The winter of 1846, when half of everything alive succumbed to the cold, has been stored for over eighty years in the mysterious mind common to the species, and though the owl didn’t experience that winter, she remembers it—the poisonous smell of the air, the frost that pinned feathers to skin, the famine. She remembers that time the way a woman remembers her great-grandmother’s death in childbirth. So this year, when summer never properly thaws the land and the tidal pools remain fringed with ice, she knows what to expect. Soon the bay will be frozen shore to shore, the ptarmigan scarce, the predators hungry. The owl understands that to survive she must leave early and abandon the north entirely.
She sounds the alarm at dawn on the eve of the equinox, waits for the flock to gather, and sets off. From Baffin Bay to Island Lake and on toward the great expanse of Lake Ontario, she leads the way. Such a strong, sturdy queen of a bird, and so richly attired: gold-ribbed breast feathers, white coat, brazen, diurnal eyes. Lying eyes. The other owls believe her to be fearless. In truth, danger makes this brave, majestic owl as skittish as a gnat. Crossing the vast expanse of Lake Ontario—this frightens her, though she’d never admit it. They are met midway by a mild squall that gains an unexpected intensity as they fly through it. Bursts of hail scatter the owls, and the last sight the bird has of her mate is his wingtip before the mist sucks him into its center. You should let a storm take you where it will, the bird knows—warp and spin across the sky with the wind instead of trying to resist it. But the squall threatens to pull her downward into the turbulent lake, so she beats her powerful wings against the gusts, hovering while the rain swirls around her. All reason is swept away by the storm, leaving only the frenzied effort of life protecting itself and an insidious, creeping exhaustion.
And then, abruptly, the squall passes and the bird flies on through the drizzle to the southern shore. She alights on a narrow strip of sand, tucks her head between hunched wings, peers out at the water. She wonders whether the others would agree to call this beach their destination. Her tired body tells her to stay here through the winter months, and her instinct to go on fades to a whisper. The waves of the lake teeter and collapse near her feet. Yes, she persuades herself, it seems as safe a place as any.
Then she sees the hen. Just a scrawny red hen that must have wandered away from a nearby farm and comes trotting out of the underbrush to say hello. But to the owl, born and bred in the open tundra where there are few surprises, it seems a phantom bird. A demon. Her own goblin double. She lifts up into the air with a panicked flapping, sideslips until she finds a southward current, and pushes herself through the air as fast as she can go.
She bends east, then southwest, then east again, races along haphazardly, escaping not the killing cold but something else, something unnameable. She doubles the distance southward with her zigzags, unable to stop or orient herself. Hours later, her crazed flight brings her to a mossy hillock rising out of an egg-shaped pond, a safe refuge at first glimpse, with the surrounding woods sparse enough for her to see an enemy. She decides to spend the night here. Come morning, she will set out in search of her flock.
She scratches at the wet ground, her talons hidden by thick trouser feathers. She flaps and wriggles and stomps on the spongy earth until she finds a comfortable position. She folds her wings. She bobs and pivots her head to take in the new landscape—the sphagnum moss beneath her, the sumac and myrtle, the saplings with their burning leaves. Then she blinks her huge eyes slowly and surveys the water, keeping as still as a stone sphinx. This is nothing like her home. But for now she can pretend that she is queen again, that the trees are full of owls and the body of water is her own Baffin Bay. She takes a deep breath and shrieks: Worship me!
* * *
And so Ellen Griswood puts another day behind her, an ordinary day: the kitchen floor was scrubbed thoroughly, the bed linen washed, the clocks wound and antlers dusted and moose-hoof nut dishes wiped clean. Nothing to remark upon. Now that Mrs. Craxton is asleep at last, Ellen may relax. She blows out the candle and moves with her usual confidence across the darkened room—she knows the geography of this bedroom as intimately as she knows the body of the woman she serves, from the horny toenails to the rhythms of the bowels, from the ragdoll legs to the waxy scalp beneath the thin white hair. Over the years, Ellen has learned to divide her attention equally between the house and its mistress and has rarely, if ever, been found at fault. She reminds herself of this as she steps out into the hallway, where she’s left a lamp hanging: she’s an expert in her way—indispensable. She needn’t worry about her position as long as Mrs. Craxton is alive.
