Without warning or symptom, the twentieth century’s version of Plague came calling on Lynne Sposito at exactly ten minutes past two on the afternoon of September 16, 1987. She’ll always remember the kitchen clock’s position then, because the moment marked her permanent passage from normalcy. This was the day her life changed, irrevocably, in ways as incomprehensible then as they remain now, for such is the power of death, grief, and obsession to mold us, whether we will it or not. Such is the power of that disease called homicide to change everything.
Lynne’s oldest brother, Eric Sherry, was on the line, telephoning from his home in Florida, searching for a way to explain to his big sister what had happened to their parents.
“There’s no easy way to say this,” he finally said, voice crackling with strain, as if he was lifting something heavy. “So I’ll just say it: Mom and Dad are both dead.”
The things that go through your mind at a time like that, Lynne would later marvel. She and a neighbor had returned home from shopping for furniture a short while ago—the Spositos had just moved to Raleigh, North Carolina, and much of their new brick Colonial sat barren of decor. Now she stood in the kitchen, face gone white, waving off her friend, who kept asking “What’s wrong?” She couldn’t make the transition from end tables to the fact that she would never hug her parents again. She’d never argue with her father. Never smell her mother’s perfume. Never.
“What? What do you mean?” she asked, bafflement making her whisper. She still cradled the phone casually between chin and shoulder, the way you would hold it while answering a survey or ordering from a catalog. She transferred the receiver to a sweaty, cold fist. “Was it an accident?”
“No, it wasn’t an accident,” Eric said. “They were killed.”
Again, Lynne groped for comprehension: What her younger brother was saying made no sense to her. She had unpacking to do, a job interview at a medical center set for that afternoon, dinner to get ready. How could her parents be dead? She had just talked to her mother a few nights before. Then she remembered a family friend in Biloxi who had lost his parents in a gas explosion. “Was there an explosion, Eric? Did the gas main blow up?”
“No, Lynne. They were killed by someone. They were found today. That’s all I know.”
They were killed. They were found. Her parents, it seemed, had become inanimate objects, things to be discovered, like lost car keys. The words filled her head, threatening to drown out everything else Eric was saying.
She heard him dimly after that, though later she would remember every word, replaying the conversation over and over. Eric told her their father’s law partner in Biloxi, Pete Halat, had found the bodies. A friend of Eric’s in Florida had called within the hour to offer her condolences after hearing about the murders on the radio—assuming, incorrectly, that Eric already knew. When Eric placed a frantic call to Halat to ask what happened, he found out their youngest sister, Leslie—still “the baby” to Lynne, though she would turn twenty in a month—also had learned of the murders, and just as abruptly as Eric. She had called the law office to complain about her parents standing her up the day before, only to have a lawyer clumsily tell her to find her roommate and sit down, he had some bad news to give her. Now she was on her way to Biloxi, Eric said. Lynne pictured Leslie’s five-foot form hunched at the wheel, grimacing, with knuckles white and gas pedal floored.
“Vin doesn’t know yet, though,” Eric said, anticipating Lynne’s next question. At twenty-seven, one year younger than Eric, Vincent Sherry III—Vin to his family—was the most mercurial of the four Sherry children, the one most likely to do something rash or vengeful once he heard the news.
“I’ll tell Vin,” Lynne found herself saying, vaguely surprised she could speak at all. Then she realized she had no idea what to say to Vin. “What can I tell him, Eric?”
“I don’t know anything, Lynne,” Eric sighed. Halat had refused to give him any details by telephone, he said. Pete wanted to talk to them in person first. “Get down here quick,” that was all he said.
“You’ve got to get to Biloxi as soon as you can, Lynne,” Eric said. “I’m heading out the door now.”
Later, Lynne couldn’t remember saying good-bye, only staring at the telephone on her kitchen wall, the receiver mysteriously back in place on its cradle, her friend still asking what was wrong, barely audible, like a television set with the volume way down, drowned out by a roaring in Lynne’s ears that threatened to drive all thoughts from her mind, all warmth from her soul.
“My mom and dad are dead,” she heard herself say. The enormity of it had just begun to dawn on Lynne as she uttered the words, then watched her friend instinctively recoil, as if murder could be somehow contagious.
