11. Coffee & Dolls

It was a storefront for a small-time numbers runner,

pretending to be some sort of grocery. Coffeemakers

and Bustelo cans populated the shelves, sparsely.

Who was fooled. The boxes bleached in the sun,

the old guys sat inside on summer lawn chairs,

watching tv. The applause from the talk shows and game shows

washed out the propped-open door like distant rain.

It closed for a few months. The slick sedan disappeared.

One spring day, it reopened, and this time a sign

decorated the window: COFFEE & DOLLS.

Yarn-haired, gingham-dressed floppy dolls

lolled among the coffee cans. A mastiff puppy,

the size and shape of a tipped-over fire hydrant,

guarded as the sedan and the old guys returned.

I don’t know about you, but I’ve been looking

for a narrative in which suffering makes sense.

I mean, the high wail of the woman holding her dead child,

the wail that filled the street. I mean the sudden

fatal blooms on golden skin. I mean the crack deaths,

I mean the ice-cream truck that cruised the alphabets

and sold crack to the same deedle-dee-dee tune as fudgsicles.

I mean the raw scabs of the beaten mastiff, and many other

things.