ALMOST TWO WEEKS later, on Saturday, Evie prepared the breakfast porridge as usual. It was the dinner party in the evening, and Lord Brampton would arrive for luncheon. There was a degree of tension in the air that was quite new to her. Mrs Moore had not smiled once and her tone had sharpened. Twenty guests and Lord Brampton home. The air seemed too tight for anyone to breathe, but at least they had a new scullery maid and kitchen assistant.
‘Colour co-ordinated food indeed,’ muttered Mrs Moore, rattling the pan in which kidneys for the upstairs breakfast were being sautéed. ‘Never heard the like.’
Evie had written out the menu cards as she had better hands and French, said Mrs Moore, some days before, refusing point blank to spend time chatting in the lingo just to help Evie keep hers up to scratch. Instead she’d said, ‘One day you’ll be hearing quite a bit of it, and that will do the job rather well, lass.’ She had refused to elaborate but pointed to the sieves. ‘The quenelles are calling you, and I have enough to do without teaching you extra,’ she’d said firmly.
Tonight it would be clear golden soup using veal stock removed by turbot and cream sauce, removed by compote of pigeons at Lord Brampton’s insistence which could hardly, even by the wildest stretch of the imagination, be called cream-coloured. On and on it went until eight courses, frequently with a cream sauce to keep within the colour parameters of cream and white, were prepared. ‘To be devoured by the less than starving masses above stairs,’ Mrs Moore grimaced.
‘Well, good luck to those corsets, all you lords and ladies,’ Evie grunted, stirring steadily as the heat from the range beat at her. The kitchen staff had been up at four thirty this morning to start and stoke the furnace, check the pantries, and get an extra hour out of the morning. The house servants were up with the lark also but the upstairs and downstairs breakfasts were at the usual times, as upstairs routine could not be disturbed.
Mrs Moore was now placing the kidneys in a pan and snapped, ‘Never mind your clever remarks, Evie Anston. Stop fiddling about with the bloody porridge and do something useful. Millie, take over the porridge and get it to the servants’ hall and be quick about it, if that’s within the boundary of your understanding?’ Millie was from Easton, which had alarmed Evie, until her mam sorted out the need for secrecy with Millie’s family. She’d been employed as the new kitchen assistant after the job had first been offered to Annie, who had refused, preferring to stay in the scullery because there was too much learning that went with cooking. Evie had said they would teach her, but it had done no good.
Evie said to Millie, ‘After that lay up bowls for us and we’ll have them down at the end of the table . . .’
Mrs Moore cut in, ‘Evie, we’ll need all the knives, sieves, every bloody thing, but pour me a cup of tea and check that those damned rabbits are on their way.’ Her hands were shaking, her face pale. There was a sheen of sweat on her cheeks, her hands seemed even more stiff and swollen this morning as she tucked a strand of hair beneath her cap.
Evie wondered if she had suddenly grown an extra pair of hands to be here, there and everywhere, but the only thing she could do was to take it steady, and that was that. Millie was stirring the porridge so slowly it was painful. Evie helped her tip it into the earthenware pot leaving sufficient for the kitchen staff, then tapped the ladle on the side, resting it on the plate on the side of the range.
‘It was right canny seeing Simon the other day, wasn’t it?’ Millie said, wiping round the edge of the pot. Evie nodded. The gardeners and stable lads had come for tea a week ago when Millie and Sarah, the new scullery maid, had joined them. Poor Sarah’s hands had the look of raw beef within two days.
‘Take it through now and you still haven’t laid up for four down the table end.’ Evie poured a cup of tea for Mrs Moore, who was rattling the pan on the range. Millie nodded, and she and Sarah took the porridge through to the staff. ‘That girl can hardly be bothered to be lazy, and where’s me biscuit?’ snapped Mrs Moore.
Evie hurried to the biscuit barrel and popped one on the saucer for Mrs Moore. There had been another empty bottle of gin in her sitting room this morning, which meant Mrs Moore had gone through a whole one over the last two days. Perhaps it was worsening pain, perhaps the stress of the dinner party.