What would she tell her seven-year-old daughter, Beth, she wondered? The little girl had just announced how happy she was that Grandma planned to visit in a month. Or Tommy, her moody thirteen-year-old—what would she say to him? He had always blossomed in the small-town security of his grandparents’ Biloxi home. No more. How could she tell Cathy, the oldest sixteen-year-old Lynne had ever known, a girl who just a week earlier spent an hour on the phone with her grandmother, laying plans for Margaret’s next mayoral campaign. Worst of all, whatever she managed to tell them, she would have to do it alone—her husband, Dick, was out of the country on business. Again. Lynne found herself cursing his new job, his success, his long trips away. She needed him here, now, their seventeen years of shared history to blunt the agony. She felt an insane urge to run from the house, to tell no one, not even Vin or the kids. Impossible, of course. But she allowed herself that brief moment of fantasy, that maybe, just maybe, it would all go away if she simply ignored it.
And then Lynne remembered a conversation she had with her mother four months earlier, so innocuous at the time, so ominous now. Mom had known, Lynne realized. She knew this was coming. And terror began to compete with bewilderment, a row of bass drums thumping in Lynne Sposito’s chest.1
* * *
“Things are getting hot down here,” Margaret Sherry had told her daughter. “Maybe too hot to handle.”
On the other end of the telephone, fifteen hundred miles away and living in Virginia at the time, Lynne had steeled herself. Her mother had spoken for years of exposing Biloxi’s corruption—so often, it had begun to sound commonplace to Lynne, like family gossip. Truth be told, Lynne wasn’t much interested in the political machinations of Biloxi, Mississippi, that so consumed her mother. So she would just say, sure, Mom, uh-huh, Lynne’s mind on her three kids, or the dinner bubbling on the stove, or her plans to return to nursing now that her children were old enough. If her mother noticed the lack of interest, she never let on.
“I’ve nearly got enough,” Margaret was saying. “I’m going to blow the lid off this town.” And then she added that last, strange remark: “I just hope to God they don’t come after my children.”
Odd as this sounded to Lynne—odd enough, certainly, to stick in her memory—she still didn’t say anything. It was just Mom going off again, overdosing on politics. Nothing her mother might have discovered could be that serious, she figured.
So the forbidding words had melted into the hiss of the telephone lines. Then Lynne said something like, oh, Mom, come on, and the subject changed to grandkids’ report cards and plans for Margaret to visit in the fall. Lynne never did ask her mother what she had meant about them coming after her children, nor did she raise the implied alternative—that “they” might skip the kids and go directly after the parents.
Later, when the internal chant of How did I miss it? would grow especially fierce, Lynne would lie awake nights and relive that conversation, her mother’s soft drawl in her ear, memories weighted with regret and the leaden anguish of having heard without listening. Even Lynne has to admit she couldn’t have changed what happened, but this truth offers little comfort. On those sleepless nights, when the longing left by lost chances lays another layer of brick and mortar around her heart, Lynne Sposito can’t help but wish she had asked her mother one thing: to tell her exactly who they were.
So Lynne could make them pay.2
* * *
“I’ve got to take care of my kids,” Lynne said as she slumped into a chair in the dining room.
Her friend, Kathy Pierson, poured a tumbler full of water for each of them. Lynne drained the glass, barely tasting its contents, growing keenly aware of Kathy watching her intently. She ran a hand through her short blond curls, a tall woman with a pale, round face and a small mouth that tended toward a curt, even disapproving expression whether she intended it or not (a tendency that served her well, however, during her years as a head nurse). Now, she imagined, she must be the color of some of the emergency room patients she used to treat for shock, a chalky hue that always told her to watch closely, something bad was about to happen. That’s how her friend seemed to be looking at her now, waiting and watchful. Lynne looked up and repeated, “I have to take care of my kids.”
Kathy offered to pick up Lynne’s seven-year-old, Beth, at the school bus stop that afternoon and keep her next-door for a few hours while Lynne did what she had to do. Lynne nodded at her neighbor with relief. She had some difficult telephone calls of her own to make.
The people at Tommy’s junior high and Cathy’s high school were understanding, if shocked, at Lynne’s request that they be granted an extended leave because their grandparents had been murdered. In her shock, Lynne had phrased her request in the blandest of terms, without preamble, exactly as she would have called to say one of her children was home sick with a sore throat. The school officials said the kids could take off as long as needed, and Lynne said she would pick them up shortly.
