A ceiling of rough boards stretched overhead as bit by bit Sophia’s senses collected themselves and she opened her aching eyes, the pain in her leg flaring to greet her return to consciousness.
Absolutely nothing in the small room she found herself in was familiar. The simple wooden furniture and plain bed she lay on were entirely alien—as was everything except for the dog that curled next to her on the thin mattress, the same one that had found her in the forest.
With a start of alarm she tried to sit up.
If the dog was here...
‘You’re awake. I was starting to wonder if I should be worried.’
The voice from behind made her jump, a movement she regretted as her injured leg crackled and a gasp escaped parted lips. She tried to look over her shoulder at the figure leaning against the doorframe, her heart slamming into the bodice of her dress as if fired from a cannon as he stepped into the room.
‘No need for that. I’ll not harm you.’
She watched with eyes wide in fright as the tall, dark-haired man she just recalled seeing before she’d slid to the ground moved slowly to sit at the foot of the bed, careful not to touch her. His movements were measured as if he suspected—correctly, as it happened—she might baulk and try to run, and his attempts to avoid startling her slightly dimmed the brightest spark of her fear.
‘Who are you, sir? Where am I?’
Now she could see him clearly Sophia felt herself colour beneath his direct gaze, heat simmering in her flushed cheeks. Her fleeting impression in the forest had been correct: the stranger was handsome indeed, olive-skinned and firm-jawed with a width of shoulder she’d certainly never seen on any idle gentleman. He wore a shirt with the sleeves turned back over brawny forearms and a blacksmith’s leather apron across his barrel chest, the hands that rested on his knees huge and scarred and ingrained with what looked like soot. The overwhelming impression was of a solid wall of male, sitting near enough that she could have brushed him with her stockinged foot—but it was his eyes that made her blink with surprise that veered sharply into wonder.
The left was dark and shrewd as a raven’s, obsidian in his weathered face, while the right was the colour of warm honey and moss, the hazel and green mixing together like a landscape in miniature. They were eyes to lose hours in, their uncanny colours the background for a complex mix of curiosity and—unexpectedly, Sophia thought dazedly—concern that danced in their depths. There was a beauty in their strangeness and Sophia felt her blush intensify as she realised how much she wanted to stare, the face they were set in almost as intriguing in its striking appeal.
What are you thinking? The sensible voice inside her head heaved aside girlish sentiment to regard her with a frown. You know nothing about this man. Plenty of dangerous individuals have comely faces—as Septimus should have taught you.
The thought of the man from whom she’d fled made Sophia’s face crumple in fresh fear, Mother’s glare joining it to increase the horrors racing in her mind. It was impossible to tell what time it was, although the sunlight attempting to stream through thin curtains signalled a new July morning, and the possibility her flight had been discovered turned her blood to ice. Would they have begun hunting for her yet? Had the bookkeeper already visited Fenwick Manor, full of apologies for being unable to stop Miss Thruxton from disappearing into the warm night?
The man must have seen the terror in her face and misunderstood it, for when he next spoke his voice was low and steady and, despite the rush of anxiety in every vein, Sophia felt a glint of feminine appreciation for its deep, pleasing tone.
‘No sirs here—only a blacksmith. My name’s Fell and this is my cottage. I found you in Savernake Forest and brought you back here, to Woodford Common. Have you been to this village before?’
Sophia shook her head distractedly, too many worries chiming in her ears to make them ring. Woodford Common? Surely she’d heard the name, or perhaps seen it written on a signpost at the side of the road through the forest. It was close to Marlborough and perhaps a distance of twenty-five miles from Fenwick Manor.
‘No. I’ve heard of it, but never visited.’
Fell nodded and she couldn’t help a swift glance risked in his direction, again glimpsing the dark shine of his hair complemented by skin far richer than she was used to seeing. The combination was alluring, a flit of interest Sophia shied away from in alarm. Any coy appreciation for her mysterious host would do nothing to unravel an already confusing situation, one that without careful management could all too easily get out of hand.
‘Do you remember anything about where you came from, or where you might have been going?’ He crossed his arms over his chest and regarded her narrowly, as though trying to read something in her glowing face. ‘I can’t imagine you came to be in the middle of the forest without good reason.’