Evie took over the pan. ‘Leave these and have your tea,’ she insisted, nudging the woman away and on to her stool. They were running late but Mrs Moore needed a pick-me-up, and that was that.
Millie was back, standing by her side, looking lost. ‘Now what?’
Evie snapped, ‘Just put our four bowls on the table and fill them with porridge, for the third time.’
Millie flushed. ‘What’s the matter with everyone today?’
Mrs Moore shouted, ‘What do you think, you daft bairn? We’re busy with their breakfast and have to think of their luncheon as well, because his Lordship is on his way and has requested rabbit pie. Rabbit pie on a dinner-party day, I damn well ask you, not to mention a colour co-ordinated dinner for twenty-four, cream and white. What can I do with that? Cream and white and just the odd spot of colour, and you stand there . . .’
Evie interrupted, ‘Just serve our porridge, Millie, and then take the pan to the scullery. Try and remember what you learned when you worked for Mrs Fredericks, that was her name wasn’t it, at Gosforn? It’s the same here, just a bit busier. We know you’re trying to get used to it.’
She forced herself to be pleasant as she tipped the kidneys into a serving bowl, grabbed a thick cloth, jerked up the handle of the warming oven and slid in the dish. Millie slopped across to the scullery while Evie wondered why on earth Lady Brampton insisted on sautéed kidneys when they could be cooked just as adequately in the oven and she didn’t eat them anyway. Today instead of toast in her room she wanted fresh fruit, a boiled egg and soldiers, for pity’s sake. Soldiers? She felt her shoulders rising, felt herself on the verge of tears. They’d never do it, never get everything done.
Millie flounced out of the scullery and stood with her hands on her hips, calling, ‘Anyway, our Evie, you never could count at school.’ Evie swung round, tucking the oven cloth on the fender. ‘There are five of us not four, so it’s as well I’ve just put out five bowls if you cared to look, or you’d go hungry. So stick that in your pipe and smoke it.’
There was a silence as Evie stared at her, then at the five bowls, and then at Millie again, so slight, so flushed, her brown hair refusing to be imprisoned by her hat, and she remembered who she was. Evie Forbes, a miner’s daughter who could handle whatever came her way because she wasn’t in a bloody pit expecting the roof to come down whenever it chose. She felt the laugh begin, along with a great explosion of joy. It was only a meal. Yes, she could be dismissed without a character, but it was only a meal and they were all in it together. She roared now, and heard someone else laughing too. It was Mrs Moore. They were joined by Millie, whose relief was written all over her face, and behind her were Annie and Sarah, smiling, too tired to laugh. Poor wee lasses.
Mrs Moore slammed down her tea cup, removed her glasses and wiped her eyes. ‘By, we needed that. Not the tea, the laugh.’
They all ate their porridge, the atmosphere relaxed and for Evie everything became possible, even a meeting with Simon at last, for she still had to check on the rabbits.
She and Mrs Moore finished the upstairs breakfast. Archie and James and Miss Donant collected the trays. Evie and Millie began to lay up the table for Mrs Moore and, glory be, the lass remembered at least some of the utensils. ‘Good girl,’ Evie murmured, ‘I’ll leave you to it and get the stockpot on.’
She scooped bones from the icebox, and vegetables. These she cleaned before adding them to the stock. One of the bells in the corridor rang. Millie ran to see who it was: her Ladyship. Evie said, ‘Tell Miss Donant it’s time to bring the tray down, she’s eaten her soldiers. Likes her flesh, she does. Reckon she’d eat any one of us at the flick of a duster.’
Mrs Moore shook her head at Evie but waited until Millie ran off to the servants’ hall to find the lady’s maid, then murmured, as she checked her utensils, moving the vegetable knives into one group, ‘Be cautious, Evie, trust no one. If that remark about her Ladyship liking flesh goes upstairs you’ll be out. Make the servants your friends, they’re the only family you’ve got while you’re here, but keep your opinions to yourself or you won’t get to where you want to be.’ She didn’t look at Evie, but her voice was firmer than Evie had ever heard it.