They also asked a question that, in the next few days, would become a familiar refrain: Is there anything we can do? Just let us know if there’s anything we can do. This would spill off many lips, and little time would pass before these offers from virtual strangers started grating on Lynne. What could you say? Thanks, sure, I appreciate that, knowing it was a pro forma remark, like the excuse me you get when someone bumps you in the elevator. It was more to relieve the speaker than the person receiving the offer, a way of maintaining the illusion that the unfixable can somehow be fixed, a bumbling ritual to dismiss and deny death. Soon Lynne had little patience for it. What did these strangers know of her parents, the people who taught her to love Broadway musicals and Inspector Clouseau and Russian folk tales, who had supported the segregationist George Wallace, even while writing checks to the United Negro College Fund?
In the first hours of that endless afternoon, what Lynne wanted most was to talk to her husband, Dick. Perversely, frustration at her inability to do so kept her emotions in check, kept her functioning with something bordering on efficiency. She had decided she would not break down until she could talk to her husband, and that emotional dam held all day.
Dick Sposito traveled abroad at least once a month in his position with a Paris-based telecommunications conglomerate. He had left for France the day before. Thirty minutes of calling failed to get Lynne through to him. It was maddening: She didn’t even have the right number for his new office in the company’s Raleigh headquarters. The number she knew—his direct line—rang endlessly, unanswered. Finally she got through to his division’s secretary in Raleigh, who promised to find Dick in Paris.
With Dick out of touch and Eric and Leslie driving to Biloxi, Lynne had no one to talk to. She could not bear the thought of immediately calling Vin and making him feel as she did. Better he have a few more moments of happy ignorance, she thought. Better she try to learn more before calling. The question of what could have happened—and why—ate at her. Lynne realized she couldn’t possibly wait until she got to Mississippi for answers. So she called her father’s law office in Biloxi and asked for Pete Halat.
She did not know what to expect from her father’s law partner. Lynne had never considered Biloxi home—she lived there only a few years in the sixties, long before the Halat and Sherry law firm came into existence in 1981. Vincent Sherry had been a judge advocate in the Air Force, a full colonel, and the family had moved around constantly during Lynne’s childhood—the South, Big Sky country, Bermuda, Washington. Her brief time in Biloxi began in 1965 when she was in eighth grade, and ended two years later in favor of an outpost in Okinawa, Japan. By the time Vince retired from the military in 1970, choosing Biloxi as his new, permanent home and, later, Pete Halat as his new law partner, Lynne had married an airman she met in Japan and was living in her husband’s hometown in Ohio. So she knew Pete only from visits to her parents’ home and phone calls to her dad’s office.
Still, who else could she call now? Pete Halat had been Vince’s law partner for six years, his best friend even longer—which was saying a lot for her father, a man who seemed garrulous and friendly to the casual observer, but who allowed few people truly close. Many times over the years, Lynne had known the pain of feeling like one of those people Vince kept at jovial arm’s length.
“I have to know what happened, Pete,” Lynne said when she finally got Halat on the line.
“I don’t want to tell you anything over the phone, honey. I don’t want you upset traveling.” Pete’s voice was deep, honeyed with a Mississippi drawl that made him sound older than his forty-five years, reassuring—a good voice for a lawyer, Lynne thought. Her father had always said he was a master in the courtroom. “Y’all just get down here, and we’ll talk then.”
“Pete, nothing could be worse than my own imagination,” she said, struggling to sound dispassionate, to draw on her nurse’s studied professionalism in dealing with grief—training that, until this day, had always been reserved for other people’s heartache. To her mild surprise, Lynne found she could do it: Her voice was a stranger’s. “Please. Tell me what happened.”
Silence. Then, finally, “What do you want to hear?” Pete sounded tired, almost wary, Lynne thought. He’d been through a lot, too, she guessed.
“Were they shot or were they stabbed?” Lynne asked.
“Shot.”
“Once, or more than once?”
“More than once.”
Then the hardest question. “Did they die right away, or did they suffer?” Lynne closed her eyes as Pete hesitated.
“I don’t know, Lynne. I think they died right away. I don’t know.”