And here’s the delicious fatigue that proves the hours have been well spent. She turns toward her weariness as she might turn toward the sun on the first warm day of spring, basks in it, retaining just enough strength to drag herself up the two flights of stairs to her bedroom.
The attic room, which Ellen shares with her daughter, is long and narrow, with a sloping ceiling, flowered wallpaper, and a half window at the far end. The twin beds are separated by a table, and in the stingy light cast by Ellen’s lamp, the room seems to have the depths of a tunnel that continues beyond the window into the night sky. A desolate space, perhaps, but a haven nonetheless, and if you asked, Ellen would tell you that she’d be content to sleep here every night for the rest of her life.
How different she is from her daughter, who looks forward to the day when she’ll sleep between silk sheets on a canopy bed the size of Delaware. That’s what eight years at a provincial academy will do to a girl: give her high notions and no useful skills. The insult of Peg’s covers still tossed in a frothy mess makes the room seem strange to Ellen, as though she were visiting it for the first time after many years. A regular princess, her daughter, too spoiled even to make her own bed. The never-ending game Peg plays these days is a fatal one: too much time on her hands and no responsibilities. Even now she’s probably up to mischief, wandering through forbidden rooms with young Junket, the groundskeeper’s son, treating the Manikin as her private property. Nonsense. From start to finish the game of leisure is nonsense, and if Peg doesn’t find a proper job soon, Ellen will … what will she do? She has let Peg have her own way until now, so there’s not much possibility for correction. Peg Griswood does exactly as she pleases, with or without her mother’s blessing.
After Ellen has slipped into her flannel nightgown and cap and eased herself beneath the icy spread, she hovers in this wakeful temper for a few minutes, thinking about how her influence over her daughter, always precarious, has grown negligible. She’s at her wit’s end—and at the end of a busy day, as well. She has never been one to trade precious sleep for worry. And remember, Mrs. Griswood, she reassures herself, the sure reward for an honest, hardworking life will be a secure future for both yourself and your child.
Ultimate security is Ellen Griswood’s goal—it meant complete devotion to her husband for six short years. Since his death in 1917 it has meant complete loyalty to her employer. Ten years of loyalty, never a lapse. So when she hears, or imagines, Mrs. Craxton’s voice whispering her name, a low snap of sound against her ear just as she is drifting to sleep, she responds like a recruit called to attention.
Ellen.
“Ma’am?” she says aloud, sitting bolt upright. The lamp, left burning for her daughter, casts a smoky yellow light, and the room feels more snug now. The house is silent again. It must have been nothing, or, if something, merely the crackle of wind through the hickories. But the possibilities suggested by the whisper have drawn Ellen back to full awareness. Does Mrs. Craxton need her?
As the Manikin’s head housekeeper and Mary Craxton’s companion, Ellen is responsible for her employer’s well-being. What if something has happened to the old woman? Doubtful, Ellen doesn’t believe in portents, and the nightly routine guarantees consistency. But the what-if lingers. If Mrs. Craxton needs her and Ellen isn’t quick to respond, she’ll have to bear the brunt of the old woman’s rage. It isn’t likely, but it’s possible that the imagined whisper had its source in actual distress. Anything’s possible in the Manikin, and Ellen won’t be able to sleep until she looks in on Mrs. Craxton one more time.
“Lord,” she moans in exaggerated misery, weak solace as she descends the back stairwell to the first floor. Inside Mrs. Craxton’s bedroom, everything appears undisturbed, but since Ellen has come all this way she will make sure. She leaves her lamp in the hall and drops to her hands and knees, keeping below the line of vision in case the old woman has her night-eyes open. By the time she reaches the bed, her own eyes have adjusted enough to the darkness to make out form, if not precise detail. She sees the stiff billows where the comforter is bunched against the footboard. She sees the crumpled surface on top of the bed. She sees the pillow where Mrs. Craxton’s head should be. She sees the carved mahogany bedposts, eagles with folded wings rising up on either side.
Where Mrs. Craxton’s head should be. Mrs. Craxton’s place is empty. Empty! Neither Mary Craxton alive nor Mary Craxton dead. Ellen’s history of competence won’t be worth a dime if Mrs. Craxton is missing. It’s her job to sustain Mrs. Craxton so the old woman can write her son long, accusing letters while he’s abroad and scold him when he’s at home. She’s been known to work herself into such a temper that she faints; every year their battles are a little fiercer, and with every battle Ellen holds her breath, expecting disaster.