Sophia hesitated, the truth stalling on her tongue. He’d rescued her from her initial predicament but that didn’t mean he wouldn’t be tempted to deliver her back to Fenwick Manor if she told him who she was. Mother might offer a reward for the return of her wayward daughter, and with a stab of regret Sophia realised her own purse had been left in the carriage when she fled. She had no way of making a counter-offer without a penny to her name, no way of persuading Fell not to make the transition from rescuer to captor.
She saw how he watched her with those piercing eyes and felt her pulse skip beneath her skin at his scrutiny, unfamiliar and yet...
Not unpleasant.
Her experience of young men was scant, to say the least—even nuns in a convent might speak to the occasional male, more than Sophia had ever been allowed. At the few rare parties she had been permitted to attend Mother had held on to her arm with cold fingers like a vice, turning her basilisk glare on any who might have strayed too near.
She wouldn’t want to risk a kind man looking my way. Not that they’d have reason to.
Only Septimus would do as Sophia’s intended—his malice was exactly the repayment she deserved for her part in the tragedy of almost twenty years before, the weight of guilt around her neck something she knew couldn’t be escaped.
Even so Sophia had chafed under Mother’s pinching grasp, longing to be among the dancing couples and perhaps flirting her fan at some handsome partner. The desire to throw off the restraining hand was always so strong, her natural high spirits aching to be allowed free rein—but she knew what would happen if she disobeyed and the prospect was enough to douse the rebellious spark that glowed deep down inside, never permitted to see the light.
She’d lapsed into silence again without meaning to, only the slight sigh of the man waiting for her reply dragging her away from the thoughts that gnawed at her.
‘Your name, then? Will you tell me that at least?’
The mismatched gaze searched her face more and more doubtfully the longer she took to speak, her confusion and discomfort growing with every second she cast about for an answer. The novel sensation of being so close to a man, unchaperoned and on his bed of all places would have been mortifying enough without the added complication of his being so confoundedly attractive. She would have to conjure a story to explain how she came to be lying in the forest and a new name to match—both things that required more time to think than Sophia currently had at her disposal. With her cheeks burning, she blurted out the first thing that sprang into her head.
‘Marie. Marie—Crewe.’
Where that flash of genius came from Sophia wasn’t sure, but after a short pause Fell gave a small nod.
‘Well then, Miss Crewe, as I said, my name is Fell and this—’ he jerked his head towards the dog that lay near her with its head on its paws ‘—is Lash. As a pair of poor bachelors we weren’t expecting company, so if it’s any comfort we’re as surprised by this turn of events as you are.’
Surely nobody could be quite as surprised as she was, Sophia thought as she willed her heartrate to slow back to an acceptable speed. Opening her eyes in a strange man’s bedroom was not how she’d expected her moonlight flit to end, the most intimate encounter with a male she’d ever had—but then again, what had she expected? There had been no plan other than to escape Fenwick Manor and its inhabitants, her movements after that as unknown to Sophia as to anyone else. Perhaps stumbling into Fell’s path might turn out to be fortunate after all. For all her misgivings she was now under a roof, at least temporarily safe from the eyes of those hunting her, and for that she ought to be grateful.
The frenetic thumping of her heart under control a little more, Sophia shifted slightly higher on the bed to lean against the headboard. Fell sat impassive, awaiting a response as she settled herself, stalling for time while she groped for a plausible story. His silent presence was a curious mixture of calming and unnerving, determined patience strangely at odds with such a huge frame. Despite what could have been an intimidatingly large build there was no shadow of the subtle menace Septimus had always radiated, the difference between the two men like night and day, and Sophia’s sudden appreciation for the fact brought her thoughts to a sharp halt.
No more of that. Remember what you ought to be concentrating on. The man’s a blacksmith, for goodness’ sake, and you are...well, yourself.
That was the truth and there was nothing more to it, Sophia acknowledged grimly. He was far below her in status, but even if he’d been an earl there was no reason a man like Fell would so much as look at her twice. Handsome and clearly capable, if any other rank he would have been exactly the sort of man Mother had taught Sophia never to hope for. A suitor with those qualities could have his pick of women—why would he waste his time with her?
Thoughts of Mother helped focus Sophia’s mind, her fear rising again to stick in her throat. She would have to make the most of the chance she had been given and, to do that, she would have to lie.