Halat explained then how the courthouse staff had called him that morning to ask what had happened to Judge Sherry. He had a full docket awaiting him, but he hadn’t shown up for court. Vince was renowned for his tardiness—both he and Margaret lived on Hong Kong time, Pete liked to say—but this had seemed odd even for Vince. Pete told Lynne he had driven out to the Sherry house on Hickory Hill Circle and saw that both Margaret’s and Vince’s cars were in the driveway. When he knocked on the door, though, no one answered. He just heard the dogs barking inside. Then Pete leaned against the door to peer through a window. As his weight shifted, his elbow pushed the door open, Lynne would later recall him saying. Apparently, the front door had been slightly ajar, just enough to keep it from latching.3
“I walked a little into the house, and I saw your dad’s feet. I didn’t want to see any more. I didn’t want to go in any further. I didn’t want to find your mom.”4
The police had done the rest. They went in and found the bodies, right after Pete called them, about eleven o’clock that morning Mississippi time. Noon in North Carolina. Lynne closed her eyes again, saw herself picking out end tables and going to lunch with her neighbor. A few hours ago she had been buying furniture, and all the while her parents were lying there dead, someone’s bullets in them. Someone who hated them enough or feared them enough to kill them.
“I’m so sorry,” Pete told her. “I’ll do anything I can for you and your family.” Lynne heard the sincerity in his voice and thanked him. She’d see him soon, she said before hanging up.5
She tried Dick’s office again. Still no word from Paris. It was dinnertime there, midevening, and he wasn’t at his hotel. Barely an hour had passed since she received the news from Eric. It seemed so much longer.
Reluctantly, Lynne began calling the endless web of relatives and close friends who had to be told. First came Vin in Northern California’s wine country. He dropped the phone and wailed when Lynne finally forced herself to call, finding no better way to break the news than Eric’s abrupt, shattering pronouncement. She told him what little she had learned from Pete Halat, then, as he agonized over when to come, assured him it would be fine if he came a day or two later so his wife could accompany him. She would take care of things. Vin was already talking about getting a gun, and Lynne was happy to encourage him to wait—she did not want him traveling alone.
After Vin, the other calls seemed easier. Or maybe she was just numb, Lynne thought, the coldness in her hands spreading throughout her body and mind.
She had made calls about deaths in the family before—somehow, the oldest child was always expected to handle such chores—but always the message had been cushioned by old age or sickness, the expectation of mortality. Never like this. She had talked to her mother just that past Sunday. Innocuous, normal, we-just-got-back-from-the-grocery-store talk. Now these calls Lynne was forced to make turned into bitter replays of when she had received the news. “Mom and Dad are dead,” she said over and over. “No, it wasn’t an accident. It was on purpose.”
When, on the fifth or sixth call, her mother’s aunt dropped the phone and started screaming, the receiver banging against the floor as it swung on its coil, Lynne knew she couldn’t make one more call. Instead, she left the house to get her daughter Cathy at school, memories briefly crowding out fears and suspicion as she went through the mechanics of driving her car without hitting anything.
* * *
This is how Lynne Sposito remembers her father:
He was a man of penetrating intelligence, with encyclopedic knowledge of the law, history, and world affairs. He was fluent in five languages—he used to read the story of Peter and the Wolf to Lynne in Russian. Better that way, he insisted. You lose too much in the translation. His doctoral thesis on the judicial system of South Vietnam, a country and people he had come to love during military tours in Asia, made him one of the few non-Vietnamese experts on the subject. This specialty proved an eclectic choice at best, since he earned his Ph.D. two short years before Saigon fell and its judicial system ceased to exist.
He was given to great—some said excessive—acts of charity, once handing a down-and-out hitchhiker his coat on a cold winter night, then letting him steal a carload of Christmas gifts intended for the Sherry family. He refused to notify the police. “That fellow needs those things more than we’ll ever need them,” he told an apoplectic Margaret upon returning home.
He was not a handsome man in any classical sense, but there was an unmistakable magnetism about him, and women often sought him out, much to Margaret’s annoyance. He had high blood pressure, bouts of severe headaches, an ability to coin funny or cruelly accurate nicknames for virtually anyone (Biloxi’s edgy mayor was “Norman Bates”), and a mercurial temper that led him into epic battles with his wife. At the same time, he was possessed of Old World courtly manners and a professorial vocabulary—he loved to use words so obscure they would send his family scrambling to the dictionary to see if they’d been praised or insulted. Knowledge was its own reward, he always said. More than anything, Vincent Sherry fervently believed ignorance, not evil, to be humanity’s worst sin.
