Chapter Four

“It just so happens that I do have a date for the holiday benefit luncheon, Rebecca, so you can stop waving your black book at me like it’s my death card.”

In order to cover the clumsiness of her lie, Lexie grabbed the ominous address book and chucked it toward the wastebasket in the corner. Naturally, she was off by about three feet and it fell open, sending a handful of receipts and phone numbers scrawled on napkins flying.

“Nice shot.” Rebecca moved to gather up the scattered pages without a word of complaint. Her coworker of four years, a robust redhead with the most amazing belt collection Lexie had ever seen, was accustomed to picking up after her. It was practically in her job description.

Today’s belt was a rhinestone-studded band that spelled out C-U-P-I-D. It was a fitting tribute. Rebecca was a notorious matchmaker, having been smugly and happily married for three-point-five of the four years they’d worked together.

Lexie had cried at her wedding, of course. She always cried at weddings.

“I was just trying to help.” Rebecca held her black book protectively to her chest. “That friend of mine—you know, the guy you refused to go out with because he plucks his eyebrows—was asking about you again. I think he’s ready to settle down.”

“Has he stopped plucking his eyebrows?”

“Well, no. But I don’t see why you’re so against high standards in grooming. Some men can’t be bothered to wash their balls. You should be grateful.”

Lexie sighed. She loved the holiday luncheon they threw every year, she really did. From the moment the first eggnog was served until she managed to wrest a check out of every person in attendance, the event captured everything she loved about the holidays. The spirit of giving. Friends and family. Alcohol before noon. What she didn’t love was the pressure for romance. It was a longstanding tradition for everyone to bring their spouses or significant others or, as was more often in Lexie’s case, her brother.

“I am grateful for the offer,” she lied. “And I never overlook the benefits of personal hygiene, especially where the, um, sensitive bits are in question. But like I said . . . I’ve got this one covered.”

“Mystery date, huh?” Rebecca shook her head. “Just make sure you clear it with Joan first.”

Lexie nodded and left, her teeth tamped so hard on her tongue she felt dizzy. No one else had to clear their loved ones before bringing them to work functions. One time. One. Freaking. Time. Charles had been a doctor. It was only their third date. How was she supposed to have known he’d botched the nose jobs of half the women in attendance and recently had his license revoked?

And he’d offered to remove her moles for free, too.

Her shoulders drooped as she scuffled to her desk, and she was grateful for once that she had a windowless office and a nice, heavy door to keep the world away. Most of the time, she kept her door propped open with a cute rabbit statuette, loved when the day was broken up into various informal meetings with her co-workers.

Not today. She slammed the door shut and plopped into the ergonomic chair that had been a gift from her boss. Today she wanted to frown into the desk calendar covered in the doodles she had a habit of drawing when she was on the phone. Today she wanted to stare at a game of solitaire on the computer and wish the whole world away.

A knock on the door prevented her from doing much more than moving a stapler noisily from one side of the desk to the other.

“Hey, Lexie.” Her boss came in, not waiting for an invitation. They had that kind of workplace—one where the incredibly well-preserved woman who’d hired you fresh out of college heard a door slam and came running. She even brought coffee. “Two creams, four sugars. I don’t know how you can drink it like that.”

“I prefer to make it so that it tastes nothing like actual coffee.” Coffee was gross. Its mood-enhancing qualities, however, were fantastic. She grabbed the proffered mug and took a long drink. “And thank you.”

“Of course.” Joan took a seat across from Lexie’s desk, her long legs folding sidewise into a ladylike curl. Lexie’s legs, squat and stubby in comparison, rested solidly on the floor in her hemp hiking boots. She’d been late again that morning—it was lucky she’d remembered shoes at all.

“So.” Joan always cut right to the point—it was her best and worst trait. “What was that all about?”

“What was what all about?” Lexie looked around the room, her gaze landing everywhere but on her boss.

“Sweetie, the walls shook so hard I almost lost my corkboard. You’re not still upset over last week’s John Marshall incident, are you?”

An incident. That was what it was now, to be recorded forever in the annals of Lexie’s Mishaps. She shook her head. “No, that’s not it.”

And it wasn’t. This tight feeling of discontent had been lodged in the pit of her stomach for days now. Although she wouldn’t dare to name its origins, she had a strong suspicion it had to do with three consecutive nights of Sean and Fletcher hitting the bars together, the pair of them capitalizing on Fletcher’s newfound fame like a pair of shameless man-whores.

Why don’t they invite me? She could whore it up with the best of them. All Fletcher had to do was ask.

“Anything I can help with?” Joan asked.

Lexie wouldn’t cry. She wouldn’t even sniffle. “I’m fine. Just please don’t tell me I should take the rest of the afternoon off or something. I still need to see if I can sweet-talk the caterers into increasing their discount this year.”

“If anyone can, it’s you.” Joan’s certainty did much to straighten Lexie’s spine. But then she ruined it by pursing her deep burgundy lips in the way she had when she was pretending to be thinking, and added, “Rebecca says you’ve got a date all lined up and ready to go. I’m so glad—the luncheon benefit is always more fun with a handsome face to accompany you. Do I know him?”