‘I was in service to a family in Salisbury, as—as a maid. I had to leave suddenly and in the confusion of travelling I found myself lost in the forest, without any of my luggage and unable to find my way in the dark.’
Fell half-raised one eyebrow but said nothing to disagree, merely inclining his dark head as she spoke. For a horrible moment Sophia was sure she saw a glimmer of scepticism in his expression, although the next it disappeared back below the surface.
‘A maid?’
‘That’s right.’
‘I see. And where was it you were headed that made you take such a detour...in the middle of the night? Somehow deprived of your luggage?’
Sophia dropped her eyes to the patchwork quilt she lay on, thinking fast as dismay seized her.
You’ve always been a terrible liar. Yet another thing you could never do right.
‘It was—I thought, perhaps...’ she stuttered, stumbling over the words. ‘I didn’t have a precise destination in mind. I thought I’d get to Marlborough and then decide my route from there. Cutting through Savernake Forest seemed a good way to save time, but as I said, in the dark... My case and purse were left behind when I had to get down from the coach unexpectedly and, by the time I realised, it was too late to return for them.’
She tailed off, still refusing to meet his eye as she ran out of thread to spin her pitiful cobweb of a lie. There was no way he’d believe such a pile of garbled nonsense, surely, yet when he replied Sophia felt herself wilt with relief.
‘Fortunate I found you, then. You wouldn’t have got much further with that leg left the way it was.’
In the whirl that had spun her since she woke Sophia had almost forgotten her pain, but now Fell mentioned it she felt a renewed shard rake her. She looked down swiftly, her insides contracting briefly at the ugly stain of dried blood on her skirts. The stiff patch was as much as she could stand—any fresher and her innards would have turned, her horror of all kinds of gore so vivid even the memory was enough to make her swoon.
‘Nasty wound about this long.’ Fell gestured with his fingers, although Sophia’s thoughts were abruptly diverted by a new dread dawning in her stomach. The only way he would know what kind of injury she’d sustained was if...
‘I’ve cleaned and dressed it, but it’ll need time to heal. Your ankle seemed as though you’d turned it, too.’
Sophia’s blush gripped her entire body, roasting her in the fire trapped beneath her own skin.
He had looked. He had actually looked!
Even her eyes felt hot as she thought how Fell must have swept her skirt to the side to treat her leg, a liberty absolutely no lady of her standing would allow. To uncover something so private, so forbidden, went against every lesson in decorum Sophia had ever been taught. Only a woman’s husband might catch a glimpse of her calves, or even a scandalous knee if he was exceptionally lucky. Certainly no lady would so much as countenance a blacksmith, of all people—but of course, she wasn’t a lady here. In Fell’s cottage it was vital he believed she was a maid—Marie—and surely women of the lower classes had different standards. If she let her shame show in her face he’d suspect her even if he didn’t already, her safety dependent on sustaining her feeble lie.
‘Oh. Well. Thank you very much,’ she answered through teeth clenched in mortification, although Fell didn’t seem to notice. He was too busy softly rubbing the dog’s brown ears, huge calloused fingers again surprising Sophia with their gentleness. They were the same fingers that had cleaned and dressed her wounds, strong and tanned and scattered with healed burns shining here and there, and the knowledge increased the heat in Sophia’s cheeks to positively scalding. It was an unspeakably intimate thing for him to have uncovered her pale legs and washed the blood from them, all carefully enough not to rouse her. A large part of her was still appalled, embarrassed, thinking she ought to be offended, but another part, secret and more scandalous than anything else, couldn’t hate the notion he had touched her skin. He must have carried her in from the forest before anything else, she realised belatedly—his arms were like nothing she’d seen up close before, power barely contained by the scorched sleeves that covered them, and to know she had nestled within them lit a taper Sophia hadn’t known existed. It was unacceptable, and distinctly unladylike, yet there it was: an instinctive and irrepressible recognition of the attractions of a good-looking man over which she found she had no control.
The man responsible for such an unfamiliar reaction shrugged his sculpted shoulders. ‘Doesn’t take much skill to bind a leg. I’ve plenty of experience doing the same for horses and they’ve twice as many to contend with.’