Now here’s a disaster, Ellen thinks. Her misperception will pass in a flash. But how brilliantly that flash illuminates her confused fears.
I don’t know how it happened, sir. In her mind Hal Craxton sits in his velvet wingback chair, glowering, terrifying. Your mother simply disappeared.
Simply? Simply? Mrs. Craxton simply disappeared? An invalid woman can’t just sneak from her bed of her own accord, no more than a newborn infant can walk away from its cradle! Someone must have stolen her, there’s no other explanation possible. Someone must have gagged her, bound her, and carried off the bundle of aged flesh into the woods. Mrs. Craxton has been kidnapped, and her son will have to pay a pretty sum of money to get her back! The sheriff will want to talk to you, Ellen Griswood, he’ll want to ask you a few questions, so you’d better have an alibi ready. Mrs. Craxton has disappeared, and you’re going to have to answer for it!
Exhaustion, Ellen will be the first to point out, can turn the mind into a vessel for delusions. In fact, yes, in irrefutable fact, Mary Craxton is still in bed, asleep, her head sunk so deeply into the pillow that the folds almost entirely enclose her face. Which proves not that Mary Craxton has the magical ability to disappear and reappear at will, but that Ellen was mistaken.
Only now does she consider her compromised dignity. She climbs to her feet, shakes her robe so it falls evenly, and walks from the room. She even lets the latch click as she pulls the door shut. Wake up, you old bat! Briefly, Ellen is possessed by an overpowering anger. The terrible tricks the mind can play. She wants to indulge in hatred, too. But hatred is just another deception, she tells herself. The lie of senseless blame. She has too much sensible sympathy to hate Mary Craxton. Anyway, by the time she reaches her own bedroom again she feels so tired. This fatigue: her own delicious oblivion. Give her a minute to slip back beneath the blankets, and soon she won’t care much about anything.
* * *
In 1912, three years before his death, Henry Craxton Senior—founder of Craxton’s Scientific Establishment—purchased two thousand acres in western New York State, on the outskirts of the village of Millworth and adjoining state land. The property included a barn and chicken coop, a smokehouse, a gatehouse, and the ramshackle Big House, built in the mid–nineteenth century as a water-cure sanitorium but never fully operational, owing to a continual lack of boarders. When Craxton acquired the deed, the Big House, which he renamed the Manikin after the durable forms used to replace the animal’s skeleton in taxidermy, had been sitting empty for nearly two decades. He commissioned the renowned firm of Howe, Partridge, and Stilman to renovate the house—they widened an alcove into a spacious conservatory and knocked down altogether sixteen walls, reducing the number of rooms but enlarging the spaces. Outside, a landscaper planted shagbark hickories in a horseshoe around the front yard, designed a terraced rock garden along the sloping eastern lawn, and crisscrossed the orchards and outlying pastures with paths bordered with currant bushes. The spring was dredged to make a small pool and encircled with a neat brick patio, which was enclosed, in turn, by the full circle of a grape arbor.
Henry Craxton—known as the Founder to his friends and employees—had run Craxton’s Scientific Establishment for more than forty years and transformed it from a small taxidermy shop to the largest supply company of its kind. At its height, the company employed three hundred workers, including big-game hunters, botanists, paleontologists, taxidermists, chemists, copy writers, secretaries, and accountants. Major museums around the world depended on Craxton’s Scientific for everything from tiny ammonite fossils to dinosaur bones to the full-scale dioramas that were so popular at the time, and Henry Craxton became the Henry Ford of natural history.
After spending most of his life growing rich, the Founder intended to indulge himself. But the Manikin was a greater luxury than he could safely afford. Between the elaborate interior of the house and the grounds, maintenance costs alone exceeded the annual return on Henry Craxton’s remaining investments by over five percent. Yet he dipped into his capital without compunction. The Manikin was his reward for success, the refuge that he’d dreamed of for years, splendidly remote, without a telephone or electricity. There were other estates in the area and other society women to quell his wife’s boredom, and at her request they kept their home in Rochester so they wouldn’t have to brave winter in the country. For Henry Craxton, though, the Manikin represented a last stronghold against the cutthroat modern world, and if he could have sealed himself inside the walls, he would have done so.
