By the time the three of us get situated with a blanket and cooler of goodies, I'm over being weirded out about last night. It was probably just cross wiring or something mechanical, like Dad said. So I settle down and smile at the scene around us. It's mostly teens or young families in the area. It looks like half the town is here so far. The buzz feels electric. For some reason I feel like dancing. My skin jumps with excitement.
"This is great," I say. I'm sitting between Troy and Kinley, and we're in the same spot as yesterday.
Kinley grabs a Diet Coke and pops the top. "I hope I'm not a third wheel," she whispers.
"Please. It's not like anything's going on."
Then, as if the angels conspired, Troy moves closer to me. His fingers brush against mine. But before our hands commit to more, Eli squats in front of us.
He gives me the body check and smirks at my shorts. They're red, white, and blue striped, so, of course, I had to wear them.
I quirk an eyebrow, immediately disliking him. What does Kinley see in him? There's something slimy and cocky about his face. Not literally on the slime part, no open, oozing wounds, just a gross, smug attitude. Physically, he's my coloring, with light brown eyes, just like me. I can't tell his hair color, but I assume it's dark. Thing is, as regular as his face is, it's just that. Average and unmemorable.
He looks to Troy. "Have you heard anything about Linzy?"
Troy shakes his head. "Not yet. You?"
"I wouldn't be asking if I had." Total logic, but does he have to say it so snotty? He turns to me. "You're the one who last saw her?"
I shrug, not wanting to give him any information. "I guess."
He watches me, just stares like I'm an object on a shelf, and he's wondering if he should buy it. How rude.
"What?" Talk about snotty attitudes, I'm surprised my snippiness didn't knock him over.
He stands and says something to Troy that I don't catch because Kinley leans over and whispers, "He's so cute."
Yeah. Whatever.
After Eli leaves, I push thoughts of him away and refocus on mine and Troy's connection. But our hands are just sitting there, and no one's making the first move.
There aren't many boys I've been crazy about. Sean in Miami, Mark in Southern Cali, Aaron in Georgia. Okay, so maybe it's been one a year, but that's not a bad thing. I'm not a slut. I never even kissed any of those guys. My first kiss was Jeffrey in Pennsylvania, but I was ten so it doesn't count. My first real kiss hasn't happened yet. You know, the kind that makes your head spin and you see shooting stars. I'm sure it's coming soon though, and it'll be with Troy. I can feel it.
Cheers sound, and the first fireworks shoot into the air. Green, white, and yellow lights fall from the sky. There's applause and chatter, and several kids scream in delight.
I haven't seen a fireworks display in a couple of years. I'd usually go with friends and their families, but I haven't had the best luck in getting invites lately. We usually don't leave the town we're living in until the end of July. This year is different because Dad proved the cops wrong in our last town. Even if we had stuck around for this holiday…well…I'm an idiot.
We were living in Stone Mountain, Georgia and I'd become close to Andrea Steele. Her twin brother is Aaron. Andrea and I hung out every day at lunch and most days after school at her place. We did our homework together. I spent some weekends at her place, and we went to the movies every Sunday afternoon. Sometimes Aaron would go too, or he'd sit and do his algebra with us. At first I didn't think he liked me, but then he was always around, and Andrea joked about how he was only there because of me.
She was sorta right.
One day we went to see one of the Saw movies. I forget which one; there are so many. I flinched at a jump scare and grabbed his hand. He snarled and pulled back. I tried to play it off, said I forgot Andrea was on the other side of me, but everything got weird after that. When I'd go to their house, he was never around. I tried to apologize, but he wouldn't even stay in the same room as me. I sent emails and texts, and he blocked my number. Then Andrea became distant too. I think she only did because of her brother.
I lost what I thought was my best friend, kids at school whispered about me for a while, and I spent the rest of the school year alone. Yeah, there were other girls to talk with about classes and how hot Leonardo DiCaprio is, no matter how old he gets, but there were no more sleep-overs or Sunday movies.
This year is extra special because not only am I here, but there aren't any parents keeping an eye on me. I'm like a regular teen, and I can pretend my folks are someplace else in the crowd. Mom and Dad, snuggling and smiling. A happy, unbroken family.
"Pretty cool, huh?" Troy says while leaning so close his cheek grazes against mine.
Ohmigod, this is it. The moment.
I glance at his perfect lips and move in. My squeals, on the inside, are so loud they drown out the popping of the fireworks. I can't believe I'm making the first move. I'm so bold. This is going down in my diary. Not that I have one, but if I did I'd write this entire night in it. I won't forget these details for a very long time.
As my lips start to brush his, he pulls back. Not a millimeter so I'll assume he's nervous or needing to belch. No, so far back that he may as well have swam across the river. The frown and look of disgust on his face clearly suggests I just made myself into the biggest butt.
Nausea rolls through my belly like a tsunami, and I jump up and run off, away from the crowd.
* * *
Fifteen minutes later I'm about a quarter mile away, standing by the water's edge, dipping my toes in, and contemplating drowning myself. The fireworks still light up the sky, but their awesomeness is wearing off. My phone beeps for the millionth time, but I'm afraid to see what Troy's been saying.
I finally glance at it and realize the twenty texts are from Kinley. So he doesn't even care if I'm okay?
plz answer where r u?
Im fine. Just need a minute. Sorry I messed up ur nite.
Gosh, I'm such an idiot. Why did I think he wanted to kiss me? He only leaned over to say something. Not because he wanted me to jump his bones.
My phone beeps again. no u didnt. just worried. Troy 2.
Yeah, I bet. He's probably wishing he never met me.
Go on wout me, I type. I can't face him again, especially not tonight. Maybe never.
I slip the phone into my pocket.
Red, white, and blue lights flash in the sky. It must be the final display because it's huge and breathtaking. The water glistens with the colors, and it lights up so much of the area that even where I stand is illuminated.
I kick the water. It ripples out. How will I ever face Troy again? We're not in the same grade, so maybe it'll be easy enough to avoid him? I hope.
My cell beeps.
I kick the water again. It recedes then heads back and splashes over my feet.
I pull out my phone and read the message.
were not leavin u. Ur dad wll kill me.
He wouldn't kill her, but he'd never let me leave the house again. There would be nothing worse. Well, except kissing a boy who doesn't like you.
Seaweed tickles my toes.
I bite my lower lip and stare at my phone. What do I do? It's too far to walk home, day or night, and I'm not too fond of hitching. I've seen those movies where people stupidly pick up a hitchhiker who turns out to be a crazed maniac. I could call Dad, but then he'd want to know why I ditched them.
The seaweed twirls around my ankle. Gross. I hate ocean life.
Wait, this is the river, not the Atlantic. Do rivers have seaweed?
I point my phone down to the water and use its light to figure out what I'm wading in. It's dark but doesn't look like the stuff my sushi is wrapped in. I pull my leg back and it untangles. I point the light farther into the water, along the length of whatever that is. When I reach a pale forehead, two open eyes, and a body, I scream.
It's Linzy.