‘Where do I want to be?’ Evie heard herself asking as she reached for her shawl. Could Mrs Moore know she was only using the Bramptons for her own ends?
‘Well, perhaps somewhere the equivalent of Claridge’s.’ Mrs Moore sounded tired. ‘You see how information travels.’ She looked at Evie with a gentle smile.
Evie slipped round the table and hugged her, half expecting to be shrugged off. She wasn’t. The woman just nodded, patted her hand. ‘Claridge’s will happen, I know it will, but you have things to learn, not just cooking, pet. Now get the rabbits and show Millie how to skin them. We need to work harder on her training. Heaven knows what Mrs Fredericks ate because there’s not much sign of ability in that young woman, or is it willingness? Well, you did warn me when she came for her interview that you remembered her behaviour from school, but I thought I knew better. Ah well, she might smarten up and want to own a hotel. Stranger things have happened.’ Evie grimaced and Mrs Moore laughed. ‘I tell you what, our Evie, if I had the money I’d probably stay in yours, but . . .’
Evie squeezed her. ‘You’ll never have to pay.’
Mrs Moore laughed softly. ‘Off to those rabbits and young Simon, then.’
Evie hesitated. Mrs Moore whispered, ‘Remember to be cautious. Reckon even the vegetables have ears. No one’s allowed to “walk out” here.’ Her look was kind. Evie nodded. ‘Thank you. I have remembered.’
Across the corridor the servants were bustling to their duties. Millie returned carrying a trayful of bowls which she took straight to the scullery. Above the clatter of the dishes being almost hurled into the zinc-lined sinks, Evie called, ‘Millie, after you’ve fetched the earthenware bowl – and remember to put the scrapings into the bin for the pigs this time – would you come and help Mrs Moore, please? I’ll be back with the rabbits and then I’ll show you how to skin the little beggars.’
Evie headed for the door, eager to see Simon, although she knew she must hide her feelings. She’d be careful, very careful.
As she left Mrs Moore called her back. ‘You’ll use last evening’s leftovers from upstairs for staff lunch as usual, will you? I think there’s sufficient but if not there’re some hocks of bacon from Home Farm.’
Evie nodded. ‘I was going to make a bacon and chicken stew with dumplings, and I’ll make the pastry for the rabbit pies as well.’
‘Good lass.’ Mrs Moore was bustling to the pantry. ‘We’ll have ours here and Mrs Green will just have to put up with it. She thinks if we eat in here we’re giving ourselves extras. Silly woman, we have all day to stuff our faces if that’s what we want to do.’ She turned and winked at Evie, for that was indeed what they wanted to do, and often did.
Evie laughed and almost ran down the bell corridor and out into the backyard, past the garages, skidding round the coal shed, past the garden store at the top of the brick path leading south along the walled garden. In the distance was the under-gardeners’ house, hung with wisteria. Soon it would be in bloom, Mrs Moore said.
She had only seen Simon in passing when he brought in vegetables or house flowers but he always smiled, always looked for her. She was sure he did. She rushed down the path. It was colder here in the shadows cast by the wall and the breath jogged in her throat as she ran. The wall ended in a brick-built store. She slowed, and forced herself to approach casually. Perhaps it wouldn’t be Simon who had caught the rabbits, it might be Alf, or Bernie. She called quietly, ‘Hello.’
Simon stepped from the store, holding up four rabbits which hung from his hand on a string, their eyes glazed. His were as vivid blue as always and his hair as red as ever, and she had never seen him smile so broadly. ‘Well, if it isn’t our Evie. I thought it might be Annie or Millie yet again. Have you been avoiding me? Why do you always send them for herbs? Little talkers, those young madams are.’