Of course he couldn’t have foreseen how soon he would be spared the world entirely—he had spent only one full season at the Manikin before he was run down by a mail truck on a day trip he took to Buffalo. Nor had his wife been prepared for the consequences of his death. She was too proud to take a huge loss on the Manikin, so in 1917 she sold the more marketable Rochester home and retired to the country estate to live year-round. As it turned out, she was stuck with the Manikin—an embarrassment, if she’d been willing to admit it, much too large and too isolated. Her bachelor son, Henry Junior—Hal, as he was called—hated it so that he took to traveling, staying away for months, even years, at a time, selling shares in the family business to pay for his tours and leaving his mother to manage the upkeep on her own. Which enraged Mary Craxton, of course, and after she slipped down the front steps and injured her hip, she came to believe that her husband and son had conspired to build this house not as a retreat but as her prison. Like that other Mary in the tower, she mourned her lost life and plotted impossible escapes.
By 1927 Ellen Griswood had been the Manikin’s head housekeeper and Mrs. Craxton’s companion for seven years, on the staff for ten. She had never lost a day to sickness, nor did she bother to take vacations. She had subdued dust and mold and her employer’s fury. Despite the burden of work, she had grown comfortable and couldn’t be tempted by a change. She was a domestic servant, no more and no less, and was proud of it. Ellen worked hard, and this became the simple justification for her life.
With Mary Craxton as its captive and Hal away more often than not, the Manikin came to belong, at least in spirit, to the servants. Thanks to Ellen’s supervision, the rooms always looked newly furnished, the oak-paneled walls shone a lustrous blond, the mirrors were spotless. Even the animals left in Henry Senior’s Cabinet of Curiosities were dusted and their glass eyeballs polished weekly. The gibbons and bats, the giant sea turtle, the macaw, the cougar, the tiny dik-dik, the peacock and quetzal, the crocodile, along with local specimens—a raccoon, a family of striped skunks, two beavers: all continued to look freshly skinned and stuffed, the fur and feathers sleek, as though their memory of life was just hours old.
Only outside did time leave its mark, scratching and clawing at the roof, beating relentlessly against the doors, bubbling the whitewash. Henry Craxton had chosen a harsh climate for his country estate; here in this pocket of northern wilderness, the weather, unlike the housekeeper, was inexhaustible.
* * *
But there are those who prefer the open sky to a ceiling, the busy silence of nature to the deadening quiet inside the Manikin. They love to feel a birch-bark canoe gliding over water and to bloody the wrinkled, melancholy faces of deer. Most of all, they love this irascible climate, especially the long winter, with its blizzards and shocking cold. You might even say that the weather forces them into an intimacy that wouldn’t have been proper or possible otherwise; so Peg Griswood has a father in Lore Bennett, the groundskeeper. And she has a brother in Lore’s son, Junket. And maybe Junket’s dog, Machine, cocks her tufted ears forward not because she’s trying to hear something but because she, too, loves the challenge of the weather and is captivated by the first scent of winter.
Last week Lore gave Junket a Maynard for his fourteenth birthday. Peg doesn’t own a rifle, but whenever they hunt together Lore lends her his old breech-loading shotgun, the weapon hardly more than ornamental, since the few times she has fired out in the field she’s never come close to her target. They’re out jacking to reduce the crowded whitetail population—the deer come down to the pond to drink, and when one raises its head from the water Junket will attempt to put a bullet in its heart. Lore might try for a muskrat. Of the two, Junket is already the sharper marksman, and the Maynard—.40 calibre, with an extralong cartridge—is designed for high accuracy. It will take weeks, though, before he’s comfortable with the rifle, and during that time there will be plenty of bungled shots.
The glow from the jacklight washes across the water at an angle, collecting in puddles of melted silver. The full moon hangs low, and they can see the shore with unusual clarity, poplar and beech yellowing above the mossy shore and behind them peaks of fir. Lore cuts his paddle into the water soundlessly to ease the canoe full around so they can survey the opposite shore. Junket will probably be the first to give the soft chuck in alarm. Whatever might escape his new gun won’t escape his eyes. Or maybe he’ll prove that his skill as a marksman is unconditional. The gun has confused the odds of the hunt—now it’s anyone’s guess.
