Joey lose himself over another person. You always need to put and keep yourself first because this is your journey and path. Joey didn’t know about spirituality, so he didn’t know about this information. He didn’t realize the subliminal messages she was throwing at him by not caring as much. Of course, she would be there for the baby, but not as much for Joey. After nine months of doing all that he can just to show her she’s special; the baby came.
They named their child Brenna and what a beautiful bright star she was. Brenna came into this world full of life and was smiling right out of the womb. No crying, no hitting, and no pain; she was just smiling. Brenna’s middle name should be Calm because she was tranquil. They took pictures with the newborn baby and the family looked so good together. In Joey’s eyes at least because this was only the beginning of their turmoil.
Joey took their family out to the park on the same day that Brenna was born. Joey was going to proposals to Aqua. Joey thought the right thing to do was to marry her because of the child’s sake. That’s the problem with most young people nowadays. They want to have sex so fast, get in relationships super-fast, and marry each other quickly after having babies. Babies won’t always bring the family closer together. People would use the baby as a scapegoat in trying to stay together. Before you get married discuss bills, parenting styles, credit, debt, religion, how to deal with family, what beliefs will be instilled in your children, childhood traumas, sexual expectations, partner expectations, financial expectations, family health history, mental health history, bucket list, dream abode, careers, education, centrist, and whatever else come to mind. Love alone isn’t enough. Protect your assets and get a prenup if you need to. It might be easier in separating instead of misleading the baby into seeing fake love. This will condition the baby of this ideology of fake love throughout their life. Most young people today, once they have a baby, they automatically think of marriage. People are young and don’t know what they truly need from a relationship. They only go after their wants and desires. They quickly go through life while they’re young. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t.
When Joey asked Aqua for marriage, she was contemplating like she had something to tell him. Aqua told Joey that she was pregnant again. He was gusto not thinking if it was his kid or not. He automatically assumed that it was his kid again. Aqua was pregnant with another child from another man. We’ll talk about this situation when we get to Aqua in her section.
This crushed Joey’s spirit, and he began the downward spiral of his phobia once again. He started to fail his classes due to his struggles internally and being a young father. Everything was weighing on his shoulders. He had more responsibilities to handle and was barely getting any support from his family. The only person Joey truly loved became a baby mama to his newborn child. From always striving for a real family dynamic, he ended up co-parenting with Aqua. Would all these issues bring a negative vibe to Joey within the group? Would he ever express himself and all that he’d been through? How would he respond to seeing Aqua again? Never think that a small group of committed people can’t change the world. It’s the only thing that ever has. Can this group of beings, do it? Find out if they can throughout this book, “How to Overcome Apocalyptic Events”.
Chapter One
Lucky 7’s