She stopped within a yard of him. ‘I don’t send them, Mrs Moore decides, or they nip out before we can stop them. Anything to get away from the work.’ He just laughed, and said, his voice hardly more than a whisper, ‘Then you nip out instead, dead quick or we’ll never get to talk and I can’t tell Jack anything he might need to know.’ Her smile faded. So it was only because he wanted to pass on her messages.
She brushed past him into the store, her head high, her voice low as she said, ‘I’ve heard nothing that can help him. Brampton’s not back until lunchtime. I’ll do what I can then but I don’t see how I can hear anything useful ever. We never mix. Mr Auberon’s here, that’s all I know.’ She reached for the rabbits. He swung them away from her. ‘I’ll walk them back with you. Not a job for a lady.’ A trickle of dried blood ran from the rabbits’ mouths.
Perhaps he said this to the other girls too. She avoided his eyes and set off back down the path, glancing over her shoulder at him. ‘I’m no lady, I’m the cook.’ There was no laughter in her voice, or in her heart.
He hurried to catch her up, grabbing her hand well before they reached the top corner store. ‘You listen to me, Evie Forbes.’ He pulled her to a stop; they both looked around. There was no one in sight, and no sound from the other side of the wall in the vegetable garden. ‘You listen to me, Evie Anston, you’re as much a lady as any of them.’ His grip was tight as he raised her hand and kissed it. His lips were soft and warm. ‘I used to pull your plaits, and I still want you to play tag with me. I really like you, Evie Anston. Really really like you.’ His smile was wide but not as wide as hers, surely.
She wanted to stay here for ever, but they both turned as Millie called from the corner. ‘There you are, we need herbs as well, and Mrs Moore says that at this rate the bloody dinner will be over by the time you get back and then where will we be, the bloody workhouse. Those were her real words, Evie.’ Millie’s colour was high, her eyes frightened. ‘Hurry.’ She turned and ran back to the house.
Simon dropped her hand, giving her a push. ‘You get back with the rabbits and I’ll fetch the herbs.’ She began to hurry away but he called to her. ‘No wait.’ He came closer, talking quietly. ‘Two things – tomorrow, Sunday, it’s your day off, are you sea-coaling? Jack brought up your bike last week and I haven’t had a chance to tell you. I’ll show you where. I didn’t want the kitchen to hear me mention Jack . . .’ He trailed off. ‘I’m going too.’
Her heart soared. ‘Yes of course I’m going, man, where’s my bike?’ She was walking backwards, the rabbit string cutting into her fingers, they were so heavy.
‘In the bothy by the big gate. It’s all right, it’s where we keep the gardeners’ bikes and no one will notice there’s an extra one. There are a load of mowers, tools and the like. I’ll meet you there at three.’
He went on, ‘One other thing, the valet will be back with Lord Brampton. Watch him, he thinks he’s God’s gift to the women and has a right to whatever, or whoever, he wants. He’ll be gone in a day or two because his Lordship hardly ever stays more than that, so do a good job at ducking and diving, Evie. Any trouble, let me know.’
She recognised the frown, the thinned lips, from the playground when he’d had to fight his way into Jack’s gang, and she laughed. ‘I’ll be fine.’
He nodded, she too and then he hurried back down the brick path, turning right towards the walled garden. ‘I’ll get the herbs and will be bringing the flowers for the table, the colour co-ordinated ones.’ Bernie stood at the entrance. ‘Where you been, lad? The boss’s foaming at the mouth.’
She ran to the kitchen, the rabbits bumping her legs, their clotted blood catching on her apron but she didn’t care, because he did, or seemed to. Once back she hung her shawl in the corridor and wiped her boots, hurrying into the warmth. ‘Here they are,’ she called, holding up the rabbits, then slowed, for Annie, Sarah and Millie were standing close to Mrs Moore, who sat on her usual stool, and beckoned to her.
‘Hurry up, I need to tell you all something even though I’m too busy, but Mrs Green wants you to know, so know you will. You will not even mention that it has been said, is that clear?’ Her lips were as thin as Simon’s had been.
