DYING TO SEE YOU

I’d trade a year in heaven

For another day with you.

—Dave Van Ronk

My great reward, not always earned, is each

night to lie down beside you. It won’t, I know,

always be so. There are nights ahead will teach

one of us at the very least a thunderous no.

Unlike those loved and left in the past somewhere,

who never age or disappoint, for whom

we always feel the same despite the wear

of time and distance, regret’s frail bloom,

you and I risk yet another night, and then

another day that may change everything,

and seldom for the better. Say amen

to that, and let love again sing.

I’ll try to make it to morning admirably.

But because a story’s middle can become its end,

arriving like a dark whisper, suddenly,

I’ll say farewell for now, my truest friend.

At the risk of damping ardor, I will tell you how

I’ll see you then if there is time for a last

fond thought—you will be in the rocking bow

of a small boat on Lake Louise, eyes downcast,

and wanting to be nowhere else, with no one

else, the day breezy, far off the descant

of birds. I’ll drop the oars, finally done

with rowing, and hold your hand until I can’t.