JUAN

Love is not enough

    to end the strange reality

    of a strangely lived

    life

This is how it happens:

    I go to the stream to bathe

    as always

    far from the country house

    far out of view

La Marquesa sends for me and says,

    who gave you permission

    to bathe?

No one, I answer

Then why? she demands

To be clean, I say calmly

The blow is a fierce one, the fist of a beast

    smashing my nose, crushing the bone

    opening two spurting fountains

    of blood

When her noblewoman’s delicate fist has completed

    its secretive labor,

    destruction,

    then she calls for men

    to take my shoes, shave my head,

    make me carry a barrel of water

    up a hill

    over and over; I try but I fall

    until both the barrel and I end up

    splashing

    spilling

    rolling

    spitting blood

    into the stream