The younger girls looked at Evie and their anxiety was clear. Were they to be sent away when they’d just arrived? What on earth had happened? Evie stood with them, the rabbits swinging on their string, her fingers white and numb. Mrs Moore murmured, keeping her finger on her place in her recipe book, ‘His Lordship is back with Roger, his valet, though he is no longer his valet.’
The girls tried to follow what they were being told. Millie moved her lips as she repeated what she had heard. ‘What do you mean?’ Annie asked.
Mrs Moore snatched a quick look at the list of chores she had drawn up for the dinner, then back to the girls, frowning, preoccupied. ‘I’m getting to that. The valet has been told he is to remain here as Mr Auberon’s valet. Annie, you know that we have a slight problem with Roger.’
Annie nodded. ‘He can’t keep his bits in his trousers.’
Mrs Moore shook her head in exasperation. Evie laughed. Mrs Moore snapped, ‘And that’s enough from you, Evie Anston. What I’m trying to say is that you mustn’t be swayed by any soft talking. Remember, you will be dismissed out of the door if there’s any of those goings-on. It’s never the men, always the women who are left with the bun in the oven and you’ll go, with no character and a babe on the way, and end up on the streets or in the workhouse.’ Millie moaned, and started to cry. Evie put her arm around the girl. ‘It won’t happen to you, Millie, if you listen.’
Mrs Moore shook her head impatiently. ‘The point is, apparently Roger’s in a real fret at being passed to Mr Auberon. He sees it as a right slight, which it is. So stay out of his way in case he tries to prove he’s top cock-bird.’
Millie looked even more scared, but then she had been a scaredy-cat ever since her da had been killed in a pit explosion when she was a bairn, and who wouldn’t be, Evie supposed. It had taken off her brother’s arm too and now, rather than the workhouse, they lived with her mam at an aunt’s. Her mam cleaned for the head clerk at Hawton Pit.
Evie held up the rabbits. ‘Come on, Millie, we have important things to do. Let me show you how to skin a rabbit, and if anyone is a nuisance to us, we’ll nip off his tail and skin ’im.’ Everyone laughed and the mood was broken. What a fuss about nothing. Evie scooted Millie along before her to the cold room, and the heavy piece of slate on which they’d skin the rabbit.
Auberon left the safety of the Blue Sitting Room and approached the library, which was further along the landing at the front of the house. He had been summoned by his father after a lunch of mushroom soup and rabbit pie and no dessert, just fruit and cheese as per Lord Brampton’s instructions. Auberon hated rabbit but had eaten well, for his father couldn’t bear people poking and prodding their food like namby-pambies.
He stopped on the landing, looking out over the front lawn to the old cedar tree. The sun was shining across the Indian carpet on which he stood. He studied the pattern, breathing deeply, squaring his shoulders, and was about to knock when Veronica called softly, ‘Aub.’
He spun round. She was tiptoeing towards him, her hair fluffed and radiantly blonde, like a halo. What on earth had she done with it? He’d wondered that at lunch, but had decided against a remark. One didn’t make remarks when his father was in residence. She said, ‘Remember what Mother said. Listen to him, agree with him, and then find a way to do what you feel is right, regardless. All will be well.’
Her hand was shaking as she touched his arm. She added, ‘Please say you haven’t been drinking?’
‘Only a brandy. Could you face the bugger without one?’
‘Shhh.’ She held up her hand. ‘Be quiet, he’ll hear.’
Auberon felt his legs go to jelly. It was the usual feeling. He checked his watch. Three o’clock. On the dot. It had to be on the dot. Veronica faded away, up the stairs to her bedroom, to change, to hide, perhaps to do something with her hair? What the hell was he doing, thinking of hair? He knocked. At the sound of his father’s voice he entered, shutting the door behind him, holding on to the doorknob for a moment, feeling he’d fall to the floor if he let go.
