IN ORDER TO BE TRUE TO LIFE

You need to let rise into daylight

what you’ve seen on the darkest of nights, 

as well as those trivial sepia silhouettes

of bodies moving in nearby apartments.

No matter who you are, a little variety never hurts.

It’s possible to rethink that reddish full moon

coming toward you across the bay,

to change even the feel of it as it approaches.

That is, if you want to be true to life,

not entirely to the one you live.

Don’t hesitate to include the pink Cadillac

that may or may not have driven by

while you were eating macaroni and cheese,

or those meteors that fell at sensational speeds,

dissolving into nothingness.

You need to remember it’s likely

something nameless is governing you,

which is perhaps why your dreams

often turn odd and grave: you’re lost at sea

and the sharks are pretending to be dolphins:

In another you’re your own secret agent,

gathering evidence, never quite sure

if by mistake you’ll turn yourself in. A man

like you is always in danger of getting things

wrong. No rapturous solutions in the offing.

What you need to understand is the mystery

every family harbors. Dig deeper and deeper still.

Under the photos will likely be that packet of letters

tied with a black ribbon, and the sudden uprush

of what you didn’t, couldn’t, until now ever know.