Peg loves the wonder of a hunt, when the momentous act hangs just in front, in the invisible future. Imagine life without wonder: the life of an ox, for instance. Wonder has been broken out of the species. Out of the cow, the horse, the pig. Wild animals are different. Just look at the stuffed cougar in the Manikin’s living room—the eyes are glass, but still you can sense the intensity in its expression. An amazement, as though at the moment just before its death it had suddenly been overwhelmed by wonder. How can you do this to me? it seems to ask. Boggio, Craxton Senior’s leading artisan in the taxidermy department for forty years, now retired and living on the grounds of the estate, supervised the mounting of all the trophies in the Manikin. And they all have the same taut look of amazement. How can you do this to me? The working animal never asks this question, not even when it fights for its life in the slaughtering pen.
Peg’s mother is a working animal—does what is expected, no surprises. Up before dawn, asleep by ten o’clock. As steady and predictable as the hands of a clock. As an ox. She is a dumb, domesticated brute, no self separate from her role as housekeeper, while Peg is as untamed as the Craxton cougar. But unlike that animal, she has the advantage of a future.
However much she enjoys the thrill of the hunt, her future is elsewhere. Where, she’s not sure. She simply knows that she wants to see more of the world, to experience it in the way that her sixteen-year-old mind imagines other people do. She’s never been farther than Syracuse, while her mother hasn’t ventured outside the region for more than twenty-five years. Ellen has the nasal, dropped-ending accent of an upstate native, and in her cheap charcoal-colored uniform, a kerchief tied over her hair, she’s easily mistaken for Amish. Not Peg, whose foot-long bundle of hair is more brilliantly red than Craxton’s freshly painted barn. And that wild future, her own hidden behind the silence—it is waiting to be snatched, seized, bloodied.
Lore has tried to impress upon her the importance of this belief: a hunter doesn’t shoot any white-tailed deer—he shoots his deer, the one that belonged to him long before he marks it and fires. At the moment an animal crosses into his line of vision, it gives up its life. But the hunter must kill his game with one shot, mercifully shortening the span of dying. No experienced hunter likes to watch his victim die. Bound up in its fate, he suffers with it. He wants to possess the animal that is rightfully his, to eat its flesh or wear its skin. Killing is the means and should elicit only minor pleasure, a sturdy satisfaction, nothing more.
Somewhere out there is Peg’s future. Beyond the silence. A silence that encompasses the meager chirping of the season’s last crickets, the burr-ah of a lone bullfrog, the splash nearby as a fish leaps, as though startled out of sleep by its own dream. Summer and winter both can be felt in the breeze and in the warm currents mingling with cold in the pond. As Peg lets her hand drag through the water she asks herself whether she’ll miss her home after she leaves, forgetting for a moment that she has no home. A housekeeper’s daughter cannot call her mother’s place of employment home. Her mother. God knows what she’d have to say about Peg sitting in a canoe between Lore Bennett and Junket, a shotgun tucked under her arm.
So Peg’s thoughts go, swirling on the same side of silence as the canoe, as Lore and Junket and Machine. And from the other side a twig snaps, and Peg looks toward the bank and sees something move—the object is too vague for her to make out its shape, but the motion attracts like an artificial light, absorbing her concentration even as the image disperses into a blur. Junket raises his gun; Machine lets out a low, barely audible growl and lifts her front paws onto the rim of the canoe. And just as the vision folds into the darkness again, just as Peg thinks, Oh no, Junket’s Maynard goes off. The report of the gun tears the silence in half, the air fills with the echo of the explosion, and another sound follows—the crash of a heavy body rolling down the bank toward the water. And then a splash.
Peg doesn’t finish the thought that was interrupted by the shot, so she’ll never know exactly what she feared. But she hears herself screaming out Lore’s name, appealing to him, as though he could reverse what has just happened, forcing, with a great heave of his strong arms, time to go backward. Instead, he bursts into laughter. Demonic laughter. And he sends Machine, who claws the wood and whines frantically, into the water with a “Fetch!” the command sandwiched between guffaws.
Junket shouldn’t have fired—that’s all Peg can say for sure, even before she knows what he has killed. He is panting, grinning uncertainly at his father, until Peg turns her rage on him: “Stupid, stupid boy!”
Junket’s smile flattens, and his eyes widen in humiliation, asking, How can you do this to me? The boy’s face, she senses right away, is one of those images that will remain in full detail in the front of her mind, easily recovered. And if she could have ignored the feeling that provoked her outburst, she would have pitied him.