That’s it.

Blame it on Christmas. Blame it on Rebecca. Blame it on Fletcher, whose newfound fame should have made her proud and not at all as if she’d somehow missed her chance of ever being more than Sean’s annoying sister. A probing question like that, no matter how kindly worded, was the absolute limit of Lexie’s tolerance.

She was tired of being the screw-up who needed checking up on. Tired of being the last to know about anything. Tired of being patted on the head and told she was cute.

She was happy to be cute. But darn it all to Atlantis and back—she was also a lot more. Why couldn’t anyone see that?

“I don’t think you know him, but you probably know of him. He was all over the papers last week.” The words slipped out before Lexie could stop them, and it was only with supreme self-control that she stopped herself from putting her hands over her mouth to push them back in.

Joan raised a brow. “High profile? That’s always good for donations. I’m assuming it’s good press we’re talking about here, right? You’re not bringing that serial killer from Wyoming?”

Lexie managed a tight smile. “No, I haven’t fallen quite that far. His name is Fletcher. Fletcher Owens. He was the guy—”

“Are you kidding me right now?”

“No, he’s really nice,” Lexie said, her defensive hackles rising. “He’s been a friend of my brother’s—of my whole family’s, really—for years. You’ve never met anyone so dependable or so sweet. He’s . . . it’s hard to explain. He’s the guy you trust with your most valuable possessions. The one who makes you feel better when no one else can.”

“Oh, I believe you.” Joan licked her lips and leaned in. “What I can’t believe, however, is that you’ve been sitting on Spokane’s famous rescue guy all this time. If he’s been a friend of your family’s for years, why are you only now rolling him out for us? Cute, heroic . . . and he probably loves kittens.” She released a wistful sigh. “They always love kittens.”

Lexie had no idea. Kittens had never struck her as a deal breaker before.

But Joan wasn’t done. “The women at the luncheon are going to eat him right up. By all means, bring the man. He probably looks incredible in a suit. He certainly did that wet T-shirt justice.”

Lexie stopped breathing. He really had.

She wasn’t sure what was more compelling about that internet photo, which had been printed out on the office’s high-resolution printer and was currently tucked away in her desk drawer of shame, underneath all the candy bar wrappers she pretended didn’t exist.

Was it the look on his face, normally so unreadable, transformed into the gruff, resolute expression of a man who’d just saved a woman’s life? Or was it the way all his clothes clung to his long, lean body, the sweep of his wet hair a deep brown across his brow?

The nipples.

She shivered. It was the nipples that did it, erect and beckoning against the hard swell of a chest that had seen one or two bench presses as of late. Tiny man nipples. Strong man chest. What was it about that combination? And on Fletcher, of all people?

For as long as she could remember, Fletcher had been the lanky, pasty white guy at the beach. The one who always waited until the last minute to take off his shirt before plunging in the water. The one whose tiny man nipples were the last thing on her mind.

“Do you think we could get him to give a speech?” Joan asked, prodding Lexie back into reality. “Something about everyday heroes making the biggest difference? He’d make a fantastic keynote.”

Oh. Oh. What had she just done? “I don’t think so. He’s um . . . shy.”

“Shy?” Joan said the word as though it were poison. There was no place for introversion in the nonprofit fundraising world. You made polite noises and got money—or in Lexie’s case, you made loud and obnoxious noises and got money. That was how it worked. “Surely a man who jumps into freezing lakes . . . it won’t hurt to ask, right? I mean, since he’s already going to be there?”

“I don’t really know him well enough . . . ”

“You just said he’s a longtime family friend.”

“He is.”

“But you don’t know him well enough to ask?”

No. She thought she’d known him as well as she knew Sean, but that was proving to be false on so many levels. A favor she might have couched in a laugh and a smile last week now had all kinds of meaning. Soul-crunching, unfamiliar meaning.

“I’m sure you won’t let me down.”

Lexie plastered a smile on her face, but the heaviness in her stomach—and her heart—didn’t leave her feeling very hopeful. Fletcher probably had hundreds of better things to do with his time. Save people. Woo ladies. Keep secrets.

Sean was right. She wasn’t the kind of person people told their deepest, darkest thoughts to or relied on to get the job done. She couldn’t be trusted with anything.

Joan stood, doing that graceful elevation thing that only women with legs up to their ears managed. “I don’t know what we’d do without you, Lexie. Against all odds, you always manage to make things work.”

Joan hadn’t meant to be unkind, but as she very carefully propped the door open with the wrought iron rabbit, Lexie couldn’t help but feel hurt.

Because it was true. Against all odds—against the depressing fact that Lexie Sinclair couldn’t do a single thing without making a mess of herself—she somehow managed to continue brangling her way through life.

“And now all you have to do is convince Fletcher to be your very public and highly anticipated date for a Christmas party,” she told herself darkly. “And to make a speech in public . . . tiny nipples and all.”