Before Sophia could decide how she felt about being compared to a horse Fell got to his feet, towering above her with his hair almost brushing the low ceiling and for a half-second she felt a twinge of fear. He was truly one of the biggest men she had ever seen, obviously more than capable of lifting her if he chose. She couldn’t escape, her injury throwing her entirely into his power—yet the flicker dimmed as she saw how carefully he stepped away from her, such unfamiliar consideration for her comfort sending her pulse skipping again like a spring lamb.
‘You must be half-starved by now. I’ll find you something to eat.’
Fell stirred the tea leaves slowly, his thoughts too full of the woman lying in his bedchamber to notice it had begun to stew. The remnants of yesterday’s loaf and the last of his cheese were already on a tray and he wondered if it would be enough to sate his mysterious guest’s appetite—but that was the least pressing of the concerns that currently circled through his mind.
If she’s a maid named Marie, I’m the Prince Regent.
Far from being a worldly man, even he could tell the difference between a woman of his own class and one that was...not. From the moment she’d opened those pretty eyes of hers he’d known, the look in them that of a rabbit caught in a trap. A country girl might be bemused to wake in a stranger’s home, as would anyone, but her face wouldn’t flush scarlet at being alone with a man, nor freeze in horror at finding one had caught a glimpse of her apparently sacred legs.
I’ve never known a servant with such smooth hands or a voice you could cut glass with. She’s a lady and why a lady would be roaming alone after dark is something I couldn’t begin to guess.
There had to be a reason for her to go fleeing through the forest and it certainly wasn’t the hopelessly transparent lie she had wanted him to swallow. To tell a falsehood was to attempt to conceal the truth, which in turn meant there had to be a truth worth concealing—and what a gentlewoman might feel the need to hide was far beyond Fell’s remit. She was frightened, though, and the spark of concern that kindled inside him at the thought was one he tried to rationalise at once. Anybody alone and afraid would stir his pity—if Marie, or whatever her real name was, moved him with her fearful eyes and pale face it had nothing to do with her beauty.
Fell splashed some milk into a chipped dish and placed it on the tray before steeling himself to return to his bed. A woman daintily arranged on his pillows was the very last thing he had anticipated when he awoke that morning—both disturbing and agreeable at the same time, in spite of what his stern self-control might mutter. It wasn’t something he’d thought he’d ever see again, the last time he’d enjoyed such an honour now so many years ago the memory had frayed at the edges. If things had unfolded differently Charity would have been his wife long ago, but it wasn’t to be and Fell attempted to dismiss the recollection with dark brows drawn into a frown.
Good enough to shoe the villagers’ horses, but not to marry their daughters. A half-Roma bastard for a son-in-law wasn’t what her father wanted and neither did she, in the end.
Charity hadn’t cared a fig about his illegitimacy or the fact that Roma blood ran in his veins, or so he’d been stupid enough to think. It was as though she was blind to what everybody else saw so vividly and for that alone her worth was more than the rubies he’d wished he could buy for her. She had looked down deeply into the well of his soul and seen the real man inside staring back at her, her acceptance of all that he was a shower of cooling rain dousing the flames of inadequacy that had burned him all his life. She’d barely reached his shoulder, yet the power of her love had brought him to his knees, felled by the validation he saw in her eyes and finally the confirmation that he was enough. It was the stability he had always craved, the antidote to the poisonous whispers that had followed him since the day he was born into shame, wailing as if he already knew what future awaited him.
Young fool that he was, Fell believed every one of her sweet words.
It was only when she disappeared from Woodford without as much as a goodbye that he realised the depth of his mistake. Her father, a farmer usually humourless and grave, had laughed himself sick when Fell knocked at their cottage door and asked earnestly for her hand, promising to love her for the rest of his days if she would only be returned—but he was too late. She’d gone north to marry a distant cousin as she’d always intended, her father was happy to divulge, only passing time with handsome, low-born Fell until her betrothed could afford to take a wife. The farmer hadn’t approved of his daughter’s dalliance, of course, but she’d assured him there was nothing to it—how could there be when Fell was so far below her in every respect? The very notion that she might have entertained marrying such a creature was absurd and so Fell’s heart had crumbled to dust, his dreams for a lifetime of more than just derision and scorn scattered to the winds and his only chance of ever knowing tenderness from anybody but Ma carried away like dandelion seeds in a storm.