His father stood in front of his desk, facing him across what always seemed like a huge expanse. The window overlooking the front lawn was behind him, and the other walls were lined with books. Had his father read any? He knew he had not. In their old house they’d had a library and Auberon had spent hours there every evening, reading about the past. His tutor, Mr Saunders, had shared his passion for history until his father had dismissed him and sent Auberon to a public school to make a man of him.
‘Stop slouching and get over here.’ The voice was cold, but when wasn’t it? The face was fierce, but when wasn’t it? Auberon walked across the carpet. It was also Indian. No two patterns were the same. Why was he thinking of such trivia?
He stood facing his father and never saw the hand lifting, so fast was it. He just felt it backhanding across his face. He felt his lips burst. His father said, ‘I will not be called a bugger. I will not be shown any lack of respect in my own house, is that quite clear?’
The blow was no surprise. Why would it be? ‘Yes, that’s clear, Father.’
His lips wouldn’t work properly, but that wasn’t a surprise either. He braced himself. The next blow caught him in the ribs. He felt the crack, and the pain. ‘I will not have my money spent by some idle drunkard who is presumably weeping and wailing because his little Wainey is no longer here, and whose fault is that, may I ask?’
The next blow caught him above the kidneys as his father stepped forward quickly, and then retreated, on his toes, like a boxer, or a ballet dancer. Should he share that thought? He almost laughed, but felt too sick, and fought to stay upright when all he wanted was to crumple to the floor. His father moved again and he was backhanded again across his face, the signet ring catching his cheekbone. He usually kept his blows to the body so no one would know. He must be very, very angry. ‘I asked you whose fault it is?’
Auberon tasted the blood from his lips. ‘Mine,’ he murmured, wanting to groan.
‘Why?’ His father lifted on to his toes and Auberon flinched but no blow fell, instead those hands, so large, so hard, remained by his sides. Auberon’s grandfather had such hands too, but he had never lifted them against his grandchildren. Had he against his own son? Well, who was going to ask that question of his father? ‘Why?’ his father bellowed.
Auberon made himself focus, stay in the moment, stay upright. His voice must not shake. He said, ‘I asked to go to Oxford. I insisted. I said I had some money from Mother if you wouldn’t pay. I went. You dismissed Wainey because I wasn’t here. If I’d stayed and not been selfish she would not have . . . She would not have died. There would have been no reason.’
His father nodded, head on one side, listening. His mother had been right. Say what he wanted to hear, but the devil was that it was his fault. He should have stayed.
His father lounged back against his desk, crossing his arms. The knuckles on his right hand were bruised. ‘Finally, is your mother’s money mine, or yours?’
‘Yours, Father.’ It wasn’t. It had been left by his maternal grandfather to his daughter, and thence in trust to Veronica and Auberon. There had been a substantial bequest from his mother to Wainey too, in gratitude for her enduring role of support which she had never received. He looked beyond the man he hated to the sea in the distance. One day he would set sail for France and never return until his father was gone from here, hopefully in a wooden box, utterly dead.
Yes, he would take a boat across the Channel and then a train to Paris. From there he would head for the river Somme, which Mr Saunders had said was the Celtic name for tranquillity. He wanted to feel tranquil, just once, and he thought perhaps he would there. A wide river, meandering . . .
‘Listen to me, boy.’ It was a growl.
Auberon could barely breathe because of the pain from his ribs. They were cracked, he knew because they’d been cracked several times before, and the throbbing from his kidneys and face was beating in time with his heart. ‘You are a disgrace but seem to have no shame. Am I going to have to get the belt?’ His father was upright, balanced on his toes again.
Auberon almost laughed. The belt? He wasn’t a child but when had that made a difference? At least his father had never laid a hand on Veronica. How strange. Women, it seemed, were exempt from his father’s moods, or were they? Again he thought of Wainey. His father dismissed her, so had she argued? Did he become angry? Did she back away from him out on to the balcony? Did he come closer, closer? Did she tumble over the balustrade or did he forget himself and push her? Or did she really jump? He had to stop this. Stop. Stop. His father said again, ‘I repeat, do I have to get the belt?’
