SATURDAY, OCTOBER 13
I visit my dad’s new apartment.
He thinks it’s temporary.
I can tell by the way he only unpacks
what he thinks he needs—
boxes lining the walls
as if in waiting.
My mother has kicked him out before.
But this was the first time
she had proof: iMessages
he deleted from his phone
but not his computer.
Rookie, even now.
He wants me to spend the night
wants to talk about my brother
wants to talk about fixing
our family.
Somehow when he envisions all the things
that need fixing, all the things
that are wrong with our lives
in a gallery of portraits
and fractured landscapes
he never sees himself
in the frame.