Yet this man who could be so kind to strangers, who was so humane a judge that men he sentenced to prison sent him thank-you notes and Christmas cards—this same Vince Sherry found it impossible to express his love to his children. “Don’t let people get too close,” Vince often told Lynne. “If they get too close, they’ll know how to hurt you.”
This was the life lesson of a man whose absentee father had appeared one night and attempted to smother him with a pillow. Vince was only thirteen at the time. His mother had heard the commotion and dispatched Vince Senior with a cast-iron fry pan to the head. Vince Junior had the privilege of helping drag his father’s semiconscious body out the back door. They didn’t see him again for years.
Lynne Sposito grew up struggling to please her father, vying for that closeness Vince so rarely granted. But it always seemed her grades were never quite high enough, the boyfriends she brought home never quite good enough, her appearance never quite perfect enough. Vince believed that providing a roof, schooling, clothes, and food clearly showed his love, that his children would automatically know how proud he was without him having to say it aloud—the miscalculation of a child whose father provided nothing but beatings and abandonment. For years, Lynne secretly took her father’s silence to mean one thing: The smartest man she knew thought she didn’t measure up.
And then, just a few years ago, when Vince’s mother was sick and dying, she had confided in Lynne how much she wished her son would say he loved her. He had been a small child the last time she heard him say so. A few days later, Lynne telephoned Biloxi and confronted her father with her dying grandmother’s request. “Tell Grandma you love her, Dad. Do me a favor and just tell her. It would mean a lot to her.”
Vince was outraged by this, surprise and—could it be fear?—in his voice. “What in the hell are you talking about?” he huffed. “Jesus Christ, Lynne, I pay her utility bills, I send her flowers, I call her every couple of days. She knows I love her!”
Things, Lynne thought, all the things he’s done. He doesn’t get it, she realized. She pushed him, repeating the request, and finally he agreed. Yes, sure, I will do it. End of subject.
Then they chatted for a while. Vince gradually calmed down. But just as they closed the conversation, ready to say good night, Lynne said, “Daddy?”
“What?”
“I love you.”
The pause was so long, longer than Lynne could hold her breath. Finally, Vince said, “I do you, too.”
The memory can always make Lynne laugh. Even on September 16, 1987, on the worst day of Lynne’s life, her brilliant, eloquent father’s inability to utter one simple word could make her chuckle. I do you, too. Because to Lynne, there was total freedom, a complete release, in hearing her father stammer that lame reply, so heartfelt, so difficult, coughed up from his soul. Any hang-ups I ever had, she would later say, about not being loved, about not being smart enough, all of it just melted away. It was Dad’s problem, not mine. Dad couldn’t say it, because of the way he was, not me.
You take your comfort where you can find it: At least, Lynne told herself as she drove to her own daughter, she had forgiven her father for the coldness. And in his own way, he had finally told her he loved her. It had even become a running joke between them. The last time they had spoken, she had teased him, as she had done so many times before. She had said, “Dad, I do you, too.”
Vince Sherry had a wonderful laugh.
* * *
Lynne walked toward the school gym where Cathy had just finished basketball practice and spotted her daughter walking out the door. She waved Cathy over. She was a younger version of Lynne—tall, blond, willowy thin, the way Lynne had been twenty years before when she was Cathy’s age.
“Get your books, whatever you need,” Lynne said. “You won’t be back in school for a while.”
Cathy’s uncertain smile faded, her sixteen-year-old face finding lines no one her age should have. “Did something happen to Daddy?” Visions of terrorists aboard the Concorde swept through her head.
Lynne shook her head. “No, I’m trying to get hold of him. He’s fine.” Cathy picked up her books and they were heading out of the building when Lynne cleared her throat. “It’s Grandma and Grandpa. They’ve been shot.”
Cathy Sposito was the one member of the family who had hung on every one of her grandmother’s words when it came to politics. They religiously discussed the latest Biloxi scandals on the phone. Bright and sophisticated for her age, she had helped with Margaret Sherry’s 1985 mayoral campaign, and she had planned to work even harder in 1989. Cathy stopped walking and grabbed her mother’s arm.
“Where the hell was Gerald Blessey?” she asked.