But now Machine is paddling alongside the canoe, throwing back her head to raise the sopping bundle out of the water. Lore, still laughing, dips both arms and tugs at the prize, coaxes the dog to release it with a gentle “Drop it now, come on, ’atta girl.” Not until he pulls the body into the canoe does Peg see that there hadn’t been any atrocity at all. It is an owl, a white owl as large as a plump, two-year-old child, half its head smashed in, its broad, feathered chest webbed with blood. A snowy owl. Peg recognizes it from Audubon’s painting. A snowy owl, beautiful yet dreadful, like a mournful ghost owl from some forgotten legend, whose job it is to warn a person of approaching death.
* * *
Renamed by his father shortly after his mother died. Born Steven Bennett at the maternity hospital in Utica, where his father worked as a nurseryman. Now Junket. To be Steven Bennett again by his own choice when he is eighteen and living in the true wilderness, not this make-believe version. Junket, called by his father in fondness Junk. Whatever he might have been, his father has made him laughable. Named him after the food he loved so well as a baby: a dish of sweet milk set with rennet. Cuts his hair in sloppy haste. Never had the inclination to teach his son much of anything, except to shoot. Keeps Junket by his side, as much his possession as the locket attached to a chain around his neck. The locket, containing a single petal from his dead wife’s prize-winning violet collection, will hang from his neck forever. Adores his son, as Junket well knows, but years ago took to keeping him home from school so regularly that Junket finally gave up school altogether. Yet despite the stunting effect of his father’s devotion, the temptation to stay by Lore’s protective side, to do as he says, to bring him good luck and keep him company, is strong. And if Junket had had his way with Peg Griswood, he would have stayed for much, much longer.
How natural, for the groundskeeper’s son to love the housekeeper’s daughter. But tonight nothing seems natural here at the Manikin, especially not the Craxtons’ two thousand acres. This land is no wilderness, it is a preserve, sugared and boiled down like plums into jam. After only two years in the field, Junket is well on his way to becoming a master hunter. So what? It is a simple game, systematic and regulated. Whether he aims at a Coca-Cola bottle or a white-tailed deer, he will hit his target. He always hits his target. And by now would have already moved on to some other diversion if it hadn’t been for Peg herself, who became his prime target, working her way into his mind until he could hardly concentrate.
But the owl has changed everything. The magnificent white owl from the Arctic, a rare visitor this far south, and so early in the season. Shot, struck, felled—by mistake. By mistake! Never in his life has Junket made such an awful mistake with a gun. He committed the supreme sin, firing before he had identified his target. The bullet pierced the owl’s eye and exited messily through the back of the skull. Lore, usually a man so reticent that he can go through an entire day without uttering a conversational word, had exploded in laughter. He still doesn’t realize that Junket fired too hastily, and Junket won’t bother to explain. Why spoil it? Let Lore believe in Junket’s purpose. Then Lore needn’t be humiliated, as Junket was humiliated by Peg.
Stupid, stupid boy. At last he comprehended that she would never have him. Never—a crushing verdict for a fourteen-year-old boy. But he’s wise enough to accept her rejection without despising her. To do so privately. Peg wasn’t oblivious, though—not entirely. As they were crossing the lawn back up to the Manikin, she caught Junket by the arm and whispered, “I thought … oh, I don’t know what I was thinking back there!” laughing with unconvincing lightheartedness. She meant to soften the impact of her rebuke, Junket believes, to win back his friendship. And then she did what she hadn’t for years—she took his hand and they walked together toward the house. Only then, and only briefly, did Junket want to return her malice and hurt her as she had hurt him. But the desire for revenge, connected as it was to the contact of flesh on flesh and to the hair that blew like threads of fire against his face, passed as soon as she released his hand a few steps later, leaving him more acutely alone than before.
Machine, jolly as Lore, bouncing on the trampoline lawn, might have lured him backward by reminding him of the more sentimental attachments of childhood. A boy and his dog. But wasn’t there still a spray of blood across Machine’s snout? Wasn’t the dog’s joy bound up in the death of the owl? Machine reminded Junket only of the barbarity of his last kill, and the owl reminded Junket of Peg.
