WINDING MY WATCH

I am winding my watch

because it is an old watch

and keeps old time

of which I am fond—

the time of its making,

the time, just before dessert,

you gave it to me

to commemorate the passage

of twenty years’ time together,

which was about to have its stop.

It is a thin watch,

which you said meant a good watch,

for you would have even our end

a work of thoughtful elegance.

I am winding this watch

that has outlasted, now, three bands

to show both

how permanent are last things

and how brief a time all things last.

A watch and its band,

once one, then two,

foreverness wed

to replaceability.

I am winding this watch

so it can pass

through its twelve stations

day after day

in its blind sweeping of hours,

its ceaseless sameness,

time heavy on its hands.

A ticking symbol of loss,

this watch catches at my wrist

like a small hand

that won’t let go.