With an irritable grunt Fell turned his back on the memories that still pained him, threatening to make an already strange day worse. Dwelling on the past wouldn’t help him think what to do with allegedly-Marie, stretched out on his bed like a mermaid on a rock with her vibrant red hair tossed around her shoulders. She was too pretty by half, if truth be told—and Fell had no need of a pretty woman disrupting his quiet life. Since it had been driven home to him so cruelly that he could never hope to be worthy of a wife he had lived alone with only his dogs for company, Lash the offspring of his old bitch Queenie who had passed away the previous spring. Dogs didn’t care who his father was or whether his mother could speak a different tongue. Their loyalty was unshakable, ten times as kindly as the villagers who muttered as he passed. Lash and Ma were the only family Fell would ever have, the prospect of a wife and children torn to shreds the day Charity was ripped from him. A family of his own, with a loving wife and legitimate children to bear his name was all he’d ever wanted, the chance to finally anchor himself into a place he belonged, among his own people—but that would never happen for him now, instead condemned to continue life on the fringes with nowhere and no one to truly call home.
‘Mr Fell?’
The sweet voice from his bedchamber sent a flurry of something down the back of his neck, startling him with its timid civility. Usually it was his last name that hailed him, often barked or mumbled but never truly polite. Marie’s manners were oddly touching—yet more proof she was not who she claimed to be.
Fell strode back to his guest with the meagre tray of food balanced in one hand, the other clutching two cracked cups. Lash hadn’t moved from his position at Marie’s side, his eyes closed in delight as she tentatively stroked the shaggy fur of his neck as if not sure she was doing it right.
Fell lifted a brow in mild surprise, trying to ignore the fresh colour that had leapt into Marie’s cheeks at his return to the room. The bloom suited her, emphasising the peaches and cream of her complexion, so different to his own. ‘He likes you. He wouldn’t let most folk touch him like that.’
He set the tray and cups down on a little table beside the bed, almost missing the flicker of shy pleasure that flashed across her face. The next moment he wished he had missed it, as it was replaced by a small, uncertain smile that lifted the apples of her cheeks in a way too damn appealing for comfort.
‘Does he really? I always wished I might be allowed a dog of my own, but Mo—’
She broke off, eyes darting to meet his in swift apprehension. Evidently she had almost let something slip, as he saw a muscle move in her jaw as she clenched her teeth together to stop any more dangerous words slipping past dry lips.
They sat together in an awkward silence for a few heartbeats, until Fell unceremoniously deposited the plate in his blushing guest’s lap.
‘You need to eat something. It must be some time since your last meal.’
Marie nodded, taking the lump of bread with only a slight hesitation. She ate quietly and slowly although Fell could see in her face that she must have been ravenous, his humble bread and cheese probably as delicious in her hunger as the good food she was doubtless used to.
When every crumb had disappeared from the plate Fell poured her some tea, faintly amused by her concerned glance at his battered cups. Her pretence of being a servant was falling apart before his eyes, but she hadn’t seemed to realise and once again Fell wondered why she thought it necessary to play such a strange game.
‘What will you do now? Seems to me you’re in some difficulty, stranded with no luggage or anywhere real to go to.’
Marie paused in sipping her tea, the cup absurdly large and unwieldy in her small hand. She glanced from Fell to Lash as if the latter could tell her how to respond, but the dog’s silence gave nothing away and she dipped her head to fix on the patched bedspread beneath her.
‘I confess I don’t yet know.’ Her voice held such fresh worry and fear that it touched some forgotten part of Fell’s insides, covered in dust since Charity’s betrayal. Marie was like her in a curious way, the fragility they both shared shining through to make him shift uncomfortably in his seat. She was frightened, injured and all alone, with evidently no desire to return from where she had come.
And now she’s in my cottage—which makes her my problem.
A stab of conscience pierced Fell’s breastbone like a lance. Ma had been only a few years younger than Marie was now when Rector Frost had found her in the forest, terrified and all alone with her birth pains coming stronger with every moment that passed. If not for his kindness to a mysterious woman running from an equally mysterious past, who knew where Ma would have ended up, the old man’s compassion exactly what Essea had needed at her most vulnerable. Now in an uncanny twist of fate Fell was the one to come across a young woman in need of help, a situation that mirrored the events of thirty-one years before in a way starkly astounding.