‘No, Father, you won’t have to get the belt. I am listening.’ It hurt to speak. Everything hurt, it had hurt for rather a long time. Again he almost laughed. What was the matter with him? He used to cry.
His father moved to stand by the window. Auberon dared not move though his back ached, and his legs trembled. He shifted his weight from his toes to his heels and back again as they’d been taught in the Officer Training Cadet Force at school.
‘You will not return to Oxford. Instead you will become a man here, under my guidance. Rustication is no laughing matter.’ His father glared.
Oh God, was he laughing after all? Apparently not, for his father continued. ‘You have wasted my money, heedless of the pressure these cretins are bringing to bear with this People’s Budget. But just wait, the House of Lords will wipe the smile off their faces because no damned idlers are going to get pensions paid for by us.’ He was banging his fist into his hand as though he was in some music-hall melodrama. ‘Meanwhile I can do without pathetic creatures like you adding to my problems.’
Auberon nodded. ‘I understand, Father.’ Say what he wants to hear, he prompted himself, trying to move his lips as little as possible. He swallowed down the blood. He knew his words were slurred. His father was waving his hand as though conducting a ruddy orchestra as he continued.
‘You will recover the money you have cost me by sitting on the shoulders of Manager Davies at Easton Colliery. You will learn the business. There is trouble coming because I’ll screw down the wages on the back of the Eight-Hour Act. You will teach them a lesson if they dare to strike. In addition you are to cut back on props, on anything you can find, to make the bloody place more efficient, more productive. And don’t forget Froggett’s three houses. They are to be bought immediately because they’re a loose end, and I want it tied, and I want it tied cheaply. They will not go to any pitman, is that clear? I want the workers tied to their cottages, I want them scared of eviction, I want them working like bloody maniacs. So I don’t care what you have to do, but get those houses.’
He was stabbing the air now, aiming at Auberon’s face. His father would make a good killer. Oh yes, indeed he would. Again he thought of the balcony.
‘There will be no shooting, hunting, or the season. I will return here more often.’ His father left the window and approached. Auberon felt the fear overwhelm him. More often? How often? Closer and closer his father drew until he was against him, his breath full on Auberon’s face. It was then that his father smelt the brandy.
The fists came again, faster and faster but on his ribs because there was less to be seen, and this evening there was a dinner party. That was what he thought of as he tasted his tears. It was then his father stopped, triumphant. ‘You are a coward and an appalling failure.’
Auberon was dismissed. He found the door somehow, and looked to left and right to check there were no servants about, but they never were, they knew their place and he must know his. He made himself climb the stairs to his room, the pain catching him with every step, and he knew he must make a success at the mine. What the hell would happen if he didn’t? He pushed the fear from him and instead drew in France, drew in the Somme. Were there kingfishers? He would take a boat. He would fish. Nearly at the top of the stairs now, thank God.
Mrs Moore struggled to her sitting room once the dinner had been cleared and the pots, pans, utensils and plates were being washed. It was midnight and the visiting chauffeurs had gone, the servants’ hall the poorer without their uniforms and boots. The footmen and housemaids were washing the glasses and silver in the butler’s pantry but were also still on duty, should hot chocolate be required by the family.
Evie wiped down the table for perhaps the final time that day and slipped out into the night for a last long breath of air, knowing that her cooking had helped to create a success and she had many more tips for her recipe book. She felt proud and satisfied as she tugged her shawl over her head against the chill and held it close around her neck, gazing up at the stars. Would Jack and Timmie be sleeping, or were they struggling in from their shift? Was Simon sleeping, or standing somewhere, stargazing too? There were owls hooting and from the stable yards came the huffing of the horses, and the clip as they moved from hoof to hoof.
She walked quietly across the cobbles heading for Tinker, Lady Veronica’s old pony. Evie had taken a carrot from the pantry for her. As she entered the yard she saw a stable lad standing beneath the oil lamp that hung on an upright near her stable. What’s more, for God’s sake, he was smoking. She called, ‘What d’you think you’re doing, man? Put out that cigarette or you’ll have the place in flames. Think of the horses. You’ll be dismissed, you fool.’ She was running across, slipping on the cobbles, turning her ankle more than once. ‘Put it out.’