* * *
Gerald Blessey. He was mayor of Biloxi that year, a liberal Democrat, a self-described reformer, a lawyer and decorated Vietnam veteran, popular in the city’s substantial, if poorly franchised, black community. And he was Margaret Sherry’s nemesis. There was no other way to put it: Margaret Sherry hated Gerald Blessey, bitterly, thoroughly, publicly, and the mayor gave every indication of feeling the same way about her.
The enmity went back six years, to the start of Margaret’s political career. An old-style Goldwater Republican, Margaret had been elected to the Biloxi City Council in 1981. She quickly became a voting bloc of one within the Democrat-dominated body, invariably on the short end of six-to-one roll calls. The new mayor elected that same year—widely acknowledged at the time as one of the most liberal elected officials in Mississippi—quickly became Margaret’s most despised target. He pursued a vision of progressive reform and government activism that was anathema to a bedrock conservative like Margaret. The sideshow of Mayor Blessey’s and Councilwoman Sherry’s vitriolic arguments in the colonnaded council chambers soon overshadowed all else that went on in the room, dominating news reports and the council’s time. Margaret accused Blessey of everything from misspending government funds, to forcing council members to adhere to scripted meetings, to having his police department investigate her, to complicity with underworld crime figures and the city’s most notorious vice merchants. None of her allegations was ever proved. Blessey, in turn, called his most rabid opponent a voice from the past, insensitive and racist. Among other things, he attacked her for opposing a city holiday honoring the birth of Dr. Martin Luther King, a volatile issue in the polar racial politics of the Deep South. And he pointed out that it was Vince Sherry, then a criminal defense lawyer, who profited from crime and vice, not he.
In 1985, Margaret gave up her council seat to run against the incumbent mayor. To no one’s surprise, the contest distinguished itself primarily for its bitterness. Mayor Blessey’s patrician, aloof manner combined with rough economic times to alienate many voters, broadening Margaret Sherry’s appeal. In the end, though, he still managed a bare five-hundred vote margin of victory over Margaret in a city divided.
But to Blessey’s chagrin, Margaret did not go away. She took on the role of Biloxi’s most prominent gadfly, appearing at council meetings to voice opposition to the mayor’s policies, using the voter referendum process to block his proposals and bond issues. Off the council, Margaret began to enjoy more power to foil Blessey than she had when she was on it, and she made no secret about her plans to run again for mayor in 1989. Many political observers believed she would win, her prominence boosted by Vince’s rise to the bench, an appointment bitterly opposed by Mayor Blessey.
If Margaret seemed confident, perhaps it was because she had an insurance policy: She had been working with the FBI, trying to document corruption in city hall. Unable to contain her glee, Margaret had told as many as a dozen people in Biloxi of her “undercover” work.
Now Lynne had to wonder: Did Margaret find something so damning that she and Vince had to be eliminated? Was that why she had made that cryptic remark about them coming after her kids? Lynne had no evidence to support this, just suspicion. Still, she couldn’t help but ask herself the very same question her daughter had posed in the school gym: Where in the hell was Gerald Blessey?6
* * *
It was seven o’clock that night in Raleigh before Dick Sposito finally found the stack of urgent messages to call home. At first, Lynne sounded normal to him—painfully, impossibly normal. “Hello, Dick. I’m so glad you called.” Then the iron control she had maintained all day finally began to slip.
“Dick, Mom and Dad have been killed. Someone shot them.” The words were coming in a rush now, barely any space between them. “You’ve got to come home. I’ve got to go to Biloxi.”
Dick Sposito, unflappable, soft-spoken, tried to absorb what his wife was telling him, then attempted to coax some details from her. She could hardly talk anymore. This was the conversation she had longed for all day, but when it finally came, she found no more words, barely able to explain to him what had happened. He told his wife she should go to Biloxi without him. There wouldn’t be a flight until morning. It would be twenty hours or more before he could get there from Paris. “Don’t wait for me. Just get on down there. I’ll meet you there as soon as I can.”
Lynne said okay, then started to cry. She found she couldn’t stop, fierce, gulping sobs. She handed the phone to a friend, a secretary at Dick’s company who had come over to help, and who began making plans for Dick’s trip home. Lynne fled the kitchen, pounding up the stairs and locking herself in her bedroom. She buried her face in her pillow, framed photos of her parents beside her.