They went separate ways at the Manikin, Peg up the stairs to her bedroom, Machine and Lore to the kitchen with the owl carcass to see what Sylva the cook could do with it, and Junket up the drive to the old gatehouse, where he has lived with his father for ten of his fourteen years.
Junket. Cast-off Junk. Plain Steven Bennett. He’d leave tomorrow if it weren’t for his father, whose penny-ante consolation would be You’re young, you will outgrow this, you’ll fall in love a dozen times before you’re twenty. But Junket knows that there will be no healing, since almost every worthwhile memory he has of his life includes Peg Griswood, and to forget her would mean obliterating his own self. Or maybe that’s what he wants—to dissolve into the night. Inside his bedroom he lifts the window, leans on the sill, and inhales the darkness, imagining that he is alone in the middle of nowhere—wherever that is—surrounded by miles and miles of unmapped land. The thought of such wilderness soothes him with its promise of vast silence, a natural silence, without the intrusion of voices. Only the sounds of animals and weather, of life in motion.
Soon he hears the scratch of pebbles as his father and Machine come up the driveway. Then a pause, which the dog fills with an impatient bark. Junket sees Lore standing in the middle of the drive, head slightly cocked as though he were trying to regain his bearings. He holds the owl by the legs and has been letting the head drag so there is a groove in the dirt behind him.
Of course Sylva refused to cook this carrion bird. So what can be done with the carcass? The answer is obvious to anyone acquainted with the old taxidermist Boggio, though Lore, who detests the man and his useless profession, would never admit it. “Bring it to me, Papa, I’ll take it,” Junket calls. With a wave of his free hand Lore acknowledges, and he slings the owl over his shoulder, arches to absorb the thud of the dead bird against his back. He’s lost his pleased-as-punch smile, is considering at last, Junket assumes, his son’s error. It isn’t right to kill such a noble animal, a godlike bird, just for fun. It is, Lore must be thinking, as close as a hunter can come to blasphemy.
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At last, by midnight, the spell has been cast, the Manikin stands luminous in moonlight, everyone is asleep. But no one sleeps as soundly as Ellen Griswood. Whatever worries she carries around with her fall away, and Ellen sleeps the carefree sleep of someone who has washed her hands of the day. No remembered dreams to trouble her. No startles or insomnia. She doesn’t even hear her daughter enter the room and rustle about as she gets ready for bed. Sleep is Ellen’s reward for a good day’s work, and she guards it as carefully as a miser guards his gold. You won’t catch the Manikin’s housekeeper at rest during the day, but at night, when no one is watching, Ellen indulges herself with this great luxury, draws the starched cotton sheet up to her nose, and disappears for seven solid hours.
If she could remember the travels of her sleeping mind, however, she might not be so eager to give up consciousness. A carefree sleep—and all her freed cares mix together in skittish visions. Perhaps tonight she’ll dream of music rasping as the gramophone needle scratches to a halt on the record, and it’s her fault. Or she’ll dream that the lamp beside her bed crashes from the table, the flames spill across the floor with the kerosene, and it’s her fault. She’ll dream of cobwebs in the corners, of tiny white larvae in the millet, of worms in the eye sockets of the cougar. Where is Mrs. Craxton’s fox fur and where is Mr. Craxton’s newspaper? Where is Peg when she’s needed? In her dreams Peg will be just a wee thing again, crying that little lamb’s bleat of a cry. She’ll hear her husband groan as he spills into her. Ellen! Foolish of her to have put off sweeping the front steps, and now the rain. Did she wind the clocks on Monday? And who is that child leaning back on her heels, refusing to go on? Why, herself a little girl again, imagine! She’ll notice dust on the antlers above the mantel, ashes in the ashtrays. What else has she neglected? Mrs. Craxton? she’ll call, knocking on the door that has been locked from the inside. Are you there, Mrs. Craxton? And there she is again, a young girl standing barefoot on hot sand, refusing to go on. The surf roars like a huge fire on the other side of the dune, no wonder she’s afraid. The sun has fallen from the sky, water burns, dust is sand, and men are made of wax. A tall woman, her mother, stands at the top of the dune, a cardboard silhouette. Come on, poppet, she urges gently. Hurry up, poppet. Let’s go and find the sea.
And after all this, Ellen will wake at dawn, thoroughly refreshed, the tumult of the night forgotten. Even before she rises from bed she’ll contemplate her sleeping daughter while she plans how to do everything that needs to be done.