As she ran, Lady Veronica’s two dachshunds started skittering across to her as they rounded the corner from the drive, yapping and snarling. Good grief, it was turning into a riot. She slowed, trying to hush the dogs, who continued to rush about like creatures possessed. The lad was ignoring her so she snatched the cigarette from his hand as she reached him, stamping on it. ‘You’ll be dismissed, why don’t you listen? Lady Veronica will be here in a minute after the damn dogs.’
Tinker was neighing now and jerking her head as she looked out of her stall. The lad stumbled out of the pool of light as he turned, swearing, treading on one of the dachshunds. It yelped, and both dogs ran back towards the front of the house, then one returned. Oh God, the last thing they needed was Lady Veronica swanning round the corner. Evie managed to catch the lad, holding his arm, keeping him from falling. In the gloom she couldn’t see who it was.
‘You smell of booze, get to bed and pull yourself together, you stupid beggar. You’ll not be up in time to sweep the damned yard for this lot of idle layabouts, and think of the horses. What if they’d gone up in flames? Come on, hurry up. Her Ladyship will be here, hot on the trail of the sausages.’ She was tired, it was cold. She needed her bed. The dog was jumping up at her.
He wrenched himself free, and for a moment it looked as though he would strike her. Evie stepped away but then he dropped his arm, saying, ‘How dare you speak to me like that, or at all? How bloody dare you?’ Evie froze. This was no stable lad, it was Brampton’s whelp. The second dog came rushing round the corner, yapping, and now both were running in circles around Evie and Mr Auberon. Lady Veronica was calling, almost hissing really, ‘Currant, Raisin, come here. Aub, where on earth are you? Come in and don’t make it any worse.’
Mr Auberon said, ‘Il faut parler français, nous avons des serviteurs ici.’
Did he really think Evie wouldn’t understand that he was warning his sister to speak in French in front of the servants? Thank God for Miss Manton. Evie turned, modifying her voice, hoping it was unrecognisable, hoping he was too drunk to remember the sight of her. ‘I’m sorry, sir.’ She should say that, she thought. Perhaps she should also explain that she had thought he was just a stable lad, but she was damned if she would. No one was ‘just’ anything.
‘Aub, come on,’ Veronica hissed. ‘Vite.’
As he turned to leave she saw his face, at last, in the lamplight, his poor battered face. She watched as he managed to pull himself upright, ease back his shoulders and call Currant and Raisin softly to him. ‘Come on lads.’ He left without a backward glance. They had been told that Mr Auberon had been unwell and unable to attend the dinner, so his place setting was to be removed. Mr Harvey had been unamused. ‘Too much brandy, no doubt,’ he had muttered. ‘Now we have to measure up the place settings again.’
‘Too much something, but it wasn’t brandy,’ Evie muttered to herself as she turned away, because she had seen the result of Jack’s fist fights too often not to recognise the result of blows. She had heard the gossip and here it was, confirmed. She shuddered that a father could do that to a son as she made her way back to the kitchen, where the light and warmth comforted her. Millie came out of the scullery with the broom, almost dropping with tiredness. ‘Is it good enough?’ Millie’s anxiety was palpable as she pointed to the floor. Annie and Sarah were just behind her, pale as ghosts.
Evie took the broom from her. ‘It’s good enough, and that’s all that’s required. You’ve done well.’ There was too much fear about the place tonight. ‘I’ll swab the floor, you put out a pan in case hot chocolate is required, and then you can change into your ball clothes without the aid of a fairy godmother and fly on up to bed.’ Millie laughed.
Evie let them all go to bed and she reached hers by two in the morning almost insensible with tiredness, but in spite of that she merely dozed: would tomorrow bring her dismissal? And how was that poor young lad?