Fell tapped his fingers on the leather front of his apron, reluctantly following the thread of his thoughts to their inevitable conclusion.
You’ll never be half the man the rector was, but you should at least attempt to follow in his footsteps. You know what you ought to do—but will you attempt it?
The words came out more gruffly than Fell would have liked, but his misgivings had apparently turned his throat to sandpaper. ‘You can stay here while your leg heals, if you’d like. Not that you’ve much choice the state it’s in at present.’
For a moment he thought she hadn’t heard him, her head still downturned and face hidden by that copper wave, although when she spoke there was something in her voice he couldn’t place.
‘Stay here? With you?’
‘Until you’re able to carry on your travels.’
She looked up at him then, and his heart gave an unpleasant lurch at the quiet pain in her eyes. It was unhappiness mixed with mistrust, the sorrowful acceptance of a dog used to a kick in place of a caress. ‘Ah. You’re mocking me, of course.’
He frowned, taking in her resignation as if she expected nothing else. ‘Of course I’m not. What reason would I have? I’m in earnest.’
Marie regarded him warily, suspicion and genuine bewilderment mixing in innocent wonder. ‘Why? Why would you help me?’
‘Why wouldn’t I, if I’m in a position to?’
The question only seemed to increase her puzzlement. She brought a hand up to gather her hair over one shoulder, casting Fell a sideways look that quite unconsciously enhanced the pretty shape of her profile in a way most unsettling.
‘But...how? How would that be possible?’
Fell swallowed, the unease already lapping at him increasing beneath her disbelieving gaze. She truly was the most beautiful woman he’d had in his cottage in almost ten years, the knowledge unwanted yet just as undeniable. It wasn’t a realisation he desired, nothing of any use coming from his appreciation for the soft glow of her flushed cheeks.
She’s clearly too high-born for the likes of you, even if you weren’t a bastard of questionable parentage. Which you are—and won’t ever forget.
Shouldering the thought aside, Fell gave the most nonchalant shrug he could manage.
‘Quite easily. I’m outside in the forge most of the day so I’ll not be under your feet. A bit of help with the cottage is all I’d ask in return, being as there’d be an extra body in it, but I’m not a man who wants looking after. You can sleep in here and I’ll go in the forge, save your blushes.’
He watched as several expressions chased each other across Marie’s smooth face, one after the other in a vivid stream of unconscious animation she couldn’t control. She seemed so eager to agree, so movingly hopeful he had provided her with a way out, yet still something in her held her back.
‘I couldn’t ask you to do that. It would be too much of an intrusion, surely.’
Her words were polite, restrained, although Fell sensed the desperation behind them as tangibly as a brick wall. ‘You didn’t ask. And there’s far worse places to sleep than a forge—it’s warm and, with a blanket, I’ll be more comfortable in there than you will in here.’
‘I’m still not sure... I would never expect you to go to such lengths for someone like me.’
‘Do you have somewhere else to go? A better plan in mind? I don’t believe you do.’
She blinked, eyes suddenly dropping to her hands—but not before Fell caught a glimpse of the pure relief in her face and his chest gave another wrench at her vulnerability.
‘I don’t know how to thank you. Your kindness... I’ve never known anything like it. I just don’t know what to say aside from thank you.’
Fell nodded briskly, determined at least one of them would maintain some stoicism. Marie’s shock at his concern was both touching and pitiful in equal measure—and revealed far more than she had intended. If she was so unused to the most basic civility she must be more accustomed to suffering—a notion that stirred worryingly close to the bone.
‘Someone like me’? What might she mean by that? I wonder.
‘Nothing to say. Couldn’t call myself much of a man if I wouldn’t help a lady in trouble.’
She gave another of those small smiles that sent a flicker through him, although she shook her head in earnest appeal. ‘I’m not a lady, though. I’m only a maid.’
He inclined his head, stubbornly ignoring the warning bells chiming in his ears. There was no going back now, even if he had just made the error in judgement that flicker of something long forgotten made him suddenly fear.
‘Of course you are, Marie. My mistake.’