LAKE GLASS

for Barbara

I have sent my sister down the beach

in search of buried treasure, and she

will find it. I know because I hid it

in well-marked mounds

and only just beneath the surface

(for she is little, and despairs quickly)—

small caches of colored glass

the waves have polished on the sand

until each piece is finger-smooth and singular.

These for us are jewels, a fiction

she only half-believes

(but this is a time when half-believing

is sufficient), humoring me

in return for my attention,

me allowing her to humor me

that I might please her.

While she is finishing breakfast,

I gather this booty for her

at the water’s edge, where it gleams wetly

among pebbles and periwinkles

and stones just right for skipping,

until I have a rich handful. Then

I lose my find again for her amusement,

for she is at that awkward stage

(when does it end?) where joy

gives way without apparent cause

to petulance and glassy boredom.

Hours later, when we leave the beach,

tired and a little browner,

perhaps she takes her plunder with her,

perhaps it lies forgotten in the sand,

changed once more into broken Coca-Cola

bottles and other washed-up flotsam.

But now she reappears to drop a delighted handful

onto the blanket, then runs off in search of more,

her bare feet leaving small impressions in her wake,

her useless bikini top askew.

The pile left behind is glitteringly beautiful—

incandescent rounded scraps of an almost opaque emerald green

that like these brown and amber shards

(precious stones whose names we do not know)

began as beer and soda bottles;

small, glowing pearls

from coffee cups and shattered dinner plates

swept romantically enough maybe

from the galleys of swamped schooners;

translucent, deep blue sapphires (sapphires, we think,

are such a shade of blue);

pale green-white uncut diamonds

that mottle as they dry;

and best because the rarest,

mysterious wave-shaved rubies.

All this happened years ago, of course,

when the wishes I was called upon to grant

were modest, when pretty litter

was all it took to charm my sister

into pirate happiness. Now,

although she may still find lake glass lovely,

it casts no spell, and I

must look elsewhere for the jetsam

to lighten her boredom

and transmute her grown sorrows

into childlike joy.

These words are all I have, and they must do

(they are no more specious than those gems were paste).

Neither of us cares much any more

for hidden meanings, so

I will simply say to her, look here

to find some waif reclaimed by happiness,

a string of sunny, sandy afternoons,

a hoard of closeness in day-bright open spaces.

Redemption, after all, requires very little.

So take these gimcrack bits of glass,

a bloodstone syllable or two,

and leave this life awhile for the one you knew.

There is nothing so small it does not matter,

nor so marred it cannot charm.

There is nothing so common it cannot save you.